published on 30th, frgot yest :D

ye dilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

i dunno whats wid d mood, not one bit of work m hatin it.. i mean work.. n luvin this.. i mean the music n the no no noooooo work at all thing, i've got so many msngr windows on , n they go blink blink blink :D

u know i;ve got this reaaaaalyyyyyyyyyyy dhinchakk kinda list playing!! the typical bollywood stuf wid lotsssssssssa beats n boom n ping n pong n ting n tong n wateva else, u know.. the beedi jalaile, vaari vaari, dus bahane, its rocking, khal bali, rubaruu... yeaaaaaaa those kinda tracks, n :D i like it for a change!! its on full vol, i put it aside so the others cud lisn to sm of it too but thn i put them on again... wnt it js fr myslef!

so its no work mood n hell wid d demo i dunno wats gona happn wid it.. i dnt realy care anymore either.. soo.. letss.. ccc noww :):)

geee its tauba tauba ufff ;) playin noww..

n m offffffffffffffffffffffff

:D

lol.. i got this checked at sm blog ratingsite i encountered at another blog

Am I or am I not..

Its such a wierd thought
what am i trying to sought
it lies there in front of me
but i wish to see it not

will someone wake me up
tell me its a dream
i promise not to sleep
if you just temme this is a dream

can this be true although i wish it were not
but it tells me, its over n i have lost
not that it was mine not that i tried
but i still feel the loss, a thought that seem to have died

therez agony on the other side
that anguish is perhaps more than my tide
can i wish for it to subside
with a hope that this wish He wouldnt override

He's havin fun at the cost of my day??

It feels like its yucky day season goin on !

a pathetic day start ! sheesh its like things are waiting at every corner to just topple down as soon as they see me pass byyy... mmmmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy



it wasnt oneeee bit of my fault! i got up on time, got dressed on time, had breakfast on time, n was ouuta home ON TIME!



ab kya hua malum?? damn damn damn!! i dunno watss wid these damn auto guyz! they dont lisn when u ask them to put d meter on, they js want to dump in as many people as possible n take them to a common destiantion! i hate them! nuthing effects them! even a very gud offer to take a customer ALONE to their desired destination does not lure them! i dunno wats gone into them!!!

sooooo the outcome??? huh! i missed my bus, it was 8 a;ready n i wasnt at my stop! how long wud the bus uncle wait! then i thought.. ok... ive missd it i know... i'll take the rtc bus ( man i hate itttt!! ) but it was n ok alternative! better dan the sevn seaters, i dunno m allergic to 'em cn neva eva eva eva travel in dat ! neways.. hold on.. my build is done!



bla it dint go well.. did it again... neva mindd...



yea so where was i ! ab dekho.. since i decided i'd take d bus... wo bus aana na??? the damnnn thing!!!!!! it dint turn up in a whole 40 minutes i was standing there!! can u imagine! a bus dat has a frequesncy of less than 15 minutes in that area, dint turn up in a whole 40 minutes!!! n that that thattttt had to happen the samn day i wudnt get n auto n hence miss my bus!! huhhh!! all thisss for nooooooooo damn fault o mineeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

neva mind yaa.. i aint in d mood to rethink the incident n put it here, whn i;ve done it almost.. but wateva... as i was typin all this, i saw things go worse.. guess what i did to add on to my frustration? huh... hit the main switch wid my leg ( by mistake as usual !! i dunno y they hav d power suplly down there! ) n then i had to restart n bla n bla n bla..

although i started ritin this in d mornin.. i havnt published it by..w ell... noon !? huh.. yea.... n my mood is kinda the same.. well ok a lil better.. i bought myself a fruit n nut to calm myself down.. n i;m gona have it all alone! not a cube to any one!!

