Monday, May 05, 2008

To the Anonymous'z who visit my blog

This post perhaps would seem silly, but it does have a reason for its existance, quite obviously.. i would;nt call this a dedication to all the anony'z who drop by my space, but ya i;d just like to say... its nice to know there are people out there who find it important to keep trak of my whereabouts, i also realise this might just be my khushfehmi, and may b one or two of you who drop by are genuine in maintaining ur anonymity...

Identity has always been a matter of concern to me, be it mine or someone else'z. I sure can filter out the genuine anony;z in this.. but y would anyone wish to hide who or what they are from someone they think of, or someone they care for, or someone they love or someone they hate for that matter?.. shouldn;t it be quite evident, that although presence does matter, it is also important to know who is present... aint it?

Surprisingly, all the anony comments i get r well pondered over thoughts over my posts... when u read, u think and u actually care to let me know what you think, can i please request all of you to also let me know who thinks what..? It really would be nice...

Thank you very much for reading me, but would also love to know who all of you are.. would just help me relate to your thought better, n m quite sure u'd want that too.. :)

Friday, May 02, 2008

hate hypocrisy!

Fine if m here for a crib again.. perhaps its better to let go here befre i yell out elsewhere.. may be the second yell would be a lil sobered down version n so save me from the guilt of messing up with words (incase i do it!!)... why does the damn world have to be so bad? why do people keep two sides, why do they have to be good to you when they behind ur they can say what u;v never done!!! thats what the call politics is it? well then i hate itt! i never never never dreamt that such a neat equation with this collegue that i have would be soo ugly, and i just hate him so much now for it.. i hate the site of him, i hate it when he opens his mouth, i hate to lisn to him i hate to talk to him, it just all seems so fake when he even smiles!!, and if it was just work he shud hav had d guts to say it in front of me, he aneways is old enough to have htat authority, then y;d he talk ill in front of others behind me.. and that too of somehting i;ve no done??? y !?

well this is the second time... but i feel no less sick about it.. the only difference is the person involved.. poooooreee k poooore gandddee log yehi industry me aake base jaisa hai.. they dont mind lieing also? i mean.. come on.. dont they have a consciense?

it was a skip meeting with the hr and the tm for my pm, i missed it coz i had to leave early.. i was told today the details of the meeting.. and the highlight was.. that the pm got a clean chit.. well ok i dont mind that.. i wudnt neway have opened my mouth.. its appraisal time.. and no i dont want to risk it with him, no way! ya i get the truth bug tingling in but.. well neva mindi can make it shut up for a while if i see harm.. but whateva.. iw asnt there.. soud said that the pm shud distribute work well.. he was very expressive in stating that he had to come over weekends, he worked alone, he worked more( than he shud) just because work was not distributed.. now.. the needle that prick me!, he co ordinates his work.. only with.. Tasneem Begum!, so he indirectly meant he did everything.... and now since i obviously wasnt to shout at d top pf my voice that damnnnnnn this guy is lying!!!, its so dumb but hell.. how can u tak credit of another;s work? and even tlak of it???? how can u say u;ve done most of the work when for more than a week u;d come at 12 and leave at 5 ( therz n hourz lunch break and half n hourz cofee break included in that!), i soo soo wished that every piece of work would be penned and tagged to the name of the person whose done the job and then i;d see if he'd say the same thing.. i feeel sooooooooooooooo soo soooooo ahhh! pehle i felt bad coz i neva expected such breach of trust from this guy, nope absolutely not! next i thought he was gud enuf never to take anotherz credit (but somehow i saw this already fading in him, so this bit doesnt surprise me), i lukd up to him once upon a time, and now i feel eeeky to even look down on him.... kharaab dikha yaaroooo :(:( bhott kharaab dikhaa.. shheeeshhhh its a bad bad world with bad bad logg.. bohot bohot gannndeee loggg.. isme b hypocrisy :(:(, bad bad bad bad baddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd