Rewards and Recognition

Status meetings are boring to the core ! all one would wana to is.. yawnnnnnnnn..

n okie dokie day, a fruitful one though, something i wasn longing to fall in place, finally fell in its place!! n i was informed i;d get an appreciation token, n award that they call the FIMC- Feather In My Cap. well ok dat gave me a lil high, but nah it aint much more than a certificate ( NO, it aboslutely does;nt imply a hike! ) but still, glad to have got it, since it adds on to dat record i;ve been carrying since college n school, here goes, my first ever performance appreciation at Wipro Technologies. :) .. hmm dat sounds nice now. :)

Objective :On-the-Spot recognition important to the project / project team (spontaneous boss-to-subordinate) Eligibilty : Anyone who has done great short-term work.
Criteria : Impact has to be significant and project / account related.
Demonstrates skills such as problem solving, initative, technical competence, implementation of ideas, conception and institutionalisation of project best practices, etc

adioss!! weekend ahead ;)

A Moan..

Was the fault all mine
All I did was did not lie
Still I did see a tear shine
All I did was refuse to fly

Just a word of dislike
Another to avoid my heart strike
Then how did it hit so hard
Why, why does it feel so sad?

It can’t b that I’m so bad
Just a greeting can’t make one mad
How can my presence be so disliked
That one might wish to turn blind

Wonders are not what i expect
Reality has always been my percept
Then y does it seem to fall like this
There is something I know that is amiss

sOoOoOo much

Ok now.. another wierd thing.. but before that... i'd like to vent out yesterday;s nuisance! i dunnoo yyyyyyyyy i get soo damn frustu (dats a cute nick fr frustrated, a frnd f mine uses it :D) n sick n sad n bad n angry by the fact dat once in a blue moon i;d have to wait for n hour n do a lil more work ! now as m stil ritin this. m hating d fact dat i have to, or i;d say "had to" instead.! y do they have to arrange meetings at the time whn they kknow m gona leaVE!!! n to add to dat!!! they decide in it, that they;d want a binary to test just then since it wud take just a lil time ( yea riteee!!!!) n smhow i guess it all shows on my face, n so my manager luvs to walk up to me to say, Tasneem if u need any help hez there (pointin at another guy whoz more than used to staying back later than 8 coz he doesnt have to get bak to wat is called home!!) n then that fela cmz n asks Tasneem do u need help, i js luk at him n say. no just a lil i think i'll manage, n m sure he cn read all my extra grins in dat ! n at the rite time! i dunno how! i get this frndz call n he knowz well dat m pissd off coz i have to stay bak n hour, n i politely ask if i cn talk another time ! n he gets it! .. n all dat to pile up on my frustu thing... neywas.. so i wrap it up n head to my shuttle at 7 n reach home... oh no.. not home yet! i hire n auto n there a new idiotic saga with a autowala whoz a crook !
i said Asifnagar PS ke paas chalna hai, he asked ye jo peeche hai? I said yes ( n iwas wondeirng peeche???? huh, was at mehdipatnam n iw as askin fr the asifnagar p.s.. now how;d dat cm peeche? huh! )
neways, he then said... theek hai.. Rs. 20, i thot damn.. its the auto guyz day, ditn negotiate on dat since iw as already irritated by the frust day i had.. so js hopped in .. n there.. he brot me rite in frnt of d P.S n stopped it there! i asked him to take left, damn the guy refused! huh! iw as being polite, n he said yahan aaye tak 30 hojata! silly dumbo! he thought he cud get away with that! i had to say smthin now.. i told him i cm this way EVERYDAY! he still wudnt lisn, i said i wont pay him i get down here, he said he wudnt let me then ! i said fine!! take me back to where we started.. you put ur damn meter on n then v'll take d same damn route, n if its lesser than 20, i aint gona pay u a penny.. n if its more than 25 like u claim, i'll pay u double d amount! ... n guess wat.. dat crook fell for it! he turned d auto ( i cudnt believe he did it! ) n he tuk me well quite ahead, n then he realised.. ab ye waapas jaane ke paise kaun dete,,, although i wanted to burst out laughin.. i was still angry .. n i dint like dat guy oneeeeeeeeeee bit ! but then i insisted he turn the auto dat very minute n he take me home riteeee to my home! n not jst d ps. n i told him he shud now his basic duties as n auto guy ( well i dint use dat word duty thankfully, its ounds silly as i write it though) but he stil wdunt lisn, smhow this time it slippd off my mind, i cud have jst asked him to take me into the police station instead n then he wudnt utter a word n may be take me straight home!
neways after all dat he tuk me home! n i gave him js what i said i wud n went inside.

pheww.. n then i realised i;ve been behaving like a totally frustrated freak whoz got NO life, then i tried to calm myself down,, rushed downstairs n was much better wid my family around. I had to refuse to the Mc donaldps treat i promised my sisterz cz i got late n was home by 8 instead of my usual 7. :( neways, may b today... hmm lets c

ya so i fianlly decided this mornin dat i am gona behave myself n be a btter Tasneem n dat a frustrated Tasneem is realy realy realy bad n dat, this wasnt d real me until last year, so y now.. to aj se.. hum sudhar gaye :)
ok now the next wierd thing...
how strange is this now???
Hez gona celebrate her birthday , hez got cake ordered specially for the occasion, with certain particulars bout th flavour! N has ordered it bout a month in advance, n is gona have it on that day, get it to HIS home n cut it n eat it HIMSELF n she aint gona know! Wat do u call dat now?!!! Huhhhh ! paagal logon ki dunya nai bolte isku????

okk.. m off it now... n yea m anyway gona get half or atleast one fourth of dat cake ( it was described as a whole choclate cake .. n man imran gave me too many yummy details of it.. ) all i got to do .. is wait. :)

n ya.. i still havent done anything bout dat Arabic course i supposedly joined.. I gotto go meet up the HOD n have a plan set. I was so eager on it, now i cant loose it just like dat! .. mmmmm.. lets ccccc noww....

blaa janedo... m still waiting fr a call or mail response so i cn get wrkinnnn, i dont like moving on directionless! nahh not when its software!!!! but ya, my life;s kinda like dat nai?
hey Far ka missd call.. wil cal her now.. so .. signingg offfffff

Maassalaama!

* silly nothings brighten ur day smtimes *

:D well i've done this really dumb thing abhi kuch time pehle... but.. umm well.. :D it was important fr me dat time :D
i cudnt finish my lunch.. it was too much n i was already full.. n i asked safa to help, n she did untill there was just one more spoon left, but after dat she refused, n i stil cudnt take dat one last bite, n suddenly.. :D keets appeared :D n i kinda, well blackmailed/forced/tortured here to eat it :) n she did after a whole 10 minutes of behez n no n i had to hold her hand so she wudnt get away, fr sooo long! i offered her a choclate fijnally n she still dint agree, n then i maskafied a lil more n bingo ! she had it ! :) . n then i bought her a choclate n now i have a very silly but sweet memory to reminisce later :)

An year ahead...

Some of 'Me' is really happy, some of 'Me' is astonished and surprised and most of 'Me' is still wondering.. " ek pooora saaal hogaya??? "
Wooooo, how on earth did i do that??? :)

yup its been a whole year in Wipro Technologies today. I stepped into the Madhapur office, with a thumping heart and nervous mind, thinking howzit all gona be from today. When i was about to leave home on this very day, as i stepped ouuta the gate, Baba called from behind and said, from today your walking out to earn your bread, thank the Lord and recite ayat al kursi for a special purpose before ou leave every day. That gave me goose bumps then !! I followed dat( frgot smtimes too , but wud remmber it most of d times :D). n today i realise, its been a whole year.
I;ve had my share of ups n downs, i can;t forget the times i lied in mummaz lap with a tear or two rolling down n telling her, i dont wanna go tomorro mummy, it sure was kiddish, but i dint like the "hectic" work i;d say. There were times i cribbed for having to stay late once or twice, i so hated it ! but i'd console myself sayin atleast i dont have to do it everyday like sm of my other friends. There have been times i;ve luvd the breeze here, the beautiful rainbows i;ve got to see, my silly frineds around, Safa;s company for lunch n smtimes breakfast too. Our cribbin durin morning cofee, my non stop nonsense with my "namaaz ki toli". Its wierd i was liked bby so many. They all were there, n i;ve seen happy times here too. i used to say. the best part f cmin to work is to know dat you gotto get back home. :) although dat feelin aint as strong as earlier now, but i still cherish those thoughts those walks those talks those musings.

Well Wipro taught me how to make cocktail :D Wipro showed me quite a few rainbows. Wipro gave me my first ever cubicle. Wipro gave me this tag i smhow feel proud to wear. Wipro gave me my first ever feeling of being a Software engineer. :) So what if its shown me a Naidu, n sm late days at work, it also showed me a well lil better naidu too :) I know what it is to be wid "collegues", it was all so different pehle. It so very different now :)
I aint a kid anymore, i aint a fresher anymore, i aint just out of college anymore, but i cant promise that there aint gona be a day i'll tell mumma.. i dont wana go like i used to for col or scool :) I gotto know all the work politics, all the gossips dat go around. i gotto know that one must not let out if they are goin onsite even if its project related .. to your OWN TEAM MATES, untill the d day when u meet them to say gud bye!! u neednt even say if ur leaving the organization et al. I learnt that it its ok to say no at times, i learnt its very necessary to say NO at times. I think m a lil more patient now. I learnt not to be super duper scared of deadlines to the extent dat u mess things up at home.