will get bak to wrk now! n knowwww wat???? got a mil frm d manager wid instructions dat read ( in his silly english! ) dat therz too much chatting and browsing goin on in d team and dats pulling down th productivity level ! yea yea yea rrrrrritE! dats y i tell him to distribute work! bla ok.. neva mind.. dat wasnt for me... how i wish it was :(

but u know.. this day really gave me dat feeling of being mocked at!... by whom? Him ! it seemed like, Hez sittin up there, n playin around wid my day, js to tease me ! :-X u know.. like u irritate a baby n then wn hez almost cryin, u hug him to comfort him n u certainly feel gud bouti t... yeaaaa dats exacttttly what i feel He is doin wid me todayyy !!!

khairr khairrrrr... my chocs waiting....

ciao!!

wind n storm n tornadoes or anything more worse?

how difficult can it be to describe a heart storm that occurs in the middle of a brain storm? n to worsen it, we see that these two storms are contained in another humungous storrm... waht more? you know these lil storms inside the big one, are already tellin me... hey Tasneem , this is jus the beginning, we gotto go a long long way !!

huh!

i dunnooooooooooo

I logged into messenger, totally frustrated hating Ericsson (earlier i hated just Wipro, now i know Ericsson is the major culprit) muuuuuummmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,
i've got this terrible cold ( yea coz of the ice cream i ate from Zainab , Baqar and Rehan... "such chote chote kids n itna bada ice cream each" i thot, n so made some stupid sad faces to blackmail them n they all stood in a line taking turns to give me bites and licks of the ice cream :D) n ab dekhooooo, galaa is totallllyy off d mark ! i;ve got a reddd nose now! sniff n sneeze man!!! naidu mst have heard my sneezes sooo many times since morning, but i still know that manager of mineee... uurrghhhh neva mindd..

han to khairr.... d damn point wass... dat m here coz m sickkkk of work, aint it wierd, m sick of work everyday n i still cm back n do it ! huh !!! smthinz terribly rong wid me... but u know one gud thing... i finally figured out how to add that SL parameter and where to add it :) i;m soo relieved it !! but i still ahd sm questions n so mailed Soud, then also checked wid Kiran, so now have a better insight of it..

hmmm Anil was tellin me... your much better than us Tasneem, the important thing isss.. you have work ! n i gave him dat duh luk wid that dumb smiley n said, Anilz, peace is whats most important.. n i see my self heading towards n edge that lacks itt... ( how thoughtful? huh Applying thought!! yeaaa rrrrite! gimme a breakk ! )

mmmmmm my right shoulder is in pain, coz of the mouse effect i guess... sheesh i'll go nuts if i stay longer in this industry :(

Hey... u know what i;ve thot of.... i aneways have plans to learn Arabic, the Quran and Sunnah and the Fiqh... mmmmmm when else m i gonna start?

kya hai ki yaarooo.. beekaaaaaaaar ka dimaag kharab hai yaan! bohottt phirti meri aise situations me !

Butttt.. hey Eid is smthin i cn luk fwd to :) :)

okkk Gayatri wants me offfff the sys now!

so ciao !!

Melancholy

Today again i heard a cry
a bruised heart's moan
a heavy sad sigh....

There's wind and rain
and buds in pain
A smile that's faint
and beauty stained

A tear that rolled
down the cheek
just that one
could a million words speak

In the darkness of the nite
there was a plea for light
Alas! in vain
'coz none cared his plite..

Mansooooooo, these r fr u !

Aap se hai mohabbat aapse hi hai inkaar
Aap se hai gila bhi aapse hi hai takraar

Dil chaahe bhi milna dur rehna bhi chaahe
Hain baatein kuch kehna kuch sunna bhi chaahe

Hai kaisi ye kaifiyath kuch samajhna na chaahe
Jo dil mein hain baatein zubaan par laana na chaahe

Suna hai isi ko kehte hain mohabbat
Hai kaisi ye ulfat ke iqraar karna na chaahe

_________________________________________________

Falak pe chand taaron ki baaraat saji hai
Chehre pe unke aisi hi kuch muskaan saji hai

Naa jaane kya sukoon hai unke intezaar me
Mit si jaati hai har thakaan unke deedaar se

