Santa n Me :D

It wazzzz gr88888 !!!!! I had itnaaa itnaa itnaaaaaaaaaa funnn naa ki kya bolunn... i dint expect the evening would go that nice :D, i had n okie dokie day.. n was bored, n dint wanna go to the ummmm what do i call it now.... ... it was a fair may be... baby exhibition samjho :D well m callin it dat coz it was no where in comparison to apne hyderabad ki yearly exhi ( which m gona miss dis year :( ), khair, ya... so i wasnt really in the mood, but since we had planned that we would, we did go.. n it turned out very nice :D ... nai.. not the exhi.. wahan kuch nai tha... :D js candles n choclates n kuch kuch ki dusre cheezan jo meku kuch khaas nai lage... so we tuk a round..which ended in bout... ummm 15 mins may be.. n dat was it.. then... we knew that Santa Claus was supposed to come at 5.30 so i thot chalo v'll see him n go.... we waited for some mins.. n they we saw a bus full of kids n red clothes n a huge santa like thing that passed by... thodi der baad he entered.. n mannn was he biggggggggg, he was soo sooo soo huge, nice n tall, n very very gol gol, he wore hi spects on his nose jus like they show in cartoons :D n he was fair n most of his face was covered with his super duper long white sily silky beard :D.. kyaaa daadi thi yaa.. sachme... :D n i cudnt stop smilin.. i was js starin at him n smilin at him, he came in n walked ahead of gang of lil kids dressed in red n wearin red topis.. n u know wattt... as he walked he came rite in front of me n stopped to talk to ME!!! :D:D:D:D:D i was sooo overwhelmed, there were sooo many log wahan, but he stopped to talk to ME :D n i cudnt top bragging bout dat bit to my husband :D. He smiled n asked where r u from, when i said India, he bowed n held his hand togethe rn said Namaste :D n then asked where in india? n named a few cities, banglore delhi mumbai ? he asked, yea he missed hyderabad, n then i answered Hyderabad, to dat he replied with his ho ho ho kinda voice :D oh welcome!! all the way far from india :D.... sab log were staring at me while we shook hands n he spoke to me :D:D:D:D:D:D bohottt mazaa aayaa hahahahah.. it was funnnnn


herz wat he lukd like.. :D

all the way from Finland..

Hei kaverit !!!

:D well thats finnish :D n i just said Hi Guyz ! Well i've like said a million times that life's so differently beautiful after shadi, n one of the many major differences as of now is my place of residence :)

Finland is a beautiful place, i am so much in awe with this place that most of the time i spend at home passes off admiring the christmas tree that i can see right out of my window :D. An awsomely pleasant weather surprise, i was always crazy bout making a snowman, n i'd always 'advice' my collegues who'd have their onsite trip ( which was always to Finland , my client was Ericsson, Helsinki dats in Finland, remmba!!!) magar koi banaate hi nai the, n i'd wonder, how silly of 'em, how cud one go to such a place n comeback binaa snowman banaye :D. what do u think i did then??? ... ye dekho :D

yea, n guess what tme i did that :D it was 1 in the night :D n my sweet husband was gud enuf to accomapny me in that crazy moment :D although he too thot it was crazy to be out in dat temperature on the day 1 of my arrival :D but he gave in to my silly request :D n we had a ballllll n thats his muffler :)

To see the snowwas in itslef smthing to go crazy about... i dint surprise myself by not being crazy, i did behave crazy . i was all in there.. full snow me jumping n loting ( read dat in the hindi sense of the word, the T sounds like that in 'cat' not like that in umm 'Tasneem' :D ) to see those talll trees all laiden in snow, it was wowwww... those roads all empty for me to stand just in the middle with those conical kinda trees at their sides n beechme mein with my hands open wide ahhhhhh kaisa laga hoga :):) breathtakingly beautiful side of nature n just another way to acknowledge that He is the definitely the utmost Superior who has the knowledge of every little creature on this earht, n wow, He manages everything so well. one side of the worls is soo differnt n at d same time just the other side of the world is soo so so different :) the Creator of beauty and magic.. ahhhh.. accha thik hai abhi bas :D

pata hai... my journey was one of its kind :D, actually na... it was like d first time iw as travelling alone, so i was obviously freaking a the very thought, but i obviosuly posed as an absolutely advertent, brave girl who cud manage this adventurous trip, Oh come on, i was an educated, working engineer girl!!! ab apne paas kaisa hype rehta, malum na :D:D khair... i js kept tellin myslef, ofcourse i can go, big deal !! but man i was having a horrific time, typically deining what butterflies in the tummy means... i always that i cud feel that during exam time, but this time it was the ultimate description, nothing else cud describe me the meaning of that metaphoric sentense that i always kept thinking of.....

i started off... n boom, i had a bad time wid my luggage... it was bohot zyada n i had to remove stuff.. plus kya hua malum... ahh my luggaage bag tore!!! ya!! i had filled it up utna zyada, khair.. its like gharwaale do d paking n u know when its our ppl handling it goes like, jitna nikla nikalne do, baaqi ka waapis kardena... yeaa.. dat kind... khair.. fir i had to get it umm i dont know kya bolte usku.. kuch plastic covering karke diya wo fella.. n he tuk 400 rs. frm me!! chore! khair.. finally set n i came out for a final bybye.. n moved for d immigration.. i wasnt sure what all of it meant, i was js duin as i was bein told n as i cud read :D n i fianlly landed in the lobby near my flight gate... 3.30 ki flight thi.. morning!!!! magar apna hyd ka airport itna accha haina, they played luvly music... n i also had my ipod along.. to pata hi nai chala waqt.. i boarded my flight.. usme bhi pata hai kya hua! huh... silly dumb stupid me... the boarding pass had my seat number n i dinno which one was d seat number... i thot kuch aur hai seat number, th elady kept calling in batches os seat rows, i missd mine... she finally asked all the baki ke passengers to come along... dats when i joine d:D later i realised i was slukin at d rong thing :D

The fligh twqs comfortable... i cudnt sleep thik se waise... but it wasnt required... it was very long magar... 10 hrs se zyada kuch tha.. first 4 hours or so i was ok uske badse i got restless.. n then pata nai kab nind lag gai... the food was ok, the air hostesses wr so old malum hai, apne pas ich itne young young air hostesses rehte... by the way it was KLM Airways, they r french... i landed in Amsterdam, it was 8.30 in the morning i guess... it was cold, n i was well dressed to suit d weather, my husband ensured that for me! i walked out.. i dinno kya karna ai next, but i luvd dat airport, it wsa so nice n big n it ws gud to see sab firangs running around... i dint follow d crowd, i thot i'd get lost if iwud... so i dint... kept lukin at d beautifully decorated christmas trees har corner pe wahan..... i had a 4 hr transit there... pata hi nai chala where time flew... i saw my first snowfall there :) ... there were some armchair kind to relax, i wnt on n helped myself... i was sunny... i was rite in frnt of a huge window.. n cud see flights landing and taking off... so i was js njoying y music... n suddnly it went all blue n grey n no nmore sun n then i saw smtin white tiny dusty ting falling down n i wondered, such a beautiful place n luk at the way they are shoving off dust from d top floor, later i noticed it was snow :) n i laughed at self n then went near d window n kept gazing at it... it lasted for a few minutes, say one or two.. tat was it... n then my flight was reshceduled to a different gate n by d time i reached there it was time to fly again...... tat was another 2.5 hr journey... n i was hell restless this time.. u know wat.. d steward offered snacks n i missd to sopt mars n snicker inistray n picked a 'tuck' biscuit packet!! how dumb naa!! urrghh.. later i thot i'll request for one, n he did offer but this time his tray was empty, there were just those biscuits left... n i realsied.. dikhaawe pe na jaoo, apni akal lagao, dat biscuit packet had such n attractive wrapper, it actually made me miss a luk at my favorite choclates!! i had taken two lollipops from her tray then... he just smiled... they r still lying in my purse.. i dint have em, coz d flite landed in the next 20 mins... n i was out.. js knew that i must now collect my luggage, n iwas praying ki kuch amsterdam me nahi choota :D coz u know what i saw at d amsterdam airport as i was waiting for my helsinki flite!! i lookd past d window, n there was this luggage carrier, it drove fast, seeemd like it was to catch a flite, n in that while it dropped a suitcase rite on the road, n obvisouly d driver dint realise n he drove ahead.... many gaadiz came after dat, no one pikd dat laawaris bechara bag, n then finally n gud samaritan walked out of his truck n pikd it.. i thot he wud take it along... he jsut put on the footpath kinda thing there... n drove off.... wo bag more than one hour ke liye wahin pada tha... huh.... i kept wondering as i waited for my baggage in helsinki ki aisa to kuch nahi hua merebag ke sath... coz my bada wala bag taht had torn, wo to aagya tha, the other one was taking so much time,... oh yes that lawaris bag was finally pikd up n taken by someone, i dont know if it did reach d rite destination.. how wud it i wonder.. there were so many flites atking off in minutes wahan.. pata nahi kahan jana tha use aur kahan pahuncha..

well... ais akuch tha safar.. m aisi kuch chal rahi hai zindagi.. will keep this place happening now.. i've got alot more to pu tin.. next time.. may b n insight to Tampere ( dat the city ka naam )

untill then.. näkemiin (thats goodbye in Finnish :D)

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i'm not sure if this has sunk in yet.... there are sooooooooo many sides to my thots n emotions (uhh umm errr... ?@#$!%^&) yea... kinda like dat :D:D

arreee yarooo.. shaadi ke rukhkhe bhii aagayeeeee !!!!!! $%^&!#*(!!!!! yea.. i js saw the cards... my shaadi ke cards... Tasneem Begum ke shadi ke cards? uhh ummm.. ok.. ok.. thik hai.. i like the card waise, bohotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt accha hai Mashallah mashallah :D but well.. yea.. it still is like.... u know one side of me is like... ummm.. mmm .. shaadi... meri shadi ? hojari.... ohhhhhhhhh kkk.. !?!!!!?

