i like it here.. :)

ahaan.. m duin it finally... i'v always wanted to post frm office... :D lollzz.. yup office!!!

hmm since its been longer than usual( i always say dat, dont i :D) i jus wanna log dat, i like it here... its like havin fun.. n bein paid... yup atleast fr these three weeks (its d third week now!!!).. i;v made frnds.. n hav many of 'em... gud ones :) .. oh yea!!

work isnt like work.. but sure is gona be like it.. very soon ... after monday assessment.. may b things wil change.. not very much... may b jus a lil... dats cz i'd actually b duin smthin then perhaps :P.... lollz not dat i aint duin anythin now!! wooo.. m talkin crap.. "hic!!" heheh.. kno wat dat hic is?? its.. a hiccup after bein drunkk! a frnd here keeps duin dat.... hehehe.. nope .. m not drunk....

well well well.. d bottom line.... lifez gud... n m really likin it :) n m glad m duin wat m duin.. and m glad.. to b where i am today :)

dats it fr now!! jus wantd to post frm here!! lollzz!!

september 2002- september 2006

oh yes... this month has quite some significance now.... it was year 2002, september 2nd.... i had ventured into MJCET ( yes that is my college's name.. ) really excited, full of life... thoughts to live it all in happiness, in joy, with excitement and fun, n yes... i'v had it all.. MJCET did not dissappoint me one bit.... but that time.. entering that gate.. i did not think... that four years later i would walk out of that gate for good.. and i'd be carrying from it something that would leave me into another organisation... to begin with a new journey... pretty much at the same time.. yes.. that was 2002, and now.. it is 2006... and tomorrow.. is september 1st, a new beginning.... i just hope its as good or may be better than how things have been so far... i have too many thoughts regarding it.. with hopes that it all fits in really well... i shall wrap this one here...

smtimes.. smthings.. jus happen...

i hate this .. i hate this i hate this!! i jus rote down d wholeeeeeeeeee thing! da whole thing.. n .. nnn... my system restarted :(
neways... i'll try puttin it again... hmm yea.. smthings jsu happen.. they jus do.... ur on ur bed.. oops.. nai.. i m on my bed... wid a splitting headache... a bad one.. n ur fone rings... nahh.. MY fone rings... hmm n smone asks.... Rajneesh hai?... n there started a silly saga.... read on....
kaun rajneesh... ye rong no. hai.. n i wz jus bout to disconnect.. whn d other voice like.. went.. aise kaise nahi hai.. mere workshop pe aake deke gaye ye no.... ahhh.. there another screwing call.... i asked.. kahanse bolre bhai sahab... Lucknow se... i said.. ye hyderbad ka no. hai... and boom!! thereee... dat fella;s xcitemnt levels jus rose.. high.. hig.. n high... he went like... kyaa? ye sania mirza ka sheher haiiii! hehehe now there i jus started laughing.. n he went on n on bout saia mirza... adn hyderabad.. and.. hyderabad;s links wid lucknow... in da light of history ofcourse..he knew quite sm stuff.. hehe.. now i wz still laughing.. cz he knew.. n i knew.. dat we dint know each other n he jus went on n on.... next.. he told he was a writer..... he rites biographies.. hindi acchi thi.. shudh wali.. he talkd of his work.... thn he was like,,, mein bhejunga aapko apni kitaben... zauru courier karunga... i was still giggling... it seemd soooooo wierd... i cudnt belive sm1 calld all d way frm lucknow.. a rong no. n he went on n on... talkin... heheh.. it was gud though... da fone disconnected three times amidst da conversation... he dint hesitate to call again... jus to say... incase i visit lucknow or nainital... or anywhewre in da north.. i shud let him know.. n dat he wud take care of my stay there... wooo... i shall remember this... always.. hehehe.. hota hai kabhi kabhi..

hey.. dats bout it..
:) ta ta

watevaa...!

well its like smtimes u'v got loads to put it rite down.. n at times... therez nuthin at all... yea m bak to my silly messing up of spellings.. i dnt wana b a goody goody riter.. not fr today atleast... y? ... well cz m ritin in here aftr..longg longg longgggggg.. n dis time.. is... well.. one of those whn i see nuthin to put down.. but jus yestrday it was da ti had lots n lots.. blaaa... n theree goess..!! yea.. d net connection;z messing up again... n dat means... ahh i gotto keep dis fr publishing.. another time...

hmm nuthin much atually.. jus a trip to col.. fr stuff... paper wrk.. tc bonafide n stuff to b precise... hey.. i feel m ritin fr d heck of it rite now!! yeaa!! truee... jus dat... fr d heck of it... mummmmyyyyyy!!!!!

ahh there it cmz again...wat?? arre yaaa.. d cnnection playin hide n seek... so.. i cn publish it now itself.... hmm.. nah... i dnt wana rite anymore... ummm.. imean... anythin elsee...

sooooooo

soooooo

soooo

sooo

soo

so

ciao!!