Naayaab si lagti hai zindagi unke saath se
Aabaad hai hamari dunya unki ek haan se

Ummmmmm

OkKkKkKk!!!
i havent really gone much ahead from where i was last time u know... its been such a crawling journey n NO i dnt really like it that much.... but well.. i remmber saying similar stuff when i was redesigning the eniter toolbar of ALEX and smhow, i was through it.. n mmmmmm ok ok ... it ended well n dats all i want this time too...

khair, kuch hua, i hope aur kuch hojayee...
Eidddddddd :) n u know wat? i asked my manager fr leaves( i dnt belive i ws asking for something that was already mine!!!! huh dat aint Tasneem!!! ) neways... n like usual he gave me his billability crap and said, Tasneem three days is just not possbile, i told him of the Soultion's status ( well atleast now he has n idea dat m havein a bad time! but hell he still emphasizes on just one damn thing n dats it shud b done on time! as ifff.. ahhh nevaa minnddd) yea so khair he said no, but i still walked out sayin myself, i aint cmin fr three days n wateva he says i'll say ya i;ll try to b bak soon but i aneways m gona take three days o my leave! ab wo kaunse din lena hai, wo i gotto plann....

hmmm sholapur jaare mum baba log to get bhabi and the babyyyyy :):) Omar, and heyy! by the time i reached home yesterda, bhabi( d other one) and Fouad( yea dats his name;s spellin n i thot it was Fawad) was already home.. and i tell ya MashAllah, hez such a :):):):):D:D:D:D:D:):):):).. okk.. u get d point dont ya ;)

khair... to apart frm dat.. well ya i wana join mum n dad n fam to sholapur.. ir eally reallyy realllyyy need a change and a breakk!!

mmmm chalo dats bout it... n hey manso dear.. this post is a dedication to u :), not dat i hav any gudy content worth of dedication, but since u told me u kept chkin n dint find updates :) thanxx fr keepin trak of me yaa :).. makes me feel gud dat ur bothered :)

Adioss!!

(: Another babyyyy :)

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnddddddddddddddddddddddddddd we'r gona calll himmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Fawad
:)

kitneeee din hogayee naaaaa !!!

u knoww what??? its beennn.. hooooooooooooooooooooooo soooooooooooo long since i posted ! dont ask me wats goin on, but therz like.. so much happening and lots goin on, n well smtimes it feels like.. nah it aint much for a mention n smtimes i go like.. OH MY GOD!! m i gona remmber dat this happnd or do i need to blog it ;)
newayss... hav loads f work to do, n its in pathetic condition! n i really mean pathetic!!! i dunno whats gona wid Solutions! m heading NOWHERE wid it, n like alwayss.. i feel.. naidu cares a damn, so now again, for a whole week i gues i;ve had almost a similar attittude, but noww its really pissing me off, quality god damn!! i dont know y i;m such a .. urrrrgghhhh neva mind!!

yesterday, or may be hmmm two days since yesterday were like sooo .. sooo... i dunno what, i was at my all time low, for.. well GOd knows reasons.. n man was it bad, i screwed up many things... but then yesterday evening.. :) it was nice, i felt so much better, dont ask me y, i aint tellin ya! :D ;) :D
but ya, those bad bad bad n sad sad sad n low low low times, were ...ummm.. not gud ! n it was perhaps also the first time when my bestest buddies were also feelin similar lows ( this was like such a hysterical coincidence). i got a mail from asma askin me to call.. when i did, she heard my terrible 'hello' n went like, whats with you, i said kuch nai u say.. n looooooo... first time i guess, i cudnt really comfort her as well as i alwayss do. We spoke for about 40 minutes or so... then another 20 minutes later, i get a call from Fariya, she asks me to call back... i called.. n ahhhh what a sad tone i hear from the other end, i went like.. whats wid d day aj !! ... she was missing her father.. but again, i dint comfort her as well as i always do, so she was kinda worried coz it was the usual, she;d probably hang up pnly when se was satisfied n feeling better after talkin to me, but dat day.,,, smthin was kinda missin so... well nxt day she called up again to ask me what went rong, n nah i dint have n answer, we realised dat it was such a stupid talk we had that lasted bout n hour, n man it must have sounded sooooooo depressing, coz fr d first time, both of us.. were feeling not so gud (its neva like dat, its usually one of us or none of us ).

