Bohot din baad...

I've been off here since soooooooooooooooo soooooooooooo sooooooo long naiiii.. sheesh, ya.. it included my 8 day off from work :D:D:D thats jus 5 leaves han, baaki teen din.. :D sat sun n Christmas :D,
then i got bak on friday.. n fiirrrrrrrrrrrrrse do din ki chutti :D sat sun.. n then i got back ajjjj.. ab kal firrrrrrrrse chutttii :DD:D:D:D:D nice na :)

hmmm i dint do much.. actually i did too much n i remmba none.. NONE at all. :D eid was nice.. ab kya nice nakko poocho.. i cant really put in all d description here ( gosh etc? huh dnt expect elaboration there!! )

hmmm abhi to i'm fullllto yawning.. hey... new year resolutions anyoneee????? U know.. i had js thought of one hting... i dont know if i;d b able to put up wid it.. but i;ll try.. m planning not to every say bad bout my manager ( irrespective of how bad he is n all the bad things he'd do !!!), but cm to think of it... when i talk of him, it has to have smthin to do wid bad... coz i cant really help it.. he does it dat way.. ok.. i'll still try not to give my opinion on it... may b i'll hate him a lil lesser this year... ya.. i wont umm well bad mouth bout him.. n if any of u see me do it.. remind me of this :D, but ya i dotn promise not to ven mention what he does han.. :D

khair.. a whole year passed, it was the 2nd of Jan, i had a terrible time adjusting, i cribbed about why Bala had to move me from Avaya and send me here, n that time i dint realise sooo much would have happened.. my goodness.. 2007 surely has a lot, u know.. its like sooo much happened ... work wise home wise me wise.. ya,, boht kuch yaa.. sm of whihc i cn mention sm of which i dont want to nice gud stuff not so gud bad stuff... hmmm accha mixture tha..

khair chalo.. i cant put much lite.. i gues its been a very gud blogging year too nai.. kitnaaa likhi meinn.. :D

chalo.. Adios!

Ajjjjj kya huaa malummmmmmmmm :D:D:D

Never did my day pass off itni jaldi at work.. n u know wat, aj to kuch kaam hi nahi tha :D then i duno how i managed to remain sooo bz :D

Swiped in, was pretty sure there wudnt b many mails.. n not any frm Finland atleast :D, i still checked out sm videos ( all my pending frwds u see.. abhi bohotttt baaki hain :) ) n one of them i watched was veryyy very nice, they named it.. the new anthem, will trying attahcing te video here.. last time i tried it dint work out... hmmm

I'm off music untill eid (:D) so no music either, was loged into messenger n mails dat was it, n ya was out fr juice in the morning, dint hav bf :(.. then ye wo kare tak cofee break :D n u know these ppl , they dont let me stay on!!.. got back.. n hit d mails again... n one of them haddddddd... :D:D:D:D:D yea.. this...

now.. do i need to say how i felt??? :D i jus replied saying.. MEKUUUU HONAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :D:D:D:D:D

khiar.. the day moved on .. n lunch time.. namaz n headed to cafe.. n then after lunch.. i still cudnt stp thinkin of those :D, sooo.. sooo sooooo.. me, Rahmath n Firdous thought.. y nottt.. ummm yeaaaa!! h ehehe v rushed to our cubes, got our abayas, n were out tuk n auto and .. heheh yeaa.. hunted ofr the nearst mithai bhandar.. n thennnnn.. thisssssssss!!!

Dont remmba when i did smthin as stupid as this :D, magar maza aayaaa... :):):)

Mansooo.. to make your day :)

aabad karte chale wo jahan bhi daali nazar
mehfil mehkaate chale aisa tha unka safar
nigaah e mohabbat ka kuch aisa hua asar
bewafaon ki mehfil me pighlaate chale har paththar

jhalak to jaise kaafi thi hi nahi
jalwe wo yun bikhraate chale
kahin muskuradiye to kahin se nazar pherli
unka hona hi jaise ek raushni si thi

khone ko kuch baaqi na raha
dil to wo churaate hi chale
hothon se kuch najaane kyun na kaha
apne aankhon ki chamak humse chupaate chale

Coffee gossips

yea.. this is one thing common to corporates.. n i js got back from one such brunch... I wasnt really used to joining my team for coffee.. major reason language barrier! .. telgu pata nai kyun.. palle padti hi nahii !!.. khairr.. its just a few days since i started moving out with them for cofee.. i dont really remember y i suddenly switched and did not mind the language barrier, more so i happened to remember the fact that i can still be alone in a crowd...