Wierd Fascinations...

What could be fascinating about huge fat and round hairy creatures, jjumping around, playing around, doing things you cant figure out.. Rehan still loves watching them :) they are in wierd colours n move thir mouth in sucha funny manner..... hey.. even the busses n cars have huge eyes and they talk really well and about good things, but in the end..its all so rejuventaing to watch those dumb n silly things.. jumping around... laughing over things that otherwise dont seem like jokes... they'v got colorful strands on their heads that move in a rythm as they talk... n those eyes jus batter so cutely ..... but still... what is it that keeps those little eyes glued to the television n has all the attention of that tiny brain.. ahhhhh nonetheless........... entertaining to the core...

thats the CaRtOoN world. . . . .

innocent victim...

He is as small as my adorable nephew, those small hands with plasters around them... tiny legs that were swollen up, one of them was plastered... holding his nipple in his plastered hand.. and bearing the pain of his bandaged chest, that little baby opening his wide eyes as the camera flashed to take a photo of his and here i saw it in the newspaper... wasnt his fault.. but he was still a victim of the israeli airstrike in lebonon... and what was worse was that he was not the only one.. that picture was taken in the general ward of a paediatric hospital i guess( m assuming since there little kids everywhere)
clik on da title.."innocent victims".... its jus a peek into the sickening atrocities...

Too much for just a little..

it aint all dat bad u kno.. oops.. jus a min... it isnt all that bad you know( refer my previous post to know why i put that oops there)

anyways... when u happen to see a video that reminds you how unpredictable life is.. and how unexpected death can be and when u just pass it on and then get a reply from a sister who has recently lost her brother.. telling you how important that message was for her.. wudnt say it gives me a shiver.. jus that it made me sit up n look at things again...

well just as the phone bell rang and i picked a just another call.. i dint realise it would distrub me to the extent i would'nt think of.. not from someone i did not expect, aneways.. the content of talk was rather disturbing, and after that i had a longer talk on the same issue.. oh well it was just about me venturing into something taht would keep me busy and active, perhaps my lithargic lifestyle started reflecting on my.... ahh.. pata nahii (i dont know ).. it just seemd like it was too much i had taken for too little.. but it was only after that i was relieved of it.. that i did realise.. that it was too little..

a disturbed mind, (well there was something else going on pehle se hi) and now this one seemd like placing me on a crossroad wid no direction boards!! anyways... when u are relieved of something instantly.. you just realise that His power empowers everything else, i can only acknowledge submissively..

well thats about it for now...

jus a scribble after long

know what know what know what??!!@@##$$?!?! i wz ranked third in college.. with 83% and da convocation was such a memorable event with mum n baba accompanying me to it.. hmm black robe and the hat.. wasnt expecting it, not in my college atleast.. but was a great feeling, absolutely delighting n ecstatic.

sad picture there, with those mumbai blasts... it looked aweful on tv yesterday, ok now.. i am trying to cleanse my writing skills and am going to read this entire thing again before i actually post it to check i dnt hav any half words n silly scraps here and there.. so inshAllah from now on an and would be an and, and not an "n", and a would would be a would and not a wud, and simialr would be a be, i mean.. it will not be a b.

heheh good phrasing there...signing off for now :)

da futball gods lost!!!!

ennuii???@!?@? nahh.. wid a million mournin brazil's loss n probably a few thousands feelin beckham's pain, ennui is one thing dat fortunately hasnt hit me .. ummm fr today atleast.. hehe.. relieving definitely.... hey.. graduating to become n engg. (oh yea.. i am one now!!! yuhuuu) aint all dat tufff et al... umm was suppose to be feelin smthin dat wud be enthralling... but it dawned only on realisation... oh yea.. frm a couple of close ppl heheh ... well da black robe wid dat blak wierd hat n stuff wud b a diffrnt feelin altogethr... but convocation at owr col.. is alll white.. n borinn....
ahh.. i started wid no ennui ( ahh i like dis wrd yaa.. i wish it had a better meaning to it )
n see m down wid it now... wil scribble in sm other timee...