n hey, yesterday morning was such a wierdoo too, i got up a lil late n missd my bus, tuk d rtc one, n then got stuck in traffic at toli chowki (it was soooooooo bad kal ! coz f n accident f a sweeper who died on the spot after being hit by the driver of the DPS school bus ) khair i finally reached work at 10.30!!

khair chalo yaro, thoda kaam karlinge... horaich nai merse :(

yallaaaaaa m off now!
Adioss!!!
wooooooooooooooooooo i frgot to mention, we have a new member in our family now, Sajid bhia wants to call him Omar, baba had said Osman, abhi tak to we r calling him OSman, but chalo if bhia insists, we'll call him Omar. n ya, today inshAllah, we are gona have one more lil one joining our family :) I dunno what Sadeq bhia wants to call him, but i luv this name Bilal (if its a boy ! ) n i realllyyyy wanted to call someone Alisha (its such a beautiful name, it means protected by Allah) so i hope its a girl :D:D, but m not sure if baba wud agree to dat :(

khairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr chalo bye!

* ting ting ti ting *

geee... i dinno i;d b able to do dat so soon :D:D
thank god fr d damn reusability concept we have!! n my silly eyes dat cudnt see dat dumb funciton lying ind at corner! n i was tryin to rewrite it n i messed up wid memory allocation n mannn were there blunders!! i hate handling those memory blocks, u got to free them u gotto clean them u got to b careful with them.. n i dont like being careful while handling stuff!! eee!

nonetheless.. alls well dat ends well.. n my saga of retrieving the refernce file ended pretty well... n yippy m glad, now i cn move ahead n mess with d url n build it better to serve my purpose:D:D:D

n offffffffffff fr namaz!

(: Maassalaama!! :)

jus another, among the plenty...

Havent been here since quite smtime i guess.... not really sure wats keepin me off it but.. umm well... hmmmmmm.... m in a dark cubicle with just my monitor's lite flashing on my face... nahh i aint wrkin in the nite.. its morning 8.48am and i js dint put d lites on after cmin in... dint feel like it.. n the other lady who alked along wid me dint feel like it either.. so its.. well.. dark !... n sinct it aint sunny n since it cloudy n since the clouds are grey n since it seems like its gona rain cats n dogs ( nah not literally! hehe imagine! wat a scenee!! :D:D) well so.. coz of all those "since's" the huge window dat i face isnt serving d purpose of enlightning my space either... huh! i tend to put in any damn crap that moves in my mind !well ok.. it aint crap han! blaaaaaaaaaaa

m alll into cpi fr solutionss.. soud is movin to finland this sat, so m wrkin on it alone, n i have no idea how its gona turn out.... jawahar wud be joinin me soon , naidu said dat to me yesterday. Atleast he was gud enuf to inform me that the omnidaemon requirement in thru wid although i was wonderign howcm i aint in the loop f those mail convo;s, neva mind.. may b it wud anyway divert my attention n dats one thing i can not afford to do with cpi fr solutions in my hands... khair.. Ramadan movin well.. :) m havin a nice time, not compromising( or may b i shud say not bein lazy) with my obligatory and my extra prayers n my recitals n etc. n etc. Me safa n Rahmath wait in ofice fr iftar n get home by the 7.15 shuttle, ya i reach home by 8.15 or so.. but.. umm its ok.. since i dint like d idea of bein alone in my bus durin iftar time.. so its ok.. n as long as baba isnt here, i wont have probs, ya whn hez back he aitn gona allow me i guess..

ohhh!!! Lites on... ok.. meaning Naiduz here... hmmmmmm... khair chalo.. i dnt have much to put on.. i got to get back to solutions.. m trying to extract that refrnce file frm d library buttttt. hmmm.. lets c.. i hope i do dat aj, it;ll b n imp steo ahead.

off for d day!
Adioss!!

howz this monday sooo beautifull??!!??