no serious pondering here... its only !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n ??????? n $$$$$$$$$ n ########## n @@@@@@@@@ n %%%%%%%%% n &&&&&&&& n ******** n everything else that one can not understand :D

loll.. ok.. i dont mind staking dat m behaving crazy.. hota hai :D

Massalaama!! :)

They usually operate in OT's as of i knew, mine was better ;) gee now it sounds gud but its painful :( i was on the dental chair (yea dats wat they call it). After a week long of acute molar pain, i decided ( rather was forced by my dad) to go see the dentist. I thought it was my usual, well not jsut mine, anybody's usual toothache at this age, when they actually welcome that 'wisdom tooth', han ye aur baat my wisdom has nothing to do wid dat tooth perhaps ;) n i know all of u have different opinions ;) i wudnt wanna elaborate on ur opinions though, i can imagine them being categorized into to fiercely opposite ones :D:D:D.

neways.. jaana to tha, dad wouldnt listen, he actually started the senti stuff too, haan why will you listen to me now that you are getting married, you've grown up, you can take ur decisiions bla bla blaa.. n i wudnt take that ateast, but come on!!! i hate doctors i hate hospitals, n a dentist, come on! ek hi breed ke to hote hain sab!! i had no choice, i had to go... pain killers were no relief :( my food intake reduced, my mouth was hardly opening :( n wahi time pe yummy food was cooking up ghar me... ab soncho!! so i went finally! n like usual, i dint like dat dentist either! he suggested n x ray which i obliged to and from that he declared that i require a surgery! i went bizarre with the thought, he coudn be just crazy! he has to be much much more htan that to tell me that i require a surgery n extraction of all my wisdom teeth, meri akhkhal ka kya hoga yaroo ( han wo joke tha ;) ;) ) i dint lisn to him, spent another two days in acute pain with pain killers he prescribed me, baba woudlnt lisnt, he made me go to his dentist, n now i had no choice... he said i did require it :(:( n i had NO choice, i could live with it, but only at the cost of damaging my other molars very soon if not right now he said... he also assured that this was nothng new, 7 outta 10 had the same problem, n dont worry all of them need surgeries so they'll all get them done he said.. i felt better :D:D:D:D

I was appointed saturday, 2'o clock. I was scared :( everyone knows i hate docs n medicines, i can do any any anything to escape 'em, is mtimes also feel docs r one of those gud fr nothing jerks or they are jerks with too much knowledge who think no one can survive without them, all in all i dont like 'em, perhaps i i dint come across a down to earth, modest, dutiful, selfless, humanity serving doc yet n hence my opinion? errr... who cares?

My time was preponed, they asked me to be there at 12, i reached at 12.30 :D nai yarooo yahan b late bolke mat soncho! i cudnt help it this time... i had some reports to fetch from the diagnostic centre n i they wernt ready, i did give them a tough time though, n so did baba ( ab soncho their haalat ;) ;) ) all i said to them was i have a surgery in 15 mins n u still dont have my reports ready :D u shud have seen their faces, anyone would be scared of that word perhaps :D khair..

i stepped in a lil late, but as usual, the dentist was more late than i was, so i dint obviously regret, rather i was jusssst on time, so it was ok, i was called in, n my eyes fell on a tray with syringes with some liquid in it, two of which had normal straight needles n three of them had tilted, pooooooore ke pooooooooore he used in my mouth :(:( kitna dard hua pata haii :(:( he kept drilling n used screw drivers, pliers :( i wish i had a hammer to hit him......... accha nai tha magarr bohottttttttttttt kharab tha bohott bohot kharab, n i hate docs n dentists n hospitals n patients and pain :-X

m luv'in it

Woooo hoooo... long longg longgggggg time nai... n the wierdestt thing is the change in timing of my last post n this one... not jsu time, my frame of mind, the place, everythinggg :)
i've been sooo soo soooooooooooo buzy malumm... being home is sooooooooooooooooo gud :) i dont know time kahan jaara... its almost past midnite when i hit d bed (yea yeaa!! i dont sleep at 9 anymore :D) n subah also i get up early :( baba dznt like us sleepin late... khairrr... my dayz startin at bout 7 or so.. n 12.. tak kuch chalta.. longgggggggggg naiii n poora din what i do.. dont ask yaaro... i dont know kahan jaara my day... not dat m shopping all day... bilkulllllllll nai.. infact today was d fisrt day baba log tuk me along fr shopping... ghar me home ka stuff kitchen kids funn shopping people cmin goin aise hiiiii chalre jaraa u knoww.. accha hai... its nice.. veryyyyyyy nicee :)
every one kept asking me why r u leaving why r u quitting.. do they want u to quit ( i dont know kyun sab ko aisa lagta when the girl quits ... esp in our community ) well jo b hai.. i was told u'll b bored u wont know how to spend these 10 12 hours dat ur spending at office.. blaa blaa blaaaa... magar filhal to i'm enjoying it to d core... i dont have to think for what m gonna do wid dat time at all... aisa guzar jaara na waqt ki bas... i js keep wondering.. ki hogya din.... days r runningg .. time is flying... life is at such a fast fast fastttt pace abhi... n luks like a thairaav ( ye hindi word hai.. theek se padne ki koshish kariye :D ummm its something in line with.. thairna i mean standing still etc.) is gona cm.. n hmmmmmmmm.. pata nai.. :)
n like usuall m ok to feel this confusion :)
thoda up hai thoda down hai thoda nice hai thoda gud thoda wierd hai thoda ajeeb hai thoda scary hai thoda soothing hai.. hmmmmmm bohot kuch hai yaro :)

chalo m offf.. massalaama..
i hope i cn hang around here more often.. its nice penning nonsense again :)

ohhhhhhhh myyy goddddddddd kal mera last day hai :D:D:D

yeaaaaa m excited :D, m happy.. m very glad actually.. ki m leaving kal.... wo thoda bhot nostalgic nonsense hunga in sm corner of my heart, but may be it'll surface tomorrow :D, coz aaj to i'm happy.. wo bhi bohottttttttttttttt coz i finally made him change my date to 29 like it was earlier :)
i am sooooooooooooooooooo khushhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :))))))))))))))))))))
long story hai, bad story hai, sad story hai, but in the end, since its my story, it can just NEVA NEVA NEVA go bad, n NEVA NEVA NEVA be the way i do not want things to be :):):):) coz He's always on my end :D :D:D:D:D
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm n now i like it more.. u be gud, u g et gud, u be bad, u get bad.. now they understand :)

chalooooooooooo time upp...

Adiossssssssssssssssss ! :):):)

the bloody male ego!!

This would perhaps come as a surprise to many, 'coz its no less than a fact that Wipro is supposedly one of the best places to work at. I wouldn;t deny that, i dont really want to actually, ;coz i;ve had a great time at this place except for some of the bitter experiances (which perhaps eveyr place does offer) and these last few days being my worst time spent inspite that i dont want to. People you are with really matters.... your environment is such a driving force, it can take you high at peeks or pull you down to ur lowest, and it is so human to be a part of such traps.
No one really likes it u know... where u;ve spent good time, u;d wanna part amicably, i had no different opinion, untill i realised i was being a victim of one of those sick male ego's. Nothing to do with anything at all, but just just just to feed and soothe dat damn ego a man can leap to irritatingly annoying extents and ofcourse at such times he so greatfully collects all these curses.

Baat kuch hai hi nai, its js that i supposedly dint listen to him, and i trusted him ! the mistake seemingly is definitely mine, absolute stupidity is what we girls exhibit in certain circumstances n perhaps dats d reason they sometimes are victimised to somehting as worthless and bloody ego of a chauvinistic male! I believed him when he said i can tke 5 leaves and that he would approve them even if i take them after my resignation. Although he did highlight to me that there is a policy that after resignation one must not avail leaves " But its fine, i can approve it, it will not be a problem" he had told me, n silly me believed him! A day before i left, he told me i can not take 5 days i must take only 3 and when i enquired why on the basis that my work was up to d mark and i had no work dependencies and we were very safe with relesae deadline, he just said i could not n there's work( which he did not elaborate even on question, and i was very very well aware that there was none coz i know enough of atleast this season's project release line!) I obviously did not oblige coz i had pallned a month before for the week, n had informed him also about it so there was no question of me listening to him when he changes his plan 1 day before! But i dint think it would carry on to this extent and take this shape....

He changed my release date now, n when i questioned him he said he did not do it (damn liar!!) n said dat it was automated, n when i asked if it was automated how cm i was not intimated, he just gave me another lie saying he was not aware. I reached my HR n hez not aware of who changed the date, n he got into it n got back to me saying your manager has done it !! n when i told him that my manager denied havign any information bout this, he said he cant do anything. I tried mailing both of them together, trying to maintain transparencey, n my damn manager shoots out allllll lies in the mails ( half truths rather) n when i requested for a face to face meeting with both of them in order to clear things coz there was lot more to it, my manager denied to oblige for the meeting!!! seee dat creep !! now wat do u call it all... he js wants me to stay coz i dint listen to him, or now he just wants to ensure that i leave as per his date and not what was earlier assigned!!!! sick man, sick ego!

but no! , i ain gona sit here n keep looking at how things hsape up, not to feed his damn ego atleast!!!, he'll get the worst ever review he neva must have imagined to get in his 11 years of employment!! n i'll ensure i leave on my earlier date! if it werent for my ettiquetes i;d screw everything here! atleast his life!

