i have noooo idea y m in sucha mood,i;ve got loooooooooooooooads of work to finish u know... soo much dat .. hehe i dont know what m gona do bout it...... i had such time laughing at the wieeeeeeeerddddd bugs my team discovered, and my team was like... luk at this girl.. shez laughing.. lollz trust me i cud do nuthin but laugh at 'em... they were ... soooo wierd :D:D:D.. aneways.. is till got to fix 'em u see.. n waise i dotn remmber posting dat m done wid requiremnt implementation ;) loll yeaaaaaaa ! i still aint thru wid dat, n i already found other things i still will need to fix... n u know d besttttttttttt part... LOL LOLLLL d damn thing doesnt work in Mozilla at alll !! n u shud see what happens to it in Netscape... hehhe..... n damn I GOT TO FIZ IT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLL .... n i dunno by whn.. :D:D:D:D:D n u know another thing dat happnd.. loll.. i cant stop laughin bout it:D:D:D:D:D, its bout a new fela in my team, who i assigned work to ;););) yeaa!! my manager asked me to assign it to him ;) ;) khair... wo banda na.. aj uthaake onsite walon ko.. he sent thisss thrashing mail.. LOL i cudnt stop laughing... khair.. it was this guyz fault han... i was surprised n elderly guy dznt posses such minimum patience? huh!
khairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...... kannan rote a mail whn soud forwarded dat mail to him... sayin,, NAidu call onsite immidiately .. with thte team in CC ! ... :D:D:D:D i replied sayin hez off aaj... ab kal dekhooooooooooooooooo kya hona haiiiiiii.. maza aanewala haiiiiii :D:D:D:D:D
nagada nagaaaada bajaaaaaaaaaa.,,, i dunno wat dat means.. but i tell ya.. its a mmmm yup ! dhinchchchchakkkk is d word for it !! :D:D:D:D
n apart frm all dat i dunno.. m in gud moood aj :):):) u know.. d "special effect" kinddss.. lolll.. hey... namaz time! pushingg off.. ! n there goes my alarm bout d billlssssss.. so i wont frget dropping them down aaj ;):)
nagaaada nagaada nagaaada bajaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
hey 5.30 ko birthday party tooooo ...mmmm n i cant stay back eva aga8in.. coz of d pune wipro episode.. dad gave me SUPER DUPER STRICT instructions bout my aana aand jaana...
chalooooooooooooooooooooooo
bassssss
ab byee :):D:)
Monday, November 05, 2007
Thursday, November 01, 2007
okk i feel better..
no id int talk to him about it.. he dint have the time, he was bz discussin the after offs of the demo, n sicne the feedback was gud he was happy.. neways...
they js got back frm a status meet, n kiran walked staright upto me n gave me a serious look n said... 'do u know what happened in the status meeting today?' he never comes n shares those meeting minutes wid me, but this was like.. i had my headfones on, so i pulled them off, n turned around n gave him that.. " o ooo did they ask us to deliver it tomorrow???? or did we do smthin again" look... n then he smiled n said , they are very very happy with today;s demo and said that after last time;s demo they thought that we cant reach very far and that we may have postone th release to a very far date, they dint see solutions being taken into use untill far future, but it seems after aj ka demo they see it happen very near in future... n he (Kiran) ended by saying, congratulations, its urs n jawahar's hardwork... i replied wid a smile.. n usi time pe naidu was also there.. but no !! he dint walk up to me to say anything similar... see! dats the kinds fela he is !!
umm ok.. but he did say thank you to me n jawahar durin the demo fr workin well over the week.. blaaaaaaaaaaa
he stil is bad! n hez rite behind me rite now! i stilll care a damn! coz i dont like him for a million reasons :(
leaving fr d day, baba is gona b bak frm d farm today... so cant b late aj..adios..
they js got back frm a status meet, n kiran walked staright upto me n gave me a serious look n said... 'do u know what happened in the status meeting today?' he never comes n shares those meeting minutes wid me, but this was like.. i had my headfones on, so i pulled them off, n turned around n gave him that.. " o ooo did they ask us to deliver it tomorrow???? or did we do smthin again" look... n then he smiled n said , they are very very happy with today;s demo and said that after last time;s demo they thought that we cant reach very far and that we may have postone th release to a very far date, they dint see solutions being taken into use untill far future, but it seems after aj ka demo they see it happen very near in future... n he (Kiran) ended by saying, congratulations, its urs n jawahar's hardwork... i replied wid a smile.. n usi time pe naidu was also there.. but no !! he dint walk up to me to say anything similar... see! dats the kinds fela he is !!
umm ok.. but he did say thank you to me n jawahar durin the demo fr workin well over the week.. blaaaaaaaaaaa
he stil is bad! n hez rite behind me rite now! i stilll care a damn! coz i dont like him for a million reasons :(
leaving fr d day, baba is gona b bak frm d farm today... so cant b late aj..adios..
i hate him!
i always always always did !! sometimes i had strong enuf reasons, sometimes i js cudnt help it and sometimes i cudnt find a reason not to hate him and so i always hated him! this time again!! i aheva reason! he doesnt have the minimumm ettiquets to be a manager!! ( ok may b m sayin this in the heat of the moment! but rite now! i really feel dat way ! )
i was 5 minutes late for the demo, agree d fault was mine, not htat i ditn plan the whole thing or anything, but ok i will take the blame for those 5 minutes! it was scheduled at two n iw as here at dot 2.5 and he dint call the client yet, obviously he cudnt without me ! I askd jawahar if the library is ready, he said NO!! now there!!!!! i told him about it at 11 o clok and he said he;d make it !, n iw as suppose to deploy it, my set up was IN PLACE i js had to mail him the url, and i did dat at 2.5 dot ! but that library was one definite thing they;d ask for a show ! and jaw had to do it ! he frgot or what i dont know... but it wasnt there and so we both started making it that time, it wud take 8 to 10 minutes, n naidu was watchin all this.. i knew we wudnt have the library in time so i immidiately did a rebuild with a different configuration and had another url set up... by then naidu called them up, and u know what he tells the client??? he told them that we need a little more time coz Tasneem is a bit late and is not back from lunch yet !! huhh!!! when i was rite rite in fron of his damn eyes and he saw me help d other guys wid d library!! what gud is dat?? how low can he get down? hez a manager n well this is how he manages a situation? at the cost of anotherz reputaiton?.. id otn care what !! but hell if i luk at it out f the ring!! that man!!! potrayed me as an irresponsible person who wasnt on time for a scheduled meeeting !! and we apparently started the demo at 2.30 and he mutes the call and tells me, say Hi and then start of ! HUH ! and the worst thing is that he doesnt think what he did is rong!
i aint gona let himm of so easily ! he has to answer me on that !
i hate him and now i know y !!
well but the end result of the demo was gud.. coz... well they liked it.. i mean the client was satisfied with the demo, and mentioned "good" quite a few times, and we also got n appreciation mail from the onsite co ordinator that we put up a gud show ... ( and this is the biggest surprise, coz me and jawahar.. the developers werent very ssatisfied with tht outcome) they were impressed by the images i designed.... the last moment work i did by staying back for n hour yesterdya... yea.. dat paid off... they luvd dat bit of work dat i did.. !
but i still hate himm !!
i was 5 minutes late for the demo, agree d fault was mine, not htat i ditn plan the whole thing or anything, but ok i will take the blame for those 5 minutes! it was scheduled at two n iw as here at dot 2.5 and he dint call the client yet, obviously he cudnt without me ! I askd jawahar if the library is ready, he said NO!! now there!!!!! i told him about it at 11 o clok and he said he;d make it !, n iw as suppose to deploy it, my set up was IN PLACE i js had to mail him the url, and i did dat at 2.5 dot ! but that library was one definite thing they;d ask for a show ! and jaw had to do it ! he frgot or what i dont know... but it wasnt there and so we both started making it that time, it wud take 8 to 10 minutes, n naidu was watchin all this.. i knew we wudnt have the library in time so i immidiately did a rebuild with a different configuration and had another url set up... by then naidu called them up, and u know what he tells the client??? he told them that we need a little more time coz Tasneem is a bit late and is not back from lunch yet !! huhh!!! when i was rite rite in fron of his damn eyes and he saw me help d other guys wid d library!! what gud is dat?? how low can he get down? hez a manager n well this is how he manages a situation? at the cost of anotherz reputaiton?.. id otn care what !! but hell if i luk at it out f the ring!! that man!!! potrayed me as an irresponsible person who wasnt on time for a scheduled meeeting !! and we apparently started the demo at 2.30 and he mutes the call and tells me, say Hi and then start of ! HUH ! and the worst thing is that he doesnt think what he did is rong!
i aint gona let himm of so easily ! he has to answer me on that !
i hate him and now i know y !!
well but the end result of the demo was gud.. coz... well they liked it.. i mean the client was satisfied with the demo, and mentioned "good" quite a few times, and we also got n appreciation mail from the onsite co ordinator that we put up a gud show ... ( and this is the biggest surprise, coz me and jawahar.. the developers werent very ssatisfied with tht outcome) they were impressed by the images i designed.... the last moment work i did by staying back for n hour yesterdya... yea.. dat paid off... they luvd dat bit of work dat i did.. !
but i still hate himm !!
u know... the deewane pane ki baarish kindsss ;);)
Most of my team mates stayed back for work yesterday, not that THAT was my reason to stay back, i had my dumb work to finish n for a change it was movign well n cud hav been done for a gud show this morning (i;ve got jus one tiny bit pending n i'll fix dat after this.. ).. neways... i tuk the 7 shuttle, n was at mehdipatnam around... 7.45 or so... the bus stopd n i stepped down, n guess what??? i dont see my foot!!!!!!! it was totally immersed in dat ganda paani... wel okk.. i mean.. it was raining sooooooooooo heavily, u know the kinda rain they call " its raining cats n dogs" ( i dunno where i heard dat.. sounds dumb naii? ! ) khair... kyaaaaaaaa baaarishhh, kyaaaaa baarishh.. kyaaaa baarishhhhhh.. it wasss awesome :):):)... i js stepped down n within less than a minute my burqa was dripping, n ya the lower half was aneways soaked!!! n i cudnt stop smiling in that condition! :) i dnt remmber whn i bheegofied like dat.. it was :):):):):):):) yeaaa dat kind.... i have this vagueee memory of similar rains, wayyy bak in coll days, i guess it was first year, saf anways hates rain, but.. far wasnt sportive enuf either dat day.. n i remmber juvi n ash n af were there too.. hmmm aisi kuch kuch tha shayad, wo.. parking wale shed ke pas we stood for a while to let the rain sober down :D
khair.. kal i dint hava choice.. not dat i;d choose otherwise if i;d b given any :D:D:D:D, i walked to get n auto which i was sure iw udnt get! ( the damn auto strike!) .. blaaa.. khair.. mazaa aagya kal to bheegke, i had js one fear, agar koi manhole khula hota! :D:D:D:D:D:D hehehehe.. u get it dont ya ;);) so iw as bein jssss a lil careful... i finally got na uto.. jo thodi door chalke kharab hogya, so again i had no means to reach home, but dat fella was gud enuf to ask me to hold on fr a hwile n started his auto but bad mannn! he dint take me till my home! he stopped at the lane saying therz tooo much water in there ! ( waise han tha to sahi.. FIR BHI!!!!) iw alked home wahan se.. wid directions from my cousin who was peeping out of her home untill i reached mine safely.... cz i cud hardly see anything.. except lottttttttttttttttts of water :D
magar baaarish to khoob thi :) maza aagya, n u know i had the radio on dat time.. n guess what number was playin? haha! one of my favs! ... 'in dinon' from the movie metro :D, i cudnt stop smiling.. ofcourse at the risk of seeming foolish to the rest of the world who must have thought " deewane pane ki barish + no auto+ flooded roads + no way to reach home + alone + smiling wo bhi akele!" hehehe dumb nai...
chalo, have another demo scheduled at 2 ! ...
khair.. kal i dint hava choice.. not dat i;d choose otherwise if i;d b given any :D:D:D:D, i walked to get n auto which i was sure iw udnt get! ( the damn auto strike!) .. blaaa.. khair.. mazaa aagya kal to bheegke, i had js one fear, agar koi manhole khula hota! :D:D:D:D:D:D hehehehe.. u get it dont ya ;);) so iw as bein jssss a lil careful... i finally got na uto.. jo thodi door chalke kharab hogya, so again i had no means to reach home, but dat fella was gud enuf to ask me to hold on fr a hwile n started his auto but bad mannn! he dint take me till my home! he stopped at the lane saying therz tooo much water in there ! ( waise han tha to sahi.. FIR BHI!!!!) iw alked home wahan se.. wid directions from my cousin who was peeping out of her home untill i reached mine safely.... cz i cud hardly see anything.. except lottttttttttttttttts of water :D
magar baaarish to khoob thi :) maza aagya, n u know i had the radio on dat time.. n guess what number was playin? haha! one of my favs! ... 'in dinon' from the movie metro :D, i cudnt stop smiling.. ofcourse at the risk of seeming foolish to the rest of the world who must have thought " deewane pane ki barish + no auto+ flooded roads + no way to reach home + alone + smiling wo bhi akele!" hehehe dumb nai...
chalo, have another demo scheduled at 2 ! ...
Monday, October 29, 2007
published on 30th, frgot yest :D
ye dilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
i dunno whats wid d mood, not one bit of work m hatin it.. i mean work.. n luvin this.. i mean the music n the no no noooooo work at all thing, i've got so many msngr windows on , n they go blink blink blink :D
u know i;ve got this reaaaaalyyyyyyyyyyy dhinchakk kinda list playing!! the typical bollywood stuf wid lotsssssssssa beats n boom n ping n pong n ting n tong n wateva else, u know.. the beedi jalaile, vaari vaari, dus bahane, its rocking, khal bali, rubaruu... yeaaaaaaa those kinda tracks, n :D i like it for a change!! its on full vol, i put it aside so the others cud lisn to sm of it too but thn i put them on again... wnt it js fr myslef!
so its no work mood n hell wid d demo i dunno wats gona happn wid it.. i dnt realy care anymore either.. soo.. letss.. ccc noww :):)
geee its tauba tauba ufff ;) playin noww..
n m offffffffffffffffffffffff
i dunno whats wid d mood, not one bit of work m hatin it.. i mean work.. n luvin this.. i mean the music n the no no noooooo work at all thing, i've got so many msngr windows on , n they go blink blink blink :D
u know i;ve got this reaaaaalyyyyyyyyyyy dhinchakk kinda list playing!! the typical bollywood stuf wid lotsssssssssa beats n boom n ping n pong n ting n tong n wateva else, u know.. the beedi jalaile, vaari vaari, dus bahane, its rocking, khal bali, rubaruu... yeaaaaaaa those kinda tracks, n :D i like it for a change!! its on full vol, i put it aside so the others cud lisn to sm of it too but thn i put them on again... wnt it js fr myslef!
so its no work mood n hell wid d demo i dunno wats gona happn wid it.. i dnt realy care anymore either.. soo.. letss.. ccc noww :):)
geee its tauba tauba ufff ;) playin noww..
n m offffffffffffffffffffffff
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Am I or am I not..
Its such a wierd thought
what am i trying to sought
it lies there in front of me
but i wish to see it not
will someone wake me up
tell me its a dream
i promise not to sleep
if you just temme this is a dream
can this be true although i wish it were not
but it tells me, its over n i have lost
not that it was mine not that i tried
but i still feel the loss, a thought that seem to have died
therez agony on the other side
that anguish is perhaps more than my tide
can i wish for it to subside
with a hope that this wish He wouldnt override
what am i trying to sought
it lies there in front of me
but i wish to see it not
will someone wake me up
tell me its a dream
i promise not to sleep
if you just temme this is a dream
can this be true although i wish it were not
but it tells me, its over n i have lost
not that it was mine not that i tried
but i still feel the loss, a thought that seem to have died
therez agony on the other side
that anguish is perhaps more than my tide
can i wish for it to subside
with a hope that this wish He wouldnt override
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
He's havin fun at the cost of my day??