Its sucha beautiful rainy morning.. :) although last nite i was a lil umm dunno watt... d morning shooted off so welll.. i dunno why.. but it smhow did.. whn things were falling apart suddenly i saw all of them fly back in placce jssssss at d rite time :):)
i frgot smthin home so ran bak to get it.. n so was late, dint get n auto on time, n when i did.. ir elised i dint have enuf chnage to give him n nither did he.. but d guy turned out to b n old fella whod take baji to her clinic earlier, so he tuk wateva i gave him :) .. n js then i missd d bus n this unlce standing htere told me.. ur bus has gone already.. n iw ent .. damnnnn.. bt again.. jsssss thn i saw another bus cmin my way n stoped fr me :):)
hmmmm .. i think i like it :):).. n.. mmm well.. m smilin :):):D:D:):)

nah cant sum it up here..
adioss!!

A quick morning meet !

I'm just back after a discussion with Naidu, this was kinda a part of the appraisal cycle, so he must "discuss" before he closes my appraisal, n this was for it... waise its his bday aj, n i dint wana wish him, coz i always thought .. umm n i still think i do.. dat he dznt care, he neva wished any of the team mmbers xcept sesi on their bday... so i hd thot i wudn. waise to team se wishes jaate hi.. but khair,, i know its unlike Tasneem, but.. .. ahh neva mind... he came to my desk ( i dunno ajkal he walks up to me quite often i feel ! eeks! ) n i turned n surprisingly "Happy Birthday" nikalgaya mere moo se... wo bhi with a smile... khair he he gave a pleasant thank you (surprisingly !! ) n then said ur appraisal is still pending we'll close it? ( he meant... without d discussion) n i was like... ya sure we can close it, but i have sm questions, n he lukd at me.. n he said ya we'll talk.. n he still stood there!1 ( shudnt he be d one to offer to talk? n then we proceed?! duh !) neways, i said.. so can we talk now? then he gave me dat luk n said ya sure , n he tuk me he cabin n there he started offf....

I started off by askin a general... what is expected out of me.. he gave me a surprising " u are doing gud Tasneem.. when compared to others ur good i can say, but yes since u have just started therez a lot u have to learn..." . Then he said this.. out of all our team members, i think u wud b the only one i wud suggest for the technical stream ( dat did give me ahigh , although i wasnt very sure what xaclt he meant by technical stream, as he differentiated it frm d project stream) on dat he elaborated, u have gud grasping power so u can learn well and go ahead. ( isnt all this sooooooo much cliche'd na?) khair... it went on.... but smhow.. ( may b cz of d general dislike i have towards him, na not a general dislike, sab usi ki karni ka phal hai ! ) i dnt realy have a gud impression bout him ( yea u read dat sentence rite, i am tlaking bout his impression on me and not the vice versa! ) but hten he was being gud to me... he was strongly recommending .NET n hez gona send me for a training too... hmmm ... but thn i kinda was averse towards it, so i told him dat.. well i know it might sound kiddish but i havent heard much gud bot this technology n growth in it, although its smthing dats really flourishing now, n he said well dats a debatable topic, but since ur going to learn the basics, i strongly recommenc you do dat he said.
then another thing he seemd keen on tellin me is dat.. since he thought i was gud at learning he wanted me to get into the architectural side, n not stall my growth. but ya one thing when he said he dint want me to get into the project stream ( not very sure but he used wrds like managing ppl etc. .. n HEY I LIKE DAT!!!) n dats y he "strongly recommended" me for technical stream ( I FIND DAT BORING!!! ).