aneways.. my people are considerate, they understand my facial expressions so well, n r kind enuf to translate, n somtimes i pik the english words they throw in wid thier telugu as they speak, n frame things out fr myself.. n most of the time they are laughing, bout soem joke ( not nasty or smthin infac it wudnt have any humorous content but i tell ya, the rest all they did to present it woudl make it hilarious! ) .. there are times i find myself wid a blank face when all of them are laughing n yea they are smtimes tooooo bz laughing not wanting to loose out on those moments ( of laughter ) that they do not translate it to me.. but ya.. i still laugh... nah.. not js to give company, i dont know.. they way they laugh is also funny enuf to make me laugh.. so its ok.. :)

therz one Manoj in our team, n he had his appraisal discussion yesterday.. so dat was the hot topic, n i gave strict instructions that its gona be in english!! n he obliged (although he always seemed to find it difficult to communicate in english coz he stuied in telgu since scool )..

I;m not sure if this is something easy or if it comes by practice or somthing... but.. how well do u think you can laugh at yourself (in public ofcourse! ) .. I realised its an art in itself... laughing at yourself yea!!.. i saw this in him today.. he seemed so easy witht the mess he was making out of himself n he continued to entertain.. he surely carved a niche for himself with that charisma of being clumsy that he treasures...

kya baat hai !!

I dont remmber when i was knocked out by sm1 like this! man this is awsome... i dunno.. i js luvd it ! I ain tn ardent shaeri lover, but whni heard this guy ( the saddest part is i dont know who it is ! ) i went .. woooo!

i must tell ya.. the andaaz e bayaan is kaabil e taareef... here goes!!

koi deewana kehta hai koi paagal samajhta hai
magar dharti ki bechaini ko bas baadal samajhta hai
mein tujhse door kaisa hoon tu mujhse door kaisi hai
ye tera dil samajhta hai ya mera dil samajhta hai

ke mohabbat ek ehsaason ki paawan si kahani hai
kabhi Kabira deewana tha kabhi Meera deewani hai
yahan sab log kehte hain meri aankhon mein aansun hai
jo tu samjhe to moti hai jo naa samjhe to paani hai

ke samandar peer ka andar hai lekin ro nahi sakta
ye aansu pyar ka moti hai isko kho nahi sakta
meri chaahat ko dulhan tu banaalena magar sunle
jo mera ho nahi paaya wo tera ho nahi sakta

bhramar koi kumudni par machal baitha to hungama
hamare dil mein koi khwaab pal baitha to hungaama...
abhi tak doob kar sunte the sab kissa mohabbat ka
mein kisse ko hakeekat mein badal baitha to hungama



bhaiii mazzzaaaaa aagya! ;)

Phantasm of Love

With grace she walked down the moon
And elegance that would cast a swoon

Beauty elite in the star studded night
Seemed like pulchritude was there to flaunt its site

She held his hand and he swirled her around
Under the moonlight and love to surround

With patience and ease, they danced with th breeze
Mesmerized and lost in each others thoughts

In heaven as they felt with bounties svelte
Suaveness in their speech and then a sudden breach

He knew not what was to come
She knew not that life dint allow her freedom

Many dreams shattered his life all battered
They just moved leaving everything scattered

As though lightning struck and their world destruct
To offer them solitude on a turn that was abrupt

Blanched and dismayed or just a haggard life
He saw himself in an overwhelming strife

Where are the stars, where is the light
How could she leave him alone to fight

He saw her go to never return
She left him there with a heart that burn . . .

Airport tale

GOsh... apne logan nai sudharte i tell ya! i mean apne hyderabadiz :D

I was at the airport to recieve my brother on friday morning ( yea i was sick and and off since thur till aaj :D, now dont ask me wat iw as duin at d airport then :D, actually, baba gave me a grin early morning and asked me to get up without making much noise so we cud sneak out for breakfast.. lol i dunno wat made him do that, he just said get up lets go.. let these ppl eat at home.. ur home today .. we'll go out :D:D:D:D:D:D heheh.. so the buqaR was off fr a while.. n neway bhia's flite was around same time.. sooo.. )

we were there much earlier than time! i dont remma whn i waited for sm1 sooooo long! huh!... but hey. it was fun :D,

actually na.. iw as at the airport.. after longggg longggggggg longgggggggg! yea.. may b iw as there just once ( dnt remmba wn) after i got bak frm dammam ( yea!!!! 8th std last!!!! cha! ) neways.... dad was tired of standing.. so he saw sm... umm i dunno wat to call it.. he js sat there.. n i moved around.. n man the crowd i tell u!!!!!!