It feels like its yucky day season goin on !
a pathetic day start ! sheesh its like things are waiting at every corner to just topple down as soon as they see me pass byyy... mmmmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
it wasnt oneeee bit of my fault! i got up on time, got dressed on time, had breakfast on time, n was ouuta home ON TIME!
ab kya hua malum?? damn damn damn!! i dunno watss wid these damn auto guyz! they dont lisn when u ask them to put d meter on, they js want to dump in as many people as possible n take them to a common destiantion! i hate them! nuthing effects them! even a very gud offer to take a customer ALONE to their desired destination does not lure them! i dunno wats gone into them!!!
sooooo the outcome??? huh! i missed my bus, it was 8 a;ready n i wasnt at my stop! how long wud the bus uncle wait! then i thought.. ok... ive missd it i know... i'll take the rtc bus ( man i hate itttt!! ) but it was n ok alternative! better dan the sevn seaters, i dunno m allergic to 'em cn neva eva eva eva travel in dat ! neways.. hold on.. my build is done!
bla it dint go well.. did it again... neva mindd...
yea so where was i ! ab dekho.. since i decided i'd take d bus... wo bus aana na??? the damnnn thing!!!!!! it dint turn up in a whole 40 minutes i was standing there!! can u imagine! a bus dat has a frequesncy of less than 15 minutes in that area, dint turn up in a whole 40 minutes!!! n that that thattttt had to happen the samn day i wudnt get n auto n hence miss my bus!! huhhh!! all thisss for nooooooooo damn fault o mineeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
neva mind yaa.. i aint in d mood to rethink the incident n put it here, whn i;ve done it almost.. but wateva... as i was typin all this, i saw things go worse.. guess what i did to add on to my frustration? huh... hit the main switch wid my leg ( by mistake as usual !! i dunno y they hav d power suplly down there! ) n then i had to restart n bla n bla n bla..
although i started ritin this in d mornin.. i havnt published it by..w ell... noon !? huh.. yea.... n my mood is kinda the same.. well ok a lil better.. i bought myself a fruit n nut to calm myself down.. n i;m gona have it all alone! not a cube to any one!!
will get bak to wrk now! n knowwww wat???? got a mil frm d manager wid instructions dat read ( in his silly english! ) dat therz too much chatting and browsing goin on in d team and dats pulling down th productivity level ! yea yea yea rrrrrritE! dats y i tell him to distribute work! bla ok.. neva mind.. dat wasnt for me... how i wish it was :(
but u know.. this day really gave me dat feeling of being mocked at!... by whom? Him ! it seemed like, Hez sittin up there, n playin around wid my day, js to tease me ! :-X u know.. like u irritate a baby n then wn hez almost cryin, u hug him to comfort him n u certainly feel gud bouti t... yeaaaa dats exacttttly what i feel He is doin wid me todayyy !!!
khairr khairrrrr... my chocs waiting....
ciao!!
a pathetic day start ! sheesh its like things are waiting at every corner to just topple down as soon as they see me pass byyy... mmmmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
it wasnt oneeee bit of my fault! i got up on time, got dressed on time, had breakfast on time, n was ouuta home ON TIME!
ab kya hua malum?? damn damn damn!! i dunno watss wid these damn auto guyz! they dont lisn when u ask them to put d meter on, they js want to dump in as many people as possible n take them to a common destiantion! i hate them! nuthing effects them! even a very gud offer to take a customer ALONE to their desired destination does not lure them! i dunno wats gone into them!!!
sooooo the outcome??? huh! i missed my bus, it was 8 a;ready n i wasnt at my stop! how long wud the bus uncle wait! then i thought.. ok... ive missd it i know... i'll take the rtc bus ( man i hate itttt!! ) but it was n ok alternative! better dan the sevn seaters, i dunno m allergic to 'em cn neva eva eva eva travel in dat ! neways.. hold on.. my build is done!
bla it dint go well.. did it again... neva mindd...
yea so where was i ! ab dekho.. since i decided i'd take d bus... wo bus aana na??? the damnnn thing!!!!!! it dint turn up in a whole 40 minutes i was standing there!! can u imagine! a bus dat has a frequesncy of less than 15 minutes in that area, dint turn up in a whole 40 minutes!!! n that that thattttt had to happen the samn day i wudnt get n auto n hence miss my bus!! huhhh!! all thisss for nooooooooo damn fault o mineeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
neva mind yaa.. i aint in d mood to rethink the incident n put it here, whn i;ve done it almost.. but wateva... as i was typin all this, i saw things go worse.. guess what i did to add on to my frustration? huh... hit the main switch wid my leg ( by mistake as usual !! i dunno y they hav d power suplly down there! ) n then i had to restart n bla n bla n bla..
although i started ritin this in d mornin.. i havnt published it by..w ell... noon !? huh.. yea.... n my mood is kinda the same.. well ok a lil better.. i bought myself a fruit n nut to calm myself down.. n i;m gona have it all alone! not a cube to any one!!
will get bak to wrk now! n knowwww wat???? got a mil frm d manager wid instructions dat read ( in his silly english! ) dat therz too much chatting and browsing goin on in d team and dats pulling down th productivity level ! yea yea yea rrrrrritE! dats y i tell him to distribute work! bla ok.. neva mind.. dat wasnt for me... how i wish it was :(
but u know.. this day really gave me dat feeling of being mocked at!... by whom? Him ! it seemed like, Hez sittin up there, n playin around wid my day, js to tease me ! :-X u know.. like u irritate a baby n then wn hez almost cryin, u hug him to comfort him n u certainly feel gud bouti t... yeaaaa dats exacttttly what i feel He is doin wid me todayyy !!!
khairr khairrrrr... my chocs waiting....
ciao!!
Friday, October 19, 2007
wind n storm n tornadoes or anything more worse?
how difficult can it be to describe a heart storm that occurs in the middle of a brain storm? n to worsen it, we see that these two storms are contained in another humungous storrm... waht more? you know these lil storms inside the big one, are already tellin me... hey Tasneem , this is jus the beginning, we gotto go a long long way !!
huh!
huh!
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
i dunnooooooooooo
I logged into messenger, totally frustrated hating Ericsson (earlier i hated just Wipro, now i know Ericsson is the major culprit) muuuuuummmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,
i've got this terrible cold ( yea coz of the ice cream i ate from Zainab , Baqar and Rehan... "such chote chote kids n itna bada ice cream each" i thot, n so made some stupid sad faces to blackmail them n they all stood in a line taking turns to give me bites and licks of the ice cream :D) n ab dekhooooo, galaa is totallllyy off d mark ! i;ve got a reddd nose now! sniff n sneeze man!!! naidu mst have heard my sneezes sooo many times since morning, but i still know that manager of mineee... uurrghhhh neva mindd..
han to khairr.... d damn point wass... dat m here coz m sickkkk of work, aint it wierd, m sick of work everyday n i still cm back n do it ! huh !!! smthinz terribly rong wid me... but u know one gud thing... i finally figured out how to add that SL parameter and where to add it :) i;m soo relieved it !! but i still ahd sm questions n so mailed Soud, then also checked wid Kiran, so now have a better insight of it..
hmmm Anil was tellin me... your much better than us Tasneem, the important thing isss.. you have work ! n i gave him dat duh luk wid that dumb smiley n said, Anilz, peace is whats most important.. n i see my self heading towards n edge that lacks itt... ( how thoughtful? huh Applying thought!! yeaaa rrrrite! gimme a breakk ! )
mmmmmm my right shoulder is in pain, coz of the mouse effect i guess... sheesh i'll go nuts if i stay longer in this industry :(
Hey... u know what i;ve thot of.... i aneways have plans to learn Arabic, the Quran and Sunnah and the Fiqh... mmmmmm when else m i gonna start?
kya hai ki yaarooo.. beekaaaaaaaar ka dimaag kharab hai yaan! bohottt phirti meri aise situations me !
Butttt.. hey Eid is smthin i cn luk fwd to :) :)
okkk Gayatri wants me offfff the sys now!
so ciao !!
i've got this terrible cold ( yea coz of the ice cream i ate from Zainab , Baqar and Rehan... "such chote chote kids n itna bada ice cream each" i thot, n so made some stupid sad faces to blackmail them n they all stood in a line taking turns to give me bites and licks of the ice cream :D) n ab dekhooooo, galaa is totallllyy off d mark ! i;ve got a reddd nose now! sniff n sneeze man!!! naidu mst have heard my sneezes sooo many times since morning, but i still know that manager of mineee... uurrghhhh neva mindd..
han to khairr.... d damn point wass... dat m here coz m sickkkk of work, aint it wierd, m sick of work everyday n i still cm back n do it ! huh !!! smthinz terribly rong wid me... but u know one gud thing... i finally figured out how to add that SL parameter and where to add it :) i;m soo relieved it !! but i still ahd sm questions n so mailed Soud, then also checked wid Kiran, so now have a better insight of it..
hmmm Anil was tellin me... your much better than us Tasneem, the important thing isss.. you have work ! n i gave him dat duh luk wid that dumb smiley n said, Anilz, peace is whats most important.. n i see my self heading towards n edge that lacks itt... ( how thoughtful? huh Applying thought!! yeaaa rrrrite! gimme a breakk ! )
mmmmmm my right shoulder is in pain, coz of the mouse effect i guess... sheesh i'll go nuts if i stay longer in this industry :(
Hey... u know what i;ve thot of.... i aneways have plans to learn Arabic, the Quran and Sunnah and the Fiqh... mmmmmm when else m i gonna start?
kya hai ki yaarooo.. beekaaaaaaaar ka dimaag kharab hai yaan! bohottt phirti meri aise situations me !
Butttt.. hey Eid is smthin i cn luk fwd to :) :)
okkk Gayatri wants me offfff the sys now!
so ciao !!
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Melancholy
Today again i heard a cry
a bruised heart's moan
a heavy sad sigh....
There's wind and rain
and buds in pain
A smile that's faint
and beauty stained
A tear that rolled
down the cheek
just that one
could a million words speak
In the darkness of the nite
there was a plea for light
Alas! in vain
'coz none cared his plite..
a bruised heart's moan
a heavy sad sigh....
There's wind and rain
and buds in pain
A smile that's faint
and beauty stained
A tear that rolled
down the cheek
just that one
could a million words speak
In the darkness of the nite
there was a plea for light
Alas! in vain
'coz none cared his plite..
Mansooooooo, these r fr u !
Aap se hai mohabbat aapse hi hai inkaar
Aap se hai gila bhi aapse hi hai takraar
Dil chaahe bhi milna dur rehna bhi chaahe
Hain baatein kuch kehna kuch sunna bhi chaahe
Hai kaisi ye kaifiyath kuch samajhna na chaahe
Jo dil mein hain baatein zubaan par laana na chaahe
Suna hai isi ko kehte hain mohabbat
Hai kaisi ye ulfat ke iqraar karna na chaahe
_________________________________________________
Falak pe chand taaron ki baaraat saji hai
Chehre pe unke aisi hi kuch muskaan saji hai
Naa jaane kya sukoon hai unke intezaar me
Mit si jaati hai har thakaan unke deedaar se
Naayaab si lagti hai zindagi unke saath se
Aabaad hai hamari dunya unki ek haan se
Aap se hai gila bhi aapse hi hai takraar
Dil chaahe bhi milna dur rehna bhi chaahe
Hain baatein kuch kehna kuch sunna bhi chaahe
Hai kaisi ye kaifiyath kuch samajhna na chaahe
Jo dil mein hain baatein zubaan par laana na chaahe
Suna hai isi ko kehte hain mohabbat
Hai kaisi ye ulfat ke iqraar karna na chaahe
_________________________________________________
Falak pe chand taaron ki baaraat saji hai
Chehre pe unke aisi hi kuch muskaan saji hai
Naa jaane kya sukoon hai unke intezaar me
Mit si jaati hai har thakaan unke deedaar se
Naayaab si lagti hai zindagi unke saath se
Aabaad hai hamari dunya unki ek haan se
Ummmmmm
OkKkKkKk!!!
i havent really gone much ahead from where i was last time u know... its been such a crawling journey n NO i dnt really like it that much.... but well.. i remmber saying similar stuff when i was redesigning the eniter toolbar of ALEX and smhow, i was through it.. n mmmmmm ok ok ... it ended well n dats all i want this time too...
khair, kuch hua, i hope aur kuch hojayee...
Eidddddddd :) n u know wat? i asked my manager fr leaves( i dnt belive i ws asking for something that was already mine!!!! huh dat aint Tasneem!!! ) neways... n like usual he gave me his billability crap and said, Tasneem three days is just not possbile, i told him of the Soultion's status ( well atleast now he has n idea dat m havein a bad time! but hell he still emphasizes on just one damn thing n dats it shud b done on time! as ifff.. ahhh nevaa minnddd) yea so khair he said no, but i still walked out sayin myself, i aint cmin fr three days n wateva he says i'll say ya i;ll try to b bak soon but i aneways m gona take three days o my leave! ab wo kaunse din lena hai, wo i gotto plann....
hmmm sholapur jaare mum baba log to get bhabi and the babyyyyy :):) Omar, and heyy! by the time i reached home yesterda, bhabi( d other one) and Fouad( yea dats his name;s spellin n i thot it was Fawad) was already home.. and i tell ya MashAllah, hez such a :):):):):D:D:D:D:D:):):):).. okk.. u get d point dont ya ;)
khair... to apart frm dat.. well ya i wana join mum n dad n fam to sholapur.. ir eally reallyy realllyyy need a change and a breakk!!
mmmm chalo dats bout it... n hey manso dear.. this post is a dedication to u :), not dat i hav any gudy content worth of dedication, but since u told me u kept chkin n dint find updates :) thanxx fr keepin trak of me yaa :).. makes me feel gud dat ur bothered :)
Adioss!!
i havent really gone much ahead from where i was last time u know... its been such a crawling journey n NO i dnt really like it that much.... but well.. i remmber saying similar stuff when i was redesigning the eniter toolbar of ALEX and smhow, i was through it.. n mmmmmm ok ok ... it ended well n dats all i want this time too...
khair, kuch hua, i hope aur kuch hojayee...
Eidddddddd :) n u know wat? i asked my manager fr leaves( i dnt belive i ws asking for something that was already mine!!!! huh dat aint Tasneem!!! ) neways... n like usual he gave me his billability crap and said, Tasneem three days is just not possbile, i told him of the Soultion's status ( well atleast now he has n idea dat m havein a bad time! but hell he still emphasizes on just one damn thing n dats it shud b done on time! as ifff.. ahhh nevaa minnddd) yea so khair he said no, but i still walked out sayin myself, i aint cmin fr three days n wateva he says i'll say ya i;ll try to b bak soon but i aneways m gona take three days o my leave! ab wo kaunse din lena hai, wo i gotto plann....
hmmm sholapur jaare mum baba log to get bhabi and the babyyyyy :):) Omar, and heyy! by the time i reached home yesterda, bhabi( d other one) and Fouad( yea dats his name;s spellin n i thot it was Fawad) was already home.. and i tell ya MashAllah, hez such a :):):):):D:D:D:D:D:):):):).. okk.. u get d point dont ya ;)
khair... to apart frm dat.. well ya i wana join mum n dad n fam to sholapur.. ir eally reallyy realllyyy need a change and a breakk!!
mmmm chalo dats bout it... n hey manso dear.. this post is a dedication to u :), not dat i hav any gudy content worth of dedication, but since u told me u kept chkin n dint find updates :) thanxx fr keepin trak of me yaa :).. makes me feel gud dat ur bothered :)
Adioss!!
Friday, October 05, 2007
(: Another babyyyy :)
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnddddddddddddddddddddddddddd we'r gona calll himmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Fawad
:)
Fawad
:)
kitneeee din hogayee naaaaa !!!
u knoww what??? its beennn.. hooooooooooooooooooooooo soooooooooooo long since i posted ! dont ask me wats goin on, but therz like.. so much happening and lots goin on, n well smtimes it feels like.. nah it aint much for a mention n smtimes i go like.. OH MY GOD!! m i gona remmber dat this happnd or do i need to blog it ;)
newayss... hav loads f work to do, n its in pathetic condition! n i really mean pathetic!!! i dunno whats gona wid Solutions! m heading NOWHERE wid it, n like alwayss.. i feel.. naidu cares a damn, so now again, for a whole week i gues i;ve had almost a similar attittude, but noww its really pissing me off, quality god damn!! i dont know y i;m such a .. urrrrgghhhh neva mind!!
yesterday, or may be hmmm two days since yesterday were like sooo .. sooo... i dunno what, i was at my all time low, for.. well GOd knows reasons.. n man was it bad, i screwed up many things... but then yesterday evening.. :) it was nice, i felt so much better, dont ask me y, i aint tellin ya! :D ;) :D
but ya, those bad bad bad n sad sad sad n low low low times, were ...ummm.. not gud ! n it was perhaps also the first time when my bestest buddies were also feelin similar lows ( this was like such a hysterical coincidence). i got a mail from asma askin me to call.. when i did, she heard my terrible 'hello' n went like, whats with you, i said kuch nai u say.. n looooooo... first time i guess, i cudnt really comfort her as well as i alwayss do. We spoke for about 40 minutes or so... then another 20 minutes later, i get a call from Fariya, she asks me to call back... i called.. n ahhhh what a sad tone i hear from the other end, i went like.. whats wid d day aj !! ... she was missing her father.. but again, i dint comfort her as well as i always do, so she was kinda worried coz it was the usual, she;d probably hang up pnly when se was satisfied n feeling better after talkin to me, but dat day.,,, smthin was kinda missin so... well nxt day she called up again to ask me what went rong, n nah i dint have n answer, we realised dat it was such a stupid talk we had that lasted bout n hour, n man it must have sounded sooooooo depressing, coz fr d first time, both of us.. were feeling not so gud (its neva like dat, its usually one of us or none of us ).
n hey, yesterday morning was such a wierdoo too, i got up a lil late n missd my bus, tuk d rtc one, n then got stuck in traffic at toli chowki (it was soooooooo bad kal ! coz f n accident f a sweeper who died on the spot after being hit by the driver of the DPS school bus ) khair i finally reached work at 10.30!!
khair chalo yaro, thoda kaam karlinge... horaich nai merse :(
yallaaaaaa m off now!