(: I'm an angel, n i know it :)

Dont ask me Y i did this... i just wanted to.. :D:D

And the countdown begins-- Day 12

Yea, those hi din hai... n i have 'Things to do' wo bhi so many... n uparse i have a pissed off mind coz of my manager's attittude, i dont like it, but i he luvs playing politics i guess, he forced me to extend another week, i said i can not, he ended the talk with "Everything is in my hands" huh! i did finishe my project commitments, infact m being so gud that i didnt even deny giving the proposal for somehting i would'nt work on. It is surprising that they have the "software ethics" only till books, how could it be that i initiate a proposal, i do the analysis, i give th estimates n ( no second person involved han) i wonder on what basis they;d promise to stick to schedule when they dont know of what; gona be done??
He did'nt approve my engagement ke time ke leaves although he said he would, n he had also assured he'd take care n that i could go ahead, n now on the basis of those very days he says i got to stay bak... bad na? yea he is!! wo bhi very bad!, i aint gona stay, i said i cant commit, he replied, 'ya anyways everything is in my hands, i also can say the same thing rite tasneem!' ... khair bla, last ke din hain, wana spend them well.. n may be i will :)

yesterday baba manged to catch a glimpse of "Babul", han wo dumb super duper flop movie that was n absolute drag, n my bhabi was dying to see it when she was newly wed n hum sab gaye the dkehne!!, i thnk sony pe aari thi.. i was sitting with mum in the drawing... dad cant miss "Baghban" evaa, hez watched it more than ten times abtak, n he would mind another ten, n ten more n more n more of it... channels change karte karte, he saw hema malini suddenly, n then amitabh, n he had a glow on his face, it was baghban he thought... then i realised it was Babul, n luckily it was the last 10 minute thing... n it was melodramatic crap... n then the last few dialogues were kinda like... babul, beti, bidai, etc, etc ;) now my dadd :D:D:D:D:D i guess was almosttt bout to drop dat tear, n thankfully the movie finished :D:D, i lukd at mum wid n uncontrollable grin, mom was laughing too but she was more into trying to hush me up else i;d burst may b she thought...
it was funn... :)

SuKoOoOoOoNn

They say it well u know, if you want to learn, you must from little kids, the innocence they offer is such a level above the intelligence of this so called materialistic societal nonsense, their idea of peace, joy, happiness, love, care is all so simple and so beautiful, n u know wat, i jus luv it the way they depict this stuff in cartoons :D, the naughtiness of bugs, the creepy mindset of tom, or the wacky ideas of jerry, the innocence of tweety, n goody goody thing of poo, the dumb atittude of tiger.. its all so simple, n easy, when they show all these emotions in so much color, i reall wonder how and why it gets messy when the same are emoted by humans :D

u see this pic oopar, wat color, wat contrast, wat peace nai :):) n the best thing is how it appeals to kids n how they undstand all those wierd characters emoting so well ... :) inspite dat they have no fingers on their hands (errr, although they are supposedly 4 legged animals :D:D), inspite that the huge characters hav tiny ears n the smaller ones have very big ears :D n that they are always h appy irrespective of anything, n even if they are galti se sad, the rest of the cartoon world is all set to cheer them up, n thats wat d whole episode is about.. :)... wierd na, cartoon makers usually pick such themes, perhaps witht hte idea to impart those kinda ethics to little growing minds n hearts, wudnt the world be a better place if we'd extend this to a higher level.. ummmm.. askin for too much 'eh ?

khaiirrrrr.. challllllllllta lite...
saw dat pic, n luvd to see d peace in it... :)

Chocolate barsaaat at T4/T/C115

i went to fill my bottle of water n get mycup of coktail, wn i got bak, i saw Uma at his seat, i was back at d rite time :D, he lukd at me n gave a wide grin wid a Tasneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeemmmm how r u, n i replied gr8, n he showed me dat pink box of choclates they r called 'Geisha' n he held it in front of me n said these r specially for u hahaha, is aid feelin even better, n held my hand out, then put my cofee cup down n held both my hands out :D:D:D n he put in soooooooooooo manyyy chocsss :D:D:D itne saare neeche b gir gaye...... they're yummmmmmmmmmmmmmm

kuch aur din..

This is my last month at Wipro, i dont know where time just flied... its a wierd feeling magar.. not dat i wana put in thanku note to Wipro here ;) :P:P but u know.. reminiscing the entire period from September 1 2006 se lekar ab tak... man.. i;ve come a long way, n its surprising i came so long so quickly :) n life's taken such a huge leap in this very place...

I mean.. its unbelievable that i'm quitting my first job... was'nt i in college js sometime bak ( errr.. dont gimme those yea rite! n grow up! looks :P). It was such a typical first job first job craze, that desperation to clear the aptitude n moving on without my best friend clearing it (ya i was actually so sad that she dint get thru, n incase i do v'd actually have to part ways :D:D, silly ab sonche to.. but.. umm ok.. made sense .. more than sense then.. :) ) n then the tension to clear the technical interview after knowing dat no one in my slab were sent thru to the HR round, geee they sure were nail biting moments, n dat khalid sir's luk when i wz thru the technical.. u know it was like.. oh come on of course u;d b thru it luk.. but still it had that.. ummmm kya bolte.. u know.. ahh wateva.. Uno Vinny the Poo ke jaise lagte the meku :D:D:D just dat i found Vinny cute and him annoying. .. ehh.. neva mind..... umm i dont wanna traverse rewind karke abhi.. thoda time hai na.. so i'll do it in bits n pieces i gues... but ya spending the wholeeee of 2007 yahan pe was like... ummm accha bhi ok bhii not nice bhi (i'd use 'bad' but :D i dont like to use dat term wid anything related to me :D:D) khairrrrrr i did get to know there cud b bad ppl in this world too, bad boleto utne bure nahi, han kuch my manager jaise.. i know alllllll of u sympathise wid dat guy, i dotn like him magar, in this tenure of much much more than one year n just a lil less dan 2 years he wasnt able to impress me wid any jhalak of his managerial abilities, banda aisa rehna, dekhe to tabyath khhush, u shud feel like working with him .. nah.. i dint.. khair khair kairrrr, hez always been the masaala of my posts magar :D so i wont se zyada aur about him...

my fav line used to be 'the best thing bout coming to office is to walk back to d bus bay to return home' :) geee what a thought ;) ;) m gona miss this place i know, the people too, my coktail, my gaane sunte hue kaam karna kinda thing.. o ya this is one thing i luv bout my manager, he neva said a word inspite dat i;d have d volume full n ut d headfones down on d table instead of wearing 'em, n i'd sit rite beside his cube, n i'd torture him wid hindi music obviously :D

but u know... i;m suddenly getting this feeling dat everything is finishing so fast.. although i;m at d threshold of whole new beautiful life, i still feel, oh this came so soon, n so it;ll finish too.. eh..?

Hilko re hilko re $%#@&^$#%$

I am so close to my second hundred that when i login i kinda feel a lil, well ok may b they call it a push.. but nah.. dat aint d sole .. (dont they call it motivation??) blaa.. but ya.. one thing i dont wana lose trak of.. is messing up.. or may b js cleaning up my mess.... m in the flow of stabilizing my lifestyle (already??? ehh rrite!) An elaboration perhaps is required on that, lest it gives the idea dat m walkin thru a messy life :D, no it really aint dat, its jus that m trying to get back to posting regularly ;);) and i dont see myself making a sincere effort to that, never the less, since its bein made (the effort yaroo!!) it doesnt matter zyada...
Penning down silly details of life (yes, they sure are silly, n they js seem all the more silly when u read 'em later :D) seemd like umm, ok a silly thing to me, i knew of so many who;d write "diaries" n ya i;ve grown up watching those children flicks n cartoon movies in which they start of "Dear Diary..." :) not surprised to know many (not kids) do it too, even now.. :) I dont know why, when'eva i;d try, i;d fail :D, a brand new diary i;d surely get for myself, and promise to write to it everyday.... but somehow, i neva would .. n the year would end, n i;d buy a new one, n i;d look at my old one n see dat i;d written less than 10 pages in it :D, and then sometime.. i dotn really remember when... i guess it was in my holidays of final year of engg? or may be the third.. i bumped into this blogging thing... i dont know how magar.. n tab se... was well kinda glued to it (??) m not really sure why m filling it all up this way :D:D:D:D:D:D but ummm.. welll... okk.. :D

LAst few days at work actually.. n i dont wana miss doing wha i used to do most willingly yahan pe ( come on, kaam to nai hosakta :D:D:D). I got my hands on this very nice collection of gaane from this colleague of mine ok, kal se woich sunrun... sab oldy gudies, not the very oldies.. oldies bole to, not the newies :D, Kamaal khan's suno to diwana dil .. sunke i was like..w ooooo hooooo.. after such a long longg longgggg timeee... n now its.. aawara bhanwre.. hmmmmm

Abbbbb bass bhai.. meku zara time lagta flow me aane.. dats all for aj :)
Adios!

5th June 2008

Wooo hoooo hoooo, dats a long long longgggggggggggggggggggg time back dat i;ve been here yarooooo... howcm koi miss nai kare meku :D:D:D hehe okok litee

well but ya its been such a long time, which somehow dint seem zyada long to me coz so so so soooooooooo so soso soso sosooo sooooooooooo many many manyyyyyyy gud things happened :) infact kya se kya hogaya kahan se kahan chale gai my life :) and Alhumdulilah Alhumdulilah.. i cant thank Him any less for what and where i am abhi Alhumdulilah :)

ahhhh ummmmm ok.. jana hai yarooo cha... i know m scribblin after long wo bi.. itna sa :( but well... bottom line... hum kisike shareek-e-hayaat banne waale hain very soon inshAllah :)... geeee i like dat word :D

Actually i thot its been so long so i cn mess it up bohot here but.. ok okkkkkkkkk m cominggggg..

chalo bye!

