Annddd... I'm Back!!!

Heyyy! Man did i miss dis place!!

Its been wayyy tooo long hasnt it :D, but everything here is so much the same, is js clik n i can scribble n then i js click again n u can read!! cool han :P

But lotttsa changes with me han! as of now, u know wats hooked me up??? FB!!! :D i know i knoww, i joined the badwagon very very very late, but like they say it, better late than neva! i've been njoying gathering ( i wanted to say 'batoring' read it wid d hindi accent ;) )compliment bout my luvy duvy!! dats my son :) hez such a darling, n i luv it that everyone else thinks hez a darling too :D

andd i'm gona try to make it a practice to be here for a lil while everyday! js to sribble my time away... hmm nice thought ehh?

untill thennn...

Hei!! (dats Suomi, boletoooo Finnish!)

Kya din the yaar...

It is often that we look at the past and imagine it to be better than it really was, our outlook at the present is worse than it really is, and that of the future is more miserable than it actually will be, and this is the reason, people find reasons to be happy.

Very simply said, i never realised that the past was perhaps so beautiful because i looked at it that, no comments on the present and future bit :) I wont deny that it is such a dominating fact that most of us look at our yesterday as better than our today :) , our school was better than our college, our college was better than our work place, our last job was better than our present job :) wierd coincident nai? n as we move on it will still be the same, we would again think of this time as better than that time we would be then living... and say .. what days... kya din the yaar.. :)

No psychological nonsense here, but pondering over why it is the way it is.. is :D something that can change the 'persperctive' perhaps..

Well, why am i pondering over this?? i happen to read something like that i rote in the first para, in a forwarded mail n i thot.. ahhhh so true! n it is almost everyday that i spend my evenings 'reminiscing' the past by sharing my so called 'old days' with my husband :) n he never misses trying to show me that the present is far more beautiful and this will again be 'reminisced' as 'old days' just like m doin it now :)

HAPPY 2009

sheeeshhh.. i frgot to mentionnn

HAPPYY NEW YEAR!!!

i was js lukin thru my pehle ke posts.. i realised... 2005 se i've come a longggggg long long longggg longggggg wayyy.. n that one.. i mean do sau pandra was my first post of the new year n i dint even realise... :) so ithot i'd scribble a lil to let that thot out :)

i'l soon come back witha new post.. i think i have an idea :D

ciao!

Post no. 215

Well, ok.. simple baat hai.. i know m lazy, and i very well know m bored, n i think m goin on to starting to feel.. home sick :( country sick.. aur pata nai kya kya sick..... they all used to tell me.. but i always thought it wudnt be that way for me... shuru me sab accha lagta hai.. baadme malum hota told my cousin who recently moved to the US with a craze like ...... ahh sab ka wahi hisaab rehta i guess....

its not a big deal waise.... its always like this, human aint happy with whats in hand, u always hope for better and then think of the supposedly better past and then you pause for a while and think, come on, this is so beautiful, and then u move on again..... its like question bhi khud hi, answer bhi khud hi fir reasoning bhi khud hi, aur to aur marks bhi khud hi.. wo bhi 10/10 ... yea rrite!

There are many things i missed logging, this was supposedly my.... umm what do u call it... equivalent of things to do list.......... Things i've done, and want to remember, and dont want to forget, and like to read of later and...... u do get my state of mind dont ya _:D

An idol mind is the devil's workshop, i heard that many many times, i quoted it many times too, lately i've been probably experiencing it... waise the last time i was told that statemnt in order to show whats goin on... i was realy mad! aj fir i was told that same thing... but aj laga.. may b sahi hai.. but i wish my devil were a lil creative and make me do the wackiest things eva, i dont wana be bad.. i always had and have agoody image :D although i dont strive for its maintanance, perhaps somehtings come naturally to u :D:D:D....

arre u know watt... i was in the papers here... yea the local daily... :D full page pe meri foto, with Santa :D just the two of us ;D but since he was too huge, m lukin tiny in the pic.

i've watched like 40 movies so far, irrespective of good or bad.. can u imagine that! i neva had the time, i dint know what was goin on in bollywood, i mean.. movie story acting wise, waise to i kept a close look at the music charts, since that was my only sahaara during my hardcore coding days at Wipro:D, but movie... i used to be laughed at by dost log if i'd mention movie.. it wud be soemthing they'd watchd monthssssss ago!

waise i still love the snow here.... we do make it a point to go play int he snow for quite sometime.. its always fun, it sjust that its terribly boring to get dressed to go out n play..