Adioss!!!
wooooooooooooooooooo i frgot to mention, we have a new member in our family now, Sajid bhia wants to call him Omar, baba had said Osman, abhi tak to we r calling him OSman, but chalo if bhia insists, we'll call him Omar. n ya, today inshAllah, we are gona have one more lil one joining our family :) I dunno what Sadeq bhia wants to call him, but i luv this name Bilal (if its a boy ! ) n i realllyyyy wanted to call someone Alisha (its such a beautiful name, it means protected by Allah) so i hope its a girl :D:D, but m not sure if baba wud agree to dat :(
khairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr chalo bye!
newayss... hav loads f work to do, n its in pathetic condition! n i really mean pathetic!!! i dunno whats gona wid Solutions! m heading NOWHERE wid it, n like alwayss.. i feel.. naidu cares a damn, so now again, for a whole week i gues i;ve had almost a similar attittude, but noww its really pissing me off, quality god damn!! i dont know y i;m such a .. urrrrgghhhh neva mind!!
yesterday, or may be hmmm two days since yesterday were like sooo .. sooo... i dunno what, i was at my all time low, for.. well GOd knows reasons.. n man was it bad, i screwed up many things... but then yesterday evening.. :) it was nice, i felt so much better, dont ask me y, i aint tellin ya! :D ;) :D
but ya, those bad bad bad n sad sad sad n low low low times, were ...ummm.. not gud ! n it was perhaps also the first time when my bestest buddies were also feelin similar lows ( this was like such a hysterical coincidence). i got a mail from asma askin me to call.. when i did, she heard my terrible 'hello' n went like, whats with you, i said kuch nai u say.. n looooooo... first time i guess, i cudnt really comfort her as well as i alwayss do. We spoke for about 40 minutes or so... then another 20 minutes later, i get a call from Fariya, she asks me to call back... i called.. n ahhhh what a sad tone i hear from the other end, i went like.. whats wid d day aj !! ... she was missing her father.. but again, i dint comfort her as well as i always do, so she was kinda worried coz it was the usual, she;d probably hang up pnly when se was satisfied n feeling better after talkin to me, but dat day.,,, smthin was kinda missin so... well nxt day she called up again to ask me what went rong, n nah i dint have n answer, we realised dat it was such a stupid talk we had that lasted bout n hour, n man it must have sounded sooooooo depressing, coz fr d first time, both of us.. were feeling not so gud (its neva like dat, its usually one of us or none of us ).
n hey, yesterday morning was such a wierdoo too, i got up a lil late n missd my bus, tuk d rtc one, n then got stuck in traffic at toli chowki (it was soooooooo bad kal ! coz f n accident f a sweeper who died on the spot after being hit by the driver of the DPS school bus ) khair i finally reached work at 10.30!!
khair chalo yaro, thoda kaam karlinge... horaich nai merse :(
yallaaaaaa m off now!
Adioss!!!
wooooooooooooooooooo i frgot to mention, we have a new member in our family now, Sajid bhia wants to call him Omar, baba had said Osman, abhi tak to we r calling him OSman, but chalo if bhia insists, we'll call him Omar. n ya, today inshAllah, we are gona have one more lil one joining our family :) I dunno what Sadeq bhia wants to call him, but i luv this name Bilal (if its a boy ! ) n i realllyyyy wanted to call someone Alisha (its such a beautiful name, it means protected by Allah) so i hope its a girl :D:D, but m not sure if baba wud agree to dat :(
khairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr chalo bye!
Thursday, September 20, 2007
* ting ting ti ting *
geee... i dinno i;d b able to do dat so soon :D:D
thank god fr d damn reusability concept we have!! n my silly eyes dat cudnt see dat dumb funciton lying ind at corner! n i was tryin to rewrite it n i messed up wid memory allocation n mannn were there blunders!! i hate handling those memory blocks, u got to free them u gotto clean them u got to b careful with them.. n i dont like being careful while handling stuff!! eee!
nonetheless.. alls well dat ends well.. n my saga of retrieving the refernce file ended pretty well... n yippy m glad, now i cn move ahead n mess with d url n build it better to serve my purpose:D:D:D
n offffffffffff fr namaz!
(: Maassalaama!! :)
thank god fr d damn reusability concept we have!! n my silly eyes dat cudnt see dat dumb funciton lying ind at corner! n i was tryin to rewrite it n i messed up wid memory allocation n mannn were there blunders!! i hate handling those memory blocks, u got to free them u gotto clean them u got to b careful with them.. n i dont like being careful while handling stuff!! eee!
nonetheless.. alls well dat ends well.. n my saga of retrieving the refernce file ended pretty well... n yippy m glad, now i cn move ahead n mess with d url n build it better to serve my purpose:D:D:D
n offffffffffff fr namaz!
(: Maassalaama!! :)
jus another, among the plenty...
Havent been here since quite smtime i guess.... not really sure wats keepin me off it but.. umm well... hmmmmmm.... m in a dark cubicle with just my monitor's lite flashing on my face... nahh i aint wrkin in the nite.. its morning 8.48am and i js dint put d lites on after cmin in... dint feel like it.. n the other lady who alked along wid me dint feel like it either.. so its.. well.. dark !... n sinct it aint sunny n since it cloudy n since the clouds are grey n since it seems like its gona rain cats n dogs ( nah not literally! hehe imagine! wat a scenee!! :D:D) well so.. coz of all those "since's" the huge window dat i face isnt serving d purpose of enlightning my space either... huh! i tend to put in any damn crap that moves in my mind !well ok.. it aint crap han! blaaaaaaaaaaa
m alll into cpi fr solutionss.. soud is movin to finland this sat, so m wrkin on it alone, n i have no idea how its gona turn out.... jawahar wud be joinin me soon , naidu said dat to me yesterday. Atleast he was gud enuf to inform me that the omnidaemon requirement in thru wid although i was wonderign howcm i aint in the loop f those mail convo;s, neva mind.. may b it wud anyway divert my attention n dats one thing i can not afford to do with cpi fr solutions in my hands... khair.. Ramadan movin well.. :) m havin a nice time, not compromising( or may b i shud say not bein lazy) with my obligatory and my extra prayers n my recitals n etc. n etc. Me safa n Rahmath wait in ofice fr iftar n get home by the 7.15 shuttle, ya i reach home by 8.15 or so.. but.. umm its ok.. since i dint like d idea of bein alone in my bus durin iftar time.. so its ok.. n as long as baba isnt here, i wont have probs, ya whn hez back he aitn gona allow me i guess..
ohhh!!! Lites on... ok.. meaning Naiduz here... hmmmmmm... khair chalo.. i dnt have much to put on.. i got to get back to solutions.. m trying to extract that refrnce file frm d library buttttt. hmmm.. lets c.. i hope i do dat aj, it;ll b n imp steo ahead.
off for d day!
Adioss!!
m alll into cpi fr solutionss.. soud is movin to finland this sat, so m wrkin on it alone, n i have no idea how its gona turn out.... jawahar wud be joinin me soon , naidu said dat to me yesterday. Atleast he was gud enuf to inform me that the omnidaemon requirement in thru wid although i was wonderign howcm i aint in the loop f those mail convo;s, neva mind.. may b it wud anyway divert my attention n dats one thing i can not afford to do with cpi fr solutions in my hands... khair.. Ramadan movin well.. :) m havin a nice time, not compromising( or may b i shud say not bein lazy) with my obligatory and my extra prayers n my recitals n etc. n etc. Me safa n Rahmath wait in ofice fr iftar n get home by the 7.15 shuttle, ya i reach home by 8.15 or so.. but.. umm its ok.. since i dint like d idea of bein alone in my bus durin iftar time.. so its ok.. n as long as baba isnt here, i wont have probs, ya whn hez back he aitn gona allow me i guess..
ohhh!!! Lites on... ok.. meaning Naiduz here... hmmmmmm... khair chalo.. i dnt have much to put on.. i got to get back to solutions.. m trying to extract that refrnce file frm d library buttttt. hmmm.. lets c.. i hope i do dat aj, it;ll b n imp steo ahead.
off for d day!
Adioss!!
Monday, September 17, 2007
howz this monday sooo beautifull??!!??
Its sucha beautiful rainy morning.. :) although last nite i was a lil umm dunno watt... d morning shooted off so welll.. i dunno why.. but it smhow did.. whn things were falling apart suddenly i saw all of them fly back in placce jssssss at d rite time :):)
i frgot smthin home so ran bak to get it.. n so was late, dint get n auto on time, n when i did.. ir elised i dint have enuf chnage to give him n nither did he.. but d guy turned out to b n old fella whod take baji to her clinic earlier, so he tuk wateva i gave him :) .. n js then i missd d bus n this unlce standing htere told me.. ur bus has gone already.. n iw ent .. damnnnn.. bt again.. jsssss thn i saw another bus cmin my way n stoped fr me :):)
hmmmm .. i think i like it :):).. n.. mmm well.. m smilin :):):D:D:):)
nah cant sum it up here..
adioss!!
i frgot smthin home so ran bak to get it.. n so was late, dint get n auto on time, n when i did.. ir elised i dint have enuf chnage to give him n nither did he.. but d guy turned out to b n old fella whod take baji to her clinic earlier, so he tuk wateva i gave him :) .. n js then i missd d bus n this unlce standing htere told me.. ur bus has gone already.. n iw ent .. damnnnn.. bt again.. jsssss thn i saw another bus cmin my way n stoped fr me :):)
hmmmm .. i think i like it :):).. n.. mmm well.. m smilin :):):D:D:):)
nah cant sum it up here..
adioss!!
Monday, September 10, 2007
A quick morning meet !
I'm just back after a discussion with Naidu, this was kinda a part of the appraisal cycle, so he must "discuss" before he closes my appraisal, n this was for it... waise its his bday aj, n i dint wana wish him, coz i always thought .. umm n i still think i do.. dat he dznt care, he neva wished any of the team mmbers xcept sesi on their bday... so i hd thot i wudn. waise to team se wishes jaate hi.. but khair,, i know its unlike Tasneem, but.. .. ahh neva mind... he came to my desk ( i dunno ajkal he walks up to me quite often i feel ! eeks! ) n i turned n surprisingly "Happy Birthday" nikalgaya mere moo se... wo bhi with a smile... khair he he gave a pleasant thank you (surprisingly !! ) n then said ur appraisal is still pending we'll close it? ( he meant... without d discussion) n i was like... ya sure we can close it, but i have sm questions, n he lukd at me.. n he said ya we'll talk.. n he still stood there!1 ( shudnt he be d one to offer to talk? n then we proceed?! duh !) neways, i said.. so can we talk now? then he gave me dat luk n said ya sure , n he tuk me he cabin n there he started offf....
I started off by askin a general... what is expected out of me.. he gave me a surprising " u are doing gud Tasneem.. when compared to others ur good i can say, but yes since u have just started therez a lot u have to learn..." . Then he said this.. out of all our team members, i think u wud b the only one i wud suggest for the technical stream ( dat did give me ahigh , although i wasnt very sure what xaclt he meant by technical stream, as he differentiated it frm d project stream) on dat he elaborated, u have gud grasping power so u can learn well and go ahead. ( isnt all this sooooooo much cliche'd na?) khair... it went on.... but smhow.. ( may b cz of d general dislike i have towards him, na not a general dislike, sab usi ki karni ka phal hai ! ) i dnt realy have a gud impression bout him ( yea u read dat sentence rite, i am tlaking bout his impression on me and not the vice versa! ) but hten he was being gud to me... he was strongly recommending .NET n hez gona send me for a training too... hmmm ... but thn i kinda was averse towards it, so i told him dat.. well i know it might sound kiddish but i havent heard much gud bot this technology n growth in it, although its smthing dats really flourishing now, n he said well dats a debatable topic, but since ur going to learn the basics, i strongly recommenc you do dat he said.
then another thing he seemd keen on tellin me is dat.. since he thought i was gud at learning he wanted me to get into the architectural side, n not stall my growth. but ya one thing when he said he dint want me to get into the project stream ( not very sure but he used wrds like managing ppl etc. .. n HEY I LIKE DAT!!!) n dats y he "strongly recommended" me for technical stream ( I FIND DAT BORING!!! ).
well as he went on with all dat, i had js one hting in mind, i need two hrs a week for my arabic classes at the university!! n bang i opened my mouth for it. I said this isnt anything technical, u can call it a hobby that i always wanted to pursue. So i glittered it with sayin i always had interest in learning languages ( utnaaaa scene nai hai ;) ) n so i enrolled for this course with the Osmania University for a diploma in Modern Arabic n dat i want to leave at 4 at any one day a week so i can reach th university and attend the classes there. n i told him i had this long term goal of doing my MA in arabic ( ya dis is true, coz i always wanted to learn Arabic as a language, since i already knew how to read n write it, i wanted to learn to understand it if i;d read it.) n at first he shooted to me the billability crap.. n dat i have to show hours being put in so i can bill the client but if everyone takes leaves how cn i show them bla ye bla wo, thn i went on n said i just want two hours a week, coz i m totally tied up, if i just attend one class a week, i;ll smhow manage n do with this diploma xams ( its SDMA; senior diploma in Modern Arabic n dat'll make me eligible for MA in arabic later) so he said ya sure if dats d case, just two hours i think its fine! n yippy! i thoutgh chalta atleast itni baat to maana meri. ( i dunno he is gud to me [hez even given me dat award!!] but.. i still.. ahh dnt like him very much for his earlier nuisances)
hmm so dats wt d discussion was all about.. now o gotto get goin again wid cpi for solutions. I was trying to make my resume the other day, n man did i have a tough time on it!! i sure m gona explore into other things, but.. hmmmm letssss cc noww..
chalo m off here.. may b wil b bak.. but untill then.... its..
bye bye frm Me!! :)
I started off by askin a general... what is expected out of me.. he gave me a surprising " u are doing gud Tasneem.. when compared to others ur good i can say, but yes since u have just started therez a lot u have to learn..." . Then he said this.. out of all our team members, i think u wud b the only one i wud suggest for the technical stream ( dat did give me ahigh , although i wasnt very sure what xaclt he meant by technical stream, as he differentiated it frm d project stream) on dat he elaborated, u have gud grasping power so u can learn well and go ahead. ( isnt all this sooooooo much cliche'd na?) khair... it went on.... but smhow.. ( may b cz of d general dislike i have towards him, na not a general dislike, sab usi ki karni ka phal hai ! ) i dnt realy have a gud impression bout him ( yea u read dat sentence rite, i am tlaking bout his impression on me and not the vice versa! ) but hten he was being gud to me... he was strongly recommending .NET n hez gona send me for a training too... hmmm ... but thn i kinda was averse towards it, so i told him dat.. well i know it might sound kiddish but i havent heard much gud bot this technology n growth in it, although its smthing dats really flourishing now, n he said well dats a debatable topic, but since ur going to learn the basics, i strongly recommenc you do dat he said.
then another thing he seemd keen on tellin me is dat.. since he thought i was gud at learning he wanted me to get into the architectural side, n not stall my growth. but ya one thing when he said he dint want me to get into the project stream ( not very sure but he used wrds like managing ppl etc. .. n HEY I LIKE DAT!!!) n dats y he "strongly recommended" me for technical stream ( I FIND DAT BORING!!! ).
well as he went on with all dat, i had js one hting in mind, i need two hrs a week for my arabic classes at the university!! n bang i opened my mouth for it. I said this isnt anything technical, u can call it a hobby that i always wanted to pursue. So i glittered it with sayin i always had interest in learning languages ( utnaaaa scene nai hai ;) ) n so i enrolled for this course with the Osmania University for a diploma in Modern Arabic n dat i want to leave at 4 at any one day a week so i can reach th university and attend the classes there. n i told him i had this long term goal of doing my MA in arabic ( ya dis is true, coz i always wanted to learn Arabic as a language, since i already knew how to read n write it, i wanted to learn to understand it if i;d read it.) n at first he shooted to me the billability crap.. n dat i have to show hours being put in so i can bill the client but if everyone takes leaves how cn i show them bla ye bla wo, thn i went on n said i just want two hours a week, coz i m totally tied up, if i just attend one class a week, i;ll smhow manage n do with this diploma xams ( its SDMA; senior diploma in Modern Arabic n dat'll make me eligible for MA in arabic later) so he said ya sure if dats d case, just two hours i think its fine! n yippy! i thoutgh chalta atleast itni baat to maana meri. ( i dunno he is gud to me [hez even given me dat award!!] but.. i still.. ahh dnt like him very much for his earlier nuisances)
hmm so dats wt d discussion was all about.. now o gotto get goin again wid cpi for solutions. I was trying to make my resume the other day, n man did i have a tough time on it!! i sure m gona explore into other things, but.. hmmmm letssss cc noww..
chalo m off here.. may b wil b bak.. but untill then.... its..
bye bye frm Me!! :)
Friday, September 07, 2007
Rewards and Recognition
Status meetings are boring to the core ! all one would wana to is.. yawnnnnnnnn..
n okie dokie day, a fruitful one though, something i wasn longing to fall in place, finally fell in its place!! n i was informed i;d get an appreciation token, n award that they call the FIMC- Feather In My Cap. well ok dat gave me a lil high, but nah it aint much more than a certificate ( NO, it aboslutely does;nt imply a hike! ) but still, glad to have got it, since it adds on to dat record i;ve been carrying since college n school, here goes, my first ever performance appreciation at Wipro Technologies. :) .. hmm dat sounds nice now. :)
Objective :On-the-Spot recognition important to the project / project team (spontaneous boss-to-subordinate) Eligibilty : Anyone who has done great short-term work.
Criteria : Impact has to be significant and project / account related.
Demonstrates skills such as problem solving, initative, technical competence, implementation of ideas, conception and institutionalisation of project best practices, etc
adioss!! weekend ahead ;)
A Moan..
Was the fault all mine
All I did was did not lie
Still I did see a tear shine
All I did was refuse to fly
Just a word of dislike
Another to avoid my heart strike
Then how did it hit so hard
Why, why does it feel so sad?
It can’t b that I’m so bad
Just a greeting can’t make one mad
How can my presence be so disliked
That one might wish to turn blind
Wonders are not what i expect
Reality has always been my percept
Then y does it seem to fall like this
There is something I know that is amiss
All I did was did not lie
Still I did see a tear shine
All I did was refuse to fly
Just a word of dislike
Another to avoid my heart strike
Then how did it hit so hard
Why, why does it feel so sad?