To the Anonymous'z who visit my blog

This post perhaps would seem silly, but it does have a reason for its existance, quite obviously.. i would;nt call this a dedication to all the anony'z who drop by my space, but ya i;d just like to say... its nice to know there are people out there who find it important to keep trak of my whereabouts, i also realise this might just be my khushfehmi, and may b one or two of you who drop by are genuine in maintaining ur anonymity...

Identity has always been a matter of concern to me, be it mine or someone else'z. I sure can filter out the genuine anony;z in this.. but y would anyone wish to hide who or what they are from someone they think of, or someone they care for, or someone they love or someone they hate for that matter?.. shouldn;t it be quite evident, that although presence does matter, it is also important to know who is present... aint it?

Surprisingly, all the anony comments i get r well pondered over thoughts over my posts... when u read, u think and u actually care to let me know what you think, can i please request all of you to also let me know who thinks what..? It really would be nice...

Thank you very much for reading me, but would also love to know who all of you are.. would just help me relate to your thought better, n m quite sure u'd want that too.. :)

hate hypocrisy!

Fine if m here for a crib again.. perhaps its better to let go here befre i yell out elsewhere.. may be the second yell would be a lil sobered down version n so save me from the guilt of messing up with words (incase i do it!!)... why does the damn world have to be so bad? why do people keep two sides, why do they have to be good to you when they behind ur they can say what u;v never done!!! thats what the call politics is it? well then i hate itt! i never never never dreamt that such a neat equation with this collegue that i have would be soo ugly, and i just hate him so much now for it.. i hate the site of him, i hate it when he opens his mouth, i hate to lisn to him i hate to talk to him, it just all seems so fake when he even smiles!!, and if it was just work he shud hav had d guts to say it in front of me, he aneways is old enough to have htat authority, then y;d he talk ill in front of others behind me.. and that too of somehting i;ve no done??? y !?

well this is the second time... but i feel no less sick about it.. the only difference is the person involved.. poooooreee k poooore gandddee log yehi industry me aake base jaisa hai.. they dont mind lieing also? i mean.. come on.. dont they have a consciense?

it was a skip meeting with the hr and the tm for my pm, i missed it coz i had to leave early.. i was told today the details of the meeting.. and the highlight was.. that the pm got a clean chit.. well ok i dont mind that.. i wudnt neway have opened my mouth.. its appraisal time.. and no i dont want to risk it with him, no way! ya i get the truth bug tingling in but.. well neva mindi can make it shut up for a while if i see harm.. but whateva.. iw asnt there.. soud said that the pm shud distribute work well.. he was very expressive in stating that he had to come over weekends, he worked alone, he worked more( than he shud) just because work was not distributed.. now.. the needle that prick me!, he co ordinates his work.. only with.. Tasneem Begum!, so he indirectly meant he did everything.... and now since i obviously wasnt to shout at d top pf my voice that damnnnnnn this guy is lying!!!, its so dumb but hell.. how can u tak credit of another;s work? and even tlak of it???? how can u say u;ve done most of the work when for more than a week u;d come at 12 and leave at 5 ( therz n hourz lunch break and half n hourz cofee break included in that!), i soo soo wished that every piece of work would be penned and tagged to the name of the person whose done the job and then i;d see if he'd say the same thing.. i feeel sooooooooooooooo soo soooooo ahhh! pehle i felt bad coz i neva expected such breach of trust from this guy, nope absolutely not! next i thought he was gud enuf never to take anotherz credit (but somehow i saw this already fading in him, so this bit doesnt surprise me), i lukd up to him once upon a time, and now i feel eeeky to even look down on him.... kharaab dikha yaaroooo :(:( bhott kharaab dikhaa.. shheeeshhhh its a bad bad world with bad bad logg.. bohot bohot gannndeee loggg.. isme b hypocrisy :(:(, bad bad bad bad baddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

S.D.N.E.I.R.F

I dont know why it happens that i write when i'm reminded that i must.. it is a mere conicidence perhaps that i'm told that i havent been here since long and i happen to drop by (drop by??? rnt readers suppose to drop by n writer be always there? bllaaa) that very day..
newyas.. ya.. somehting does pull me here whn i feel i have to let out encrypted thoughts, and no i dotn shy away from that.. i know i do it tactfully (really? huh!) and so u end up reading nonsense... neways... herez more coming up..

F.R.I.E.N.D.S- They love you but they are not your lover. They care for you but they are not from your family. They are ready to share your pain but they are not in your blood relation-- They are your F.R.I.E.N.D.S!!! True friends scold like a dad, cares like a mom, teases like a sister, irritates like a brother and finally loves you more than a lover

I read this piece kahin (OK!! someone sent it to me..) i was just wondering.. how;d it be when "F.R.I.E.N.D.S" scold like a dad when you actually need to feel the care of a mom, they tease you like a sister when you actually need a patient ear to just listen, or when they irritate while you are actually looking aorund for peace? bad na?... they r doing all the mentioned things.. but what if they dont come at the right time? may be thats y they say we must let TIME and talk nurture friendship...

khairrr...
Maassalaama!

Goshh, m getting DhAmKii's for this yaro!!

ye kya baat huiiiii.. i've been juggling between itnee saare things, this n that and that n this.. n i get mails upar se.. wo bhi dhamki waale :P:P update ur blog or else..?? ahh :P:P:P... waiseee :D:D:D i'm honoured :D sheeeshhhh i dinnoo so many ppl out there miss readin my stuff (waise i think AnilZzZzZ will gimme dat yea yea rite luk now :P:P)

khair.. i really havnt got much to throw here.. i;ve been working.. bohot bohot bohot zyada actually.. bohot sara kaam, n upar se i get angry in the middle of duin it, coz i get d feel of.. huh ! Y ME!!! han theek hai.. i know dats bad.. but hey mine is genuine haan.. aise hi i dont say it.. khairr.. wont crib dekho abhi.. coz i;m at the end of it.. n since its moved well that i see i can scribble here for some seconds.. i wont do any nonsense here :D.. but ya.. the solaris build is on.. n i got to finish the windows build before i leave aj.. uparse i was asked to stay back, and i outrightly denied :D, upar se.. i still have the KT session to give.. n ya ALEX for windows me new bug milgaya! damn damn damn, when i;me ready n move it aside somehting new comes! err.. khair.. i dont know uska kya karsaktun mein.. magar i must :(
but ya the demo yesterday went very well.. n ya we had a meeting wid d TM wchih was soo so soo boring.. n believe me the atmosphere was soo soo tempting, i really cud steal a nap, magar nai hua, i was sitting rite under his nose :(, n yahan college type scenario bhi nahi hota dekho.. peeche jao n sojao ;);) hehehe.. waise.. ya i read this college kinda mail... nai fwd tha.. infact read two of 'em.. refreshing.. khairrrrr... bat kya thi....umm ek min.. my build is doen i guess...

hogya :D, han so where was i.. mmm kuch nai yaro.. sab in place.. n so many things running in my mind,

:( ahhh i hate interruptions!!
Ciao!

oh ya.. i frgott.. thank you all for waiting soo muchh.. ill wrap these things n get back in d flow ek dumm :)

prank

I've never been part of such a prank, it was unbelievably hilarious!! i did mention of Manoj n how the guy loves to laugh about himslef n in the process make everyone else laugh, hez got this killing sense of humour, u just cant stop being influenced by his talk once u get to know him :) Cofee breaks are like his laughter pills for the entire team..
js a lil while ago when we were out.. he went missing.. everyone was asking where he is.. n then i asked too.. one of 'em asked me to call him, i said i dont have his number.. i was given a "YOU DONT???" look, n then Gayatri said ya, chalo call him n dumm karo use, i thought it was a dumb idea which she blurted out of boredome n it was definitely not to b implemented, but but but, surprisingly, after a while my fone was in her hand, n ya by then Manoj was back n sitting wid us.. the first few calls she gave kinda dint efect him, from the fourth one he got restless, n ya he was sharing it all wid us.. n mannnn was it hilarious, then it was in my hand n he lukd n was even talkin to me as i dialled n he still gave the "see see again!" expression.. it went on for very long n he finally took another team mates fone n called n he saw 'tasneem' there i guess n v all had a laugh..
his expressions his talk during all dat.. was.. gosh, everyone enjoyed, n he tuk it gracefully i guess..
it was superly dupersly dumb, but surprisingly it was so much fun :D:D

and and andd :D:D:D
i got a call from baba in th middle of d day aj :)
He said i had a call from my colleg, inviting us for an award ceremony for academic excellence n m gona be felicitated with a silver medal :D
n waise whn i rote this to my dost log, replies nahi aaye :-X !
ohhhhh there comes mansoz mail :D

adios!

A random thought of a desiring mind..

The ability to convince is one attribute the possessor can cherish for life. It’s not surprising when u see people around you do something so easily, when the same thing to you seems more than impossible. Agree every individual possess a different caliber, a different thought process, a different personality all together, but that is perhaps where the psychological study comes into picture. On a very raw basis, to me this study is nothing but understanding another’s frame of mind, what they want and what they like.


The Human mind is designed beautifully. Keeping off from the neurological complexities it offers, one very simple attribute to the brain is the lovely compatibility it seems to have with the Heart. Now this is one thing we can exploit. You give the mind what it likes and you see it is satisfied. Sometimes you give the mind what it does not like, you may still see it is satisfied, that is perhaps because the Heart is satisfied. The emotional quotient is an important factor.