ciaoo

lingo n buks.. err buk crossers

well.. 11 supposedly is a long time.. i;d clear dat.. it aint suppsedly.. it actually is.. if ur still wnderin m jus refering to da fact dat m scribblin in here after a longer time than i m supoose to... hmm having said dat.... wat i see creepin in my mind dis moment isnt.............. dash dash dashh
orkuttin sure is funn yaa.. hey.. wats hot dis season umm i;'ll tell ya... a hip lingo.. yeaaa... i jus goto kno.. as i was tryin to figure outt wat peeps means... well its short fr people.. hehehe.. she rox my sox... meaninn shezz cooll.. hey.. u know.. usin cool is passe!! yea.. ur lukd wid n eyebrow up whn u say.. hey ur cool... wooww.. dis sure is gud to read n rite bout.. specially at da moment whn i was thinkin of mending my riting habitss hehehe ... hmm figurin out.. imao.. yea.. smthin called imao.. lingo yaa.. dats on campus these days.. goto update regularly i guess.. woo generations leapin veryyyyyyyyyy forwarddd... umm i like it i thinkk .... welllll dat was webdings font for.... i like it i thinkk hehehe gr8!!

oh myyy listen to dis now... wat i thot wat imao.. is actually lmao.. n gues wat dat meanzz.. short fr laugh my ass off!! blaaaaa.. not gud fr mee!! but general knowledge yaaa.. heheheh

lazy lazy lazyyy.. i thot i was da only one aroundd.. i see too much competition noww hmm wateva... but hey... soccer fever still on.. has moderated at my place though i dnt evn know whoz gudd noww... wnderin if KSA crossed da hurdles to reach da second round atleassttt argentina hot fav.. n yea.... like a friend of mine very well mentioned.. thoe who dnt kno much bout soccer , whn asked who ur fav team is.. say brazil... hmm i gues i cn agree to it.. although i dnt wana say brazil's my fav... cmonn yaa they;r guddd
hey book crossing.. it seems is a new trend dats hit hyd, dznt seem to hav taken up in swing though.. well its bout leavin a buk.. in a public place after u;v read it.. so it jus passes on.. n reaches nother reader.. who reads it n passes it on.. hmm goes on like dat.. not a bad idea.. i wnder who;d like to take da step to begin dat buk voyage...hey i saw dis pic on da front page yest.,.. women in iran playin rugby, all in hijab... must say pleasing sight... n wat i saw today.. hmm bruce willis standin next to dis suuuuuuuuuuuuper huge teddy like thing which it mentioned racoon... it was soooo damn cute!!! n loooooo.. another localist voicing his thoughts... lucky chap.. has Deccan Chronicle as his platformm (wel he must b cribbin bout it in hope of times of india or the hindu...).. Srinivasa Rao.. yea i guess dats his name.. hmm as i read.. nature hs a lot to it n to understand it one must understand its language... hmmm now a mmillion dollar question.. wat langugae dz da nature use?? wellllll acc. to da writer.........its .. ummm itss... welll.. itss MATHEMATICS!!! yeaaa... hmm i thot all dose poets n literature kings n queens too ...... dint like math n science n so they'd bunk classes or.. fr n extreme sequence perhaps jus drop outta scool/ college to njoy NATURE n hence venture into literature in emerge.. umm successful (mostly unsuccessful heheh) writers or... wateva... nature speaks in math... or it was perhaps jus to create a beutifying look tfor math haters.....

hmm did i sayy ciao n adios r passe tooo?? welll... all u gotto sayy.. is
laterr...