It can’t b that I’m so bad
Just a greeting can’t make one mad
How can my presence be so disliked
That one might wish to turn blind
Wonders are not what i expect
Reality has always been my percept
Then y does it seem to fall like this
There is something I know that is amiss
Thursday, September 06, 2007
sOoOoOo much
Ok now.. another wierd thing.. but before that... i'd like to vent out yesterday;s nuisance! i dunnoo yyyyyyyyy i get soo damn frustu (dats a cute nick fr frustrated, a frnd f mine uses it :D) n sick n sad n bad n angry by the fact dat once in a blue moon i;d have to wait for n hour n do a lil more work ! now as m stil ritin this. m hating d fact dat i have to, or i;d say "had to" instead.! y do they have to arrange meetings at the time whn they kknow m gona leaVE!!! n to add to dat!!! they decide in it, that they;d want a binary to test just then since it wud take just a lil time ( yea riteee!!!!) n smhow i guess it all shows on my face, n so my manager luvs to walk up to me to say, Tasneem if u need any help hez there (pointin at another guy whoz more than used to staying back later than 8 coz he doesnt have to get bak to wat is called home!!) n then that fela cmz n asks Tasneem do u need help, i js luk at him n say. no just a lil i think i'll manage, n m sure he cn read all my extra grins in dat ! n at the rite time! i dunno how! i get this frndz call n he knowz well dat m pissd off coz i have to stay bak n hour, n i politely ask if i cn talk another time ! n he gets it! .. n all dat to pile up on my frustu thing... neywas.. so i wrap it up n head to my shuttle at 7 n reach home... oh no.. not home yet! i hire n auto n there a new idiotic saga with a autowala whoz a crook !
i said Asifnagar PS ke paas chalna hai, he asked ye jo peeche hai? I said yes ( n iwas wondeirng peeche???? huh, was at mehdipatnam n iw as askin fr the asifnagar p.s.. now how;d dat cm peeche? huh! )
neways, he then said... theek hai.. Rs. 20, i thot damn.. its the auto guyz day, ditn negotiate on dat since iw as already irritated by the frust day i had.. so js hopped in .. n there.. he brot me rite in frnt of d P.S n stopped it there! i asked him to take left, damn the guy refused! huh! iw as being polite, n he said yahan aaye tak 30 hojata! silly dumbo! he thought he cud get away with that! i had to say smthin now.. i told him i cm this way EVERYDAY! he still wudnt lisn, i said i wont pay him i get down here, he said he wudnt let me then ! i said fine!! take me back to where we started.. you put ur damn meter on n then v'll take d same damn route, n if its lesser than 20, i aint gona pay u a penny.. n if its more than 25 like u claim, i'll pay u double d amount! ... n guess wat.. dat crook fell for it! he turned d auto ( i cudnt believe he did it! ) n he tuk me well quite ahead, n then he realised.. ab ye waapas jaane ke paise kaun dete,,, although i wanted to burst out laughin.. i was still angry .. n i dint like dat guy oneeeeeeeeeee bit ! but then i insisted he turn the auto dat very minute n he take me home riteeee to my home! n not jst d ps. n i told him he shud now his basic duties as n auto guy ( well i dint use dat word duty thankfully, its ounds silly as i write it though) but he stil wdunt lisn, smhow this time it slippd off my mind, i cud have jst asked him to take me into the police station instead n then he wudnt utter a word n may be take me straight home!
neways after all dat he tuk me home! n i gave him js what i said i wud n went inside.
pheww.. n then i realised i;ve been behaving like a totally frustrated freak whoz got NO life, then i tried to calm myself down,, rushed downstairs n was much better wid my family around. I had to refuse to the Mc donaldps treat i promised my sisterz cz i got late n was home by 8 instead of my usual 7. :( neways, may b today... hmm lets c
ya so i fianlly decided this mornin dat i am gona behave myself n be a btter Tasneem n dat a frustrated Tasneem is realy realy realy bad n dat, this wasnt d real me until last year, so y now.. to aj se.. hum sudhar gaye :)
ok now the next wierd thing...
how strange is this now???
Hez gona celebrate her birthday , hez got cake ordered specially for the occasion, with certain particulars bout th flavour! N has ordered it bout a month in advance, n is gona have it on that day, get it to HIS home n cut it n eat it HIMSELF n she aint gona know! Wat do u call dat now?!!! Huhhhh ! paagal logon ki dunya nai bolte isku????
okk.. m off it now... n yea m anyway gona get half or atleast one fourth of dat cake ( it was described as a whole choclate cake .. n man imran gave me too many yummy details of it.. ) all i got to do .. is wait. :)
n ya.. i still havent done anything bout dat Arabic course i supposedly joined.. I gotto go meet up the HOD n have a plan set. I was so eager on it, now i cant loose it just like dat! .. mmmmm.. lets ccccc noww....
blaa janedo... m still waiting fr a call or mail response so i cn get wrkinnnn, i dont like moving on directionless! nahh not when its software!!!! but ya, my life;s kinda like dat nai?
hey Far ka missd call.. wil cal her now.. so .. signingg offfffff
Maassalaama!
i said Asifnagar PS ke paas chalna hai, he asked ye jo peeche hai? I said yes ( n iwas wondeirng peeche???? huh, was at mehdipatnam n iw as askin fr the asifnagar p.s.. now how;d dat cm peeche? huh! )
neways, he then said... theek hai.. Rs. 20, i thot damn.. its the auto guyz day, ditn negotiate on dat since iw as already irritated by the frust day i had.. so js hopped in .. n there.. he brot me rite in frnt of d P.S n stopped it there! i asked him to take left, damn the guy refused! huh! iw as being polite, n he said yahan aaye tak 30 hojata! silly dumbo! he thought he cud get away with that! i had to say smthin now.. i told him i cm this way EVERYDAY! he still wudnt lisn, i said i wont pay him i get down here, he said he wudnt let me then ! i said fine!! take me back to where we started.. you put ur damn meter on n then v'll take d same damn route, n if its lesser than 20, i aint gona pay u a penny.. n if its more than 25 like u claim, i'll pay u double d amount! ... n guess wat.. dat crook fell for it! he turned d auto ( i cudnt believe he did it! ) n he tuk me well quite ahead, n then he realised.. ab ye waapas jaane ke paise kaun dete,,, although i wanted to burst out laughin.. i was still angry .. n i dint like dat guy oneeeeeeeeeee bit ! but then i insisted he turn the auto dat very minute n he take me home riteeee to my home! n not jst d ps. n i told him he shud now his basic duties as n auto guy ( well i dint use dat word duty thankfully, its ounds silly as i write it though) but he stil wdunt lisn, smhow this time it slippd off my mind, i cud have jst asked him to take me into the police station instead n then he wudnt utter a word n may be take me straight home!
neways after all dat he tuk me home! n i gave him js what i said i wud n went inside.
pheww.. n then i realised i;ve been behaving like a totally frustrated freak whoz got NO life, then i tried to calm myself down,, rushed downstairs n was much better wid my family around. I had to refuse to the Mc donaldps treat i promised my sisterz cz i got late n was home by 8 instead of my usual 7. :( neways, may b today... hmm lets c
ya so i fianlly decided this mornin dat i am gona behave myself n be a btter Tasneem n dat a frustrated Tasneem is realy realy realy bad n dat, this wasnt d real me until last year, so y now.. to aj se.. hum sudhar gaye :)
ok now the next wierd thing...
how strange is this now???
Hez gona celebrate her birthday , hez got cake ordered specially for the occasion, with certain particulars bout th flavour! N has ordered it bout a month in advance, n is gona have it on that day, get it to HIS home n cut it n eat it HIMSELF n she aint gona know! Wat do u call dat now?!!! Huhhhh ! paagal logon ki dunya nai bolte isku????
okk.. m off it now... n yea m anyway gona get half or atleast one fourth of dat cake ( it was described as a whole choclate cake .. n man imran gave me too many yummy details of it.. ) all i got to do .. is wait. :)
n ya.. i still havent done anything bout dat Arabic course i supposedly joined.. I gotto go meet up the HOD n have a plan set. I was so eager on it, now i cant loose it just like dat! .. mmmmm.. lets ccccc noww....
blaa janedo... m still waiting fr a call or mail response so i cn get wrkinnnn, i dont like moving on directionless! nahh not when its software!!!! but ya, my life;s kinda like dat nai?
hey Far ka missd call.. wil cal her now.. so .. signingg offfffff
Maassalaama!
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
* silly nothings brighten ur day smtimes *
:D well i've done this really dumb thing abhi kuch time pehle... but.. umm well.. :D it was important fr me dat time :D
i cudnt finish my lunch.. it was too much n i was already full.. n i asked safa to help, n she did untill there was just one more spoon left, but after dat she refused, n i stil cudnt take dat one last bite, n suddenly.. :D keets appeared :D n i kinda, well blackmailed/forced/tortured here to eat it :) n she did after a whole 10 minutes of behez n no n i had to hold her hand so she wudnt get away, fr sooo long! i offered her a choclate fijnally n she still dint agree, n then i maskafied a lil more n bingo ! she had it ! :) . n then i bought her a choclate n now i have a very silly but sweet memory to reminisce later :)
i cudnt finish my lunch.. it was too much n i was already full.. n i asked safa to help, n she did untill there was just one more spoon left, but after dat she refused, n i stil cudnt take dat one last bite, n suddenly.. :D keets appeared :D n i kinda, well blackmailed/forced/tortured here to eat it :) n she did after a whole 10 minutes of behez n no n i had to hold her hand so she wudnt get away, fr sooo long! i offered her a choclate fijnally n she still dint agree, n then i maskafied a lil more n bingo ! she had it ! :) . n then i bought her a choclate n now i have a very silly but sweet memory to reminisce later :)
An year ahead...
Some of 'Me' is really happy, some of 'Me' is astonished and surprised and most of 'Me' is still wondering.. " ek pooora saaal hogaya??? "
Wooooo, how on earth did i do that??? :)
yup its been a whole year in Wipro Technologies today. I stepped into the Madhapur office, with a thumping heart and nervous mind, thinking howzit all gona be from today. When i was about to leave home on this very day, as i stepped ouuta the gate, Baba called from behind and said, from today your walking out to earn your bread, thank the Lord and recite ayat al kursi for a special purpose before ou leave every day. That gave me goose bumps then !! I followed dat( frgot smtimes too , but wud remmber it most of d times :D). n today i realise, its been a whole year.
I;ve had my share of ups n downs, i can;t forget the times i lied in mummaz lap with a tear or two rolling down n telling her, i dont wanna go tomorro mummy, it sure was kiddish, but i dint like the "hectic" work i;d say. There were times i cribbed for having to stay late once or twice, i so hated it ! but i'd console myself sayin atleast i dont have to do it everyday like sm of my other friends. There have been times i;ve luvd the breeze here, the beautiful rainbows i;ve got to see, my silly frineds around, Safa;s company for lunch n smtimes breakfast too. Our cribbin durin morning cofee, my non stop nonsense with my "namaaz ki toli". Its wierd i was liked bby so many. They all were there, n i;ve seen happy times here too. i used to say. the best part f cmin to work is to know dat you gotto get back home. :) although dat feelin aint as strong as earlier now, but i still cherish those thoughts those walks those talks those musings.
Well Wipro taught me how to make cocktail :D Wipro showed me quite a few rainbows. Wipro gave me my first ever cubicle. Wipro gave me this tag i smhow feel proud to wear. Wipro gave me my first ever feeling of being a Software engineer. :) So what if its shown me a Naidu, n sm late days at work, it also showed me a well lil better naidu too :) I know what it is to be wid "collegues", it was all so different pehle. It so very different now :)
I aint a kid anymore, i aint a fresher anymore, i aint just out of college anymore, but i cant promise that there aint gona be a day i'll tell mumma.. i dont wana go like i used to for col or scool :) I gotto know all the work politics, all the gossips dat go around. i gotto know that one must not let out if they are goin onsite even if its project related .. to your OWN TEAM MATES, untill the d day when u meet them to say gud bye!! u neednt even say if ur leaving the organization et al. I learnt that it its ok to say no at times, i learnt its very necessary to say NO at times. I think m a lil more patient now. I learnt not to be super duper scared of deadlines to the extent dat u mess things up at home.
I met sm really gud ppl here, i now have a very nice gang that we cal the "namaz ki toli" :) I have Safaa still with me ( yea inspite my chutter butter n her silent nature, we;ve got along n shez talkin too :) ) have n nice team, have bhagya n gayatri to share work nuisances :) n a very gud pal who'd always be there. n keets n manso n shubh n anils n all of ;em.
hey its been gud ! :)
although i did remmber yesterday dat today is n important day, i realise its well speciall too, inspite the odds, the bads, the sads, this years has been.. well...... bright :) n i still dont believe it.. ic an write Experiance : 1 year (atleast!! ) in my resume now :D
n how can i forget to mention!! i;ve been a better blogger after cmin here :)
Adios!!
Wooooo, how on earth did i do that??? :)
yup its been a whole year in Wipro Technologies today. I stepped into the Madhapur office, with a thumping heart and nervous mind, thinking howzit all gona be from today. When i was about to leave home on this very day, as i stepped ouuta the gate, Baba called from behind and said, from today your walking out to earn your bread, thank the Lord and recite ayat al kursi for a special purpose before ou leave every day. That gave me goose bumps then !! I followed dat( frgot smtimes too , but wud remmber it most of d times :D). n today i realise, its been a whole year.
I;ve had my share of ups n downs, i can;t forget the times i lied in mummaz lap with a tear or two rolling down n telling her, i dont wanna go tomorro mummy, it sure was kiddish, but i dint like the "hectic" work i;d say. There were times i cribbed for having to stay late once or twice, i so hated it ! but i'd console myself sayin atleast i dont have to do it everyday like sm of my other friends. There have been times i;ve luvd the breeze here, the beautiful rainbows i;ve got to see, my silly frineds around, Safa;s company for lunch n smtimes breakfast too. Our cribbin durin morning cofee, my non stop nonsense with my "namaaz ki toli". Its wierd i was liked bby so many. They all were there, n i;ve seen happy times here too. i used to say. the best part f cmin to work is to know dat you gotto get back home. :) although dat feelin aint as strong as earlier now, but i still cherish those thoughts those walks those talks those musings.
Well Wipro taught me how to make cocktail :D Wipro showed me quite a few rainbows. Wipro gave me my first ever cubicle. Wipro gave me this tag i smhow feel proud to wear. Wipro gave me my first ever feeling of being a Software engineer. :) So what if its shown me a Naidu, n sm late days at work, it also showed me a well lil better naidu too :) I know what it is to be wid "collegues", it was all so different pehle. It so very different now :)
I aint a kid anymore, i aint a fresher anymore, i aint just out of college anymore, but i cant promise that there aint gona be a day i'll tell mumma.. i dont wana go like i used to for col or scool :) I gotto know all the work politics, all the gossips dat go around. i gotto know that one must not let out if they are goin onsite even if its project related .. to your OWN TEAM MATES, untill the d day when u meet them to say gud bye!! u neednt even say if ur leaving the organization et al. I learnt that it its ok to say no at times, i learnt its very necessary to say NO at times. I think m a lil more patient now. I learnt not to be super duper scared of deadlines to the extent dat u mess things up at home.
I met sm really gud ppl here, i now have a very nice gang that we cal the "namaz ki toli" :) I have Safaa still with me ( yea inspite my chutter butter n her silent nature, we;ve got along n shez talkin too :) ) have n nice team, have bhagya n gayatri to share work nuisances :) n a very gud pal who'd always be there. n keets n manso n shubh n anils n all of ;em.
hey its been gud ! :)
although i did remmber yesterday dat today is n important day, i realise its well speciall too, inspite the odds, the bads, the sads, this years has been.. well...... bright :) n i still dont believe it.. ic an write Experiance : 1 year (atleast!! ) in my resume now :D
n how can i forget to mention!! i;ve been a better blogger after cmin here :)
Adios!!
Monday, September 03, 2007
Together and Apart
It did not matter anymore
How much ever things were bitter or sour
There was pain for one and another remorse
And in it were few hearts demerse
And talks that led to mere dissension
That later they would not want to mention
They weren’t to move to being silentious
But it does seem that they’d now be cautious
A thought or two before they speak
But many more in their mind if you peak
There somehow still is something that binds
Something that they know still it hides
If it’s like this then it may remain
But for longer still they will abstain.
How much ever things were bitter or sour
There was pain for one and another remorse
And in it were few hearts demerse
And talks that led to mere dissension
That later they would not want to mention
They weren’t to move to being silentious
But it does seem that they’d now be cautious
A thought or two before they speak
But many more in their mind if you peak
There somehow still is something that binds
Something that they know still it hides
If it’s like this then it may remain
But for longer still they will abstain.
Friday, August 31, 2007
A movin mind amidst movin clouds...
I am in one of those not so often moods aj... m feeling the not so high spirit kinda thing... i js have this one damn thing stuck up for R10 n i dont know what m to do wid it. They committed for 3rd of sep, but hey they dint ask me before it,, umm wel ya they did mention it earlier though. I gues d prob was dat we thought we fixed it n dint send it onsite to test, n then got engrossed in fixing smthing dat was not a bug, n then whn i finaly released it, they say it aint fixed yet! , duh n soud had dn sm code changes fr it earlier n i dotn knw wat its bout n now i cnt wait til the 10th til hez back so i got to do smthin of it. but hell i dnt know d wierd way those parameters function. whats what is n important thing to know u see...
ahh neva mind.. i just hope hope hope and so much wish wish wish, that by day end its through, not matter how!
adios!
ahh neva mind.. i just hope hope hope and so much wish wish wish, that by day end its through, not matter how!
adios!