there wer 4 flites scheduled, one frm frankfurt, another frm amsterdam, one frm dubai n the last one frm riyad!, n since it was d last one!! my bro was but obviously cmin frm riyad wali flite! ( aisi hota hamesha, ur waiting for the lasssssst flite.. n wo bhi late aati! dats L!Fe !)

khaiirrrrr ( hey.. afte rlong eh :D) ya.. so.. i was waiting.. n within that time span ( about more than n hr! ) i saw... 'hyderabad in a nutshell'..... here goes! this WILL NOT sound unfamiliar!

A 35+ lady, moving around ( running behind a kid!) with a 'phoolon ka tokra' ... yea!! do i have to tell u y?? ... then she finally stops at one place n yells at another lady... ab inki kahani suno.. shez holding a very little girl, a very cute one too.. whoz crying terribly ( nah.. not like pain or nehtin.. i cud make out.. she was js irritated! n y wudnt she b? she z js toooo small for anyone to smear lipstik on her lips AND CHEEKS!!! n not let her down to move since more than n hour, and js hold her to let her do NOTHING) .. now .. a fello in his early thirties joins this gang and does his regular,, salam ...arre kaise hai ( asks the mom, but pulls the lil girls cheek whoz already pissed off!! ) dont really remmber but this fela refered to one of the ladies as khala or phuppu or chachi.. ... now n old uncle cmz han... hez running behind the same kid this phulon ka tokra wale aunty was running after.... that kid ( about rehan;s age) i tell u.. was very adorable... n u know wat that kid was duin... u know dat luggage carrier they use ... yeaAA!!! he was running around with that thing!! n he finally got tired n sat js rite in frnt of me... n shouted.. dadi ammiiiiii... n then that lady came again... he pulled her n said.. ap baithjaiye mein bhi thak gaya... n she sat..! lol it was sooo cute :).. then... another early 20's guy joined these ppl... he had long hair n wore a monkey cap!! n one of those other aunties yelled " tu abi tak nai kataaya baalan!!! " yuppp i'm js quoting her :D... then the kid yelled again.. chacha kab to bi aate dadi ammi, n i smild at that n that lady saw me smile .. n she took the kid n moved ahead :D

finally... i saw all cartons ( yea yeaaaa wahi!! the kind they all load whn cming frm saudi) in those carriers.. n i was like.. baba... aagai jaisa hai riyad ki flite n passngers tooo nikalre hi.. n there i spotted my brother wid a one too!! .. js smiled n moved out wahan se then....

chalo... ghar jaaing timee...

Allahafiz :)

Work your life your way

….. nah I don’t mean dat work….
Read dat again… ‘work your life YOUR way’ , n u sure will notice some miniscules u missed out on when you were just ‘working’ throughout life..

Check this out.. n hav a beautiful day http://www.sevenwondersofyourworldmovie.com

eeeeeeeee!

my build is on.. it'll take time.. so sneaked in here again :D.. hannn to where was i....

weekend done... ya.. monday morning blues were all pinks untill it was eve whn i was totally saturated.. dont ask me of wat!! i spoke to manso n yelled n shreaked bout 'life' man she cudnt stop laughing.. i still wonder wat made u laugh so much dumdum!.. sheesh! hold on, i'll b bak, the build failed :(.. solaris has a problem wid itoa!!! huh!
hold onnn

sheeshhhhh the bo case report! huh! i'll get bak baaaaaaaaaadme bubye!

okk chalo bakk..
ok.. monday eve as iw s returning home, in a bad mood thinkin how wiproz got d nack of messin things up for me by day end,but js as i was rushing, i saw this beauuuuuuuuuuuuuutiful crescent n cudnt stop smiling, i tell u.. He js knowz how to change a bad grin into a smile :) .. khairrrrrrr ( heyy hehe i js got to know wat this khaiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrr means :D lolllz )

newyas.. i wanted to meet a frnd, whn d bus stoppd i thot for a hwile i'll take left n go meet her nt hen get home.. then saw d time.. n niwas like.. nah she wont b home so soon, n it was 7.15 then... yea dats when iw as crossin d road terribly n i was told 'itni jaldi mein nai rehna' bla :D.. khairr.. i headed home.. n as soon as i stepped in.. she called, i js gave a puzzled luk to my fone n was like.. huh i was jsss thinkn of her nai. :D

i'll get bak badme yaroo!