I met sm really gud ppl here, i now have a very nice gang that we cal the "namaz ki toli" :) I have Safaa still with me ( yea inspite my chutter butter n her silent nature, we;ve got along n shez talkin too :) ) have n nice team, have bhagya n gayatri to share work nuisances :) n a very gud pal who'd always be there. n keets n manso n shubh n anils n all of ;em.
hey its been gud ! :)
although i did remmber yesterday dat today is n important day, i realise its well speciall too, inspite the odds, the bads, the sads, this years has been.. well...... bright :) n i still dont believe it.. ic an write Experiance : 1 year (atleast!! ) in my resume now :D

n how can i forget to mention!! i;ve been a better blogger after cmin here :)

Adios!!

Together and Apart

It did not matter anymore
How much ever things were bitter or sour

There was pain for one and another remorse
And in it were few hearts demerse

And talks that led to mere dissension
That later they would not want to mention

They weren’t to move to being silentious
But it does seem that they’d now be cautious

A thought or two before they speak
But many more in their mind if you peak

There somehow still is something that binds
Something that they know still it hides

If it’s like this then it may remain
But for longer still they will abstain.

A movin mind amidst movin clouds...

I am in one of those not so often moods aj... m feeling the not so high spirit kinda thing... i js have this one damn thing stuck up for R10 n i dont know what m to do wid it. They committed for 3rd of sep, but hey they dint ask me before it,, umm wel ya they did mention it earlier though. I gues d prob was dat we thought we fixed it n dint send it onsite to test, n then got engrossed in fixing smthing dat was not a bug, n then whn i finaly released it, they say it aint fixed yet! , duh n soud had dn sm code changes fr it earlier n i dotn knw wat its bout n now i cnt wait til the 10th til hez back so i got to do smthin of it. but hell i dnt know d wierd way those parameters function. whats what is n important thing to know u see...

ahh neva mind.. i just hope hope hope and so much wish wish wish, that by day end its through, not matter how!

adios!

aiwai...

i realised i neva began my post wid "As salam alaikum". how wierd is dat now!!!! huh more than what it seems like!!
but may b a lil less wierd than wat wipro has in mind for blogger... i dunno y its in such a confused state of mind :D, kabhi blogger ka home page is blockd so i cant post.. kabhi the blogspot pages blokd so i cant view, kabhi dono bloked! n aj dekho.. dono unblocked :D, n this is the best i like it :)

I am not sure how i can describe the ongoing phase of my life ( huh yea rrrite! gimme a break lady!!! :P:P) . Day before yesterday i prayed that the LI parameter thing be js fixed or smthin js happn to it, coz v;we been meddling wid it since a week now n ther was no fruitful result... n finally friday evening in a meeting we decide that we must come up wid n estimate coz we already have delayed R10 ( i dnt remmber v even had a date for it !! ) Anewyas, Naidu said Alex was in danger! n rough estimates wudnt do, we had to come up wid precise stuff, n cmon we cudnt commit when we were in the middle of... nowhere!!! I was supposed to prepare n analysis report n send it d next morning, based on which we were to cm wid n estimate, naidu noneless gave the date 3rd september, n we were hoping we'd fix it until then. And then the next morning was suddenly so beautiful and nice it showed me a mail that read .. the supposed "bug" is not a bug n dat we r trying to fix sometihng thats not required! finally.. wat a relief.. n i was jus gona build it n send release it... butttt.. again.. we remmber another damn problem!! n i was fidgetting wid it since yesterday :( n today morning to my suprise i fixed it pretty well unknowingly, when all i thought was dat iw as addressing the rong issue n dat my solution wud neva work.. but it all did :D. Soud was suppose to be on leave aaj se, but he turned up too, so iw as a lil more happy n thought we cud js release it n wash our hands off R10!! then i asked him to test it... but again.. as i did sm random testing.. the damn pdf files started having problems in download... wo bhi a javascript error! then i played wid it again thinking nah this aint gona help, but i'l js try n again surprisingly it did the trick.. n now i js build it... i hope soud tests it i cn give a final build.. i realy wana finish it aj.

Baba dint want me to go to wrk aj, he apparently felt i was sick n so shud take a leave, although i was dying to take one, i cudnt cz i knew soud is on leave so fr d next ten days i cnt even think of leave, coz i;d be responsible fr all d mail communications n anythin else of alex ! He said he;d talk to Naidu, n was very adamant, i managed to calm him down n rushed outta home..
n now dat i;ve finishd this, i hope i cn wrap it up early n may b leave early atleassttt.. hmm lets c noww...

I also feel m off blogging for quite smtime, there are so many things n ppl bout which/whom i havent logged anything.. well not sure bout everything but.. umm ya. there sure is smthing amiss.. but its ok i guess.. i;ll catch up may b.... perhaps the on n off that Wipro was playing wid blogger had n impact on my blogging interests n hence the variation in interest levels.

well okk dats all fr now.. n may b fr d day ( mark my 'may b' :D )

Massalaama !

My mind says : ? ? ?

Back after a long time again... have had a busy weekend... a not so gud one but one that passed off well... n a very busy week start too... although i;ve got quite a few updates i feel a wierd sense of hesitation after reading a mail from n ex collegue.

A guy i worked with closely, dropped in a mail n all i could make out from it... was that he was in a pathetically chaotic state of mind. What makes me feel devastated is having known a person so closely n then getting to know something like this. I am scared. I realize i'm vulnerable to such things that my heart neva wants to believe that they even exist. A state of mind that is reluctant to accept that, no.. such things dont happen. They are for the movies n the "non realistic " world. But such things /people just seem to get me a step closer to.... well may b reality, but i still feel.. no this cant happen. It isnt all dat bad a world. I dont know whats with dat guy. I just hope hez alrite soon. I cant imagine to have known a person n worked with him (very closely) n then get to know he thinks of suicide? n dat hez being punished by the government n family and friends and everyone around, n even thinks he could be n object of "use" maybe by the R n D..... no way! aisa nai hota.. it cant be that way. it shudnt be that way.

neva mind.. i dont see myself in the rite frame of mind either. Somethingz rong, its so wierd. I think i am scared.

I dont know.. is it that i tend to live in a lovey dovey world that has only good things n so tend to ignore everything else around? thats not correct either, i cant turn blind to the adversities. but i dont know.. i cant believe of anything rong or bad happening to me or sm1 i love or care for or some1 ii;ve known just enuf....

khair... i got confirmed... Wipro wished me a successfull career "with them" lets c now..

i think dats bout it !

With Her...

All she wanted was a little time of mine
I couldn’t think of how, that could be so divine

It wasn't that I couldn’t, but somehow I knew I wouldn’t
May be just a thought, perhaps I couldn’t take lament

I knew she liked it when I was around
But I still dint find out what left her spell bound

It was just talks that we would share
Not fantasies or dreams, no I wouldn’t dare

A meet or two was all we had
Then how could my absence make her so sad

And then we took a journey, of those kinds that's memorable
A journey perhaps which, I can not call impeccable

Again it was nothing, just gossip and some smiles
But yes, I wouldn’t deny I didn't mind the miles...

Tasneem wz here @ 11:21 PM it messed up the time too

Adieu..

Time's just moving, days passed by
There was so much to say and so much to try
I didnt realize, i dint see it fly
All i know now .. its time to say gud bye

It is'nt that i'm complaining
I know you were too engrossed
There were other things that were important
Nothing that could be paused

Its just that there's a gap
I think there's something missing
There's so much more to all this
But i also know its nothing

The time i knew you i'll always cherish
The fact dat your presence was always a joy
I wish for you happiness that'll never perish
Thats what voices my heart dats a little coy.

dat site had emoticons like dat f hotmail .. 6 Aug

MON
6AUG
Nokia6300, juviz weddin, n computers in "pinjraz" :D
Tasneem wz here @ 11:05 PM
Hey!! back after long again eh?!@!... i was sooo tied up i tell ya.. yesterday was like.. ahhh.. engorssseedd totally.. ni gues i got very tired by d end of d day.. mmm.. hey know watt? i bought a new mobile its a Nokia 6300 n i like it.. although i was diein for n E65, i stopped htinkin of it js a day before i actually was gona by d mobile.. coz i found out dat it dint hav FM radio... neways... i wasnt really for the 6300 coz i thought it looked boring.. but now dat i have it n m usin it.. i realise i failed to c the lustre it possessess ... so m like.. umm well yea.. njoyin it all d wayy

hmm work frotn.. like i said.. yesterday was.. woo weee waaa very busy.. i was goin in n outta d server room, hey.. i got access to d server pehli baar... i mean.. i likd d feel of seeing systems "band in pinjraz" lol.. dat means systems in cages ... geee. hehehe.. but man was it cold in there!! n i cudnt evn put my music on d other day u know! neways...

i really dont know where n how i gotto join these threads of my life to put it together n have 'em all in one place... ahhh.. hey wats wid d headfones.. they gimme a wierddd sound.. n annoying one ratheR! ahh..

i was at ammaz place yest.. went home pehle.. then wahan se amma ke pas.. n since iw as helllllllll tired!! i cudnt resist sleeping.. but thn dat dumbo Hamed, fell off his bike.. n came home all bleeding.. n i got up lisnin to his shouts.. n then it was 12.30 already.. n abhi kitneeeeeeee ki pooriyan baaqi the!! n i dint bel even one!! first time hua ye! but i cudnt help it... 8.30 se leke 11.30 tak wait kari mein... chaachiyon ku khaane khilaane se fursat ich nai thi!! so i waited n waited n waited untill i cudnt take it anymore.. n hey.. as i was waiting.. gues wat i was lisnin to.. not really sure.. magar old zamaane ke gaane.. nai gaane nai the.. u kno d mushaaira kind.. not very sure but i think i heard sm1 say it was sm munni begumz ghazals.. n itneeeee high class the ki meku ek bhi samjh me nai aay a:D hehe.. d only one i undstood was this.. n i happen to remmber it.. it goes like this....
Do hi pal kathin guzre zindagi ke
do hi pal kahtin guzre zindagi ke
ek tere aane se pehle
ek tere jaane ke badd... ( cute icon naiii)
n iwas sittin alone on d takhat in the aangan, under d tree n zabardast hawa chalri thi.. n i finally i heard this n undstood it n i burst out laughin n chachi was inside n she saw me laughin wo bhi alone.. n she wondered y, so i clarified before her brain cells cud think any further, dat i was tryin to undstand wat this lady hz been singin since so long.. n this is d first n d only one i undstood so far.. n so she laughed wid me too :) hehe..

khair.. chalra yaa.. life;s on.. n its movin.. m glad its movin , n m not so sad bout where its headign coz i ditn really set a direction fr it... n i know it osunds super lazy! or may b i;d say it sounds so much like Tasneem :D

n i think m gona move home early aj.. coz i goto go to ammaz place.. n fir shaam me juvi ke pas bhi jana haii.. heyyyyyy.. parson.. dats on suday.. yaani keeeeeee 5th August was Juvi ki shaadi.. n it was really gud to see her as a bride

mmmm chalo ya.. wil move out frm here.. or may b i'll put in those lil notepad scribbles i had done whn i missed blogger n dint hit sampa yet..