well as he went on with all dat, i had js one hting in mind, i need two hrs a week for my arabic classes at the university!! n bang i opened my mouth for it. I said this isnt anything technical, u can call it a hobby that i always wanted to pursue. So i glittered it with sayin i always had interest in learning languages ( utnaaaa scene nai hai ;) ) n so i enrolled for this course with the Osmania University for a diploma in Modern Arabic n dat i want to leave at 4 at any one day a week so i can reach th university and attend the classes there. n i told him i had this long term goal of doing my MA in arabic ( ya dis is true, coz i always wanted to learn Arabic as a language, since i already knew how to read n write it, i wanted to learn to understand it if i;d read it.) n at first he shooted to me the billability crap.. n dat i have to show hours being put in so i can bill the client but if everyone takes leaves how cn i show them bla ye bla wo, thn i went on n said i just want two hours a week, coz i m totally tied up, if i just attend one class a week, i;ll smhow manage n do with this diploma xams ( its SDMA; senior diploma in Modern Arabic n dat'll make me eligible for MA in arabic later) so he said ya sure if dats d case, just two hours i think its fine! n yippy! i thoutgh chalta atleast itni baat to maana meri. ( i dunno he is gud to me [hez even given me dat award!!] but.. i still.. ahh dnt like him very much for his earlier nuisances)

hmm so dats wt d discussion was all about.. now o gotto get goin again wid cpi for solutions. I was trying to make my resume the other day, n man did i have a tough time on it!! i sure m gona explore into other things, but.. hmmmm letssss cc noww..

chalo m off here.. may b wil b bak.. but untill then.... its..

bye bye frm Me!! :)

Rewards and Recognition

Status meetings are boring to the core ! all one would wana to is.. yawnnnnnnnn..

n okie dokie day, a fruitful one though, something i wasn longing to fall in place, finally fell in its place!! n i was informed i;d get an appreciation token, n award that they call the FIMC- Feather In My Cap. well ok dat gave me a lil high, but nah it aint much more than a certificate ( NO, it aboslutely does;nt imply a hike! ) but still, glad to have got it, since it adds on to dat record i;ve been carrying since college n school, here goes, my first ever performance appreciation at Wipro Technologies. :) .. hmm dat sounds nice now. :)

Objective :On-the-Spot recognition important to the project / project team (spontaneous boss-to-subordinate) Eligibilty : Anyone who has done great short-term work.
Criteria : Impact has to be significant and project / account related.
Demonstrates skills such as problem solving, initative, technical competence, implementation of ideas, conception and institutionalisation of project best practices, etc

adioss!! weekend ahead ;)

A Moan..

Was the fault all mine
All I did was did not lie
Still I did see a tear shine
All I did was refuse to fly

Just a word of dislike
Another to avoid my heart strike
Then how did it hit so hard
Why, why does it feel so sad?

It can’t b that I’m so bad
Just a greeting can’t make one mad
How can my presence be so disliked
That one might wish to turn blind

Wonders are not what i expect
Reality has always been my percept
Then y does it seem to fall like this
There is something I know that is amiss