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
aiwai...
i realised i neva began my post wid "As salam alaikum". how wierd is dat now!!!! huh more than what it seems like!!
but may b a lil less wierd than wat wipro has in mind for blogger... i dunno y its in such a confused state of mind :D, kabhi blogger ka home page is blockd so i cant post.. kabhi the blogspot pages blokd so i cant view, kabhi dono bloked! n aj dekho.. dono unblocked :D, n this is the best i like it :)
I am not sure how i can describe the ongoing phase of my life ( huh yea rrrite! gimme a break lady!!! :P:P) . Day before yesterday i prayed that the LI parameter thing be js fixed or smthin js happn to it, coz v;we been meddling wid it since a week now n ther was no fruitful result... n finally friday evening in a meeting we decide that we must come up wid n estimate coz we already have delayed R10 ( i dnt remmber v even had a date for it !! ) Anewyas, Naidu said Alex was in danger! n rough estimates wudnt do, we had to come up wid precise stuff, n cmon we cudnt commit when we were in the middle of... nowhere!!! I was supposed to prepare n analysis report n send it d next morning, based on which we were to cm wid n estimate, naidu noneless gave the date 3rd september, n we were hoping we'd fix it until then. And then the next morning was suddenly so beautiful and nice it showed me a mail that read .. the supposed "bug" is not a bug n dat we r trying to fix sometihng thats not required! finally.. wat a relief.. n i was jus gona build it n send release it... butttt.. again.. we remmber another damn problem!! n i was fidgetting wid it since yesterday :( n today morning to my suprise i fixed it pretty well unknowingly, when all i thought was dat iw as addressing the rong issue n dat my solution wud neva work.. but it all did :D. Soud was suppose to be on leave aaj se, but he turned up too, so iw as a lil more happy n thought we cud js release it n wash our hands off R10!! then i asked him to test it... but again.. as i did sm random testing.. the damn pdf files started having problems in download... wo bhi a javascript error! then i played wid it again thinking nah this aint gona help, but i'l js try n again surprisingly it did the trick.. n now i js build it... i hope soud tests it i cn give a final build.. i realy wana finish it aj.
Baba dint want me to go to wrk aj, he apparently felt i was sick n so shud take a leave, although i was dying to take one, i cudnt cz i knew soud is on leave so fr d next ten days i cnt even think of leave, coz i;d be responsible fr all d mail communications n anythin else of alex ! He said he;d talk to Naidu, n was very adamant, i managed to calm him down n rushed outta home..
n now dat i;ve finishd this, i hope i cn wrap it up early n may b leave early atleassttt.. hmm lets c noww...
I also feel m off blogging for quite smtime, there are so many things n ppl bout which/whom i havent logged anything.. well not sure bout everything but.. umm ya. there sure is smthing amiss.. but its ok i guess.. i;ll catch up may b.... perhaps the on n off that Wipro was playing wid blogger had n impact on my blogging interests n hence the variation in interest levels.
well okk dats all fr now.. n may b fr d day ( mark my 'may b' :D )
Massalaama !
but may b a lil less wierd than wat wipro has in mind for blogger... i dunno y its in such a confused state of mind :D, kabhi blogger ka home page is blockd so i cant post.. kabhi the blogspot pages blokd so i cant view, kabhi dono bloked! n aj dekho.. dono unblocked :D, n this is the best i like it :)
I am not sure how i can describe the ongoing phase of my life ( huh yea rrrite! gimme a break lady!!! :P:P) . Day before yesterday i prayed that the LI parameter thing be js fixed or smthin js happn to it, coz v;we been meddling wid it since a week now n ther was no fruitful result... n finally friday evening in a meeting we decide that we must come up wid n estimate coz we already have delayed R10 ( i dnt remmber v even had a date for it !! ) Anewyas, Naidu said Alex was in danger! n rough estimates wudnt do, we had to come up wid precise stuff, n cmon we cudnt commit when we were in the middle of... nowhere!!! I was supposed to prepare n analysis report n send it d next morning, based on which we were to cm wid n estimate, naidu noneless gave the date 3rd september, n we were hoping we'd fix it until then. And then the next morning was suddenly so beautiful and nice it showed me a mail that read .. the supposed "bug" is not a bug n dat we r trying to fix sometihng thats not required! finally.. wat a relief.. n i was jus gona build it n send release it... butttt.. again.. we remmber another damn problem!! n i was fidgetting wid it since yesterday :( n today morning to my suprise i fixed it pretty well unknowingly, when all i thought was dat iw as addressing the rong issue n dat my solution wud neva work.. but it all did :D. Soud was suppose to be on leave aaj se, but he turned up too, so iw as a lil more happy n thought we cud js release it n wash our hands off R10!! then i asked him to test it... but again.. as i did sm random testing.. the damn pdf files started having problems in download... wo bhi a javascript error! then i played wid it again thinking nah this aint gona help, but i'l js try n again surprisingly it did the trick.. n now i js build it... i hope soud tests it i cn give a final build.. i realy wana finish it aj.
Baba dint want me to go to wrk aj, he apparently felt i was sick n so shud take a leave, although i was dying to take one, i cudnt cz i knew soud is on leave so fr d next ten days i cnt even think of leave, coz i;d be responsible fr all d mail communications n anythin else of alex ! He said he;d talk to Naidu, n was very adamant, i managed to calm him down n rushed outta home..
n now dat i;ve finishd this, i hope i cn wrap it up early n may b leave early atleassttt.. hmm lets c noww...
I also feel m off blogging for quite smtime, there are so many things n ppl bout which/whom i havent logged anything.. well not sure bout everything but.. umm ya. there sure is smthing amiss.. but its ok i guess.. i;ll catch up may b.... perhaps the on n off that Wipro was playing wid blogger had n impact on my blogging interests n hence the variation in interest levels.
well okk dats all fr now.. n may b fr d day ( mark my 'may b' :D )
Massalaama !
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
My mind says : ? ? ?
Back after a long time again... have had a busy weekend... a not so gud one but one that passed off well... n a very busy week start too... although i;ve got quite a few updates i feel a wierd sense of hesitation after reading a mail from n ex collegue.
A guy i worked with closely, dropped in a mail n all i could make out from it... was that he was in a pathetically chaotic state of mind. What makes me feel devastated is having known a person so closely n then getting to know something like this. I am scared. I realize i'm vulnerable to such things that my heart neva wants to believe that they even exist. A state of mind that is reluctant to accept that, no.. such things dont happen. They are for the movies n the "non realistic " world. But such things /people just seem to get me a step closer to.... well may b reality, but i still feel.. no this cant happen. It isnt all dat bad a world. I dont know whats with dat guy. I just hope hez alrite soon. I cant imagine to have known a person n worked with him (very closely) n then get to know he thinks of suicide? n dat hez being punished by the government n family and friends and everyone around, n even thinks he could be n object of "use" maybe by the R n D..... no way! aisa nai hota.. it cant be that way. it shudnt be that way.
neva mind.. i dont see myself in the rite frame of mind either. Somethingz rong, its so wierd. I think i am scared.
I dont know.. is it that i tend to live in a lovey dovey world that has only good things n so tend to ignore everything else around? thats not correct either, i cant turn blind to the adversities. but i dont know.. i cant believe of anything rong or bad happening to me or sm1 i love or care for or some1 ii;ve known just enuf....
khair... i got confirmed... Wipro wished me a successfull career "with them" lets c now..
i think dats bout it !
A guy i worked with closely, dropped in a mail n all i could make out from it... was that he was in a pathetically chaotic state of mind. What makes me feel devastated is having known a person so closely n then getting to know something like this. I am scared. I realize i'm vulnerable to such things that my heart neva wants to believe that they even exist. A state of mind that is reluctant to accept that, no.. such things dont happen. They are for the movies n the "non realistic " world. But such things /people just seem to get me a step closer to.... well may b reality, but i still feel.. no this cant happen. It isnt all dat bad a world. I dont know whats with dat guy. I just hope hez alrite soon. I cant imagine to have known a person n worked with him (very closely) n then get to know he thinks of suicide? n dat hez being punished by the government n family and friends and everyone around, n even thinks he could be n object of "use" maybe by the R n D..... no way! aisa nai hota.. it cant be that way. it shudnt be that way.
neva mind.. i dont see myself in the rite frame of mind either. Somethingz rong, its so wierd. I think i am scared.
I dont know.. is it that i tend to live in a lovey dovey world that has only good things n so tend to ignore everything else around? thats not correct either, i cant turn blind to the adversities. but i dont know.. i cant believe of anything rong or bad happening to me or sm1 i love or care for or some1 ii;ve known just enuf....
khair... i got confirmed... Wipro wished me a successfull career "with them" lets c now..
i think dats bout it !
Thursday, August 16, 2007
With Her...
All she wanted was a little time of mine
I couldn’t think of how, that could be so divine
It wasn't that I couldn’t, but somehow I knew I wouldn’t
May be just a thought, perhaps I couldn’t take lament
I knew she liked it when I was around
But I still dint find out what left her spell bound
It was just talks that we would share
Not fantasies or dreams, no I wouldn’t dare
A meet or two was all we had
Then how could my absence make her so sad
And then we took a journey, of those kinds that's memorable
A journey perhaps which, I can not call impeccable
Again it was nothing, just gossip and some smiles
But yes, I wouldn’t deny I didn't mind the miles...
All she wanted was a little time of mine
I couldn’t think of how, that could be so divine
It wasn't that I couldn’t, but somehow I knew I wouldn’t
May be just a thought, perhaps I couldn’t take lament
I knew she liked it when I was around
But I still dint find out what left her spell bound
It was just talks that we would share
Not fantasies or dreams, no I wouldn’t dare
A meet or two was all we had
Then how could my absence make her so sad
And then we took a journey, of those kinds that's memorable
A journey perhaps which, I can not call impeccable
Again it was nothing, just gossip and some smiles
But yes, I wouldn’t deny I didn't mind the miles...
Tasneem wz here @ 11:21 PM it messed up the time too
Adieu..
Time's just moving, days passed by
There was so much to say and so much to try
I didnt realize, i dint see it fly
All i know now .. its time to say gud bye
It is'nt that i'm complaining
I know you were too engrossed
There were other things that were important
Nothing that could be paused
Its just that there's a gap
I think there's something missing
There's so much more to all this
But i also know its nothing
The time i knew you i'll always cherish
The fact dat your presence was always a joy
I wish for you happiness that'll never perish
Thats what voices my heart dats a little coy.
dat site had emoticons like dat f hotmail .. 6 Aug
MON
6AUG
Nokia6300, juviz weddin, n computers in "pinjraz" :D
Tasneem wz here @ 11:05 PM
Hey!! back after long again eh?!@!... i was sooo tied up i tell ya.. yesterday was like.. ahhh.. engorssseedd totally.. ni gues i got very tired by d end of d day.. mmm.. hey know watt? i bought a new mobile its a Nokia 6300 n i like it.. although i was diein for n E65, i stopped htinkin of it js a day before i actually was gona by d mobile.. coz i found out dat it dint hav FM radio... neways... i wasnt really for the 6300 coz i thought it looked boring.. but now dat i have it n m usin it.. i realise i failed to c the lustre it possessess ... so m like.. umm well yea.. njoyin it all d wayy
hmm work frotn.. like i said.. yesterday was.. woo weee waaa very busy.. i was goin in n outta d server room, hey.. i got access to d server pehli baar... i mean.. i likd d feel of seeing systems "band in pinjraz" lol.. dat means systems in cages ... geee. hehehe.. but man was it cold in there!! n i cudnt evn put my music on d other day u know! neways...
i really dont know where n how i gotto join these threads of my life to put it together n have 'em all in one place... ahhh.. hey wats wid d headfones.. they gimme a wierddd sound.. n annoying one ratheR! ahh..
i was at ammaz place yest.. went home pehle.. then wahan se amma ke pas.. n since iw as helllllllll tired!! i cudnt resist sleeping.. but thn dat dumbo Hamed, fell off his bike.. n came home all bleeding.. n i got up lisnin to his shouts.. n then it was 12.30 already.. n abhi kitneeeeeeee ki pooriyan baaqi the!! n i dint bel even one!! first time hua ye! but i cudnt help it... 8.30 se leke 11.30 tak wait kari mein... chaachiyon ku khaane khilaane se fursat ich nai thi!! so i waited n waited n waited untill i cudnt take it anymore.. n hey.. as i was waiting.. gues wat i was lisnin to.. not really sure.. magar old zamaane ke gaane.. nai gaane nai the.. u kno d mushaaira kind.. not very sure but i think i heard sm1 say it was sm munni begumz ghazals.. n itneeeee high class the ki meku ek bhi samjh me nai aay a:D hehe.. d only one i undstood was this.. n i happen to remmber it.. it goes like this....
Do hi pal kathin guzre zindagi ke
do hi pal kahtin guzre zindagi ke
ek tere aane se pehle
ek tere jaane ke badd... ( cute icon naiii)
n iwas sittin alone on d takhat in the aangan, under d tree n zabardast hawa chalri thi.. n i finally i heard this n undstood it n i burst out laughin n chachi was inside n she saw me laughin wo bhi alone.. n she wondered y, so i clarified before her brain cells cud think any further, dat i was tryin to undstand wat this lady hz been singin since so long.. n this is d first n d only one i undstood so far.. n so she laughed wid me too :) hehe..
khair.. chalra yaa.. life;s on.. n its movin.. m glad its movin , n m not so sad bout where its headign coz i ditn really set a direction fr it... n i know it osunds super lazy! or may b i;d say it sounds so much like Tasneem :D
n i think m gona move home early aj.. coz i goto go to ammaz place.. n fir shaam me juvi ke pas bhi jana haii.. heyyyyyy.. parson.. dats on suday.. yaani keeeeeee 5th August was Juvi ki shaadi.. n it was really gud to see her as a bride
mmmm chalo ya.. wil move out frm here.. or may b i'll put in those lil notepad scribbles i had done whn i missed blogger n dint hit sampa yet..
Adios!!!
6AUG
Nokia6300, juviz weddin, n computers in "pinjraz" :D
Tasneem wz here @ 11:05 PM
Hey!! back after long again eh?!@!... i was sooo tied up i tell ya.. yesterday was like.. ahhh.. engorssseedd totally.. ni gues i got very tired by d end of d day.. mmm.. hey know watt? i bought a new mobile its a Nokia 6300 n i like it.. although i was diein for n E65, i stopped htinkin of it js a day before i actually was gona by d mobile.. coz i found out dat it dint hav FM radio... neways... i wasnt really for the 6300 coz i thought it looked boring.. but now dat i have it n m usin it.. i realise i failed to c the lustre it possessess ... so m like.. umm well yea.. njoyin it all d wayy
hmm work frotn.. like i said.. yesterday was.. woo weee waaa very busy.. i was goin in n outta d server room, hey.. i got access to d server pehli baar... i mean.. i likd d feel of seeing systems "band in pinjraz" lol.. dat means systems in cages ... geee. hehehe.. but man was it cold in there!! n i cudnt evn put my music on d other day u know! neways...
i really dont know where n how i gotto join these threads of my life to put it together n have 'em all in one place... ahhh.. hey wats wid d headfones.. they gimme a wierddd sound.. n annoying one ratheR! ahh..
i was at ammaz place yest.. went home pehle.. then wahan se amma ke pas.. n since iw as helllllllll tired!! i cudnt resist sleeping.. but thn dat dumbo Hamed, fell off his bike.. n came home all bleeding.. n i got up lisnin to his shouts.. n then it was 12.30 already.. n abhi kitneeeeeeee ki pooriyan baaqi the!! n i dint bel even one!! first time hua ye! but i cudnt help it... 8.30 se leke 11.30 tak wait kari mein... chaachiyon ku khaane khilaane se fursat ich nai thi!! so i waited n waited n waited untill i cudnt take it anymore.. n hey.. as i was waiting.. gues wat i was lisnin to.. not really sure.. magar old zamaane ke gaane.. nai gaane nai the.. u kno d mushaaira kind.. not very sure but i think i heard sm1 say it was sm munni begumz ghazals.. n itneeeee high class the ki meku ek bhi samjh me nai aay a:D hehe.. d only one i undstood was this.. n i happen to remmber it.. it goes like this....
Do hi pal kathin guzre zindagi ke
do hi pal kahtin guzre zindagi ke
ek tere aane se pehle
ek tere jaane ke badd... ( cute icon naiii)
n iwas sittin alone on d takhat in the aangan, under d tree n zabardast hawa chalri thi.. n i finally i heard this n undstood it n i burst out laughin n chachi was inside n she saw me laughin wo bhi alone.. n she wondered y, so i clarified before her brain cells cud think any further, dat i was tryin to undstand wat this lady hz been singin since so long.. n this is d first n d only one i undstood so far.. n so she laughed wid me too :) hehe..
khair.. chalra yaa.. life;s on.. n its movin.. m glad its movin , n m not so sad bout where its headign coz i ditn really set a direction fr it... n i know it osunds super lazy! or may b i;d say it sounds so much like Tasneem :D
n i think m gona move home early aj.. coz i goto go to ammaz place.. n fir shaam me juvi ke pas bhi jana haii.. heyyyyyy.. parson.. dats on suday.. yaani keeeeeee 5th August was Juvi ki shaadi.. n it was really gud to see her as a bride
mmmm chalo ya.. wil move out frm here.. or may b i'll put in those lil notepad scribbles i had done whn i missed blogger n dint hit sampa yet..
Adios!!!
!st Aug
July 31, 2007
TUE
31JUL
(: Wipro'z shown me quite a few Rainbows :)
Tasneem wz here @ 8:54 AM
I've got quite a few reasons to be happy :). Yesterday was the first ever time that i did not feel sad/ angry/ frustrated while leaving office late. Infact it all seemed so beautiful ny nice at dat time.. i felt this wierd sense of satisfaction, a very peaceful heart and a content Tasneem returning home late from work.