Adios!!!

!st Aug

July 31, 2007
TUE
31JUL
(: Wipro'z shown me quite a few Rainbows :)
Tasneem wz here @ 8:54 AM
I've got quite a few reasons to be happy :). Yesterday was the first ever time that i did not feel sad/ angry/ frustrated while leaving office late. Infact it all seemed so beautiful ny nice at dat time.. i felt this wierd sense of satisfaction, a very peaceful heart and a content Tasneem returning home late from work.

That NRJ problem i was talkin of yesterday was solved finally. n surprisingly i had a major contribution to it. Kannan was really happy.. it seemd like dat from his mails. I did put in effort even during the Omnidaemon problem time.. but ya i saw Soud ( dats short for Soumendra, most of 'em call him dat here) work really hard on dat, so i dint really want to take all d credit, but was glad i put in just enuf and was always there when he needed me. n this time for the NRJ thing.. i actually dint no it was all dat major a problem.. its just dat after v( me n soud) solved it v realisd dat the oniste guyz r more than happy n they went like "Great Great Great guys. Great job done!!" n i could read all the excitement in that. It was n 8 month old problem it seems n now Ericsson benefits a lot from what we've done to solve it.. well knowing all that.. it jus gave me a high.. n i thought.. well ok.. i cn do really gud things at times too . n the most surprising hting was when in the meeting with Kannan, Naidu mentioned, that he would nominate me n him for the FIMC ( thats some wipro internal award, not really sure of what exactly but it stands for Feather In My Cap) so that made me feel gud n surprised rather, n dats whn i felt.. yo.. i really did smthin nice :)

It rained or quite smtime yesterday... n there was this beautifulll almost full rainbow... have a luk at d besto ne so far..


mmm Safa's call .. wil get bak here after cofee.. shez waitin fr me..

bbbbbbbbaccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk !!
lol ok.. u see d excitment here too haan.. lol..

aneways.. so d point was dat i was more than surprrised when NAidu mentioned dat, coz i always thought n well.. still do.. that i aint in his gud books, n i never wanted to do anything extra to get into his gud buks, no maskafying et al... so i'd do my work n just dat... n i told ya even earlier there was a lil tiff wid him wn he wanted me to get back to wrk aftr 6 wn iw as actually moving homewards, n i had refused.. n also i thought in dat meeting wid Bala whn i mentioned bout d appreciation bit, he must have taken it personally.. but wid all this also.. he like .. umm ok.. behaved like a manager should.. so m glad n well m also feelin js a lil bad bout... sayin all d bads bout it.. but hey they were in context wid a situation yaa.. n i dont regret sayin it.. but.. umm ok janedooo..

khair.. ya so yesterday i could see the rainbow on my way back from Asar, n whn i got bak i had this quick meetign wid Kannan, so i head strait to naiduz cube n there we had a talk to stabilize things, n we zeroed in on releasing Alex R9/3 ( i dint realise we wer wrkin on a whole new release.. hehe.. release ka pressur hi aur hota hai.. ) aneywas... so dat call was at about 5.45 so i was sure i'd have to leave only after i made the build.. coz soud aint all dat gud at building d windows n solaris versions.. so.. i made the r9/2 final build n then we delivered both R9/3 n R9/2.. so it was 7 already n i cudnt miss d bus ofcours.e. but as i walked dat path alone (as usual) it was d first time i felt really really nice at dat time n i liked being at dat place ( meaning still at office) at that moment . Three words to sum up my feelin.. satisfied, at peace n happy... now is'nt dat d perfect combination to have a pefectly delightful day

but yea.. i had to cancel my plan of meeting juvi again.. but m gona do it today come wat may!!.. if i miss it aj.. then therz no other dya i cn make.. so i got to do it aj.. may b i'll plan smthin by 4 or so n check her availabilty.. but if she aint there.. may b i'll meet her after 6.. but i sure will meet her aj!!!

n may b i'll have a peaceful day aj bhi.. peaceful in the true sense.. hopefully just relaxing with very very little or no work at all.. so its music all the wayyyyy...n may b i'll drop in here again in some later part of d day.. untill thenn...
Tasneemz Signing Off !!!

31st July.. not sure y but dat site always messd up d dates

MON
30JUL
jus another day..
Tasneem wz here @ 10:40 PM

I dont get it yaa.. ....... m fidgetting wid this new environment.. playin wid it.. messing wid it.. i js hope it dznt get annoying soon n i dont loose my cool !!
how come therz no edit entry in d menu where i wana change d header of my blog? i dunno y my namez there! therz jus n add entry and i cud add my regular title.. duh.. anewyas.. may b i'll play wid it a lil more untill i get a response from them bout d latest binary...

yea i;ve been putting logs so we can figure out where exactly the problem is... kya yaa.. it works fine here.. then its ok in finland too... the germans had a problem say.. umm last summer, but thn it was ok again.. n now the japanese are yelling about it... it seemz they;v siezed the payments for Ericsson n so now the pressure is all on us so v gotto do smthin so that they get their pay cheques on time n so dat v dont miss out on ours... m not alllll dat much bout what wipro gets.. cz anyways i knw they;r gettin a lot ( aadha to hamare cuttings me se ich !! damn! ) so.. as long as it dznt effect mine.. nah i still would;t sya i dont care.. coz umm well.. d works mine n wats d point if sm1 aint able to use it at d end of d day... blaa.. ok..lots of bragging done bout wrk..

so what next.. i dont even remmber where i;d left bloggin n where i;ve got to continue wid... ahh.. but all in all.. it smhow is such a nice feelin.. or may b i'd say a relieving feeling to let go :D,( luk at d way i say let go!! ) hehe..

aneways... hmm i like d luk of this place though... but yea i really need to explore into it all to get to c what all it offers...

hey.. my appraisal is still pending wid naidu... m wondering..a fter those cofee gossip talks v had... whats he gona rate me... pehleich apne pange hai wo bande se.... magar kya hai ki bhai.. workwise.. he has nuthin against me to say.. so lets c.. but d kinda fela he is.. i wudnt b surprised if he gives me n NI, but yea i sure m gona mess it all up n make him show what he means by dat n ya dat time i;ll ensure i have all my wsr's wid me... n thn may b he;ll relaise.. oh ya.. if she really needs to improve .. i wonder how she did soooo much ( wel fr a fresher it is soooo much! ) to make d release succesful ( well ok ...... but it did go rite! n my requrement wasnt d problem!! )

hmm i;ve got few other things i had put on notepads.. may be i'll put 'em here smtime laterzz...
for now.. i think i'll... umm well.. ok may b put sm music on :) n continue playing wid this.. i really need to figure out what to do with this header thing... n hey!! u know i;ve got this really important+funny+silly+ ummm i dunno.. kinda thing to let out.. but m not sure n dont think i want to ... but wooooooooooo was i shocked to know it was him !!!

adios fr now!!

Voila! Wipro did it for me again !!

Wowww!! lolll... ye lo mithaai bhi aagai... hehehe.. ya a team mate bak frm home town.. but fr me.. its khushi to be back in d same envii.. yuhuu!! m luvin itt.. papparappappaaa! m luvin ittt.. heheh dats how d Mc Donaldz thign goes nai? :D geee

iw as jus about post frm my mailbox.. n there i saw Anil drop in al ine.. givin me d newss.. hehehe.. i dunno wats wid Wipro n y it goes on n off like htis wid blogger! n ya i had to pass on this info to sm of team mates.. cz well.. yea noww.. they r into blogging too.. n .. well. :D :D yea.. i kinda think i am a reason :D:D:D:D

okk.. this is smthin like puran puri.. :D acchich hai.. magar thodi oily hai.. zyada hi.. khair..

its so gud to b back after a lil break ... i mean.. bak to work... oh yes.. dats me sayin its good to back to WORK! :D this is one nice way i gues.. mon tue work.. wed hol.. thur fri work.. n again sat sun hol.. woooowww.. kitna accha hota nai? but it aint dat way... " aapke saath aisa na hoga no no no noo :D "

hhehe.. too many ad jingles on my mind eh? .. nah not too much tv.. but ya i noticed my fam.. especailly my sisters growing interest in .. well ya those soaps.. i unbelievably... all d channels are back wid a bang.. n m wondring what kinda stuf this time n holding their audiances on...