sOoOoOo much

Ok now.. another wierd thing.. but before that... i'd like to vent out yesterday;s nuisance! i dunnoo yyyyyyyyy i get soo damn frustu (dats a cute nick fr frustrated, a frnd f mine uses it :D) n sick n sad n bad n angry by the fact dat once in a blue moon i;d have to wait for n hour n do a lil more work ! now as m stil ritin this. m hating d fact dat i have to, or i;d say "had to" instead.! y do they have to arrange meetings at the time whn they kknow m gona leaVE!!! n to add to dat!!! they decide in it, that they;d want a binary to test just then since it wud take just a lil time ( yea riteee!!!!) n smhow i guess it all shows on my face, n so my manager luvs to walk up to me to say, Tasneem if u need any help hez there (pointin at another guy whoz more than used to staying back later than 8 coz he doesnt have to get bak to wat is called home!!) n then that fela cmz n asks Tasneem do u need help, i js luk at him n say. no just a lil i think i'll manage, n m sure he cn read all my extra grins in dat ! n at the rite time! i dunno how! i get this frndz call n he knowz well dat m pissd off coz i have to stay bak n hour, n i politely ask if i cn talk another time ! n he gets it! .. n all dat to pile up on my frustu thing... neywas.. so i wrap it up n head to my shuttle at 7 n reach home... oh no.. not home yet! i hire n auto n there a new idiotic saga with a autowala whoz a crook !
i said Asifnagar PS ke paas chalna hai, he asked ye jo peeche hai? I said yes ( n iwas wondeirng peeche???? huh, was at mehdipatnam n iw as askin fr the asifnagar p.s.. now how;d dat cm peeche? huh! )
neways, he then said... theek hai.. Rs. 20, i thot damn.. its the auto guyz day, ditn negotiate on dat since iw as already irritated by the frust day i had.. so js hopped in .. n there.. he brot me rite in frnt of d P.S n stopped it there! i asked him to take left, damn the guy refused! huh! iw as being polite, n he said yahan aaye tak 30 hojata! silly dumbo! he thought he cud get away with that! i had to say smthin now.. i told him i cm this way EVERYDAY! he still wudnt lisn, i said i wont pay him i get down here, he said he wudnt let me then ! i said fine!! take me back to where we started.. you put ur damn meter on n then v'll take d same damn route, n if its lesser than 20, i aint gona pay u a penny.. n if its more than 25 like u claim, i'll pay u double d amount! ... n guess wat.. dat crook fell for it! he turned d auto ( i cudnt believe he did it! ) n he tuk me well quite ahead, n then he realised.. ab ye waapas jaane ke paise kaun dete,,, although i wanted to burst out laughin.. i was still angry .. n i dint like dat guy oneeeeeeeeeee bit ! but then i insisted he turn the auto dat very minute n he take me home riteeee to my home! n not jst d ps. n i told him he shud now his basic duties as n auto guy ( well i dint use dat word duty thankfully, its ounds silly as i write it though) but he stil wdunt lisn, smhow this time it slippd off my mind, i cud have jst asked him to take me into the police station instead n then he wudnt utter a word n may be take me straight home!
neways after all dat he tuk me home! n i gave him js what i said i wud n went inside.

pheww.. n then i realised i;ve been behaving like a totally frustrated freak whoz got NO life, then i tried to calm myself down,, rushed downstairs n was much better wid my family around. I had to refuse to the Mc donaldps treat i promised my sisterz cz i got late n was home by 8 instead of my usual 7. :( neways, may b today... hmm lets c

ya so i fianlly decided this mornin dat i am gona behave myself n be a btter Tasneem n dat a frustrated Tasneem is realy realy realy bad n dat, this wasnt d real me until last year, so y now.. to aj se.. hum sudhar gaye :)
ok now the next wierd thing...
how strange is this now???
Hez gona celebrate her birthday , hez got cake ordered specially for the occasion, with certain particulars bout th flavour! N has ordered it bout a month in advance, n is gona have it on that day, get it to HIS home n cut it n eat it HIMSELF n she aint gona know! Wat do u call dat now?!!! Huhhhh ! paagal logon ki dunya nai bolte isku????

okk.. m off it now... n yea m anyway gona get half or atleast one fourth of dat cake ( it was described as a whole choclate cake .. n man imran gave me too many yummy details of it.. ) all i got to do .. is wait. :)

n ya.. i still havent done anything bout dat Arabic course i supposedly joined.. I gotto go meet up the HOD n have a plan set. I was so eager on it, now i cant loose it just like dat! .. mmmmm.. lets ccccc noww....

blaa janedo... m still waiting fr a call or mail response so i cn get wrkinnnn, i dont like moving on directionless! nahh not when its software!!!! but ya, my life;s kinda like dat nai?
hey Far ka missd call.. wil cal her now.. so .. signingg offfffff

Maassalaama!