That NRJ problem i was talkin of yesterday was solved finally. n surprisingly i had a major contribution to it. Kannan was really happy.. it seemd like dat from his mails. I did put in effort even during the Omnidaemon problem time.. but ya i saw Soud ( dats short for Soumendra, most of 'em call him dat here) work really hard on dat, so i dint really want to take all d credit, but was glad i put in just enuf and was always there when he needed me. n this time for the NRJ thing.. i actually dint no it was all dat major a problem.. its just dat after v( me n soud) solved it v realisd dat the oniste guyz r more than happy n they went like "Great Great Great guys. Great job done!!" n i could read all the excitement in that. It was n 8 month old problem it seems n now Ericsson benefits a lot from what we've done to solve it.. well knowing all that.. it jus gave me a high.. n i thought.. well ok.. i cn do really gud things at times too . n the most surprising hting was when in the meeting with Kannan, Naidu mentioned, that he would nominate me n him for the FIMC ( thats some wipro internal award, not really sure of what exactly but it stands for Feather In My Cap) so that made me feel gud n surprised rather, n dats whn i felt.. yo.. i really did smthin nice :)
It rained or quite smtime yesterday... n there was this beautifulll almost full rainbow... have a luk at d besto ne so far..
mmm Safa's call .. wil get bak here after cofee.. shez waitin fr me..
bbbbbbbbaccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk !!
lol ok.. u see d excitment here too haan.. lol..
aneways.. so d point was dat i was more than surprrised when NAidu mentioned dat, coz i always thought n well.. still do.. that i aint in his gud books, n i never wanted to do anything extra to get into his gud buks, no maskafying et al... so i'd do my work n just dat... n i told ya even earlier there was a lil tiff wid him wn he wanted me to get back to wrk aftr 6 wn iw as actually moving homewards, n i had refused.. n also i thought in dat meeting wid Bala whn i mentioned bout d appreciation bit, he must have taken it personally.. but wid all this also.. he like .. umm ok.. behaved like a manager should.. so m glad n well m also feelin js a lil bad bout... sayin all d bads bout it.. but hey they were in context wid a situation yaa.. n i dont regret sayin it.. but.. umm ok janedooo..
khair.. ya so yesterday i could see the rainbow on my way back from Asar, n whn i got bak i had this quick meetign wid Kannan, so i head strait to naiduz cube n there we had a talk to stabilize things, n we zeroed in on releasing Alex R9/3 ( i dint realise we wer wrkin on a whole new release.. hehe.. release ka pressur hi aur hota hai.. ) aneywas... so dat call was at about 5.45 so i was sure i'd have to leave only after i made the build.. coz soud aint all dat gud at building d windows n solaris versions.. so.. i made the r9/2 final build n then we delivered both R9/3 n R9/2.. so it was 7 already n i cudnt miss d bus ofcours.e. but as i walked dat path alone (as usual) it was d first time i felt really really nice at dat time n i liked being at dat place ( meaning still at office) at that moment . Three words to sum up my feelin.. satisfied, at peace n happy... now is'nt dat d perfect combination to have a pefectly delightful day
but yea.. i had to cancel my plan of meeting juvi again.. but m gona do it today come wat may!!.. if i miss it aj.. then therz no other dya i cn make.. so i got to do it aj.. may b i'll plan smthin by 4 or so n check her availabilty.. but if she aint there.. may b i'll meet her after 6.. but i sure will meet her aj!!!
n may b i'll have a peaceful day aj bhi.. peaceful in the true sense.. hopefully just relaxing with very very little or no work at all.. so its music all the wayyyyy...n may b i'll drop in here again in some later part of d day.. untill thenn...
Tasneemz Signing Off !!!
TUE
31JUL
(: Wipro'z shown me quite a few Rainbows :)
Tasneem wz here @ 8:54 AM
I've got quite a few reasons to be happy :). Yesterday was the first ever time that i did not feel sad/ angry/ frustrated while leaving office late. Infact it all seemed so beautiful ny nice at dat time.. i felt this wierd sense of satisfaction, a very peaceful heart and a content Tasneem returning home late from work.
That NRJ problem i was talkin of yesterday was solved finally. n surprisingly i had a major contribution to it. Kannan was really happy.. it seemd like dat from his mails. I did put in effort even during the Omnidaemon problem time.. but ya i saw Soud ( dats short for Soumendra, most of 'em call him dat here) work really hard on dat, so i dint really want to take all d credit, but was glad i put in just enuf and was always there when he needed me. n this time for the NRJ thing.. i actually dint no it was all dat major a problem.. its just dat after v( me n soud) solved it v realisd dat the oniste guyz r more than happy n they went like "Great Great Great guys. Great job done!!" n i could read all the excitement in that. It was n 8 month old problem it seems n now Ericsson benefits a lot from what we've done to solve it.. well knowing all that.. it jus gave me a high.. n i thought.. well ok.. i cn do really gud things at times too . n the most surprising hting was when in the meeting with Kannan, Naidu mentioned, that he would nominate me n him for the FIMC ( thats some wipro internal award, not really sure of what exactly but it stands for Feather In My Cap) so that made me feel gud n surprised rather, n dats whn i felt.. yo.. i really did smthin nice :)
It rained or quite smtime yesterday... n there was this beautifulll almost full rainbow... have a luk at d besto ne so far..
mmm Safa's call .. wil get bak here after cofee.. shez waitin fr me..
bbbbbbbbaccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk !!
lol ok.. u see d excitment here too haan.. lol..
aneways.. so d point was dat i was more than surprrised when NAidu mentioned dat, coz i always thought n well.. still do.. that i aint in his gud books, n i never wanted to do anything extra to get into his gud buks, no maskafying et al... so i'd do my work n just dat... n i told ya even earlier there was a lil tiff wid him wn he wanted me to get back to wrk aftr 6 wn iw as actually moving homewards, n i had refused.. n also i thought in dat meeting wid Bala whn i mentioned bout d appreciation bit, he must have taken it personally.. but wid all this also.. he like .. umm ok.. behaved like a manager should.. so m glad n well m also feelin js a lil bad bout... sayin all d bads bout it.. but hey they were in context wid a situation yaa.. n i dont regret sayin it.. but.. umm ok janedooo..
khair.. ya so yesterday i could see the rainbow on my way back from Asar, n whn i got bak i had this quick meetign wid Kannan, so i head strait to naiduz cube n there we had a talk to stabilize things, n we zeroed in on releasing Alex R9/3 ( i dint realise we wer wrkin on a whole new release.. hehe.. release ka pressur hi aur hota hai.. ) aneywas... so dat call was at about 5.45 so i was sure i'd have to leave only after i made the build.. coz soud aint all dat gud at building d windows n solaris versions.. so.. i made the r9/2 final build n then we delivered both R9/3 n R9/2.. so it was 7 already n i cudnt miss d bus ofcours.e. but as i walked dat path alone (as usual) it was d first time i felt really really nice at dat time n i liked being at dat place ( meaning still at office) at that moment . Three words to sum up my feelin.. satisfied, at peace n happy... now is'nt dat d perfect combination to have a pefectly delightful day
but yea.. i had to cancel my plan of meeting juvi again.. but m gona do it today come wat may!!.. if i miss it aj.. then therz no other dya i cn make.. so i got to do it aj.. may b i'll plan smthin by 4 or so n check her availabilty.. but if she aint there.. may b i'll meet her after 6.. but i sure will meet her aj!!!
n may b i'll have a peaceful day aj bhi.. peaceful in the true sense.. hopefully just relaxing with very very little or no work at all.. so its music all the wayyyyy...n may b i'll drop in here again in some later part of d day.. untill thenn...
Tasneemz Signing Off !!!
31st July.. not sure y but dat site always messd up d dates
MON
30JUL
jus another day..
Tasneem wz here @ 10:40 PM
I dont get it yaa.. ....... m fidgetting wid this new environment.. playin wid it.. messing wid it.. i js hope it dznt get annoying soon n i dont loose my cool !!
how come therz no edit entry in d menu where i wana change d header of my blog? i dunno y my namez there! therz jus n add entry and i cud add my regular title.. duh.. anewyas.. may b i'll play wid it a lil more untill i get a response from them bout d latest binary...
yea i;ve been putting logs so we can figure out where exactly the problem is... kya yaa.. it works fine here.. then its ok in finland too... the germans had a problem say.. umm last summer, but thn it was ok again.. n now the japanese are yelling about it... it seemz they;v siezed the payments for Ericsson n so now the pressure is all on us so v gotto do smthin so that they get their pay cheques on time n so dat v dont miss out on ours... m not alllll dat much bout what wipro gets.. cz anyways i knw they;r gettin a lot ( aadha to hamare cuttings me se ich !! damn! ) so.. as long as it dznt effect mine.. nah i still would;t sya i dont care.. coz umm well.. d works mine n wats d point if sm1 aint able to use it at d end of d day... blaa.. ok..lots of bragging done bout wrk..
so what next.. i dont even remmber where i;d left bloggin n where i;ve got to continue wid... ahh.. but all in all.. it smhow is such a nice feelin.. or may b i'd say a relieving feeling to let go :D,( luk at d way i say let go!! ) hehe..
aneways... hmm i like d luk of this place though... but yea i really need to explore into it all to get to c what all it offers...
hey.. my appraisal is still pending wid naidu... m wondering..a fter those cofee gossip talks v had... whats he gona rate me... pehleich apne pange hai wo bande se.... magar kya hai ki bhai.. workwise.. he has nuthin against me to say.. so lets c.. but d kinda fela he is.. i wudnt b surprised if he gives me n NI, but yea i sure m gona mess it all up n make him show what he means by dat n ya dat time i;ll ensure i have all my wsr's wid me... n thn may b he;ll relaise.. oh ya.. if she really needs to improve .. i wonder how she did soooo much ( wel fr a fresher it is soooo much! ) to make d release succesful ( well ok ...... but it did go rite! n my requrement wasnt d problem!! )
hmm i;ve got few other things i had put on notepads.. may be i'll put 'em here smtime laterzz...
for now.. i think i'll... umm well.. ok may b put sm music on :) n continue playing wid this.. i really need to figure out what to do with this header thing... n hey!! u know i;ve got this really important+funny+silly+ ummm i dunno.. kinda thing to let out.. but m not sure n dont think i want to ... but wooooooooooo was i shocked to know it was him !!!
adios fr now!!
30JUL
jus another day..
Tasneem wz here @ 10:40 PM
I dont get it yaa.. ....... m fidgetting wid this new environment.. playin wid it.. messing wid it.. i js hope it dznt get annoying soon n i dont loose my cool !!
how come therz no edit entry in d menu where i wana change d header of my blog? i dunno y my namez there! therz jus n add entry and i cud add my regular title.. duh.. anewyas.. may b i'll play wid it a lil more untill i get a response from them bout d latest binary...
yea i;ve been putting logs so we can figure out where exactly the problem is... kya yaa.. it works fine here.. then its ok in finland too... the germans had a problem say.. umm last summer, but thn it was ok again.. n now the japanese are yelling about it... it seemz they;v siezed the payments for Ericsson n so now the pressure is all on us so v gotto do smthin so that they get their pay cheques on time n so dat v dont miss out on ours... m not alllll dat much bout what wipro gets.. cz anyways i knw they;r gettin a lot ( aadha to hamare cuttings me se ich !! damn! ) so.. as long as it dznt effect mine.. nah i still would;t sya i dont care.. coz umm well.. d works mine n wats d point if sm1 aint able to use it at d end of d day... blaa.. ok..lots of bragging done bout wrk..
so what next.. i dont even remmber where i;d left bloggin n where i;ve got to continue wid... ahh.. but all in all.. it smhow is such a nice feelin.. or may b i'd say a relieving feeling to let go :D,( luk at d way i say let go!! ) hehe..
aneways... hmm i like d luk of this place though... but yea i really need to explore into it all to get to c what all it offers...
hey.. my appraisal is still pending wid naidu... m wondering..a fter those cofee gossip talks v had... whats he gona rate me... pehleich apne pange hai wo bande se.... magar kya hai ki bhai.. workwise.. he has nuthin against me to say.. so lets c.. but d kinda fela he is.. i wudnt b surprised if he gives me n NI, but yea i sure m gona mess it all up n make him show what he means by dat n ya dat time i;ll ensure i have all my wsr's wid me... n thn may b he;ll relaise.. oh ya.. if she really needs to improve .. i wonder how she did soooo much ( wel fr a fresher it is soooo much! ) to make d release succesful ( well ok ...... but it did go rite! n my requrement wasnt d problem!! )
hmm i;ve got few other things i had put on notepads.. may be i'll put 'em here smtime laterzz...
for now.. i think i'll... umm well.. ok may b put sm music on :) n continue playing wid this.. i really need to figure out what to do with this header thing... n hey!! u know i;ve got this really important+funny+silly+ ummm i dunno.. kinda thing to let out.. but m not sure n dont think i want to ... but wooooooooooo was i shocked to know it was him !!!
adios fr now!!
Voila! Wipro did it for me again !!
Wowww!! lolll... ye lo mithaai bhi aagai... hehehe.. ya a team mate bak frm home town.. but fr me.. its khushi to be back in d same envii.. yuhuu!! m luvin itt.. papparappappaaa! m luvin ittt.. heheh dats how d Mc Donaldz thign goes nai? :D geee
iw as jus about post frm my mailbox.. n there i saw Anil drop in al ine.. givin me d newss.. hehehe.. i dunno wats wid Wipro n y it goes on n off like htis wid blogger! n ya i had to pass on this info to sm of team mates.. cz well.. yea noww.. they r into blogging too.. n .. well. :D :D yea.. i kinda think i am a reason :D:D:D:D
okk.. this is smthin like puran puri.. :D acchich hai.. magar thodi oily hai.. zyada hi.. khair..
its so gud to b back after a lil break ... i mean.. bak to work... oh yes.. dats me sayin its good to back to WORK! :D this is one nice way i gues.. mon tue work.. wed hol.. thur fri work.. n again sat sun hol.. woooowww.. kitna accha hota nai? but it aint dat way... " aapke saath aisa na hoga no no no noo :D "
hhehe.. too many ad jingles on my mind eh? .. nah not too much tv.. but ya i noticed my fam.. especailly my sisters growing interest in .. well ya those soaps.. i unbelievably... all d channels are back wid a bang.. n m wondring what kinda stuf this time n holding their audiances on...
it was just yesterday i read this article in the newspaepr ( haaaaaaaaan ! i read d newspaper after n age i tell ya ! ) n well.. know wat it was about... :D well the agenda was smthing like... ummmm.. welll... may b i'll sum it up in a line " Save English from the English" lol.. gud one nai.. :D i cant really recollect the title or the author but ya it was a gud one after long... not dat i keeo chkin dat column often.. its just dat my eyes fell upon it fr a while n man it sure was interesting.... i wodner what dat guy wud say if he;d read my blogs.. may be he;d wish to reach his grave soon n even after dat may b he;d want it to b the end of dat lol... well ok.. it one or two phrases i remmber readin went like this....... not really quoting ha... js reframing ;em all.. He seemed to be annoyed by the fact the journalists, columnists and the broadcasters too went way beyond messing up english during times when they were largely communicating wid huge well presicely a global audiance.... n surprisingly all of these or may b most of them were English, n one example dat guy kpt repeating was.. during the cricket world cup.. when he said that d reporters reported about "England's defeat to Australia" n he seemd to be goin crazy wid d fact that "defeat to" wasnt appropriate... may be it shud hv been England lost to Australia or may Australia defeated England.. well ... aisich kuch to b tha yaro.. janedo ab.. khair it was agud article i tell ya.. i think it was in dat coulmn.. spectator at chronicle.. umm smthin like dat. not really sure again...
ahh.. i read this releaving mail aate hi.. frm Kannan.. the NRJ finally il b taken into production! man dat was one nice things to feel... n u know i kinda missed out on riting about one evengin.. dat beautiful one .. whn i was leaving late frm work.. i mean at 7 ! n i first time i ditn really feel v bad cz i felt this gudy gudy satisfaction inside.. newyas.. not really sure if i logged dat on the other site but hey m gona move in all dat here too.. n mannnnnn m i happy bout being here !! :) :)
but the sf n pr thing is stil in a fix... n m well.. pretty much into it !! lets c now... n dat appraisal of mien is still pending.. n i dint mention.. Naidu came to my desk the other day ( he cmz to my place soooooooooooooooooooo often these days! ) n was askin me if i;d contribute to d Knet.. n i..w ell d gudy that i am.. obviously replied in the affirmative but also sited that since i;m tied up may b it'll take me some time.. n he then had this suggestion list opened to help me see where i cn squeeze in time for it.. n ya he told me may b half n hour or so at wrk.. n smtime after goin home ( YEA RRRRRRRRRRRRITE!! ) neways.. i set dat aside fr now.. the parameter issue is stil on.. n i really wonder if CPI for Solutions is eva gona see the lite of day....
hmmmmmmm.. chalo abhi ke liye kafi hai.. wil move in other things here.. not sure if i want to.. but.. well ya.. since its a collectin fr a lifetime.. i dont wana miss out on any page of my buk f life! :)
adiosss!!
iw as jus about post frm my mailbox.. n there i saw Anil drop in al ine.. givin me d newss.. hehehe.. i dunno wats wid Wipro n y it goes on n off like htis wid blogger! n ya i had to pass on this info to sm of team mates.. cz well.. yea noww.. they r into blogging too.. n .. well. :D :D yea.. i kinda think i am a reason :D:D:D:D
okk.. this is smthin like puran puri.. :D acchich hai.. magar thodi oily hai.. zyada hi.. khair..