it was just yesterday i read this article in the newspaepr ( haaaaaaaaan ! i read d newspaper after n age i tell ya ! ) n well.. know wat it was about... :D well the agenda was smthing like... ummmm.. welll... may b i'll sum it up in a line " Save English from the English" lol.. gud one nai.. :D i cant really recollect the title or the author but ya it was a gud one after long... not dat i keeo chkin dat column often.. its just dat my eyes fell upon it fr a while n man it sure was interesting.... i wodner what dat guy wud say if he;d read my blogs.. may be he;d wish to reach his grave soon n even after dat may b he;d want it to b the end of dat lol... well ok.. it one or two phrases i remmber readin went like this....... not really quoting ha... js reframing ;em all.. He seemed to be annoyed by the fact the journalists, columnists and the broadcasters too went way beyond messing up english during times when they were largely communicating wid huge well presicely a global audiance.... n surprisingly all of these or may b most of them were English, n one example dat guy kpt repeating was.. during the cricket world cup.. when he said that d reporters reported about "England's defeat to Australia" n he seemd to be goin crazy wid d fact that "defeat to" wasnt appropriate... may be it shud hv been England lost to Australia or may Australia defeated England.. well ... aisich kuch to b tha yaro.. janedo ab.. khair it was agud article i tell ya.. i think it was in dat coulmn.. spectator at chronicle.. umm smthin like dat. not really sure again...

ahh.. i read this releaving mail aate hi.. frm Kannan.. the NRJ finally il b taken into production! man dat was one nice things to feel... n u know i kinda missed out on riting about one evengin.. dat beautiful one .. whn i was leaving late frm work.. i mean at 7 ! n i first time i ditn really feel v bad cz i felt this gudy gudy satisfaction inside.. newyas.. not really sure if i logged dat on the other site but hey m gona move in all dat here too.. n mannnnnn m i happy bout being here !! :) :)

but the sf n pr thing is stil in a fix... n m well.. pretty much into it !! lets c now... n dat appraisal of mien is still pending.. n i dint mention.. Naidu came to my desk the other day ( he cmz to my place soooooooooooooooooooo often these days! ) n was askin me if i;d contribute to d Knet.. n i..w ell d gudy that i am.. obviously replied in the affirmative but also sited that since i;m tied up may b it'll take me some time.. n he then had this suggestion list opened to help me see where i cn squeeze in time for it.. n ya he told me may b half n hour or so at wrk.. n smtime after goin home ( YEA RRRRRRRRRRRRITE!! ) neways.. i set dat aside fr now.. the parameter issue is stil on.. n i really wonder if CPI for Solutions is eva gona see the lite of day....

hmmmmmmm.. chalo abhi ke liye kafi hai.. wil move in other things here.. not sure if i want to.. but.. well ya.. since its a collectin fr a lifetime.. i dont wana miss out on any page of my buk f life! :)

adiosss!!

This onez from tasneem.begum@wipro.com

Finally m bloggin from here… although th feel aint the same.. but nah.. its fine I cn manage…

Man m having this helluva time wid Alex rite now… I dunno wats rong.. n wats wid the sf parameter only when the libraries are loaded… I fixed itt o the extent dat the tree loads… but now.. the libstate aint shown at all… n whn I did try to display d libstate.. it gave me d same damn error while loading with just dat paramater!  Its kinda getting irritating abhi to.. but I still have it on mind.. my work.. got to do it.. my work.. go to do it..yea dat kinda thing..

 

I was just wondering how it is to be obsessed with work… is obsession something one does out of love or like or something of dat sort.. towards something? Or cn it be .. umm well just n obsession…. Dnt be surprised.. its js dat I was bein a lil calculative n wondering if I were unser such a pathetic syndrome… huh.. work obsession??? Nooooo wayyzzz… but I dunno wat it is.. it sure is smthin.. I feel tied up all d time.. umm ok may b not I feel.. its dat I AM tied up all d time.. n hardly have time.. umm well.. for anything else at all… i;ve stopped complaining too… cz although I see myself striving.. I also realize that sooner or later ( usually later!! ) I get to see d results.. n hence have turned out to be a lil more patient than my usual self…. Now I aint speculating on the adverse sides of it… cz I know the more I explore into it… m gona find lots.. n lots .. n lots.. n may b d first … hey I had a call frm a very gud frnd who wz very excited bout this interview he had wid a Japan client.. he sounded satisfied n happy J n.. wats more required outta dat J

 

Ya so now where was i…. ahh neva mind… I;ve got these other few things in mind.. but hvnt had d time to think ova.. n u knw wat!!! Ash ka Nikah hai kal !!!! yea cn I belive dat? Hehe.. I dunno.. many things happning.. n man life;s changing… Safa was telling me js this morning.. dat whn she left for home early yesterday, she got to set up the dinner table n she felt nice arranging siz plates( d count of her fam) n then it struck to her that she wudnt be duin dat after three four days… n dat reminded me.. how I underwent a similar situation a few years back…. Its so different n life;s moving at such pace.. n I hardly find anytime to “live” it… its all passing by so fast.. things cmin.. n things goin.. dats all dats happnin.. but its gud too.. but there sure is smthin ticking in there dat tells me…. Since its all passing by.. is dat n end is approaching? I dunno what exactly I mean by dat.. but yea.. smthingz there dats gona finish, its just dat time doesn’t stay as long as it used to earlier… now dat again is such a weird line.. J well cmin frm me.. u’ll find everything “weird”

 

Movin fr namaz… damn sure I wont find time scribble fr.. umm I dunno :D

 

Ciao !

!!##@@&&back wid a bang&&@@##!!

yuhooo.. it worked it worked it workedddddddddddddddddddddddd.. :)
so herez me.. back wd a bang.. n man m i relieved !!

wil move in other things i scribled smwhere else , n my notepad scribbles lyin on my ofic desktop too... wil fill it up all here.. on monday!! o ooo.. no.. may b not monday.. ive got hellll lota work already set fr mnday.. :( .. hmmm may b i'll squeeze in sm time inspote d hectic schedule :D, coz if u cnt hv time fr wt u luv, thn wats all ur time fr at alll? ggee.. gud thought nai hehhe..

hey.... chicken biryani fr dinner?... ahan.. Tasneem made!!! n now u know its gona b a DeLiGhT to cherish :D

adiozz! ( i missd this place soo muchh :D :D)

** publishing via email **

I aint really sure if this is gona work like m expecting it to, but i still wana try.. coz if this really works.. thn i cn get bak on blogger... not dat i hv a a readership, but i;m so much in luv with my space that i miss it comfort n cnt find it anywhere else ( yea i did try another blog site dat aint blocked at office... ) umm well lets c it now...

 

fingerz crossed!! i hope this works!!

Commitment and more..

mmmmmmmmm... i opened this page to start off wid a "Good Morning" but it dint seem dat wya.... its 3.51 p.m.. so herez a Good Afternoon :) n i guess its good in every sense :)

first things frist... as i started off d day.. i had this thing in mind to put overhear which i had pondered over the weekend coz of sm situations/ circumstances dat i came across n sm lil things even zapped me... anyways.. "commitment" was d supposed agenda.. but like i just mentioned.. d aftnun is really gud.. n dats coz naidu aint here n so d the cpi gal gang planned a movie.. a supposed thriller!.. i;d rather call it a comic thriller... now dont luk at those two words separately or loosely.. imagin .. in the true sense of the word.. how would a comic thriller be? well.. it;d be like Naqaab. Although i liked Akhshaye khanna and d new girl was prety n nuthin more.. n bobby is so used to playing the "rich" guy!
ok .. nothin on a review now....
will get back on that serious note... now? na... mayb another dya.... coz dat mood aint alive... magr...... mmmm... its not gona b a no naidu day again!.. but hell ! how dz his presence have to matter ?

aneways.. lemme put it since i thought it would n i actuallyw as gonna...
A friend i know of... had a steady life.. was seeign a guy since quite smtime... n i actually thought they;d end up together forevr.... i was shocked wn i got to knw she had a proposal on hand n was desperate.. she reportedly said the family is very decent and they are very simple people.... i was a shocked, although ya i was a lil happy coz things seemd to be materializing.. but like i said i was more curious bout wat made her change her mind... i really thought she was committed. then? well ok family problems may b.. but still as of i know bout d person.. she;d b d kind to convince if she wills... moreover she had gud ties wid guyz family.. it cdnt b that things went rong anywhere...
well i mean.. when u think n know and feel that fine.. this is it.. then.. movin on wid life wid smthing else? possible? i dont know.. d thought kinda gives me a devastating shiver...

i know of ppl woh wudnt let go their loved one for anything too.. but not dat i am questioning the character or mind or heart of the other person..they sure know what theya re duin.... but it just makes me wonder.. how cn human mind of heart for dat matter fickle at such a rate especially about such important decissions about life....

i know of secret admirers too... ppl m talkin of here are d onez i closely know... whats surprising is.. irrespective of age... theirz such a variety in preferences when it comes such things... therre really isnt a way one can guess or predict what one might want... may b dats one those many things that uniquely identifies a human being...

aneways, i do belive what happens happens for gud.. coz the Planner is Supreme.

well.. all dat said... dats just one side of "commitment", i also know of ppl who dont find commitment an integral part of friendship.. i beg to differ there though.... commitment aint just bout promising to spend life together,,, wud b nice to c it in anything u do... in anything u share wid yourself or wid another one whoz close.. family/ friend !
i was taken aback when i heard of( from a trustful source) a frnd sayin that he had'nt committed to her, when all she had asked was you lied bout ur very own name? n there was nothing more between them than friendship. n so he dint find it important to tell his correct name?!!

anyways... may b more on dat someother time... i really need more variant insights on that to know of the different mentalities or thought processes the human mind exhibits.. or may b varying bundle of emotions d human heart swears to contain !!