One can not propose a stratology on how to convince; all you got to do is state facts. What you ask of another person or what you expect from them is what you are trying to convince them for. Now the other view… does this other person seem ok with what you are asking for? Is he willing to give you what you require? Well, if the answer is yes don’t read on.. ‘coz we are talking of ‘convincing’ here, and if you just answered yes then your job is done, be at peace.. or may be you’d want to read further.. just to know…


Let’s sketch out some details… You have “something” to convince a “loved one” about. Now the something is what you will have to “beautifully portray” to your loved one. And if that is done, you’ve convinced them, ‘coz you’ve just showed their mind what it likes. But isn’t all that simple.. if it were then I wouldn’t have written this and you wouldn’t be reading this. Lets get a little deeper into that, what is to “beautifully portray” , well it simply means, show them “what they want”. And for this you MUST know “what they want”. When you know what they want, you know how to give it to them. BUT!!!!!!!! Again if it were so simple to give them what they want, there wouldn’t be a need to “convince”. If there are 10 things of what they expect, and you have just 5 out of those, then the first thing you do is, turn their attention towards the 5 things you already have. The regular human psychology is to concentrate on what is not present, and hence they fail to bank on that they actually have. And NO NO NO!! This is no theory, this is a fact. You put in everything to show or get the other 5 things, that you tend to forget what you have, so its like you loose out on polishing the shoe your wearing n polish all the other shoes on your shoe stand and you are still planning to buy two new pairs in spite that your bankrupt!

You love your wife, and she does not like the home you’re planning to buy (did I hear u say this is EXACTLY your problem?? Yea I know, this is one major issue we all fight over.. so read on). She just thinks you can get her something better, at a better location, at a better price, with better amenities. BUT remember this is what SHE thinks (although she might even have a list of such places). All you got to do now, is show her what she expects. Ok, its not by the sea side, but it still has her favorite kitchen garden. Showing her that this new place is for her and all its goodies are for her, is only what she needs to give you that nod. To show her that this place has everything she wants (except .. ok , say two things) and you promise to work on those two, and bingo she’s all yours. If you see those two things are something you might not be able to meet, then just throw in more glitter on the rest. MOVE MOVE MOVE her attention from what is not there to what is THERE.


So you actually have chalked out a strategy,
Postulate 1: DO NOT loose focus from the things you already have, do anything to hone those skills and show them up bright, they have to win your loved one’s attention
Postulate 2: work on what you do not have, and hey work hard to get it straight, remember, you still have not convinced.
Postulate 3: The mind gets easily manipulated by the Heart, come on!! use those skills of yours to manipulate that heart (oh yes, it is close to yours!!) so it helps manipulate their mind.

Try these with your pals (in the can’t we just go here instead of there!! situation), your boss (in the let me do it my way boss!!! situation), your mother (in the Come on mom, she’s a nice girl situation), father (in the I promise I’ll drive safely dad!!! situation), siblings (yea those annoying kid brothers, or sometimes irritating sisters, you’ll have a million situations you can relate to with them! )

weekend boredome.. soundz like hungama eh?

What a weekend it was... i dont remmber being so bored n wanting so so so much to get back to office!! yea yea, u read that very very correctly!!.. itnaa dummm n itnaaa boredd.. i dont remmba whn i was!
Friday was fine.. i was bz wid stuff.. although lite nai thi hamare yahan for almost the entire day, i managed to keep myself engaged n it was nice infact.. kheer n poori etc. :D ab u know time n all to nikal hi jata usme.. ya by evening i was bored magar.. d major reason being the current! gosh it was so bad.. dil bola jab chale jari wo gandi lite.. it was so so soo annoying n i obviously cudnt help missing office :(
khair.. evening me.. lite nai thi.. so amongsta candles we were all having our regular fights.. this n that ye n wo .. u know the typical bhai chaara requirement :D, my sister n dad were fuming over a very very very very veryyy dumb issue :D, n the reason was my yunger sister:D, it was like she tingled n boom they started.. n mum njoyd it as usual since she dznt havea say in it n she so much loves not to bother bout this bit atleast.. it was kinda messing up my plans though.. so i buggd my lil sis n we had a fight over why she bugged the two( my elder sis n dad) n made them yell.. after our mess, i told her my plan :D wich was to ask dad to let abu take us out for a drive since it was raining n lite to waise b nai hai... she agreed n now were trying to shoo both of them.. bla in vain!! they yelld n vented n this n that, n us dauraan.. my two nepehews were having the time of their life.. Rehan just cant stop running around anybody ( ya not even, a yelling father daughter pair :D) with his little umm what do icall it.. cycle bhi nai bolsakte yaroo usku... hmm may be it qualifies to be a .. umm i dont know its big enuf to me out of the toy category n its small so i cant call it his cycle.. khair.. n Fauzan, was bz wid his fone, he jus loves to shout so much when therz too much noise around alredy!!! , n isme.. my mumm jus luvss to steal a nap! kyaaa scene hai dekho, upar se my great brain tells me, i must still try asking dadzz permission! my goodnes!!
khair.. i managed to calm baji down tellin her i wanted to ask him to let us go.. n u;ve alredy messd his mood... she dint want to let go the issue (belive mee it was so so soo soo so so so so sooooooooo dumb!) but agreed since i said we MIGHT go out.. so now they start bugging me.. poocho.. poocho pooochooo.. n i feel dumb to have sowed the idea in the first place.. hez awfull angry n fuming n i want to seek permission for somehting he wud deny in the best of his moods! huh! how dumb Tasneem!

khair.. i went ns at beside.. v had a little talk about here n there.. he seemd calm now.. my sisterz were still peeping thru n aise zabardast ishaare i tell ya! gosh!! they;d neva loose a dumb charade's game perhaps!! so i finally asked.. he gave me a point blank NO, n said necklace road ka mahole ajkal accha nai hai beta, waise bhi barish hori kya karte jake.. i dint say a word, lingered there for a lil more while n walkd out.. n my sisterz kinda were happy that he dint agree ( u know that wala happiness ki dekho he dint lisn to u :P:P:P) but they were also sad that he dint agree so v cudnt go out...

lite ka naam o nishaan nai hai han abhi tak bhi ( see how annoying!!) we continued our nonsense talk i mean sister log n mum.. n then suddenly i heard baba say, kya karte beta ye time neklace road jaake :D n there was pin drop silence now :D:D, i said kuch nai baba, barish hori na, utarte nahi gaadi me se, bas ek icecream khaaleke aate i said.. n then he said.. Abed, leke jaon inlog ko.. bingo!!! hahahahahahah! i jumped frm dat bed n almost hit the chandelier upar ka, :D.. waise to lite thi nai, it ditn take us much time altough we had to hunt for our abayaz, we managed to get them, but nowww.. another thing! baji said she wont come! now i was reallyyyy mad, but surprisingly she was more mad! she yelled at me, tumhari bat suneee meri baat nai sune babaaaa.. lollll n i laughed for soo long, although i teased her enuf for tha, i also got nice spankings for it, she luvs using her hands harshly on me, but it dznt hurt much coz i know its cmin my way :D n the reason usually is superly duperly silly.. n so was this.. anyways.. its took us few minutes to manaaofy her come wid us.. n she finally agreed( she obviously had to :D it was one of those typical tantrums of hers :D) n we went... n all of us like the chudva we get there.. n then we had ice cream.. n ya.. nott o forget, i dont know y but abed is so so fond of playing this one song especially when hez driving his sisterz somehwere, he luvs playing atif aslam's hum kis gali jaa rahe hain, n he puts it on such a high volume n thankfully he ensures the windows r shut, but ya .. we sing along with d song.. it somehow always seem to fit into d situation :D

hmmmmmm
khairr.. aisa kuch tha friday.. i wanted to rite bout the entire weekedn ka boredome, but friday hi aisa tha, now utna boring nai lagra actualllyy.. but yaa.. sat n sun i did NOTHING, NOTHING AT ALL, n i so so missd office, n whn i stepped in aaj morning, i felt.. umm ya.. relieived :D

waise i had serious thoughts to pen down ajj.. ab mood change hogya.. soo.... hmmmm.. anotherrr timeeee

Massalaama!

A Big Big Girl in a Big Big World

... I am a Big Big Girl
In a Big Big World ...
... Its not a Big Big thing
If you leave me …
… But I Do Do feel that
I Too Too will Miss You much …
.. Miss You much ..

.. I can see the first leave falling
Its all so Yellow & Nice ..
.. Its So very cold outside
Like the way I am feeling inside ..

... I am a Big Big Girl
In a Big Big World ...
... Its not a Big Big thing
If you leave me …
… But I Do Do feel that
I Too Too will Miss You much…
.. Miss You much ..

.. Outside its now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes ..
.. Why did it have to happen ..
Why did it all have to end ..

... I am a Big Big Girl
In a Big Big World ...
... Its not a Big Big thing
If you leave me …
… But I Do Do feel that
I Too Too will Miss You much…
.. Miss You much ..

.. I have ur arms around me
oooooooooh like fire ..
.. But when I open my eyes
you're gone ..