its so gud to b back after a lil break ... i mean.. bak to work... oh yes.. dats me sayin its good to back to WORK! :D this is one nice way i gues.. mon tue work.. wed hol.. thur fri work.. n again sat sun hol.. woooowww.. kitna accha hota nai? but it aint dat way... " aapke saath aisa na hoga no no no noo :D "
hhehe.. too many ad jingles on my mind eh? .. nah not too much tv.. but ya i noticed my fam.. especailly my sisters growing interest in .. well ya those soaps.. i unbelievably... all d channels are back wid a bang.. n m wondring what kinda stuf this time n holding their audiances on...
it was just yesterday i read this article in the newspaepr ( haaaaaaaaan ! i read d newspaper after n age i tell ya ! ) n well.. know wat it was about... :D well the agenda was smthing like... ummmm.. welll... may b i'll sum it up in a line " Save English from the English" lol.. gud one nai.. :D i cant really recollect the title or the author but ya it was a gud one after long... not dat i keeo chkin dat column often.. its just dat my eyes fell upon it fr a while n man it sure was interesting.... i wodner what dat guy wud say if he;d read my blogs.. may be he;d wish to reach his grave soon n even after dat may b he;d want it to b the end of dat lol... well ok.. it one or two phrases i remmber readin went like this....... not really quoting ha... js reframing ;em all.. He seemed to be annoyed by the fact the journalists, columnists and the broadcasters too went way beyond messing up english during times when they were largely communicating wid huge well presicely a global audiance.... n surprisingly all of these or may b most of them were English, n one example dat guy kpt repeating was.. during the cricket world cup.. when he said that d reporters reported about "England's defeat to Australia" n he seemd to be goin crazy wid d fact that "defeat to" wasnt appropriate... may be it shud hv been England lost to Australia or may Australia defeated England.. well ... aisich kuch to b tha yaro.. janedo ab.. khair it was agud article i tell ya.. i think it was in dat coulmn.. spectator at chronicle.. umm smthin like dat. not really sure again...
ahh.. i read this releaving mail aate hi.. frm Kannan.. the NRJ finally il b taken into production! man dat was one nice things to feel... n u know i kinda missed out on riting about one evengin.. dat beautiful one .. whn i was leaving late frm work.. i mean at 7 ! n i first time i ditn really feel v bad cz i felt this gudy gudy satisfaction inside.. newyas.. not really sure if i logged dat on the other site but hey m gona move in all dat here too.. n mannnnnn m i happy bout being here !! :) :)
but the sf n pr thing is stil in a fix... n m well.. pretty much into it !! lets c now... n dat appraisal of mien is still pending.. n i dint mention.. Naidu came to my desk the other day ( he cmz to my place soooooooooooooooooooo often these days! ) n was askin me if i;d contribute to d Knet.. n i..w ell d gudy that i am.. obviously replied in the affirmative but also sited that since i;m tied up may b it'll take me some time.. n he then had this suggestion list opened to help me see where i cn squeeze in time for it.. n ya he told me may b half n hour or so at wrk.. n smtime after goin home ( YEA RRRRRRRRRRRRITE!! ) neways.. i set dat aside fr now.. the parameter issue is stil on.. n i really wonder if CPI for Solutions is eva gona see the lite of day....
hmmmmmmm.. chalo abhi ke liye kafi hai.. wil move in other things here.. not sure if i want to.. but.. well ya.. since its a collectin fr a lifetime.. i dont wana miss out on any page of my buk f life! :)
adiosss!!
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
This onez from tasneem.begum@wipro.com
Finally m bloggin from here… although th feel aint the same.. but nah.. its fine I cn manage…
Man m having this helluva time wid Alex rite now… I dunno wats rong.. n wats wid the sf parameter only when the libraries are loaded… I fixed itt o the extent dat the tree loads… but now.. the libstate aint shown at all… n whn I did try to display d libstate.. it gave me d same damn error while loading with just dat paramater! Its kinda getting irritating abhi to.. but I still have it on mind.. my work.. got to do it.. my work.. go to do it..yea dat kinda thing..
I was just wondering how it is to be obsessed with work… is obsession something one does out of love or like or something of dat sort.. towards something? Or cn it be .. umm well just n obsession…. Dnt be surprised.. its js dat I was bein a lil calculative n wondering if I were unser such a pathetic syndrome… huh.. work obsession??? Nooooo wayyzzz… but I dunno wat it is.. it sure is smthin.. I feel tied up all d time.. umm ok may b not I feel.. its dat I AM tied up all d time.. n hardly have time.. umm well.. for anything else at all… i;ve stopped complaining too… cz although I see myself striving.. I also realize that sooner or later ( usually later!! ) I get to see d results.. n hence have turned out to be a lil more patient than my usual self…. Now I aint speculating on the adverse sides of it… cz I know the more I explore into it… m gona find lots.. n lots .. n lots.. n may b d first … hey I had a call frm a very gud frnd who wz very excited bout this interview he had wid a
Ya so now where was i…. ahh neva mind… I;ve got these other few things in mind.. but hvnt had d time to think ova.. n u knw wat!!! Ash ka Nikah hai kal !!!! yea cn I belive dat? Hehe.. I dunno.. many things happning.. n man life;s changing… Safa was telling me js this morning.. dat whn she left for home early yesterday, she got to set up the dinner table n she felt nice arranging siz plates( d count of her fam) n then it struck to her that she wudnt be duin dat after three four days… n dat reminded me.. how I underwent a similar situation a few years back…. Its so different n life;s moving at such pace.. n I hardly find anytime to “live” it… its all passing by so fast.. things cmin.. n things goin.. dats all dats happnin.. but its gud too.. but there sure is smthin ticking in there dat tells me…. Since its all passing by.. is dat n end is approaching? I dunno what exactly I mean by dat.. but yea.. smthingz there dats gona finish, its just dat time doesn’t stay as long as it used to earlier… now dat again is such a weird line.. J well cmin frm me.. u’ll find everything “weird”
Movin fr namaz… damn sure I wont find time scribble fr.. umm I dunno :D
Ciao !
Saturday, August 11, 2007
!!##@@&&back wid a bang&&@@##!!
yuhooo.. it worked it worked it workedddddddddddddddddddddddd.. :)
so herez me.. back wd a bang.. n man m i relieved !!
wil move in other things i scribled smwhere else , n my notepad scribbles lyin on my ofic desktop too... wil fill it up all here.. on monday!! o ooo.. no.. may b not monday.. ive got hellll lota work already set fr mnday.. :( .. hmmm may b i'll squeeze in sm time inspote d hectic schedule :D, coz if u cnt hv time fr wt u luv, thn wats all ur time fr at alll? ggee.. gud thought nai hehhe..
hey.... chicken biryani fr dinner?... ahan.. Tasneem made!!! n now u know its gona b a DeLiGhT to cherish :D
adiozz! ( i missd this place soo muchh :D :D)
so herez me.. back wd a bang.. n man m i relieved !!
wil move in other things i scribled smwhere else , n my notepad scribbles lyin on my ofic desktop too... wil fill it up all here.. on monday!! o ooo.. no.. may b not monday.. ive got hellll lota work already set fr mnday.. :( .. hmmm may b i'll squeeze in sm time inspote d hectic schedule :D, coz if u cnt hv time fr wt u luv, thn wats all ur time fr at alll? ggee.. gud thought nai hehhe..
hey.... chicken biryani fr dinner?... ahan.. Tasneem made!!! n now u know its gona b a DeLiGhT to cherish :D
adiozz! ( i missd this place soo muchh :D :D)
** publishing via email **
I aint really sure if this is gona work like m expecting it to, but i still wana try.. coz if this really works.. thn i cn get bak on blogger... not dat i hv a a readership, but i;m so much in luv with my space that i miss it comfort n cnt find it anywhere else ( yea i did try another blog site dat aint blocked at office... ) umm well lets c it now...
fingerz crossed!! i hope this works!!
Monday, July 16, 2007
Commitment and more..
mmmmmmmmm... i opened this page to start off wid a "Good Morning" but it dint seem dat wya.... its 3.51 p.m.. so herez a Good Afternoon :) n i guess its good in every sense :)
first things frist... as i started off d day.. i had this thing in mind to put overhear which i had pondered over the weekend coz of sm situations/ circumstances dat i came across n sm lil things even zapped me... anyways.. "commitment" was d supposed agenda.. but like i just mentioned.. d aftnun is really gud.. n dats coz naidu aint here n so d the cpi gal gang planned a movie.. a supposed thriller!.. i;d rather call it a comic thriller... now dont luk at those two words separately or loosely.. imagin .. in the true sense of the word.. how would a comic thriller be? well.. it;d be like Naqaab. Although i liked Akhshaye khanna and d new girl was prety n nuthin more.. n bobby is so used to playing the "rich" guy!
ok .. nothin on a review now....
will get back on that serious note... now? na... mayb another dya.... coz dat mood aint alive... magr...... mmmm... its not gona b a no naidu day again!.. but hell ! how dz his presence have to matter ?
aneways.. lemme put it since i thought it would n i actuallyw as gonna...
A friend i know of... had a steady life.. was seeign a guy since quite smtime... n i actually thought they;d end up together forevr.... i was shocked wn i got to knw she had a proposal on hand n was desperate.. she reportedly said the family is very decent and they are very simple people.... i was a shocked, although ya i was a lil happy coz things seemd to be materializing.. but like i said i was more curious bout wat made her change her mind... i really thought she was committed. then? well ok family problems may b.. but still as of i know bout d person.. she;d b d kind to convince if she wills... moreover she had gud ties wid guyz family.. it cdnt b that things went rong anywhere...
well i mean.. when u think n know and feel that fine.. this is it.. then.. movin on wid life wid smthing else? possible? i dont know.. d thought kinda gives me a devastating shiver...
i know of ppl woh wudnt let go their loved one for anything too.. but not dat i am questioning the character or mind or heart of the other person..they sure know what theya re duin.... but it just makes me wonder.. how cn human mind of heart for dat matter fickle at such a rate especially about such important decissions about life....
i know of secret admirers too... ppl m talkin of here are d onez i closely know... whats surprising is.. irrespective of age... theirz such a variety in preferences when it comes such things... therre really isnt a way one can guess or predict what one might want... may b dats one those many things that uniquely identifies a human being...
aneways, i do belive what happens happens for gud.. coz the Planner is Supreme.
well.. all dat said... dats just one side of "commitment", i also know of ppl who dont find commitment an integral part of friendship.. i beg to differ there though.... commitment aint just bout promising to spend life together,,, wud b nice to c it in anything u do... in anything u share wid yourself or wid another one whoz close.. family/ friend !
i was taken aback when i heard of( from a trustful source) a frnd sayin that he had'nt committed to her, when all she had asked was you lied bout ur very own name? n there was nothing more between them than friendship. n so he dint find it important to tell his correct name?!!
anyways... may b more on dat someother time... i really need more variant insights on that to know of the different mentalities or thought processes the human mind exhibits.. or may b varying bundle of emotions d human heart swears to contain !!
first things frist... as i started off d day.. i had this thing in mind to put overhear which i had pondered over the weekend coz of sm situations/ circumstances dat i came across n sm lil things even zapped me... anyways.. "commitment" was d supposed agenda.. but like i just mentioned.. d aftnun is really gud.. n dats coz naidu aint here n so d the cpi gal gang planned a movie.. a supposed thriller!.. i;d rather call it a comic thriller... now dont luk at those two words separately or loosely.. imagin .. in the true sense of the word.. how would a comic thriller be? well.. it;d be like Naqaab. Although i liked Akhshaye khanna and d new girl was prety n nuthin more.. n bobby is so used to playing the "rich" guy!
ok .. nothin on a review now....
will get back on that serious note... now? na... mayb another dya.... coz dat mood aint alive... magr...... mmmm... its not gona b a no naidu day again!.. but hell ! how dz his presence have to matter ?
aneways.. lemme put it since i thought it would n i actuallyw as gonna...
A friend i know of... had a steady life.. was seeign a guy since quite smtime... n i actually thought they;d end up together forevr.... i was shocked wn i got to knw she had a proposal on hand n was desperate.. she reportedly said the family is very decent and they are very simple people.... i was a shocked, although ya i was a lil happy coz things seemd to be materializing.. but like i said i was more curious bout wat made her change her mind... i really thought she was committed. then? well ok family problems may b.. but still as of i know bout d person.. she;d b d kind to convince if she wills... moreover she had gud ties wid guyz family.. it cdnt b that things went rong anywhere...
well i mean.. when u think n know and feel that fine.. this is it.. then.. movin on wid life wid smthing else? possible? i dont know.. d thought kinda gives me a devastating shiver...
i know of ppl woh wudnt let go their loved one for anything too.. but not dat i am questioning the character or mind or heart of the other person..they sure know what theya re duin.... but it just makes me wonder.. how cn human mind of heart for dat matter fickle at such a rate especially about such important decissions about life....
i know of secret admirers too... ppl m talkin of here are d onez i closely know... whats surprising is.. irrespective of age... theirz such a variety in preferences when it comes such things... therre really isnt a way one can guess or predict what one might want... may b dats one those many things that uniquely identifies a human being...
aneways, i do belive what happens happens for gud.. coz the Planner is Supreme.
well.. all dat said... dats just one side of "commitment", i also know of ppl who dont find commitment an integral part of friendship.. i beg to differ there though.... commitment aint just bout promising to spend life together,,, wud b nice to c it in anything u do... in anything u share wid yourself or wid another one whoz close.. family/ friend !
i was taken aback when i heard of( from a trustful source) a frnd sayin that he had'nt committed to her, when all she had asked was you lied bout ur very own name? n there was nothing more between them than friendship. n so he dint find it important to tell his correct name?!!
anyways... may b more on dat someother time... i really need more variant insights on that to know of the different mentalities or thought processes the human mind exhibits.. or may b varying bundle of emotions d human heart swears to contain !!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
I know m not suppose to feel like this
but.. :D
m feeling much better now...
coz.. :D
coz.....
cozzzzzzzzzz
i got to kno..
thattt
that
that
hehe.. my pm got just 1% salalry hike! :D serves him rrrrrrrrittttte!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
m feeling much better now...
coz.. :D
coz.....
cozzzzzzzzzz
i got to kno..
thattt
that
that
hehe.. my pm got just 1% salalry hike! :D serves him rrrrrrrrittttte!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
:( :~ :`(
aakhri phiriwi hai meri abhi !!
i am no mood to rite! not 1 damn bit!
n m hating every damn thing
muummyyy hona meku abhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
i am no mood to rite! not 1 damn bit!
n m hating every damn thing
muummyyy hona meku abhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
isi shauq ka imtihaan zindagi hai...
i put my headfones on n the volume was full.... i wanted to lisn to Jaaveda Zindagi from Anwar... (awesome song yaaaa...) n so i did.... n my pals sittin about 4 cubicles away from mine coudl hear it :D, ab soncho??? heehhehe... ooparse Naidu's place is just beside mine.. m sure he heard d entire song ;)... lucky himm... meri wajah he got to hear a gudie (unless he wan on d fone yelling at sm1 !! )
nways.... d silly thing was... Soumendra was tryin to say smthin to me.. n since i cudnt hear him.. he hit d table wid the pen heheh :D ya.. he had to do that to grab my attention... dumb na? hehe.. very stupid...
newyas... m sure m quite popular wid my team bout not being able to hear wn i have my headfones on .. n these ppl are quite used to standing behind me for smtime whn i dont respond to their calls, n then i see htier reflection in this glass board here n realise sm1z there :D...... good or bad? i dotn know.... actually... i dotn really care... dats one thing i do here that i like... not gona let go it come what may ;)
therz jus one hting.. they never know whn my i put my headfones one ;) coz they never get to c 'em :D
waise bhi... my quality of work tends to improve with music in d backgrpund :), i do better coding n better analysis... :D
khair... its past 6... gotto push off....
Ciaoo ~!~
nways.... d silly thing was... Soumendra was tryin to say smthin to me.. n since i cudnt hear him.. he hit d table wid the pen heheh :D ya.. he had to do that to grab my attention... dumb na? hehe.. very stupid...
newyas... m sure m quite popular wid my team bout not being able to hear wn i have my headfones on .. n these ppl are quite used to standing behind me for smtime whn i dont respond to their calls, n then i see htier reflection in this glass board here n realise sm1z there :D...... good or bad? i dotn know.... actually... i dotn really care... dats one thing i do here that i like... not gona let go it come what may ;)
therz jus one hting.. they never know whn my i put my headfones one ;) coz they never get to c 'em :D
waise bhi... my quality of work tends to improve with music in d backgrpund :), i do better coding n better analysis... :D
khair... its past 6... gotto push off....
Ciaoo ~!~
Saturday, July 07, 2007
$HoMe$
wow!! doin this from home gives me dat long lost feeling... m homee done wid col, or perhaps jus exams n now waitin fr... ahhh... office?!#$%^&!! ... yea.. dats what i'd do.. sheesh.. its wierd to relate th present wid d past and think that.. ahh.. was this present.. my past's future???!! hehehe..... aneways... since its like this n i did want it like this... its kinda ok, may b i;d say its gr8 if itd be alil more better.. :D, dats soo human nai? hehe
i am not really sure what m duin here at this time... i mean... well office se.. theek hai.. coz i have that die hard feeling to use sommeee of time for myself there.. cmon.. 9.5 hrs, out of which m billed for 8? n even that m told very very very diplomatically... we must put in more effort ( yeaaa rritte!!!! )
na... m off here.. i think i like it better here when m at a not so gud place ;)
heyyyyyyyyyyy rehans heree .. i misshhdd himm shhooooo muchhhhhh.. cnt stay longer
tataa!!
i am not really sure what m duin here at this time... i mean... well office se.. theek hai.. coz i have that die hard feeling to use sommeee of time for myself there.. cmon.. 9.5 hrs, out of which m billed for 8? n even that m told very very very diplomatically... we must put in more effort ( yeaaa rritte!!!! )
na... m off here.. i think i like it better here when m at a not so gud place ;)
heyyyyyyyyyyy rehans heree .. i misshhdd himm shhooooo muchhhhhh.. cnt stay longer
tataa!!