I know m not suppose to feel like this

but.. :D
m feeling much better now...
coz.. :D
coz.....
cozzzzzzzzzz
i got to kno..
thattt
that
that
hehe.. my pm got just 1% salalry hike! :D serves him rrrrrrrrittttte!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

:( :~ :`(

aakhri phiriwi hai meri abhi !!
i am no mood to rite! not 1 damn bit!
n m hating every damn thing
muummyyy hona meku abhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

isi shauq ka imtihaan zindagi hai...

i put my headfones on n the volume was full.... i wanted to lisn to Jaaveda Zindagi from Anwar... (awesome song yaaaa...) n so i did.... n my pals sittin about 4 cubicles away from mine coudl hear it :D, ab soncho??? heehhehe... ooparse Naidu's place is just beside mine.. m sure he heard d entire song ;)... lucky himm... meri wajah he got to hear a gudie (unless he wan on d fone yelling at sm1 !! )
nways.... d silly thing was... Soumendra was tryin to say smthin to me.. n since i cudnt hear him.. he hit d table wid the pen heheh :D ya.. he had to do that to grab my attention... dumb na? hehe.. very stupid...

newyas... m sure m quite popular wid my team bout not being able to hear wn i have my headfones on .. n these ppl are quite used to standing behind me for smtime whn i dont respond to their calls, n then i see htier reflection in this glass board here n realise sm1z there :D...... good or bad? i dotn know.... actually... i dotn really care... dats one thing i do here that i like... not gona let go it come what may ;)
therz jus one hting.. they never know whn my i put my headfones one ;) coz they never get to c 'em :D
waise bhi... my quality of work tends to improve with music in d backgrpund :), i do better coding n better analysis... :D

khair... its past 6... gotto push off....

Ciaoo ~!~

$HoMe$

wow!! doin this from home gives me dat long lost feeling... m homee done wid col, or perhaps jus exams n now waitin fr... ahhh... office?!#$%^&!! ... yea.. dats what i'd do.. sheesh.. its wierd to relate th present wid d past and think that.. ahh.. was this present.. my past's future???!! hehehe..... aneways... since its like this n i did want it like this... its kinda ok, may b i;d say its gr8 if itd be alil more better.. :D, dats soo human nai? hehe

i am not really sure what m duin here at this time... i mean... well office se.. theek hai.. coz i have that die hard feeling to use sommeee of time for myself there.. cmon.. 9.5 hrs, out of which m billed for 8? n even that m told very very very diplomatically... we must put in more effort ( yeaaa rritte!!!! )

na... m off here.. i think i like it better here when m at a not so gud place ;)
heyyyyyyyyyyy rehans heree .. i misshhdd himm shhooooo muchhhhhh.. cnt stay longer

tataa!!

i just know i want to let go so many things rite now... i dont believe what has happened... i dont want to..... i just know htat i have'nt been so scared ever in my life, and perhaps never been so angry either.

make clean/ make release! duh!!!

I am having helluva time ( dont ask me what helluva means.. i think its slang fr smthin n it sounded cute n it just clikd to me this very moment n so i put it.. n yea.. unlike i usually do, i dint run a dictionary check for this one.)
build n build n so many builds subah se
dats all m duin..
i jus hope i dont have to work on this anymore..
i really ireally really wish this package gets no more of work to b done.
newyas... ummmm na nuthin
bubye!

Did i tell u i burnt my fingers thinkin of this fella?!!

I am not very sure what kinda feeling this is.... m feelin gud , bad, sad angry... pata nai.. yesterday when iw as heading towards d bus, n after ir eached there... i got a call from Naidu sayin i have to get back. We have a mail from oniste and there are some findings and we need to fix them before today so u have to get back he said. I dint want to, just a lil while ago, before that fone call, we were discussing how hez been behaving with other ppl of the team... i dont know, i just had this wierd adamance that i did not at any cost want to get back and stay late and work ! i had other important things at home to do i said. He insisted on my returning, i told him i'll call back in 5 mins.... i called back and said... i am sorry i cant come. I ahve some important work to do that cant be postponed either and i;v already comitted for the evening so its not possible. He just wudnt listen to me... forget listen... he dint even want to hear what i was saying,, he just went on and on and on saying this is very important and you have to come back... i kept saying i cant help it coz i took some time from you just so that i cud call up n confirm and i did that... so i cant help it.. if i cud.. i wud... dats what i said.. he sitll did'nt lisn... he said this is not the way an engineer works, sometimes you have to stay back and we dont ask you to stay back everyday do v... i replied saying its not a matter of staying back, i did stay back earlier dint i? i asked.. its jsut that i have something more important at home to do... he said see tasneem you are not understanding, this client is very imortant to us, i said i do undstand howimportant his project is for ericsson and how important ericsson is for Wipro, but rite now i just can not come naidu, i said... he still dint lisn to me,,, he said you have to come bak... i just lisned to him, he still went on, n said luk there are somethings for alex for windows and for the images also and if you dont come back it may take us the entire nite to sit and do it, i said i undstand that naidu but i can not come, and he again dint lisn to me, he just dint want to understand anything but that i must come back at any damn cost. and dats wat made me all the more angry, when i am saying therz somehting important, he tells me that everyone has important things to do rite, n i jus said if this was not that important i would come back too, i did stay back earlier when v had a crisis dint i... he dint lisn again!! i cudnt believe i was talking to a manager who turned so deaf towards n employees request, inspite of the arrogance with which he spoke and the silly adamance that he showed.
I dont know, i wasnt really scared if you ask me.... i disliked him even earlier for his behaviour towards my collegues, but even then i'd feel bad of hating him and wud feel not so good for not having respect for someone whoz so much senior to me. c'mon this is'nt me i;d say, however bad a fella woudl me, trust me i;d always luk at atleast one thing he/she had that was gud n wud stop myself from hating them. but yesterday, i dont know.. i sensed a wierd hatred towards him, i reached home... n it was Maghrib time, i was like.. what do i ask for this fello! a little tolerance? some better way to behave, or just to get him off from wherever i belong. i was so confused and angry...
Just then i got a call from a friend n i spoke to her... n i felt much better.. later i spoke to Fariya, i was still confused bout what i had done.. was it rite/rong/ gud/bad/ was i behaving stupidly arrogant?? but then she told me to stop thinking and that what i did was absolutely fine and that one must have it to say 'no' also. i felt much better after that...
then i went do................

its 4.21pm now.. i started riting here in d mornin... but went into duin work... n now m still in d middle of it.. i'll contniue the above part a lil later may b.. but for now... m feelin bad :(... i'll say why... but after i fisnish work... so not publishing untill then....
ok m back... n not in mood to rite...
but i still will... coz i wanna read it later...

all the extra image changes i had done, were all undone when i dint turn up yesterday... it was done with d idea that things will be fine.. n they even thot so n delivered the package.... but this morning whn saw it.. n showed 'em.. they realised there were pixels missing.. and dats when i told them i had already done the changes for this n checked in d files. then? .. all they told me was.. they just tuk the DHT THS images n put them there... ( dat was two days of my work.. 8 hours of which iw as billed) neways... since later they realised their mistake,,, they reverted to the ages i designed... there still was sm error.. but this time just one(obviously coz i had taken care of the rest..) .
in the mean while wheneva there was talk.. i kinda felt.. naidu was ignoring me.. but thn he cudnt help it.. i as d one who was duin it.. he hd no choice.. n he behaved wid me like his normal best, and i was obviously shocked beyond words as to how one can behave with such tremendous change in two different situations that are so closely related!,
anewyas, i requested to make some more changes n gave some ideas n said i wana try them then v'll build it... soumendra said ok.. since v hav no other go.. let's do it... n ya.. this time it wrkd, but again there was one pixel change required, thankfully, it was identifiable and requred another lil thing for me to do and i did it.. n it looked great after dat....
and during all this v had to take approvals from kannan n girish in finland.. n all they knew bout it was, soumendra was doing it, they were on call... n even then whateva changes they'd propose i had some validations to give for that n i;d xplain it to soumendra n v'd realise its not possible n then he was d one who;d again say all dat to them at finland... in short.. the hulla gulla done yesterday impacted to a rong fact potrayed that all d work's been done by him, when i m d one whoz.. damn.... neva mind.. i find myslef lowering my cadre of ability by wanting to highlight it.. but how about fair talk? neva mind..
neways... its finall done.. n I yes.. I did it... n i can atleast proudly say they cudnt do it widout me... u know y i can say dat... coz yesterday they did try it widout me.. n thot they were sucessful until in d morning i showed they wernt... i dont care bout d rest (it dznt matter, coz all those ppl have been good to me so far) but yea.. my manager.. he still dint have one word of appreciation for me.... it definitely was a silly task n difficult to do, but duin it n succeding after so many attempts does'nt even require a good?
after it was built n it looked perfect, soumendra gave n exciting its done tasneem ! .. i liked it.. i thot thank god.. coz i really had no more ideas to try to make it look anything better... n then he told naidu, he just came lukd smiled n said oh finally done ha... thn lookd at me n said.. oh so u moved pixels? i told hiim what i did.. n he said ok .. dats it!
y do they ahve to be like this?
i still dislike him
1. for never appreciating my work
2. for talking rudely to my collegues
3. for behaving arrogantly wid me yesterday.

and if iw anna put that in order, by giving them a rank,,, then i'd put it this way
1. for talking rudely to my collegues
2. for never appreciating my work
3. for behaving arrogantly wid me yesterday.

n yea.. bout dat subject line now... yea.. iburnt the tip of all my five fingers... of the left hand... i boiled n egg, n there was a plate on dat bowl that was on the stove, firt time i as careful to hold dat plate wid a piece of cloth, but d send time whn i remved d egg from d boiling hot water.. i put it in dat same plate, and then as my wierd mind was wandering into thoughts bout that nonsense talk n predicting his today'd behaviour, i just held dat hot plate wid my left hand so i cud hold the egg under water as i ripped off its peal ! n i was careful not to let go d plate coz it would fall down n make a bigg noise n mumma was just in d hall sleeping.... so i carefully put it down(damn a plate on d stove for about 25 minutes! n i was still carefull to put it bak down holding it wid bare hands!!!!) n damn i still have a terribly burning sensation in all my figers of d left hand.. n i;ve been typing since morning too..
aneways... now v gotto go out .. i mean to d cafeteria.... n hez takin us for snaks.. y?? coz the onsite guyz went on vacation n coz dwae n alex got released there... so a lil snack party to offshore too... but dat dznt in any way take my spirits very high.
but yea.. there is a little contending feeling within that says... "they cudn't do without you ;)"

*** Winnie ***

I jus luv his blunt nose n dotted eyes that blink wierdly :D

And Tigger n that wabbitt hehe... n piglet ofcourse... i dont remmber if dat donkey had a name too.. but man was he lazy !!

Jus luk at d way they sleep ova each other, aboslutely relaxed... is there anything in the world except for peace?






And their play time??? lol.. like therz nuthing better than play wid friendzz... silly na.. they vary so much in sizes, but are still together n hav loadsss of fun... n notice one thing.. all of 'em have jus two dots as eyes.. hehehe..

Yea.. n this is one of those.. "We are the Best" pics...

spare NONE when its a question of dignity !

This is goin overboard man!!!.. its so sick to be in a place where therz so much injustice... i realize how hateful the feeling is to be in sich n environment.. n if i feel so sick bout jsut being around, i wonder how the poor guy must be feelin for being a part of it... well .. on the recieving end!! n no wonder hez decided to quit !! n m so glad atleast hez opened his mouth for it atleast now.... i was shocked the oether dya whn Naidu was very rude to Thangaraj n told him things like,, and this is your punishment!.. n even to that this fella dint utter a word... well ok.. what he did was a little silly.. but it did not.. DID NOT at any cost deserve such behavoiur from a manager! it was equivalent to ridiculing the poor guy and not THAT IS NOT FAIR!!!
just a lil while ago.. Naidu came to Thanga's desk and told him bout efforts n stuff.. thanga insisted that he wuld do it.. but naidu wudnt listen.. n he said that you are slow, i;ll help you do it.. thanga dint want help wid it ofcourse.. atleast not his help!! so he kept saying no.. n he even closed the window!! n naidu said.. tell me what is your problem i am trying to help you and you are closing the window... n he replied saying i did ask you earlier htat i had a problem with filling the eoffrts and that they are not being reflected, that time you dint respond.. smthin like that was goin on... i wudnt say i overheard it... it was just too clear to be ignored even if i wanted to... n man i have htis feeling that naidu felt insulted when thanga closed the window.. so he told him a little slowly this time... that he does not know how to behave.. n i went like.. o ooo.. i felt too uneasy n thot i;d just walk away from my desk... but that would make it very obvious that there was too much attention to it... neways... i cudnt help it... thanga wasnt quite this time.. he did agitate although of the size of a miniscule.. but atleast he did... but for once i am glad.. coz when it comes to your dignity... therz no one you should spare !
ok therz still talk goin on inside.. n this time its in d manager's cube.. n i cnt help it.. they are loud.. well ok.. now they are here... but still smthinz goin on...
neways...
i;ve got to move for now.. its gettin late....

Etiquette talk...

Ahh.. just when i thought.. i get a day off.. n can relax wid music n empty my forwards flooded inbox, i get another report to study, with instructions that i start work 'today itself'. When i am in the middle of nothing... coz thats best i like to do :) m told to get along.. n ... well.. schedule things for a new start... hre goes... one mor trajectory coming up on my work graph.. not very sure if thats somehting to rejoice about.. but.. ok.. wateva.. !!

I just wrote this Oscar Wilde quote on my board that reads " Experiance is the name everyone gives to their mistakes" .. hehe no points for guessin who the target is :D :D

I was pissed off when a friend cooked up a dirty joke... well ok. . it wasnt dat dirty.. but i found it sick.. n cheap ! .. n dint like it one bit n so i said it on the face tht i dint like it.. n that if it were a joke it was sick.. n if it want.. then you are sick.. i couldnt help meaning it... coz u get the feeling it gave me.. when you realize the coarsity in my words !.. but does dat mean i need to learn .. well manners? ... well ok.. m open to learning anything new... anthign good... n fine if that could make me shine a little brighter... but hey!!.. y overlook the possibility of the other person being a competent learner of manners when it comes to that! coz.. matter of factly i thot that was ill mannerism too... coz it was bad.. n later was wrapped up in the name of a joke, n whn i express my disgust i need to learn manners? huh! manners to speak is it? or to wirte? or manners to shut your mouth whn you dislike somehting the other says especially when it offends you?!!
ok.. even if i am over doing it ( i dont really think so! .. but this again would mark my "atittude" hell wid it , if its at d cost of one;s dignity!) .. .. even if i assume it were unintentional, and it really was a joke... then y not take my words also in similar spirit in let go.. as smthin said wn angry?! na.. i am supposed to learn a lesson for that.. n dats bout manners.. .. so i gotto get bak after i learn them... i wonder if i would want to get bak !!
the anger isn't coz i i was asked to learn... d anger is coz i was asked to learn for what i said... agree what i said was not correct... ok lisn to this "if that was a joke it was sick, and if it wanst then you are sick" .. obviously.. the latter part is what struck right where it wasnt suppose to... n the damn ego thing also would play a salt sprinkling role... but y overlook the point htat borught that reaction??
neva mind... i thot i'd give n apology.. only for one reason.. that a little age difference.. so may b out of respect ( for being just a little older than me.. [i wudnt misbehave wid very oldies] ) i thought i'd say sorry.. ni also thot.. since therez one person on the face of this earth.. who currently happens to be naraaz wid me... it isnt really givin me a contending feeling... soooo... ummmm... may b .. i will.. but.. meri galti nahiiiiiiiiii hai!!! the reaction was obivous n i dont regret it.. !! but ok.. i shudnt hav said it may b... but y shudnt i have said it??? whn i dotn like what was told to me.. i cn say wat another person would dislike tooo haina? ..
nai? ... y not?!!!
why does one have to be good all the time?!
i dotn like it somtimes!

newyas... since i've speculated enuf.. may b i will drop in a line...

n yea CPI for Soultions.. here comes Tasneem ! :-s

wanna end a little differently aj.... i happen to come across anothe rOscar Wilde's quote.. n wow.. it seemed like he wrote it keepin me in mind :D

" I love talking about nothing. It is the only thing i know anything about "

Ciaoo!

A rainy day at work

A window pane with water drops

one trickles down, and another follows

making my view incredible



oh that was thunder striking again

reminding me, lady.. ur in office forget rain



the two sides of this window show such different worlds

one's so serious that no one even knows

who cares if its raining or its hot or it snows



the other is 'life'.... to me it appeals

for beauty that it offers, or may b just the peace

gud 'ol days....

Sometimes its wierd to see how your feelings tend to take over you... you jus happen to flow with them, to some world, not very alien to you but different enuf to keep up its mysticity.

"rakhloon chupa ke mein tujhe, saath tere mein hi rahun"
I am lisnin to Maula mere from Anwar... dats my all time favourite.. i can lisn to it jsu about anytime.. in any mood.. not really sure what of it appeals so mcuh to me... but since i;ve put dat line here... that feeling of being possessed perhaps has its own good and bads, i am not real sure what guds n bads m talkin pf.. but yea... it jus struk so i put it in....

I see this cloud, moving at a very steady pace, i dont really have to mention that its a beautiful site, but yea.. therez always been this awe to see the clouds move really fast (i;d seen sm documentry on the discovery channel .. n there was this place somewhere on the globe.. where d clouds were "running" yea..... you stand on ground n look up, u see clouds.. rushing... as if they were to catch a train.. duh :D stupid i know.. hehe )
oh... see... now that cloud aint there... looks like its gone to catch... hehe its train.. :D
Oh i see another one moving... but htis one isnt very fast.... n it doesnt really look like a cloud... i mean u know dat cotton candy look....
that reminds me... it was one of our PRP days... n it was dark by d time ur class finished.. we walked out... n we saw this.. hugeeeee yummy looking cloud.. it was soo white( well since it was dark already.. d sky seemd to compliment its look in beautifying it all the more) n it stood jus beside the tower that has the Wipro logo... it lookd awesome... i dnt havea camera fone..s o cudnt capture that.. but yea.. sm of my frndz did.. not sure if they still have it...

hey.... this song agin reminds me... of PRP... those were such nice days yaa.... y is it dat... you always miss whats gone.. n you want it to come back.... i dint really feel at dat time.. that i;d miss PRP days so much.... they were such... ahh.. nice days yaa.. but that time i think i reminisced college days.... y r we soooo human yaaa... ( :D well i think dats d best we can be :D )

i;d doze off in the pl sql class.. dat ma 'am... hehe.. she sorta got to know my name i think... n later there was this sir too... i dnt remmbr his face ... n ya.. d java guy keets n manso liked.. hehe... ahhh.. its jus bout writing bout them n thinkin bout them... n most importantly... smiling about those days...

that Antakshri yaa.. it was soooooo much fun :D ... manso wud jus b excited.. she neva sang !! silly girl... n yea.. d one wid anil.. hehe.. dat was gud tooo.. i tell ya.. he pathertically messess up the lyrics.. specially of the beautiful oldie songss...
n yea.. dat gameeeee.. kya naam tha yaa uska... wt was dattt... ahh how cni frget... d first level was d cherry.. then d orange.. then a green apple... hehe... anil n me took turns for it... n manso n me too sometimes... .. manso some how enjoyd the screeches i;d make whn eating those.. well.. they were jus dots naa.. hehehe... it was sooo mcuh funn yaaa.. kya tha wo game ka naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam!!! damn!

ahan.. anil dropped me a mail sayin therz sm surprise at his blog.. lemme chl dat out...

Adios !!!