The timings r getting a lil normal i guess.. atleast it doesnt get dark at 3 anymore! i was in a gathering recently, ya managed to force myself to chek it out after denying some invitations.. n surprisingly had a good time :)... dont ask me why suprisingly.. i dont have d patience to relate the earlier experiance!

and yes i had a very luvly sweden trip within this period :D wo bhi.. Cruise meeeeeeeeee :D:D:D it was my first eva journey over the waterss, and i had a ball.. it was luvly... the very idea of sailing was awesome, n the cruise was no less than a mall.. waise i guess waisehi rehte .. got to see the all firangi nightlife sort.... hmm it was nice :) but ya again i missed my ppl usme :) n i cant forget the dinner we had :D it was very bad tomato soup.. n the other thing... i dont remmba its name but it had a very tiny toast pe 2-3 prawns and a shrimp which we left untouched :D and one more toast exactly like that but with tuna fish topping :D... i'll upload the pic once i get my dusra wala laptop jisme saare pics hain :)

well its been two long months which seemd to have ran really fast... ya absurd i know.. icall it long and gthen they also ran fast.. :) but thats how it is.... its like a peaceful storm, so who cares if its a storm as long as its peaceful :) ... i dont know why i said dat bit :D

my day is full of bhejafry.net, gmail, my kitchen and ofcourse i have my dear husband moving with me in all this :)

life has changed... n i luk back and smile... and i know i'll walk further and again look back and smile, may be i dont enjoy so much living it then, but when i look back, i miss it.. i love it.. i want it back... its like for every moment perhaps... not that m missing out on living the moment in missing the earlier one's.. its perhaps just that..,.. may b its meant to be that way... u always luv ur life coz its urs :)

well adios for now.. no promises pof comi ng back soon.. but yes ofcourse i'll try like i awalys do.. not that i dont have time... i just did mention wat m doing with all that i have :D

Maassalaama!

Santa n Me :D

It wazzzz gr88888 !!!!! I had itnaaa itnaa itnaaaaaaaaaa funnn naa ki kya bolunn... i dint expect the evening would go that nice :D, i had n okie dokie day.. n was bored, n dint wanna go to the ummmm what do i call it now.... ... it was a fair may be... baby exhibition samjho :D well m callin it dat coz it was no where in comparison to apne hyderabad ki yearly exhi ( which m gona miss dis year :( ), khair, ya... so i wasnt really in the mood, but since we had planned that we would, we did go.. n it turned out very nice :D ... nai.. not the exhi.. wahan kuch nai tha... :D js candles n choclates n kuch kuch ki dusre cheezan jo meku kuch khaas nai lage... so we tuk a round..which ended in bout... ummm 15 mins may be.. n dat was it.. then... we knew that Santa Claus was supposed to come at 5.30 so i thot chalo v'll see him n go.... we waited for some mins.. n they we saw a bus full of kids n red clothes n a huge santa like thing that passed by... thodi der baad he entered.. n mannn was he biggggggggg, he was soo sooo soo huge, nice n tall, n very very gol gol, he wore hi spects on his nose jus like they show in cartoons :D n he was fair n most of his face was covered with his super duper long white sily silky beard :D.. kyaaa daadi thi yaa.. sachme... :D n i cudnt stop smilin.. i was js starin at him n smilin at him, he came in n walked ahead of gang of lil kids dressed in red n wearin red topis.. n u know wattt... as he walked he came rite in front of me n stopped to talk to ME!!! :D:D:D:D:D i was sooo overwhelmed, there were sooo many log wahan, but he stopped to talk to ME :D n i cudnt top bragging bout dat bit to my husband :D. He smiled n asked where r u from, when i said India, he bowed n held his hand togethe rn said Namaste :D n then asked where in india? n named a few cities, banglore delhi mumbai ? he asked, yea he missed hyderabad, n then i answered Hyderabad, to dat he replied with his ho ho ho kinda voice :D oh welcome!! all the way far from india :D.... sab log were staring at me while we shook hands n he spoke to me :D:D:D:D:D:D bohottt mazaa aayaa hahahahah.. it was funnnnn


herz wat he lukd like.. :D

all the way from Finland..