overwhelmed by ennui

lazing around has probably reached its peak... i dont rememba whn it was last dat i had soo much time with nuthin to do.. or may b i shud say.. so much time wid lots to do.. none of which interests me!!! HoMe.. dats one word dat strikes tooo many feelings.... fr now.. to me.. its synonymous to BoReDoMe!!!!
well i kno this aint gonna last long.. its hardly anytime perhaps( i desperately wish soo!!) since ppl around me go on n on advicin me to DO SOMETHING.. n da kinda stuff i get to here... suggestions i mean.. hav a wide variety... not all amuse me.. but da onez dat do.. smhow take a backseat... n there again.. i hav more dan too much time.. n dis is all i have to do....
hmm dat reminds me... i was into researchin emotions in machines.... how glad i am at this moment.. my system dznt feel much... else dis kinds torture( yea yeaa m talkin of wat m ritin!!) wud drive it crazy to no bounds!!! ehmm.... puttin a second thought ( see dat.. i learnt to put thought instead of my regular thot!! m learninnggg :D ) may dat machine.. umm this machine wid emotinal intelligence.. wud hav better to offer to my souring moods in life( jus fr now haan!!)
okie dokiee... spam mails.. yea.. tolerable.. hackers!! m gettin a sick feelin fr thm.. but dt one art is worth mastering ( i m not hinting.. m no skilld hacker!!)
too many serious issues lingering around my mind n heart..wudnt wanna say m hesitnt to post bout thm.. but no point hinding truth either..
heyyy!! i saw dat.. shahrukh starrer kabhi alvida naa kehna's trailor jus today.. finally on air aftr so much hype.. may b wil rite bout dat whn i hav a second n third luk.. dont wanna dissapoint pritey zinta's fans by sayin shez lukin oldiiieeee (oops... wasnt suppose to rite dat!!! )
voila.. dats enuf for da day... thot of mentioning those stupid date plans my silly frnd was makin..( woooo.. not a date wid me yaa.. ) ........... okkk noww.. m overwhelmed by ennui!!!!!
ciao!

jus another day...

hmm smart enuf, u wudnt jus start talkin (chatting i'd rather say.. ) to sm1 u hav no idea bout.. n u r not da first to approach (ok ok .. i kno.. sm wudnt mind...) , ahan.. dis encounter i;d say was wierd. well, since i find da incident worth bloggin.. it ought to mean smthin eh??!!? as i type this.. m still wnderin if its worth.. but m sure i'll keep wonderin wat its all bout, whn i read it smday...

so, tasneem sounds wierd?@#$%@!!!! hmmm dats a wierd comment cmin frm a wierd stranger, wid wierd mysterious atittude who definitely had a sound intention which kinda failed ( woo my instincts hint too muchh bout too lil heheh!!) ok ok .. i dont possess da right to torture my readers ( see dat conviction!! sm1 wud read this keenly smday ehm ehmm!!) wid silly stuff..

so wats it like.. whn sm1 says.. u've been lucky for me? n how bout smthin like... i jus want sm time out of ur bz schedule.. well all dat n lot more said mmore dramatically, wid intensity.. loads of it.... n conviction dat reflected sincerity... wat cud one hav to say bout dat? woooooooosh.. losin track losin track... i gotto move smwher... dat wrld.. is iss.. ummm.. hey.. wateva.. need to sign off fr nowww!!

15..14..13....

well a cross 15 minutes is what i have in hand.. n yess listen to the goal now... if u happen to read my previous posts, u must have observed.. i've been using umm what do they call it now, yea.. a yea for a yes,, a da for a the, hehehe and how bout a fr FOR a for!!! if dat sounds kinda difficult jus see me type this sentnce again!! " if that sounds kind of difficult, juust see me type this sentence again".
nowww there u see da difference dont u, as i realise da art of riting ( ehm ehmmm da art.. is dat wat i rote??!!!) is a lot more beautiful if maintained wid the punctuations n yea... da rite words or do i say... the ritely ritten words... hmm its gonna take me lotsa time to catch up though... but i;ll reach there soon... its gonna help i kno... cz i was in a bad situation recently whn i was addressing n official mail.. wid these kinda words...
nature takin its course, as da monsoon hits south.. n showers hit da city, lush greenry, n a lil tacky smell at necklace road aftr da rains, is smthin dat dznt turn hyderbadi public off!! i;ve seen them havin a gala time.. jus like i did wid my family....
hmm reservation hulla gulla still on, although its muchhh more lesser than earlier... but its n issue worth givin a thought ( no wonder INDIAz debating!!) gr8 response frm all sectors... if col wud b on... participation perhaps wud hav been a lil more enthusiastic...
more on dat sooon...
n yeaaaa!!! dat was my 15th minute at n end!!!!