Bloggin from... T4/T/C115

okk i;ve got content to put in here!!...Naidu was jsut at my desk... as Thangarajan was mergin all d files.. he came n sat n turned to me n then lookd at Murli n said.. we must have a clear case session ... i turned my chair n zapped, yes we do !! n then he looked at me.. oh ya.. the other day you changed some files n we had a big problem! ( finally.. he had d guts to tell me!! ) n i said.. yes Thangraj told me about it... n then i explained to him that may be there was some problem coz Thangraj saw the very next moning.. n they were all there... but man!! hez such a.. neva mind! .. wont boil.. Thangraj kept saying.. may be we did some mistake in setting the configuration, coz i checkd the fiels n they were lal there.. but he kept saying.. no.. i checked rite.. they were not there ! dats it! i jus lookd at him wid d.. 'say wateva you want to.. i know i dint do anything rong n m not lisnin to you' look !
n then i turned around to my desk again n he walked away! .. wat a reliefff ! atleast i said it to him!
if you really ask em.. since that time.. i;ve kinda lost intrest in work.. n jus a lil while ago iw as tellin my team mate.. i dunno .. its a weeknd.. but i dnt really feel i;ve done sm gud work for this week.. infact i feel i;ve done no work at all.. i mean nuthin constructive n satisfactory... hmmm thinkin of it now.. yea.. i;ve done sm good handling at the BO cases.. its gud to see a mail.. 'thank you it works fine now'..
newayss janedo.. i opened this to rite bout my new cube.. its at a corner.. n view yahan se is better dan the earlier one :)
i think i like it.. :)

my extension wud change too..so new visitin cards?

Perhaps my last one from this cubicle ... yea.. if you wana reach Tasneem.. you gotto head to T4/T/115 instead of 120 ... duhh.. change again... n y m i soo repugnant towards change.. i kn ow its too....
i had moved off frm d page.. had a very long meetin... bohot din baad colg ke din yaad aagaye.. yaad aagya.. kaise soya karte the classes me.. lol yea.. it was a requirement description presntation before the RFST... aaakhri neend aari thi yaa.. sachme.. col yaad aagya... i js heard the stuff after d break... dats sooo usual of me.. i;d lisn to classes after d breakk hehehe...

newasy..m moving to a new desk.. not very far fromt his one.. but yea.. this window... that crane, those clouds... well m still movin to a place near another window... magar wahan se.. pata nai kaisa view hoga... choti choti baatein yaa.. kitni important hoti hain kabhi... bla its fine magar.. b4 d meetin iw as feelin uneasy bout d move.. now m ok... i dunno y though...

whoz idea was it??? ahhhhhhh cmon!!! who else! my Pm.. mr. Naidu.. ppl workin on d same product must be seated closer to each other.. i gues he made dat decission after he realised i n Soumendra keep movint o each others desk quite often.. :D .. well atleast v discuss!!!

neways... not veyr sure... wrk moving also.. n not moving too.. m really not sure of many thigns.. but blaa.. i aitn takin 1 mim bit of tension fr it.. nah. not any more!

n yyea it still has many things to do with whats goin on around.... but... umm.. welll.. i missedit.. i was gonna say smthin... n thn.. i well yea.. missd it..

calo theek hai neva mind...
almost home goin time..

bubye!

tete-a-tete

Ah.. i jus noticed.. that last one was my 101th.. n it dint deserve to be that bad , but i;ve got something better this time.
This conversation i have here.. i thought it really deserved a place on my blog.. so here goes... n hey.. any one who goes by this... please drop in a line or two.. i have'nt really asked for comments earlier.. but yea.. fr this one.. would like to know what else has the world got to give for this sphere of life ...
Here goes..

somehtin else was here.. but wana cut it short.. starting it from where.. i think it would make sense

Boy :Actually u know.. v can get to know bout d person on phone….
If u r wid d person den u might come to know bout him/her….

Girl: I dint really get you… you can get to know d person on phone…? If ur wid the person you get to kno him/her?

Boy: v cant get to know a person on phone…..

Girl: Ok .. then there ends.. I don’t know you..

Boy: Yoh… btw want ur pt of view….
Why stranger comes in our life changes it and go away… they don’t even show their faces….
Is’t God want us to make realize something.. I dint got d funda behind this….

Girl: Ya dats true… people come .. sm stay.. sm go away never to return, but some of them leave a mark.. n you reminisce that all your life..
Everything has a reason I believe.. n all reasons are not within our means of understanding either..
So since He has planned it.. we let it be that way.. coz He surely has a purpose behind it right..

Boy: So watif I need som one who touched my lif and who is no where with me now… I feel lik all alone in this selfish world…
Wat I shud do now….
‘I’ here not refers ME… it’s a situation…

Girl: :) such situations come in life more often than expected, and this is where one must practice patience. If the person touched your life and now is nowhere to be found, the mark that person has left definitely is more than enuf for you to move on in this world that you’d term selfish. If they cant really be the strength in such situations.. then their presence has never mattered,
But since we are too engrossed about thinking that they are gone and are no more with us, we tend to miss out on what they have left for us. They r gone coz something better is coming your way and coz therez no room for anything less than the BEST for you..

Boy: This was good….

Girl: :) ya.. when I read it again.. I thot it was good too….
You don’t really understand things.. unless you share it.. I dint know that ‘this’ is what I think about such situations until I wrote it to u.. :)

The End

well... thats how it ended... i js got d gist of it n put it here.. cuttin out a few things from the top that werent necessary...

hey... noticed smthn? therz more pink than bluee.... you need more proof that girls talk a lot?? hehe... but yea.. therz one more thing to it.. they talk sense too ;)

newayss... dats bout it..

signing off for the day... or who knows.. i mite get bak ;)

so... for now.. Maassalaama !!

He messed up my beautiful morning !

My mood wasn't as bad as now just a few minutes ago ! i am open o criticism and happen to take it well in my stride, and also realise how to get the better out of myself if its in the right spirit, but hell !! doing it behind my back and not on my face ! what a Loser!!! yea.. m talkin of my manager Naidu! n i hate him today ! just one extra bit of hatred, and dat bit has a humugous size ! , i was ill, had fever, so dint come on friday .... monday mornin, dats just a lil while ago, i waas feelin so good to get back to work, i dont know what made me feel that good, i was really looking forward to doing some good work and heading home satisfied... but this MAN ! is sick !! i am not doing it behind his back.. i would;nt mind if he;d even read this !! i care a damn! but this is true n this is what m feeling for him right now !

My friends told me ( i had first written the name, then removed, i dont really wana put sm1 else into truoble! but howi wish naidu gets to know dat i blog n he stumbles into this page! may b not today.. may b smtime ever in his life, n then he;d realise that after 10 years of work at wipro.. he still had a just fresher talk this way about him... ( apart from the others who know him enuf ! ) ) ya.. so i was told,, Tasneem you were the tlak of the project on friday.. i just looked n asked.,,, umm .. good or bad? ... i was told... what do you expect from these peaople... i said bad..... i was given n affirmation for dat ! n i walkd out for cofee with safa... n i told her too.. for all my hard work.. this is wat i get.. i tell u.. its annoyingly frustrating, .. i know all ppl are'nt bad... when Srimant was there.. i;d do even a very little thing, he woul give me such a nice, 'very good' or when i;d say i dont know if i can do it.. he would give such a confident smile with a ' i know you can do it' ... that would make me do it ! i remmber.. even when he gave me a whole requirement to handle.. i just looked at him and he said... common you made the proposal, and you know about it, you did the estimation too... you can do it... i just smiled, at dat time i knew he was going... even later, when it was his second last day.. he'd come to me n asked how is it going... n i showed him what i did.. and he said.. veryyy goood... you are almost done, and you were simply worried... then i had told him.. i still have Alex for windows to do na Srimant, and he said.. that is very simple when compared to this, you will do it.. and you have a lot of time ( that time i hd about 20 days in hand )... all i mean to say is... whn you are appreciated for what you do, you feel like doing it better, sometimes you really dont know you can do it, unless someone tells you .. you can... you know when Debraj was leaving too, iw as with Srimant and he was showing me somehting, he had come to Srimant's desk and he told me... you are the most promising member of the Alex team now.. it embarassed me a little, coz i did nothing by then,. i had just smiled, and he then told said yes.. you are giving good solutions you all will take care he had said... i js smiled again..
It seems... Naidu was in high spirits on firday yelling about what i did... i messed up the gif files it seems.. hell! did anyone bother to tell me or guide me how to do it?? NO !.. did anyone bother to come n check.. knowing that project is in new hands, did anyone wana know howz the flow? NO ! DAMN! the developers were worried, there was no plan, there was a whole module, whoz code flow NOBODY NOBODY knew!!! and what at this time should the manager do when the developer would go and express their concern over it?.. you know waht i was told? whn i went and said... ia m having a really bad time with Alex for windows.. i dont understand what to do? DAMN.. he just told me... ' try' ... dats it ! even till the end .. he dint get to us... n then when there was may b a week.. Kannan happened to realise n he got into it.. n v had soem talking done to realise how bad d status was.. n we further workd.. getting it to a leel where it was in deliverable state! it was at last moment that he realised n started working with Thangarajan... n even in the middle of that.. NAidu went to the extent of blaming Srimant and Debraj !! n how modest is that for a PM to do??? he speaks ill of those members of the team who worked so hard and did so much, and now that they are gone, he blames them for having messed it up before they left!?!! what could i expect from him??? never did i hope for a word of appreciation from him never! and i never will...
I did'nt delete any files int he main, i;ve worked just in the dev branch, all the gif files, i dint wana lose them. i took care that i;d hav a back up and apart formt hat instead od deleting them i renamed them, if i've done rong, i'll accept it... you hell blame me for wht i have not done.... i care a damn speaking and questioning about it to ANYBOD Y !!! and no this is'nt ATITTUDE!! this is what required to be shown when ppl mess with your dignity !
it seems he discussed all that with Kiran( the onsite guy) .... i always felt he had n idea of what i can do.. and what kinda work i do.. i dont know.. but now.. i dont even want to know ! earlier i thought.. yea.. Alex is MY module, i will work for its excellence, if smthiin would be messed up, i;d be worried, i;d share this with Soumendra, he would say dont worry so much... when the build wasnt ready on time.. i was worried, i felt bad for not having finished on time( not my part... d other one's ) but still... neywas... NOW I CARE A DAMN! A DAMN A DAMN A DAMN!! if he comes and questions me.. i'll answer him... else let him bear with the MISTAKES he claims i ahve made !!
and for now.. m gona put my music on again.. n carry on with the lil enhancements that were mentioned in the mail i got on friday.. n yea.. sm bo cases tooo.. magar ab .. no way m i gona take this stuff seriously... they;ve seen the good of me... if they emss wid me.. they'll have to see the bad of me too... n my bad wouldnt show out ! i'd still do it with dignity !