I dunno whoz sung it.. but i just love the way she says the second miss you much :).. beautifully sung :)

dhoop n a crazy bhai, upar se image designing!! soncho my haalat :(

Long time no see.. kya hora mekuu.. summer buqar? sheesh.. its so hot ajkal bahar.. the little time dat i spend out.. ya a less than two minute walk to the cafeteria.. seems like a punishment in that scorching heat ! i;m not exaggerating, meku sachme waisi lagraa.. ab pata nai sachme dhoop effect yaa. aur mera dimaagh garam hai... hmmm

:D isnt it nice if u get up galti se in the middle of the night and check the time n u realise, you have a wholeeeeeee hour left to get up :D.. well.. has happened wuite a few times wid me.. but when it happened last nite.. i felt nice :):) bohot nice :) i slept really early last nite.. bout 9 or so.. n then i happn to get up at 4, i checkd the time n i went :D:D:D:D n slept again :)

last evening i went hoome wid my bhai, n i dunno wat was with him, he actually decided to take me all the way from tolichowki to jublee hills n b hills n wahan se home.. n i asked why, he said he dint like the traffice between mehdpatnam to asifnagar! how dumb is dat now? i thought he was crazy.. he actually was i gues.. i almost fell off he was driving reallyy fast, i dunno wat was with him.. we went over dat umm i dont know wat area it is.. u know the apollo hosp ka peeche ka side.. umm hakeempet n all i gues.. not sure.. anewyas.. it was all hilly han, upss n downzz.. maagr roads acche khaase banadiye wahaan ye log... hmmm so a ride in the evenign wahan se was a good site, he stopped ocassionally.. umm nah not stopped, slowed down .. so i cud see the city seemed all lit up u know.. it was beautiful :)

m back to image designing yarooooo :(:(:( i soo soo soo hate it... i wish it were like doing it from the scratch :( wahi boring images to theek karna kate.. dummm dummm dummm hota meku usse.. khairr.. last time it was nice, i made another guy do it :D.. dint manage to this time magar :(

khair.. i have htis nice lil song i got from a loved one :) i dunno whose it is.. its just nice.. n i luvd it :).. will put it up here soon :),

untill thenn... AdiosSsSsS...

eyes dat made me smile :)

Its been long time, said manso.. i really havnt scribbled here since long 'eh? hmm not dat i dint hav stuff.. i guezz iw as lazy.. there was this one thing last weeknd wich happnd n i thot i;d blog it..

i was with mum for her regular check up.. watiing anxiously for our turn(ye usual hai han, itneeeeeeee log rehte wahann k bas, khairr.. ) it was finally our turn n i stepped in with my mum, the chair beside mine was empty, another few minutes, and i saw a man walk in, he sat there comfortably.. he was holding a black bag that had some papers i gues.. he seemed at peace, wasnt really fiddling with anything ( unlike the usual fiffling with d hands n legs dat ppl tend to do when they r 'waiting').. i realised he was smiling suddenly, i dint know for what.. then i turned to luk at him.. untill then i dint actually luk.. i cud js feel his presence n cud make out wat he was duin coz he was right beside me.. but when i looked at him.. i smiled too.. a rather broad one than his.. i dint know he was blind, he seemed so normal in everything that i just dint notice until i actually put in some effort to look at him. later i was surprised he was'nt accompanied with n escort either, he came alone..... i dotn know what made him smile suddenly, but his smile did bring a smile on my face.. i felt a lil stupid though.. but it only broadened my smile.... it was his turn, an attender came by to help him reach the doctor's desk, he sat on the chair very carefully, he was facing the wrong direction.. the doc started talkin to him , n he then turned to d right one.. i smiled again :), seemed like he was a regular patient, i was suprised howcome i never saw him here considering i;ve been accompanying mom since quite a few years..

later he walked out.. n stood there carefully opened his bag, n removes a folded stick, he tried to remove some rubber band kind of thing tied to it, in order to unlock it i gues.. but the stick fell frm his hand, n dats when everyone else in the hall noticed him n realised he doeznt have eyes, n so one of them near him piked it up n then he straightened it n walked past... i dont know if he kepts otherz thinking too.. but he did atleast to me... hmm it was nice..

khair.. u know wat happnd yest?? huh, perhaps d most stupid ever thing, i dint know what to call, but now i think ill call it gossip (thankz to anilzz) i was wid a collegue and her friend, we were returning after breajfast, i dont know wat went on but the lady suddenly asked me, so u do your shopping from london i heard (!!!!!!!) n i went.. really???? (not aloud han.. js to myself) .. i was wondering.. people around here actually notice what others wear n even talk about where they rpoabbaly bought it from.. and EVEN PASS IT ON?? hahaha.. i almost laughed, but controlled thinking it wud offend the lady (i dint know her enuf, she was my collegue's frnd) i smiled and she asked, oh,. not london? some other foriegn place hi naa.. i know i know she shook her head.. n i dint say anything after that.. lolll

eeeeee mansoooo.. dont bug me like dat to finish quickly :P:P time lagta hai yaa.. i do other things wile postin yaa :P:P:P

das all fr now folks!

Adioss

Bin Tum [ again ;) ]

aankhon mein intezaar ke baadal baras gaye
aankhon mein intezaar ke baadal baras gaye
hum dekhne ko aapka chehra taras gaye
bin tum gumsum hone lage, jaane kis dunya me khone lage
bin tum gumsum hone lage, jaane kis dunya me khone lage

resham se dil ke ye rishte, rishton ki naazuk dore
is dore pe jaane jaana chalta nahi koi zore
tujhe dhundti hai nazre zara saamne to aa
bebas hai dil ye mera dil thaamne to aa
saare jahan mein tum hame tanha sa kargaye
bin tum gumsum hone lage, jaane kis dunya me khone lage
bin tum gumsum hone lage, jaane kis dunya me khone lage

aankhon mein intezaar ke baadal baras gaye
aankhon mein intezaar ke baadal baras gaye

bheegi bheegi lagti hai raatein dilbar teri yaad mein
tu hi chupa rehta hai shayad meri har faryaad me
tu kareeb dil ke itnaa hai meherbaan mere
mein sunu teri wo baatein jo mann me tu kahe
kis darjah dekho tum meri dhadkan me bas gaye
bin tum gumsum hone lage, jaane kis dunya me khone lage
bin tum gumsum hone lage, jaane kis dunya me khone lage

aankhon mein intezaar ke baadal baras gaye
aankhon mein intezaar ke baadal baras gaye


well... this was it.. :D :) bout d earlier post :D
hmmm anymore charcha on that nowwww???? :D:D:D:D

Bin Tum

I dont know how well i can do this.. but i really want to pen down this anxiety..

i look for those eyes that i know are looking at me from somewhere, i dont know why, i dont how, i'm just waiting for this wait to end.. its like i see him now and i dont the next moment.. i want to, just want to be with him, hear him talk to him laugh with him cry with him...... my heartz pounding waiting to b touched, to b held to feel that warmth to experiance that peace to reach the end of this endless void, how;d you leave me alone in this whole wide world.. :( .. my days and nights are so lonely without you, how is it that your so close to my heart and not near me now.. you are hidden in every prayer of mine.. i think of you beg for you.. i dint realise when i surrendered to you.... without you i'm alone, i dont know where i;m lost..

Gosh.. i know i screwed it up :D:D:D

this was an attempt to summarize the feel of a song i'm goin gaga over since some days now.. but i actually realised.. :D i really really messed it up.. :D..

will put down the lyrics sometimes soon.. untill then.. umm.. Alvidaa! ( this song is on, so i thought it fits in! although i know its a lil bhaari cz i know m gona cm back very soon :D)

n oh ya! i'd like to know ap sab ke very first reactions after the first few lines of this post.. :D

Integrity bluezZzZ

I dont know why he said that, and i dont know why he was looking at me while he said it.. We were revising the implementation proposal for the fourth time i guess, it was suggested that i shud restructure the estimates without deducting any hours. I already thought mine was n exaggerated estimate ( n yea i was asked to revise it n cut it down, then again someone else cut it further down.. but somehow its gonna sour down to become that bad, m soo dead sure bout it!) aneways... they said they forgot to bill in for the document preperation.. n since i was doing it.. i was to add it in... Naidu peeped frm his cube n said, ya put in 30 hours for u and soud each, i js gave him the ok luk to continue wid my wrk, then he looked at me and said.. well i know its cheating, but we still got to do it, i want to bill them well this time he said.. dat kinda gave me n eeky feelin, y'z he tellin me hez cheating n he knows bout it too.. that reminded me , this was the same guy talkin to me bout integrity issues an year back.. n luk who talks of cheating now...

i;ve got a kingsize bug! i;ll get back laterZzZzZz

Hamesha mine !!! KYUNNNNN?

Gannnnnnnnnnnndaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hai ye Wiproooooooo ! I just hateeeee hate hate hateeeeeee hateeeeee hatee and more more more more moreeee hateeeeeeeeee the people here! ek se badke ek chor'z these people are! i dotn believe they;d stoop down to this level ! come on! who'd i trust????
:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
i'm really really reallllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy mad at these guyz! they ruined my monday morning! damn i hate 'em all so much.. i wish i;d see d fella who did it, i;d jsu give him the look he;d never imagined to see, he;d fall on his feet and swear never to do such a thing again !! i hateeeee 'emmmmmmmmmmm :(:(:(:(:(

meraich milaa thaa kyaa :(:(:(
kya hua malumm :(:(:(:( boht bura huaaaaaaaaaaa ! aaakhri phiriwi hai meri abhi !!
therz this lil chord i use to connect my headfones to my machine, headfonez chote hain :( they wudnt reach the systm neeche :( so i had a chord to connect it... aur yeeee ghaleezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz choran :(:(:( some one cut it !! can you belive that, ok churaalete to theek tha ( nai theek nai tha magar come on!! ) they actually cut it using a plier i guess, n it was so neatly done, as if they wanted to use it for something! one piece of it, i found thrown near dusri chir in another cubicle.. n my headfonez removed carefully n kept alag se, but man why did they have to cut it!! leke use karke laake rakhdena tha naaaaaaa :(:(:(:(:( kyun kyun kyunnnnnn karte mere sath :(:(
i wrote d security guyz the img guyz, the suvidh a guyz, the fmg guyz, eveyone everyone!! a mail. they;d better gimme a new one now( not that they provided the earlier one! but this, i will have it from them for sure!! ) pehle bhi someone stole my headfonez :(:(
n may be, some morning if i find my mouse missing or my keyboard's cable cut some day, i shudnt be surprised! huhhh!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I never thougt i'd wonder about something that seemed (!!!!!) i paused for long to fit in some word, but i realized i actually ran out of 'em.