* silly nothings brighten ur day smtimes *

:D well i've done this really dumb thing abhi kuch time pehle... but.. umm well.. :D it was important fr me dat time :D
i cudnt finish my lunch.. it was too much n i was already full.. n i asked safa to help, n she did untill there was just one more spoon left, but after dat she refused, n i stil cudnt take dat one last bite, n suddenly.. :D keets appeared :D n i kinda, well blackmailed/forced/tortured here to eat it :) n she did after a whole 10 minutes of behez n no n i had to hold her hand so she wudnt get away, fr sooo long! i offered her a choclate fijnally n she still dint agree, n then i maskafied a lil more n bingo ! she had it ! :) . n then i bought her a choclate n now i have a very silly but sweet memory to reminisce later :)

An year ahead...

Some of 'Me' is really happy, some of 'Me' is astonished and surprised and most of 'Me' is still wondering.. " ek pooora saaal hogaya??? "
Wooooo, how on earth did i do that??? :)

yup its been a whole year in Wipro Technologies today. I stepped into the Madhapur office, with a thumping heart and nervous mind, thinking howzit all gona be from today. When i was about to leave home on this very day, as i stepped ouuta the gate, Baba called from behind and said, from today your walking out to earn your bread, thank the Lord and recite ayat al kursi for a special purpose before ou leave every day. That gave me goose bumps then !! I followed dat( frgot smtimes too , but wud remmber it most of d times :D). n today i realise, its been a whole year.
I;ve had my share of ups n downs, i can;t forget the times i lied in mummaz lap with a tear or two rolling down n telling her, i dont wanna go tomorro mummy, it sure was kiddish, but i dint like the "hectic" work i;d say. There were times i cribbed for having to stay late once or twice, i so hated it ! but i'd console myself sayin atleast i dont have to do it everyday like sm of my other friends. There have been times i;ve luvd the breeze here, the beautiful rainbows i;ve got to see, my silly frineds around, Safa;s company for lunch n smtimes breakfast too. Our cribbin durin morning cofee, my non stop nonsense with my "namaaz ki toli". Its wierd i was liked bby so many. They all were there, n i;ve seen happy times here too. i used to say. the best part f cmin to work is to know dat you gotto get back home. :) although dat feelin aint as strong as earlier now, but i still cherish those thoughts those walks those talks those musings.

Well Wipro taught me how to make cocktail :D Wipro showed me quite a few rainbows. Wipro gave me my first ever cubicle. Wipro gave me this tag i smhow feel proud to wear. Wipro gave me my first ever feeling of being a Software engineer. :) So what if its shown me a Naidu, n sm late days at work, it also showed me a well lil better naidu too :) I know what it is to be wid "collegues", it was all so different pehle. It so very different now :)
I aint a kid anymore, i aint a fresher anymore, i aint just out of college anymore, but i cant promise that there aint gona be a day i'll tell mumma.. i dont wana go like i used to for col or scool :) I gotto know all the work politics, all the gossips dat go around. i gotto know that one must not let out if they are goin onsite even if its project related .. to your OWN TEAM MATES, untill the d day when u meet them to say gud bye!! u neednt even say if ur leaving the organization et al. I learnt that it its ok to say no at times, i learnt its very necessary to say NO at times. I think m a lil more patient now. I learnt not to be super duper scared of deadlines to the extent dat u mess things up at home.

I met sm really gud ppl here, i now have a very nice gang that we cal the "namaz ki toli" :) I have Safaa still with me ( yea inspite my chutter butter n her silent nature, we;ve got along n shez talkin too :) ) have n nice team, have bhagya n gayatri to share work nuisances :) n a very gud pal who'd always be there. n keets n manso n shubh n anils n all of ;em.
hey its been gud ! :)
although i did remmber yesterday dat today is n important day, i realise its well speciall too, inspite the odds, the bads, the sads, this years has been.. well...... bright :) n i still dont believe it.. ic an write Experiance : 1 year (atleast!! ) in my resume now :D

n how can i forget to mention!! i;ve been a better blogger after cmin here :)

Adios!!