My Hundredth

what else could i ask for.... its d purrrfect weather i;d wana rite in... a relieved mind.. a peaceful heart.... a dhinchak song list on... 'LeKiN' moooooooood nai hai yaarooo ! :D yawn..... yea its my 100th, so.. gotto be special? hmm yea... lets c now... wat'd i do on my 100th birthday? mmm may b pack my bags for my final trip to my ultimate abode ;), hmm wat'd i do on my 100th mistake? :D prepare well... for the 101th? hehe... mmmm wat'd i do for my 100th friend?.. nah bad count.. i wudnt be able to keep trak of dat ;) ... hmmm at else cn go till dat 100th thing? i dnt really remmber wat i did on my 100th day at work... lets c noww... 100th day... meaning... 4th sept 2006 se 100 workin days... must hv been smtime in december mid.. or almost end nai? .. mmmm then i was still with Avaya... or who knowz.. it must hv been dat very day i mved to Ericsson?! pata nai.. not really in calculation mood....

The tip of my nose is freezing pata hai!! its soooo cold in here ! ...

Its awesomely beautiful outside, the perfectly romantic weathr, the perfect weather for a walk ALONE, the perfect weather for a family picnic, the perfect weather for a day out in the greens wid friends, the perfect weather to play with ur nephew/ niece/ any cute kid/ any kid ;) out in d open... the perfect weather to js watch through a huge window, the perfect weather to write... the perfect one to lisn to really fast music, the perfect one to lisn to rafi / Lata/ Kishore.. or even Jagjit for that matter..... it seems to possess the perfection to remind you of what you loved to do, to remind you of those lovely days in college with friends, to remind you of long talks that usually began with silence, ended with silence... n in the middle.. there was silence :)... to remind you of d time you had in your sister's wedding... to remind you of just about anything pleasant.......hmmm may be its just the perfect weather to perfect one's day :)

L.I.F.E - i had once asked someone what it was to them ( dnt looka t me like dat.. i usually ask wierd stuff to wierd or not so wierd ppl hehe :D ) i dunno.. its a very vague memory m tryin to recollect here... i think i had said.. its all about Learning.. it begins wid it atleast.. n carries on.. until.. wel i dont know when... neways... i was told... ( i dont really remmber who m talkin of yaa.. i js remmber i dint like d person.. but i did like d anser though... ) ya.. so the L in it is Life itself n the E of it is the End of it... duh.. it seemd like.. mmm wo!! to me at dat time.. i was.. well quite young i think... blaa.. neva mind... js wanted to log it.. did it ;)

hmm wil be right bak !!
sachme bohot sardi hori yaa.. m kaanping ... umm dat means shivering..

was off fr lunch.... but m sil feelin cold... i think feverish too.. mummyy hona meku..

Software Engineer ki Dua ;)

Well i cudnt resist puttin this up here... this innocent wish cmz in every s/w engg. 's heart.. m so damn sure!!

lol... neways... check out dis movie .. by d end of it.. i realised.. there wz a a tear waitin to get outa my left eye... it ended jss at d rite time.. so bachgaya(d tear) :D

Aj is... Environment day.. it seems (yea i dint know.. ) n so we had this thing to go out n plant sm jhaads.. umm ok.. paudhe ( if dat sounds any better :D) well i js meant plants..dint wana rite.. plant sm plants.. cz i cudnt rite plant trees.. cz plants grow into trees na.. so u plant plants n plants grow into trees... urrghhh.. neva mind!!.. i put two of 'em inplace :) .. it was.. umm well good to b away frm desk.. n under d sun.. muddy hands n all.. thodi der ke liye hi sahi... wz nice :)
came morning.. n i saw a list of mails frm Kiran.. AT findings (already?!?!) n two fell into my basket.. so had to fix thm.. n wz worried bout it.. so dint get to safa fr cofee.. but they wernt major bugs... fixed thm n forwarded a mail intimating dat d wrks dn n d build cn be ready fr a test for those finidngs.. n abhi tak to kuch nai kare.. so.. i aint duin much.. hey.. d song list hz exhausted.. wait.. lemme play smthin.. oh no.. i had paused it.. to lisn to dat movie.. :D

kuch dhang ke gaane nai hai yaa.. i dint like Jhoom baraabar jhoom all dat much.. they were.. well... blaa... !
those other ones i was lisnin to yesterday.. yea d guy i said who sounded like Atif Aslam... na.. it wasnt him... sm new Pakistani singers.. their album name's Raeth.. good collection... i js loved Akela hun mein .. and Bhulado those wer sent to me by a frnd who happnz to kno my song taste well :)... to0 gud yaa.. luvly compositions.. the otherz in d album wer okie dokie..

To phir aao...

If its difficult to say something... then you know wat its gotto be??.. d damn sickening feelin one has bout terrifying work experaince... n if it easy to say something... THEN you know wat it is??? well its the peace one feels when dat phase has passed.. relief.... yea.. i know wat dat thing really meansss! :) n you know wat keeps tickling n flickering the silly mind at this time?! ahh.. well its... d thought dat this feelin has a short life.. but again.. after that you know wat wraps it all up to give you a better feelin...hhmmm... the " abbe frget it yaar.. abhi ke liye to jeelo" attittude at this time:) n m so glad i have it ;)

mannn i missed this place.... i've had like.. a bad bad time .. n now n ok ok time dat seems like heavenn.. you know its wierd dat a million things keep happening in your life n its so difficult to decide what to pay attention on.... but hey.. prioritizing things in life.. is such a necessity.. you mess dat up.. n u see yourself goin throu it all.. alone!.. n your d one to b blamed han.. but yea.. whats important n wats not so important.. wats ok.. n wats not ok... wats right n wats rong... is o important to find out... n keepin in mind dat they really are important.. it isnt dat you can actually spend a set amount of time deciding n prioritizing.. dat too is js suppose to cm .. well .. in the flow of life.... little things ya... they all make up life.. but.. each of these lil lil thngs.. are such king size biggies if you mess ;em up... silly na.. .. hmm yea..

hmm i dunno who this guy is.. familiar voice.. but cant figure out who it is.. Atif aslam ka hi hai shayad.... nice song but... very high pitch.. nice one yaa.. its gud dat d saddie songs too are cmin up all loaded aj kal.. well yea d Atif aslam ishtyle ;)

aj i aint gna work.. one bit.. hopefully.. although i;ve already got naidu'z mail askin Tharak for a test plan fr Alex.. n i kno i gotto fx d bugs.. but. duh! hell wid it!!!

todays gona b my day.. my music.. my mails my fwds.. my pieces of riting.. sab mine mine mine.. today is a lil.. wierdy kinda day.. dnt ask me y.. i aint tellin ya.. n i kno wn i read this later i aint gna remmber y i calld it wierdy.. so.. its ok..

i had so much to pen down u know.. so much of ponderin over dat i did.. my lil gatherings of silly htoughts n my dumb musings.. but i cudnt belive i dint hav dat time in hand... it wud hardly take me few minutes to put it here. but trust me.. i know what its like when they say.. i dont have time.. i smtimes wud give wierd luks wn i was told that they dont have time.. i guess i;ll sympathise with 'em nxt time anyone tells me dat.. :D

In such times.. or rather after such times.. when you get this lil time fr thigns you like to do... thats wat defines ecstacy.. i feel like m havin one of those yummy Barista muffins js outta d oven dat melttttt in your mouth .. geee hehe...

n hey.. friday was gud.. i was cribbin all d while... butit wsa nice.. i reachd home.. n Sam bhai was js leavin wid Rehan n my sisters to take 'em fr a drive.. n my sisters insisted i;d join .. although i was hell tired.. trust.. i was feelin like a towel that they squeeze to drain out all d water before they dry it under d sun.. yea.. my energy level wr down to dat extent !! but then i joined ;em .. n it was gud time.. it was full moon nite.. yea.. d yellow mooon.. iw as cribbin how i hated this time at wrk n baj kept sayin..i js need a break.. .. i'd open my mouth.. n it wud be fr cribbin.. n she;d yell.. godd.. dont sound dat frustrated tas.. n i;d be quiet then.. :D .. neywas.. i thn v moved fr dinner.. n it was gud.. n thn got bak home.. .. n sat was ok.. not much.. i was tierd.. i felts good bout not feelin tierd.. i felt good i was bak to my normal cookin n mum yellin.. n dad shoutin... n me js noddin ;) :D.. n they again bein fine hehe..

ahh.. ok! a bug! i know i said i wudnt.. but.. mera hi kam hia.. :( .. y d hell m i such a gudy!!

chalo bye.. i think i;ll get bak here.. n yea m still gona hav my songs on.. n i aint gona take thse damn bugs seriously.. fix hua to hua.. nai hua too.. phutoooooooo!!!!