another lesson life taught me....

here goes now... buks r gonna b history.. buks r gonna b history.... BUKS R FINALLY HISTORY yupp..dats jus my way of sayin i wrapped up my xams... n like i said earlier.. i dnt thnik i;ve delayed dis post very long :) .... hols n fun... go together eh? wnderin how m gonna get da second wrd fit into da first one... as i find more time for myself, i only realise m unfolding towards too many odds of...... of... of.. da 4 letter hevy wrd..LIFE... n today i add another attribute to it.. unpredictable... although i;v always realised dat life is supposed to b unpredictable.. but dis side of it unveild jus recently.. as i heard my best friend mourn into my ears, early at 6.30 on monday , whn i was reviewing for my xam, at da wee hour she calls to tell me, hell broke lose n shez lost one of her most precious being... her cries make me guess coz she i knew her father was ill, i had seen him jus few days bak... latyer in da day as i met her.. i realised.. i was da one she lukd upto atleast only for dat moment.. as she was there to rite her xam... n what dawned to me dat time.. is something i hardly ever thought of... never had i found a situation so difficult to deal with.. as i consoled her, i asked my innerself wat i am duing, it was her father n m telling her not to cry, to see da gud in it (which daughter can find gud in her father's death?) but still as v both spoke.. v realised.. how life is.. n what it teaches and dat it is da best teacher.... da one thing i had told my self few days bak... "smthings are better learnt by da harder way in life" i cud jus see dat situation reflecting it all... v both rote our xam n rushed out earlier dan v usually do... n as v spoke i felt .. she was feeling better... may b jus a lil, may b jus da size of of da nuclues or wateva smaller dan dat... life teaches... n i am learning... these are difficult lessons... but i m learning.... i rite dis as i mourn, my frnd;s loneliness... wid prayers dat they would emerge from this situation gracefully with the Almighty;s help, and wid thots dat lil dat i hav know of uncle.. i hope he rests in peace as Allah announces his maghfirath...

oh yea..!!

ahaan... dis is wat cmz to my mind at dis point of time, "sm things in life are better learnt the harder way" must hav read it smwher, dat cant b da creativity err.. philosophy perhaps, of my mind.. neway.. fail to recollect, so wont take da credit, incase its worth it ( oh yea sane words are always appreciable) neywayss.. bak on trak.. buks like i;d said r gonna b history... dat day is fasssst apporachin.. but as i sit here to post, herez another thing dat cmz to my mind... one cant always be right, can one? to err is human... havin said dat.. y is it so difficult fer human to realize dat.. mistakes r things one learns frm... n if made fer da first time... unintentionalyy.. do they deserve punishmnt?... y do i feel they dont?.. umm umm blaaa.. losin trak again... hey.. hyderabadi jokes (language highlighted haan!!!) are da most circulated fwds since da last few months... two months to b precise...got 'em posted frm n NRI frnd(sheesh.. cudnt i think of a bettr description at dis point of time!!), who m sure had a gr8 time laughin at 'em jus like i did..... oh yeaa.. another thing dat cmz to my mind... how cn one person be soooooo very diffrnt whn he/she is wid two diffrnt ppl? difficult to digest.. sugary wid one... hurting another... wats true? bla bla blaaa.. next time i'll cm up wid better stuff to post, dnt wanna torture my readers( perhaps nil rite now) heyy last thing haan.. neone who cmz across dis post.. may be by mistake... plzzz spare sm time to post comments.. criticism is welcome yaaa.. i happn to take it well :D
signing off fer noww.. wont delay da next post fer long..

moving on..

riting bout life aint all dat tuff... n whn its urs.. it bcomz all da more easy dznt it...., so wherez it heading? well.. mine seems to hav set on trak... buks n college is soon gonna be history... picnics n frndz ..canteen n gossip.... lecturers n comments.... ahh dat all made up life there... but yea.. we hav to move on.... ahh I hav to mov on... leavin stuff behind.. aint gonna feel very gud... bu t da excitement i predict future has in store.. jus makes me feel... hmm may be dis is it... want a change.. yeaa a change.....

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i dinno blogz cud be this cool... heard a lot bout thm..chkin out fer the first time.. wonder how its gonna luk whn i see it fer oncee.... lemme hav a lukk

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