Friends were always a part of life, they were always there, and to me that always meant, 'in good times' ok, may b not just 'in good times' may b it is 'all times except bad times'. I dont know if;d be exaggerating, but i dont really remmber when my friends saw me in pain/anger/hurt/worried/crying (na not fr smthn silly)... nah, it aint their fault.. its me, i dont know why, i just never showed, i never wanted to. but ya m sure i ditn let them down, i've been blessed to have such beautiful peopela round me who find me so much worthy that they share their very very important decissions, seek advice, or just cry, i can't explain how it feels to be there for someone when they r dat low, n nither can i explain how difficult i see it to actually let go emotions before your friends.

Its awlays been like, people come and people go... i just turn back, i see fading footsteps too, i see smiles i see cries, but surprisingly i also see some of 'em still there.

I dont know why, but i really find it astonshing that we can hold on to people for years together. Its different scenarios when its family, u actually live together and the emotion quotient there is different from that we;d share with friends.

Aint it a nice feeling to just call up someone and yell at them for no reason and bang the fone down again, n still be assured u can call back when ur ok just to say sorry, and u'll see nothing changed. although i have'nt tried this, i feel good just thingking of it :)

Its so nice when you can just call up and say, i want to cry i dont know why, and even if i do, i wont tell you why, so please dont ask. :D i;ve tried this, infact this was like one of those times i felt like M I REALLY DOING THIS!!??

i'm not surprised that i pause and wonder how people around me found me so worthwile :) but its beautiful to feel your loved and trusted and cared for.

but yea, m still learning to let go.. :)

may i have your attention --- "!!*?*!!"

I dont know whats with this thing to seek attention before one would begin a conversation with someone. Well ok, in a gathering it might be required, when you ant to speak to them all, you obviously would require their attention before you begin your talk.. but how bout it, when its a one to one conversation? hmm , well.. may be its ok ( not necessarily required though). you could just start talking to the other person cant u? hmmm, ya if you see him/her engaged ( to the extent that it seems they are actually engrossed and not just engaged) in somehting, then you really need to do something to grab attention before you have your word.

hmm now a nice one-- how exactly do u seek attention?
1. An excuse me .... is too formal i guess
2. Hello? hmm ya would be fine, but not when the talk is too frequent.. u cant actually keep saying hello to the same person again n again ( ina span of say 2 hours, n u talk to them at.. intervals of say.. half n hr or 45 minz?)
3. A pat on the table with a pen ( or just ur finger, but hey! loud enough to have n impact han :D)?? ( :D this onez very practical, and my team mate always uses it wid me :D:D coz my headfones r always on, n he actually needs to do that to get my attention :D) so its a tried n tested idea, but ensure that its used in a similar situation, else its the most stupid way to do it !
4. Ok this onez the ultimate one! n to me, its the most annoying one too !, i dont even know what to call it, its like apna gala saaf karre koi before they sing ( umm i dont know if i've conveyed the message rite) u know that sound they make just before they reach you or look at you or turn towards you... its like n indicator ki, hey m here, look at me or lisn to me!.. i dunno it somehow is soo soo wierd n silly, but so very widely used.
5. hmm what i;d prefer? Just say the name, u have the person;s attention all for you. simple nai? but i hardly see it bein used ( i know you wudnt agree) but js look around, m sure u;ll hear more of 'hey!' or hello ( no not as a way of greeting, wo to chalta wn u see sm1 the first time or not very occasionally int he day) or 'ehm ehmms' or mediators beechme tellin you ( or somtimes just pointing at the other person who requires ur attention!! )

hmmm khair.. this js cliked to me wn i heard the same 'ehm ehm' (which my team mate uses js before he has smthin to tell me) n i turned to him but realised that he dint actually want my attention that time... :)

are they born tihs way!?

Double standards-- Y ??? i hate cribbing htis way i just hate it so much, but i cant help it one bit, and no this aint the first time either, it happens time and again n i tell ya i foolishly let it go ! not that i know what i should do , but hey, i;ve put in effort too, y does someone else ALONE get the cherry on the cake? typical corporate politics scenario i know, but hey a word of appreciation is not gonna cost him a penny's worth then hell y !
ok i was appreciated when i wrked too, i do not deny that, but the point is, all that goes in the drain when the entire credit is handed over to another( although i do appreciate his efforts too ) but damn my manager!! i hate him, coz he gosh ( i feel tacky talking about it, feel like a miser begging for appreciation! damnn i dont need his! i hate him i hate him i hate him!) but i can not deny, i got really mad when i read the mail that gave jus one fela the credit of the whole work package whn i slogged over it for so long... it just pulls u down man! y d hell do u think i;ll work now!
fine!! he now wants estimates for the next work package! now he'll get ;em frm me!

by the way.. i was off this place for long coz i ditn feel like riting, iw as jus rearranging stuff n i;ve moved my poetry collection ( my poetry! my godd!! kitna bhaari bhaari sa lagra huh! ) to a new blog, i;ve linked it up from here.. not that i;ve added anything new there.. ya have put in pics wid 'em as per Anilz suggestion :) )

oh ya, i frgot to mention :D
it rained sooooooooooo heavily aj :) .. i'll tell ya the whole thing ruko...
the current was off since last nite ( i dint realise when it actually got turned off, but it was off for more than 3 hrs past midnite.. n it was like that until the wee hours of morning), n iw as praying that something massive must have happened that would result in a blackout sorts, so no current in hyd atleast for aj, so no power to systems n soo so soooooooo no work :D, han, i was thinkin bout this in the middle of the nite whn i got up fr a glass of water n realised ki current nai tha, n whni chekd the time it was bout 3.30 or so i guess.. .. khair.. aisa to nahi hua.. :D
neways.. i got up n it was raining ( it hink raat bhar hui baarish) after Fajar, i jsut oepend the door n sat on the step in the aangan wishing i woudnt have to go to off :(, but hten i saw the time n it was 7.10 already, i realised i must rush to get ready else m gona have a bad time catching the bus (i;ve been walking to my stop n it takes me 20 min :(, dont ask me y m walking!! sab gande auto waalon ki galti hai!! milte hi nahi subah ke time! ) khair... i was ready by 7.25 ( ya i dont take zyada time :D) so i had another 5 mins, i slippd my burkha on, n i lukd outside n man was it raining heavily.. woooooooooooooo time up.. ghar jana haiiii
but hey
maze ki baat to ye thi.. k i somehw managed to call my cousin imran n he was awake bechara n he drove me to the stop n it was sooo much fun ( iw as dripping yarooo ) khair.. my fone fell in a puddle of water :(:(:( ( it sounds terrible now, goto get it chekddd... ) sheeshhhhh 6.10 hogaye yaro.. osrry jana hai...
another timeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

5 KyunZzZzZz

Insaannn, what a species, what a creation, so much to it, and nothing at all, it has so much in hand, but nothing he can call his?(*!!!*). somtimes the easiest of things seem like a mystery, or its just that we tend to luk at it in a way that it unfolds that way?(*!!!*). U know, ur sure, ur told, and its more than evident that something is to happen in a certain way, y still after that point one tends to overlook (nah) ignore( nah) dont care (yea may be! ) bout it n venture into what you were told not to? Dumb na? Sooooo human !! kyun magar? aisa hamesha to nahi hota, i mean one doesnt react the same in every situationt hat has a similar context and question.. then ?

ab dekho, therz tihs really good looking well n bohot saara paani usme, but ur told or u know or u js get to know somehow, that even after u reach that well, ur not gona get uska paani.. fir, kyun jana bolo wahan? ok, u like it, its nice, accha ai, jo bhi hai, the ultimate goal ( yaani k paani ) is not gona b met, then??? why head in that direction at all? i mean.. dekho, simple si baat hai na, jis gali jaana nahi, us raaste ko dekho bhi kyun? ( kuch hai wo muhaavra, i know i messed it, but htis suffices my purpose :D)

magar han, it also is true, that one woudnt do the same thing for every situation na, ab when u know smthing is wrong u wudnt go ahead n do it for nothing haina... ye situation bhi similar hai, the difference is, it aint as harsh as differentiating gud n bad, its js dat, kuch milne ka nahi hai to kyunnn jaooo? n it dznt end there han. inpite the question, inspite the answer, u still go !! kyunnn???

may b more on this later.. i know i still havent put my tangled bundle of nerves out yet! so aur baaqi hai :D, kaam hai abhi.. wil get back..
untill theenn!! may b u can count the number of kyun's i've used :D, ok, now i know what ican name this :D

(: SaTuRdAy YeLlOwZzZz:)

Aashayen khile dil ki, ummeeden hasen dil ki :)

hey, this was a part of that questionnaire we had for the Antakshiri prelims :D, accha tha yaro wo, but :( ya we wernt thru it :( so .. v cudnt sing :D , khair.. they call it 'blues' when they r sad, what color do they call it when not sad? may b its pink for happy, but,, what do i call it for now?ummm.. han shayad yellow shud do..? :D Saturday yellows :D, han ye theek hai :). . ..