Hei kaverit !!!

:D well thats finnish :D n i just said Hi Guyz ! Well i've like said a million times that life's so differently beautiful after shadi, n one of the many major differences as of now is my place of residence :)

Finland is a beautiful place, i am so much in awe with this place that most of the time i spend at home passes off admiring the christmas tree that i can see right out of my window :D. An awsomely pleasant weather surprise, i was always crazy bout making a snowman, n i'd always 'advice' my collegues who'd have their onsite trip ( which was always to Finland , my client was Ericsson, Helsinki dats in Finland, remmba!!!) magar koi banaate hi nai the, n i'd wonder, how silly of 'em, how cud one go to such a place n comeback binaa snowman banaye :D. what do u think i did then??? ... ye dekho :D

yea, n guess what tme i did that :D it was 1 in the night :D n my sweet husband was gud enuf to accomapny me in that crazy moment :D although he too thot it was crazy to be out in dat temperature on the day 1 of my arrival :D but he gave in to my silly request :D n we had a ballllll n thats his muffler :)

To see the snowwas in itslef smthing to go crazy about... i dint surprise myself by not being crazy, i did behave crazy . i was all in there.. full snow me jumping n loting ( read dat in the hindi sense of the word, the T sounds like that in 'cat' not like that in umm 'Tasneem' :D ) to see those talll trees all laiden in snow, it was wowwww... those roads all empty for me to stand just in the middle with those conical kinda trees at their sides n beechme mein with my hands open wide ahhhhhh kaisa laga hoga :):) breathtakingly beautiful side of nature n just another way to acknowledge that He is the definitely the utmost Superior who has the knowledge of every little creature on this earht, n wow, He manages everything so well. one side of the worls is soo differnt n at d same time just the other side of the world is soo so so different :) the Creator of beauty and magic.. ahhhh.. accha thik hai abhi bas :D

pata hai... my journey was one of its kind :D, actually na... it was like d first time iw as travelling alone, so i was obviously freaking a the very thought, but i obviosuly posed as an absolutely advertent, brave girl who cud manage this adventurous trip, Oh come on, i was an educated, working engineer girl!!! ab apne paas kaisa hype rehta, malum na :D:D khair... i js kept tellin myslef, ofcourse i can go, big deal !! but man i was having a horrific time, typically deining what butterflies in the tummy means... i always that i cud feel that during exam time, but this time it was the ultimate description, nothing else cud describe me the meaning of that metaphoric sentense that i always kept thinking of.....

i started off... n boom, i had a bad time wid my luggage... it was bohot zyada n i had to remove stuff.. plus kya hua malum... ahh my luggaage bag tore!!! ya!! i had filled it up utna zyada, khair.. its like gharwaale do d paking n u know when its our ppl handling it goes like, jitna nikla nikalne do, baaqi ka waapis kardena... yeaa.. dat kind... khair.. fir i had to get it umm i dont know kya bolte usku.. kuch plastic covering karke diya wo fella.. n he tuk 400 rs. frm me!! chore! khair.. finally set n i came out for a final bybye.. n moved for d immigration.. i wasnt sure what all of it meant, i was js duin as i was bein told n as i cud read :D n i fianlly landed in the lobby near my flight gate... 3.30 ki flight thi.. morning!!!! magar apna hyd ka airport itna accha haina, they played luvly music... n i also had my ipod along.. to pata hi nai chala waqt.. i boarded my flight.. usme bhi pata hai kya hua! huh... silly dumb stupid me... the boarding pass had my seat number n i dinno which one was d seat number... i thot kuch aur hai seat number, th elady kept calling in batches os seat rows, i missd mine... she finally asked all the baki ke passengers to come along... dats when i joine d:D later i realised i was slukin at d rong thing :D