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
make clean/ make release! duh!!!
I am having helluva time ( dont ask me what helluva means.. i think its slang fr smthin n it sounded cute n it just clikd to me this very moment n so i put it.. n yea.. unlike i usually do, i dint run a dictionary check for this one.)
build n build n so many builds subah se
dats all m duin..
i jus hope i dont have to work on this anymore..
i really ireally really wish this package gets no more of work to b done.
newyas... ummmm na nuthin
bubye!
build n build n so many builds subah se
dats all m duin..
i jus hope i dont have to work on this anymore..
i really ireally really wish this package gets no more of work to b done.
newyas... ummmm na nuthin
bubye!
Friday, June 29, 2007
Did i tell u i burnt my fingers thinkin of this fella?!!
I am not very sure what kinda feeling this is.... m feelin gud , bad, sad angry... pata nai.. yesterday when iw as heading towards d bus, n after ir eached there... i got a call from Naidu sayin i have to get back. We have a mail from oniste and there are some findings and we need to fix them before today so u have to get back he said. I dint want to, just a lil while ago, before that fone call, we were discussing how hez been behaving with other ppl of the team... i dont know, i just had this wierd adamance that i did not at any cost want to get back and stay late and work ! i had other important things at home to do i said. He insisted on my returning, i told him i'll call back in 5 mins.... i called back and said... i am sorry i cant come. I ahve some important work to do that cant be postponed either and i;v already comitted for the evening so its not possible. He just wudnt listen to me... forget listen... he dint even want to hear what i was saying,, he just went on and on and on saying this is very important and you have to come back... i kept saying i cant help it coz i took some time from you just so that i cud call up n confirm and i did that... so i cant help it.. if i cud.. i wud... dats what i said.. he sitll did'nt lisn... he said this is not the way an engineer works, sometimes you have to stay back and we dont ask you to stay back everyday do v... i replied saying its not a matter of staying back, i did stay back earlier dint i? i asked.. its jsut that i have something more important at home to do... he said see tasneem you are not understanding, this client is very imortant to us, i said i do undstand howimportant his project is for ericsson and how important ericsson is for Wipro, but rite now i just can not come naidu, i said... he still dint lisn to me,,, he said you have to come bak... i just lisned to him, he still went on, n said luk there are somethings for alex for windows and for the images also and if you dont come back it may take us the entire nite to sit and do it, i said i undstand that naidu but i can not come, and he again dint lisn to me, he just dint want to understand anything but that i must come back at any damn cost. and dats wat made me all the more angry, when i am saying therz somehting important, he tells me that everyone has important things to do rite, n i jus said if this was not that important i would come back too, i did stay back earlier when v had a crisis dint i... he dint lisn again!! i cudnt believe i was talking to a manager who turned so deaf towards n employees request, inspite of the arrogance with which he spoke and the silly adamance that he showed.
I dont know, i wasnt really scared if you ask me.... i disliked him even earlier for his behaviour towards my collegues, but even then i'd feel bad of hating him and wud feel not so good for not having respect for someone whoz so much senior to me. c'mon this is'nt me i;d say, however bad a fella woudl me, trust me i;d always luk at atleast one thing he/she had that was gud n wud stop myself from hating them. but yesterday, i dont know.. i sensed a wierd hatred towards him, i reached home... n it was Maghrib time, i was like.. what do i ask for this fello! a little tolerance? some better way to behave, or just to get him off from wherever i belong. i was so confused and angry...
Just then i got a call from a friend n i spoke to her... n i felt much better.. later i spoke to Fariya, i was still confused bout what i had done.. was it rite/rong/ gud/bad/ was i behaving stupidly arrogant?? but then she told me to stop thinking and that what i did was absolutely fine and that one must have it to say 'no' also. i felt much better after that...
then i went do................
its 4.21pm now.. i started riting here in d mornin... but went into duin work... n now m still in d middle of it.. i'll contniue the above part a lil later may b.. but for now... m feelin bad :(... i'll say why... but after i fisnish work... so not publishing untill then....
ok m back... n not in mood to rite...
but i still will... coz i wanna read it later...
all the extra image changes i had done, were all undone when i dint turn up yesterday... it was done with d idea that things will be fine.. n they even thot so n delivered the package.... but this morning whn saw it.. n showed 'em.. they realised there were pixels missing.. and dats when i told them i had already done the changes for this n checked in d files. then? .. all they told me was.. they just tuk the DHT THS images n put them there... ( dat was two days of my work.. 8 hours of which iw as billed) neways... since later they realised their mistake,,, they reverted to the ages i designed... there still was sm error.. but this time just one(obviously coz i had taken care of the rest..) .
in the mean while wheneva there was talk.. i kinda felt.. naidu was ignoring me.. but thn he cudnt help it.. i as d one who was duin it.. he hd no choice.. n he behaved wid me like his normal best, and i was obviously shocked beyond words as to how one can behave with such tremendous change in two different situations that are so closely related!,
anewyas, i requested to make some more changes n gave some ideas n said i wana try them then v'll build it... soumendra said ok.. since v hav no other go.. let's do it... n ya.. this time it wrkd, but again there was one pixel change required, thankfully, it was identifiable and requred another lil thing for me to do and i did it.. n it looked great after dat....
and during all this v had to take approvals from kannan n girish in finland.. n all they knew bout it was, soumendra was doing it, they were on call... n even then whateva changes they'd propose i had some validations to give for that n i;d xplain it to soumendra n v'd realise its not possible n then he was d one who;d again say all dat to them at finland... in short.. the hulla gulla done yesterday impacted to a rong fact potrayed that all d work's been done by him, when i m d one whoz.. damn.... neva mind.. i find myslef lowering my cadre of ability by wanting to highlight it.. but how about fair talk? neva mind..
neways... its finall done.. n I yes.. I did it... n i can atleast proudly say they cudnt do it widout me... u know y i can say dat... coz yesterday they did try it widout me.. n thot they were sucessful until in d morning i showed they wernt... i dont care bout d rest (it dznt matter, coz all those ppl have been good to me so far) but yea.. my manager.. he still dint have one word of appreciation for me.... it definitely was a silly task n difficult to do, but duin it n succeding after so many attempts does'nt even require a good?
after it was built n it looked perfect, soumendra gave n exciting its done tasneem ! .. i liked it.. i thot thank god.. coz i really had no more ideas to try to make it look anything better... n then he told naidu, he just came lukd smiled n said oh finally done ha... thn lookd at me n said.. oh so u moved pixels? i told hiim what i did.. n he said ok .. dats it!
y do they ahve to be like this?
i still dislike him
1. for never appreciating my work
2. for talking rudely to my collegues
3. for behaving arrogantly wid me yesterday.
and if iw anna put that in order, by giving them a rank,,, then i'd put it this way
1. for talking rudely to my collegues
2. for never appreciating my work
3. for behaving arrogantly wid me yesterday.
n yea.. bout dat subject line now... yea.. iburnt the tip of all my five fingers... of the left hand... i boiled n egg, n there was a plate on dat bowl that was on the stove, firt time i as careful to hold dat plate wid a piece of cloth, but d send time whn i remved d egg from d boiling hot water.. i put it in dat same plate, and then as my wierd mind was wandering into thoughts bout that nonsense talk n predicting his today'd behaviour, i just held dat hot plate wid my left hand so i cud hold the egg under water as i ripped off its peal ! n i was careful not to let go d plate coz it would fall down n make a bigg noise n mumma was just in d hall sleeping.... so i carefully put it down(damn a plate on d stove for about 25 minutes! n i was still carefull to put it bak down holding it wid bare hands!!!!) n damn i still have a terribly burning sensation in all my figers of d left hand.. n i;ve been typing since morning too..
aneways... now v gotto go out .. i mean to d cafeteria.... n hez takin us for snaks.. y?? coz the onsite guyz went on vacation n coz dwae n alex got released there... so a lil snack party to offshore too... but dat dznt in any way take my spirits very high.
but yea.. there is a little contending feeling within that says... "they cudn't do without you ;)"
I dont know, i wasnt really scared if you ask me.... i disliked him even earlier for his behaviour towards my collegues, but even then i'd feel bad of hating him and wud feel not so good for not having respect for someone whoz so much senior to me. c'mon this is'nt me i;d say, however bad a fella woudl me, trust me i;d always luk at atleast one thing he/she had that was gud n wud stop myself from hating them. but yesterday, i dont know.. i sensed a wierd hatred towards him, i reached home... n it was Maghrib time, i was like.. what do i ask for this fello! a little tolerance? some better way to behave, or just to get him off from wherever i belong. i was so confused and angry...
Just then i got a call from a friend n i spoke to her... n i felt much better.. later i spoke to Fariya, i was still confused bout what i had done.. was it rite/rong/ gud/bad/ was i behaving stupidly arrogant?? but then she told me to stop thinking and that what i did was absolutely fine and that one must have it to say 'no' also. i felt much better after that...
then i went do................
its 4.21pm now.. i started riting here in d mornin... but went into duin work... n now m still in d middle of it.. i'll contniue the above part a lil later may b.. but for now... m feelin bad :(... i'll say why... but after i fisnish work... so not publishing untill then....
ok m back... n not in mood to rite...
but i still will... coz i wanna read it later...
all the extra image changes i had done, were all undone when i dint turn up yesterday... it was done with d idea that things will be fine.. n they even thot so n delivered the package.... but this morning whn saw it.. n showed 'em.. they realised there were pixels missing.. and dats when i told them i had already done the changes for this n checked in d files. then? .. all they told me was.. they just tuk the DHT THS images n put them there... ( dat was two days of my work.. 8 hours of which iw as billed) neways... since later they realised their mistake,,, they reverted to the ages i designed... there still was sm error.. but this time just one(obviously coz i had taken care of the rest..) .
in the mean while wheneva there was talk.. i kinda felt.. naidu was ignoring me.. but thn he cudnt help it.. i as d one who was duin it.. he hd no choice.. n he behaved wid me like his normal best, and i was obviously shocked beyond words as to how one can behave with such tremendous change in two different situations that are so closely related!,
anewyas, i requested to make some more changes n gave some ideas n said i wana try them then v'll build it... soumendra said ok.. since v hav no other go.. let's do it... n ya.. this time it wrkd, but again there was one pixel change required, thankfully, it was identifiable and requred another lil thing for me to do and i did it.. n it looked great after dat....
and during all this v had to take approvals from kannan n girish in finland.. n all they knew bout it was, soumendra was doing it, they were on call... n even then whateva changes they'd propose i had some validations to give for that n i;d xplain it to soumendra n v'd realise its not possible n then he was d one who;d again say all dat to them at finland... in short.. the hulla gulla done yesterday impacted to a rong fact potrayed that all d work's been done by him, when i m d one whoz.. damn.... neva mind.. i find myslef lowering my cadre of ability by wanting to highlight it.. but how about fair talk? neva mind..
neways... its finall done.. n I yes.. I did it... n i can atleast proudly say they cudnt do it widout me... u know y i can say dat... coz yesterday they did try it widout me.. n thot they were sucessful until in d morning i showed they wernt... i dont care bout d rest (it dznt matter, coz all those ppl have been good to me so far) but yea.. my manager.. he still dint have one word of appreciation for me.... it definitely was a silly task n difficult to do, but duin it n succeding after so many attempts does'nt even require a good?
after it was built n it looked perfect, soumendra gave n exciting its done tasneem ! .. i liked it.. i thot thank god.. coz i really had no more ideas to try to make it look anything better... n then he told naidu, he just came lukd smiled n said oh finally done ha... thn lookd at me n said.. oh so u moved pixels? i told hiim what i did.. n he said ok .. dats it!
y do they ahve to be like this?
i still dislike him
1. for never appreciating my work
2. for talking rudely to my collegues
3. for behaving arrogantly wid me yesterday.
and if iw anna put that in order, by giving them a rank,,, then i'd put it this way
1. for talking rudely to my collegues
2. for never appreciating my work
3. for behaving arrogantly wid me yesterday.
n yea.. bout dat subject line now... yea.. iburnt the tip of all my five fingers... of the left hand... i boiled n egg, n there was a plate on dat bowl that was on the stove, firt time i as careful to hold dat plate wid a piece of cloth, but d send time whn i remved d egg from d boiling hot water.. i put it in dat same plate, and then as my wierd mind was wandering into thoughts bout that nonsense talk n predicting his today'd behaviour, i just held dat hot plate wid my left hand so i cud hold the egg under water as i ripped off its peal ! n i was careful not to let go d plate coz it would fall down n make a bigg noise n mumma was just in d hall sleeping.... so i carefully put it down(damn a plate on d stove for about 25 minutes! n i was still carefull to put it bak down holding it wid bare hands!!!!) n damn i still have a terribly burning sensation in all my figers of d left hand.. n i;ve been typing since morning too..
aneways... now v gotto go out .. i mean to d cafeteria.... n hez takin us for snaks.. y?? coz the onsite guyz went on vacation n coz dwae n alex got released there... so a lil snack party to offshore too... but dat dznt in any way take my spirits very high.
but yea.. there is a little contending feeling within that says... "they cudn't do without you ;)"
Thursday, June 28, 2007
*** Winnie ***
I jus luv his blunt nose n dotted eyes that blink wierdly :D
And Tigger n that wabbitt hehe... n piglet ofcourse... i dont remmber if dat donkey had a name too.. but man was he lazy !!
Jus luk at d way they sleep ova each other, aboslutely relaxed... is there anything in the world except for peace?
And their play time??? lol.. like therz nuthing better than play wid friendzz... silly na.. they vary so much in sizes, but are still together n hav loadsss of fun... n notice one thing.. all of 'em have jus two dots as eyes.. hehehe..
Yea.. n this is one of those.. "We are the Best" pics...
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
spare NONE when its a question of dignity !
This is goin overboard man!!!.. its so sick to be in a place where therz so much injustice... i realize how hateful the feeling is to be in sich n environment.. n if i feel so sick bout jsut being around, i wonder how the poor guy must be feelin for being a part of it... well .. on the recieving end!! n no wonder hez decided to quit !! n m so glad atleast hez opened his mouth for it atleast now.... i was shocked the oether dya whn Naidu was very rude to Thangaraj n told him things like,, and this is your punishment!.. n even to that this fella dint utter a word... well ok.. what he did was a little silly.. but it did not.. DID NOT at any cost deserve such behavoiur from a manager! it was equivalent to ridiculing the poor guy and not THAT IS NOT FAIR!!!
just a lil while ago.. Naidu came to Thanga's desk and told him bout efforts n stuff.. thanga insisted that he wuld do it.. but naidu wudnt listen.. n he said that you are slow, i;ll help you do it.. thanga dint want help wid it ofcourse.. atleast not his help!! so he kept saying no.. n he even closed the window!! n naidu said.. tell me what is your problem i am trying to help you and you are closing the window... n he replied saying i did ask you earlier htat i had a problem with filling the eoffrts and that they are not being reflected, that time you dint respond.. smthin like that was goin on... i wudnt say i overheard it... it was just too clear to be ignored even if i wanted to... n man i have htis feeling that naidu felt insulted when thanga closed the window.. so he told him a little slowly this time... that he does not know how to behave.. n i went like.. o ooo.. i felt too uneasy n thot i;d just walk away from my desk... but that would make it very obvious that there was too much attention to it... neways... i cudnt help it... thanga wasnt quite this time.. he did agitate although of the size of a miniscule.. but atleast he did... but for once i am glad.. coz when it comes to your dignity... therz no one you should spare !
ok therz still talk goin on inside.. n this time its in d manager's cube.. n i cnt help it.. they are loud.. well ok.. now they are here... but still smthinz goin on...
neways...
i;ve got to move for now.. its gettin late....
just a lil while ago.. Naidu came to Thanga's desk and told him bout efforts n stuff.. thanga insisted that he wuld do it.. but naidu wudnt listen.. n he said that you are slow, i;ll help you do it.. thanga dint want help wid it ofcourse.. atleast not his help!! so he kept saying no.. n he even closed the window!! n naidu said.. tell me what is your problem i am trying to help you and you are closing the window... n he replied saying i did ask you earlier htat i had a problem with filling the eoffrts and that they are not being reflected, that time you dint respond.. smthin like that was goin on... i wudnt say i overheard it... it was just too clear to be ignored even if i wanted to... n man i have htis feeling that naidu felt insulted when thanga closed the window.. so he told him a little slowly this time... that he does not know how to behave.. n i went like.. o ooo.. i felt too uneasy n thot i;d just walk away from my desk... but that would make it very obvious that there was too much attention to it... neways... i cudnt help it... thanga wasnt quite this time.. he did agitate although of the size of a miniscule.. but atleast he did... but for once i am glad.. coz when it comes to your dignity... therz no one you should spare !
ok therz still talk goin on inside.. n this time its in d manager's cube.. n i cnt help it.. they are loud.. well ok.. now they are here... but still smthinz goin on...
neways...
i;ve got to move for now.. its gettin late....
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