Saturday bhi nahi chut ta dekho ye machine :P, addiction? or is it js dat m heading to smthn like, cant stay widout it? eh huh, exaggerating perhaps :S
hmm i was js llukn thru my folder, js n year back i supposdly had js a folder on my name n iw as supposd to dump in everything i possiby can into it, n now i actually hav a whole machin at wrk, earlier, i;d b excited to be given a chance to access my computer ( yea hum bhai behen bohot ladte the for that, v'd have to take turns :D) n now i spend a whole day over it, 5 days a week ! man a year n so much change :), that folder of mine... gosh, it had soo many things ( it still does) all my eminar reports, my presentations( atleast 3 of 'em two rogh n one final draft ehehe:D) my work meaning assignments, n what a variety yaa, sooo soo much there, n how come i was neva still tired? i dotn remmba complaining, i;d have so muchhh fun, n now lukin at it i feel.. wooo did I do all that?? hehe
Emotional Intelligence in Machines, we presented a paper on that in our tech fest, v got a consolation then... later v presented it in another college;s tech fest, we got First prize :D i luk at it now n smile :D,.. DNA computing, yea dat was my smeinar topic for the 4/2, kya kyaaaa karti thi yaa mein... n abhi dekho... therz a wierd still a some dumb stand, nothing like enthu perhaps, a deserted brain or a typically programmed one that seems to head towards a stagnating end? ummm grrmm, sounds bad :D
janedoo.. chalo bas hai abhi. bubye :)
n by the way! Wipro blocked blogspot again !! although i can post, i cant see my published blog..

Adios ;) n yea, i know what m gona name this post :D

Before your death


The truth that we are aware of
Life that we know shall come to an end
Nothing in hands we shall have then
Deeds they say shall speak there-on

Sad it is that we still pay no heed
We sure were told what we must read
But still we just pile up more weed
We don’t realize, it is our need

There shall come an hour verily we were told
To prepare for it and ourselves to mould
To stand before the Master of the world
For it is Him alone we can hope to hold

Another chance we shall not get
To live again in this world He shall not let
Make haste and pray for what you fret
Before your death and you are met

ye n wo

quite a few things here... ek to ye.. ki my team mate, Uma (now if he does a CTRL +F for his name, he'll find it ;) ) was trying to find out wat omnidaemon meant coz he heard us talk about it so much.. .. so he googled it.. n loll guess wat he came across.. hahah my blog !! now it showz ! :D

waise weekend was very nice... fri exi.. sat golconda outing wid frndz( cant really elaborate on thiss.. magar yarooo mazaaa aagaya :):) ) sunday.. hehe shahrukh khan treattt, devdas, K3G, ek aur aari thi yarooo.. mmm yad nai aara nam .. hmmm ... ya.. Veer zaaraaaa :):) .. so it was srk all sunday :):):):)

aj.. hmm kam wam.. n this n that.. but i was told i cant help myself although i solve many things for otherz.. :( khair..

time hogya.. jare hum.. tataa!

another piece of nonsense (read 'no sense') :D

i dont really like to have the feleing of my machine being overlooked.. n dis moment.. its smthin exactly like that.. i feel sm1z lukin peeche se.. tryin to peep a my screen, thank god this aint my real waali place...

my system crashed :D, i was workin on it.. n i truned to talk to my team mate, i turned wapas.. n saw.. my machine.. :D black out :D, the memory slots r a problem it seems.. n so the motherboard requires change, n a call has been logged with the vendor n its expected.. umm.. 2 3 days me kate :D.. waise he told me smthin similar earlier also.. but it was fine by evening...



khair.. m at gayatriz machine abhi to.. n dekhte hain. kab theek hota hai sab...



actually na ( ok m gonna blabber nonsense now).. you somtimes do things u;d hate just a lil later than you;ve done them. Its so human i know... but it aint very good... i don think i like it... u cant help it either.. it just happens.. u dont know why, you don know how, and sometimes you dont even know what.. but it still happens.. ( PAuse: the IMG guyz here.. hez got a spare motherboard kate.. :-~) ya so where was i... in the middle no where..

its like blaaa life.. n bluu life.. n wateva hell.. n nonense i tell ya at times.. u don like his u dont like that.. n smtimes whn u do... umm well.. janedoo..

duhh ! theek hogya.. m at my machine..

anyways... u dont know wat to do u dont knowa where to go, u want it to hold on u also want it to finish, u want to stay u want to leave u want to move n u also want to b still... how on earth do u think ur gona get everything ek saath?
nothing at all happens n u just complicate it all soo soo so much for urself, not just that, the bad thing of it is, it has n aweful aweful impact, sometimes irrepairable damages, u talk nonsense n later regret but that is all, u can only regret, nuthin perhaps to undo it... y y y should otherz be at the recieveing end of ur nonsense? not fair na.. ? u;d hate it if u;de b in their shoes, but u still dont think.. u know it all, but, u still dotn care? no... it aint that u dont care, but y should... neva mind...

peace, important nai?
waise mum called .. dont miss the bus aj bolke :(

ta taa!

Alumni Meet.. mazaa aagya :)

kuch yaadein bhulaaye nahi bhulti, kuch waqt roke nahi rukta...
Sometimes you so soo sooo much want something to come back.. n most of the times.. its tim well spent.. its time thats gone.. time that ur sure is never to come back, but u stil so so sooo much wish you could hold on, so much wish u can peek into it again, just a a glimpse of the past gives you those goose bumps n dat feel of wanting to stay back n never to return...

hmmmm.. yai was kinda feelin dat way.. ova the weekend.. had my Alumni meet, n it was soo soo soo nice being there with all of them again.. back to my old class, arre.. hamari class ku lab banadiye wo log.. n therez a whole new block now.. poore ke poore 7 floors! my goodness.. n the ramp is gone.. therz a new canteen.. but that slope up n down to our blocks is still the same.. the parking shed is still the same.. the guy who used to stand there is still the same.. the chemistry labb.. mann!! hehe wo bhi waisa hi hai.. the LR was locked.. the pharmacy block is in place.. the old canteen ke pas kuch shed sa banadiye.. n kuch naye seediyan hai wahan.. hmmm the library area.. hehe the place we'd call LP ( short fr lover;s point ;) saare copules wahin milte the :D:D n saare badmaash n padantuz bhi wahin milte the.. the badmashz were there to spy on the couples.. n padantuz ke liye to library jaane ka raasta hi thaa !! ahhhhhhhhhh kya din the yaaaa..

most of them turned up.. even the married ladies( 2 of 'em) were kind enuf to come over for while.. they left jaldi magar.. the lecturers r the same.. the auditorium :D wo bhii.. sab sab sabbb itna accha laga ki bas.. it was like.. sooo gud to see everything n everyone together.. Nad bhai was in town, he had given me his numbr.. i dint call him fr long.. n then yad aya so i called him up dat morning ( ditn tell him my name ;) ) although he had a hint it was me he wasnt sure, n he was kinda hunting ke kaun hai wahan pe.. khair.. mile unse bhi bohotttt accha laga.. me n juvi went around poooora campus.. oour classes the labs , the machines we did our project on.. it woudl be nice if far would come.. she cudnt make it magar :(.. accha tha yaa sab.. the cse girls had turned up too.. kafi log the.. sab se milke it was liek.. woowww.. :):):):) i cudnt stop smiling.. n then the show was nice too.. there were some performers.. hyderabadi ishtyle me guftgu.. aisi kuch tha.. the laughter challenge representatives of hyderabad were there to entertain us.. n hmmmmmmm aur ek bohottttttttt acchi bat bhi thi joo bohottt acchi lagi :):):):):)..

arre haan.. i also happnd to meet that junior of mine.. that was such a funny encounter.. after i lost my pehle wala number, we lost touch, kal he was sitting at the entrace to register the guests.. n he insisted that we put in our names too.. i said ok n sat down, one glimpse of him n aisa laga.. i know this guy, kaun hai magar.. yad nahi aya tab but.. n he asked my name n i said it n i lukd at him again, he gave similar 'i know u i guess' looks, then the other things n then he went liek... 'ap .. baji hai?' n i went ya!! yaad aaya! Aziz!!! lol.. n i sat there for a wile tlakin to him n he kept yelling kya hai number badaldiye call nai kuch nai bla bla.. accha tha yaroo.. sab kuch bohot bohot bohotttt accha tha :):):):):)

chalo.. have kam for the day.. :)
may b i'll b in those MJCET special effects for d day ;)

Massalaama !!

She

She thought she was in wonderland
At ease and peace with all in stand
Dew drops glittering on glossy green grass
Nature enthralling that took her in trance

Flowers that bloomed smiling at her
Birds seem to sing welcoming her
How was everything so perfect
Why did everything seem so correct

She sat under the shade of a tree
And noticed something come beside
A squirrel perhaps was back from its ride
It also seemed in a lively spree

It looked at her and ran around
Went back to hide and made some sound
Its gleaming eyes peeped at her
She thought it was in some kind of a stir

She breathed a sigh, the one of grief
And thought for a while about her strife
The solitude now was called loneliness
The peace she felt was now distress

She breathed again, this time of relief
And thought again this time in belief
A minute it took to get back her smile
She realised it wasn't worth that mile

A lesson she seemed to learn that day
Live in the present, keep the past at bay
When she smiled at life it showed her wonders
She finally learned to enjoy those thunders

P.S: Shubha, dont ask me why, but i just like to dedicate this one to you :)

%%%%% - i realised i neva had these kinda titles ;)

Sometimes you dont understand whats wrong with you, or may be its just dat you think somethings rong wid you n may be nuthing really is all that rong.. but still the mind percieves it that way n there ur heart takes u to the sadder side of lala land where u kinda question urself, whats rong, m duing things that hurt so much.. but wat did i do? its like.. u do smthin n they dont like it n u dont know y they dont like it.. ?
umm .. jaanedoo..

waise.. i was told sm1z happy wid meeeee :D

chalo ghar jana hai..

Adios!!