The fligh twqs comfortable... i cudnt sleep thik se waise... but it wasnt required... it was very long magar... 10 hrs se zyada kuch tha.. first 4 hours or so i was ok uske badse i got restless.. n then pata nai kab nind lag gai... the food was ok, the air hostesses wr so old malum hai, apne pas ich itne young young air hostesses rehte... by the way it was KLM Airways, they r french... i landed in Amsterdam, it was 8.30 in the morning i guess... it was cold, n i was well dressed to suit d weather, my husband ensured that for me! i walked out.. i dinno kya karna ai next, but i luvd dat airport, it wsa so nice n big n it ws gud to see sab firangs running around... i dint follow d crowd, i thot i'd get lost if iwud... so i dint... kept lukin at d beautifully decorated christmas trees har corner pe wahan..... i had a 4 hr transit there... pata hi nai chala where time flew... i saw my first snowfall there :) ... there were some armchair kind to relax, i wnt on n helped myself... i was sunny... i was rite in frnt of a huge window.. n cud see flights landing and taking off... so i was js njoying y music... n suddnly it went all blue n grey n no nmore sun n then i saw smtin white tiny dusty ting falling down n i wondered, such a beautiful place n luk at the way they are shoving off dust from d top floor, later i noticed it was snow :) n i laughed at self n then went near d window n kept gazing at it... it lasted for a few minutes, say one or two.. tat was it... n then my flight was reshceduled to a different gate n by d time i reached there it was time to fly again...... tat was another 2.5 hr journey... n i was hell restless this time.. u know wat.. d steward offered snacks n i missd to sopt mars n snicker inistray n picked a 'tuck' biscuit packet!! how dumb naa!! urrghh.. later i thot i'll request for one, n he did offer but this time his tray was empty, there were just those biscuits left... n i realsied.. dikhaawe pe na jaoo, apni akal lagao, dat biscuit packet had such n attractive wrapper, it actually made me miss a luk at my favorite choclates!! i had taken two lollipops from her tray then... he just smiled... they r still lying in my purse.. i dint have em, coz d flite landed in the next 20 mins... n i was out.. js knew that i must now collect my luggage, n iwas praying ki kuch amsterdam me nahi choota :D coz u know what i saw at d amsterdam airport as i was waiting for my helsinki flite!! i lookd past d window, n there was this luggage carrier, it drove fast, seeemd like it was to catch a flite, n in that while it dropped a suitcase rite on the road, n obvisouly d driver dint realise n he drove ahead.... many gaadiz came after dat, no one pikd dat laawaris bechara bag, n then finally n gud samaritan walked out of his truck n pikd it.. i thot he wud take it along... he jsut put on the footpath kinda thing there... n drove off.... wo bag more than one hour ke liye wahin pada tha... huh.... i kept wondering as i waited for my baggage in helsinki ki aisa to kuch nahi hua merebag ke sath... coz my bada wala bag taht had torn, wo to aagya tha, the other one was taking so much time,... oh yes that lawaris bag was finally pikd up n taken by someone, i dont know if it did reach d rite destination.. how wud it i wonder.. there were so many flites atking off in minutes wahan.. pata nahi kahan jana tha use aur kahan pahuncha..

well... ais akuch tha safar.. m aisi kuch chal rahi hai zindagi.. will keep this place happening now.. i've got alot more to pu tin.. next time.. may b n insight to Tampere ( dat the city ka naam )

untill then.. näkemiin (thats goodbye in Finnish :D)

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i'm not sure if this has sunk in yet.... there are sooooooooo many sides to my thots n emotions (uhh umm errr... ?@#$!%^&) yea... kinda like dat :D:D

arreee yarooo.. shaadi ke rukhkhe bhii aagayeeeee !!!!!! $%^&!#*(!!!!! yea.. i js saw the cards... my shaadi ke cards... Tasneem Begum ke shadi ke cards? uhh ummm.. ok.. ok.. thik hai.. i like the card waise, bohotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt accha hai Mashallah mashallah :D but well.. yea.. it still is like.... u know one side of me is like... ummm.. mmm .. shaadi... meri shadi ? hojari.... ohhhhhhhhh kkk.. !?!!!!?

no serious pondering here... its only !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n ??????? n $$$$$$$$$ n ########## n @@@@@@@@@ n %%%%%%%%% n &&&&&&&& n ******** n everything else that one can not understand :D

loll.. ok.. i dont mind staking dat m behaving crazy.. hota hai :D

Massalaama!! :)

They usually operate in OT's as of i knew, mine was better ;) gee now it sounds gud but its painful :( i was on the dental chair (yea dats wat they call it). After a week long of acute molar pain, i decided ( rather was forced by my dad) to go see the dentist. I thought it was my usual, well not jsut mine, anybody's usual toothache at this age, when they actually welcome that 'wisdom tooth', han ye aur baat my wisdom has nothing to do wid dat tooth perhaps ;) n i know all of u have different opinions ;) i wudnt wanna elaborate on ur opinions though, i can imagine them being categorized into to fiercely opposite ones :D:D:D.

neways.. jaana to tha, dad wouldnt listen, he actually started the senti stuff too, haan why will you listen to me now that you are getting married, you've grown up, you can take ur decisiions bla bla blaa.. n i wudnt take that ateast, but come on!!! i hate doctors i hate hospitals, n a dentist, come on! ek hi breed ke to hote hain sab!! i had no choice, i had to go... pain killers were no relief :( my food intake reduced, my mouth was hardly opening :( n wahi time pe yummy food was cooking up ghar me... ab soncho!! so i went finally! n like usual, i dint like dat dentist either! he suggested n x ray which i obliged to and from that he declared that i require a surgery! i went bizarre with the thought, he coudn be just crazy! he has to be much much more htan that to tell me that i require a surgery n extraction of all my wisdom teeth, meri akhkhal ka kya hoga yaroo ( han wo joke tha ;) ;) ) i dint lisn to him, spent another two days in acute pain with pain killers he prescribed me, baba woudlnt lisnt, he made me go to his dentist, n now i had no choice... he said i did require it :(:( n i had NO choice, i could live with it, but only at the cost of damaging my other molars very soon if not right now he said... he also assured that this was nothng new, 7 outta 10 had the same problem, n dont worry all of them need surgeries so they'll all get them done he said.. i felt better :D:D:D:D

I was appointed saturday, 2'o clock. I was scared :( everyone knows i hate docs n medicines, i can do any any anything to escape 'em, is mtimes also feel docs r one of those gud fr nothing jerks or they are jerks with too much knowledge who think no one can survive without them, all in all i dont like 'em, perhaps i i dint come across a down to earth, modest, dutiful, selfless, humanity serving doc yet n hence my opinion? errr... who cares?

My time was preponed, they asked me to be there at 12, i reached at 12.30 :D nai yarooo yahan b late bolke mat soncho! i cudnt help it this time... i had some reports to fetch from the diagnostic centre n i they wernt ready, i did give them a tough time though, n so did baba ( ab soncho their haalat ;) ;) ) all i said to them was i have a surgery in 15 mins n u still dont have my reports ready :D u shud have seen their faces, anyone would be scared of that word perhaps :D khair..

i stepped in a lil late, but as usual, the dentist was more late than i was, so i dint obviously regret, rather i was jusssst on time, so it was ok, i was called in, n my eyes fell on a tray with syringes with some liquid in it, two of which had normal straight needles n three of them had tilted, pooooooore ke pooooooooore he used in my mouth :(:( kitna dard hua pata haii :(:( he kept drilling n used screw drivers, pliers :( i wish i had a hammer to hit him......... accha nai tha magarr bohottttttttttttt kharab tha bohott bohot kharab, n i hate docs n dentists n hospitals n patients and pain :-X