Rewind..

u know, i realised dat everytime i get a lil lazy n think, na i'll log this later, i see dat i miss ou on so many thingss, i missd puttin stuff bou d luvly carefree weekend i had, n by the end of monday i already had a messy mood so i dint bother to log it, again tue was different it had so much i had to ttell myself.. but i got stuk wid other things.. n i ended up fuming yesterday.. hmm bad idea, .. next time se.. i'll let out every damn thing here, kinda my best place, its soooo tolerant i tell ya :).

weekend.. hmm friday.. diwali hol.. so it was likee.. wooowwwiii.. n since iw as workin since last three saturdays( YESSSS I WASS :(:( ) this one seemed sooooo releiving.. it was liek.. here u go u get three days to live .. n i tuk ;em like.. yiippyyy hehe.. fridya went to aapi's new home.. had a nice time there.. evening we headed to necklace road to , sam bhaiz idea that we cud check out d fireworks.. n i tll u it was luvly.. n the best part was... the place was not one bit crowded.. no traffic nuthinn.. had a nice peaceful drive, a veryyyy nice long barefoot walk in d grass n feast( ni had a terrible throat, sam bhai nai dilate bole ice ream, but u know i can pester ppl o get my things done :D ) neways.. having Rehan aroound is a treat in itself, but the baby had a running nose too.. so he dint get d ice cream :D... i called up anilz n manso n keets n ashwini n shubha wahanse, magar kisiiiiiii ke nums nahi lage, except ashwiniz n i spoke to her.. khiar.. it was gud.. n u know watt.. i also sawwwwww.. Rayees Sir wahan, he helped us wid mouse programming in our 2ns year project, .. i had my spects on, so h wud'nt recgnize me! no way :D, n d bad thing was i cudnt remmber his name that time so i cud go n talk to him.. n it wud be bad if i;d go ask him.. khair. i kept pestering aapi n baji n the otherz k hez my sir but i dont remmber his name.. they ensured we were away frm that place lest i do smthin silly ( nahhhh i wudnt haina :D)... khair.. that was my fridya:)
then.. sat... i lazed around.. cudnt sleep late:( i got up sab se pehle.. dats at 7 coz i had a swollen gum n was in pain :( n i got up rote hue n mum bhi uthgaye.. khair.. nuthin much in d dway.. js lazin around.. n yaaaaa i had a very very very long chat wid af( oh my goddddd! dat remins mee!! ) ya.. so we shared all our old pics reminiscing old days ( meaning engg days) n mal bhai n gang ke pics , n she was surpised hhe.. n man idint realise.. i was wid her for three hours or so !! i dunno wat dat dumdum dz itni rat me online! khair.. cal hai . holddd on..

ya! hehe see.. i hav messy mood.. n it messess up otherzz too :) khairrr.. ya then sat eve, there was htis weddin i had to attend.. kiski malum? :D therz this uncle ( dats wat i cal him) who made d sofa's at our place so i used to study upar in the room n he used to make sooo much noise with his hammers n this n that, n he always used to peep into my rrom n then request me to cm n have a luk at what hez done ( he had htis thing to lisn to .. accha banaye uncle :) lol. ) khair. it was his son;s wedding n he sooooooooo much wanted us to cm! n so i did make my lind lat minute n joined mum n shanna n mycousins were there too ( he made smthin at their place also ) so well it was gud..

sundayyyyyyyyy to dont askk.. i watched jab we met n it was .. grrrrr888888 :)

heyyyy bohot kaam hai :(
i'll get bak about this again.. inshAllah by day end! n maniwonder wat excites naidu so much when girish calls! (ok hez d new onsite fela whoz joining us offshore.. gona b my first encounter, he better not mess wid me :D)

wil get back jaldi se.. have to send prelim package aj kaiiiiiiiiiisa bhi.. n stil havnt chkd my solaris build... windows build works fine.. it was crashing terribly kal to.. aj theek hai :)
chalooooooo
bas khaalllllllllllllas!

russshiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

i feel like.. there shud have been this huge cupboard where i cud go n hide behind n everyone wud go hunting for Tasneem n neva find her.. although i feel like "muuuummmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy" i dont feel like goin home, n no! i dont feel like stayin bak at this forsaken place either!, y do i have such lil choice yaaaaaaaaaa!!
mein ek akeli jaan .. n itna sara kaam :(, Tasneem this Tasneem that, Tasneem did u take care of this, Tasneem please take care of that, Tasneem please send a preliminary package! PHUTOOOOOOOOOOOOooo Tasneem aint workin oneeee bit ab!

i;m asked if intersted in a training, then i luk at d dates n go.. ahh no.. have many things scheduled already! damn my calender is full !

i feel like m in this blak n white room with all blak n white baloon n a blak n white teddy bear n ok a blak n white cake n blak choclates wid white wrapper n blaaaa man i sound so overwhelmed by ennnui !! huhhh !!! luk at meeeeeeeee!!

i tell ya.. they say u must njoy at work.. i m soooo damn sure ke pooooore jhoot bolte, sirf bataaaane ke baatan, sabbbb dikhawa, not in this industry atleast, it HAS to be that htey feel as bla as i am now, quite a few timess...

i crossed dat mehdipatnam road terribly few days bak, n i got a comment.. itni jaldi mein bhi nahi rehna( apne logaan kabhi nahi sudharte i tell ya! ) i dunno dats one thing wid wich i feed excitment into my dumb moments fr those microseconds

butttttt heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

na.. kuch nai chalo bye!
i know i cnt miss it.. n i have to run ab tooo

adiosss

Got it sorted...

Heyy! i was js readin thru, n i chekcd that ' ihate him' post of mine :D, aaakhri gusse me thi mein naiii.. lol, i kinda laughed js now bout wat i rote obviously in a fit of anger, but gud na, i captured 'em dat moment! :D .. but i dint mention bout the talk i had with him the other day na...

he was very busy on the demo day so i cudnt talk to him coz he was always wid other ppl around, n i dint wana mess things up for him in front of others ( seee m such a gudie!! ) khair... next morning, iw as waitin for him, n surprisingly he was late.... i was still fuming bout the previous day... he walked in n i walked out for a cup of cofee... i got bak n i strait headed to his cabin, n said iw ant to talk to you, he just lukd at me, coz he had js a while ago, come to my desk to chk the status bout where we r, n i cud see dat 'jhalak' of i dunno wat about the previous day;s gud demo... so khair, he dint offer me a seat, so i sat down myself, n i gues dats when he realised .. o oo.. smthinz rong ( coz i dont ever show him the patience to sit n talk to him about anything, m always on the fly with a 1 2 or a yes no or a techie talk wid him) khair... i told him i'm not feeling good since yesterdays demo, he gave me a very suprising luk, i dint wait for him to ask y.. i just shooted out ... i dint like the way you told the client that i was late for a scheduled meeting, that too with such a lame excuse ( i was off for lunch n dint turn up even after half n hour had past the scheduled time! dats d excuse he gave!! ), it seemed to me like you potrayed me as an irresponsible person who dint turn up for a scheduled meeting... and he started offfff, he js cant stand oneeee bit of blame ( m usin d rong word, cant think of anything better dat can fit in.. ) even if its HIS FAULT!, he just kept interrupting me, n then i gave him a very stern " please let me finish before you say anything, i want to let u know that i dint like something you did for no fault of mine, nuthing personal naidu, but i dont think i can work well if this still goes on in my mind".. that was enuf for him i guess, he said ok u say first.. n i continued n told him he cud have given any reason, without putting the blame on me.. bla bla.. all my gussa was out rite on him:D, but hey i did it neatly han, put my point strait n stern with no gunjaaish of confusion, n no ill thought or hard feeling .. ( u know i kinda use this ok, may b u can call it trick;) i always say my watever and then put in smthin like, ur elder to me n much more experianced n i luk up to you for all that, but i did not like what you did yesterday [yea i used those very words:D]) ...

khair... after my part, he obviously shooted off his diplomatic stuff showing me things like cummonnnn... u dont have to take it that way, u know i go in so many meetings, and they themselves, i mean the clients Uffe and Rune ( ya, unlogon ke naama aisich rehte! ) turn up lates, sometimes they turn up after half the meeting is done.. n if its a personal reason smthin like lunch or so.. they dont mind it one bit.. infact it would show us in bad lite if we wud say the data is not ready he said... n he said ya actually., iw as the one who logged in earlier than time, so they thought we woud start off immidiately but niether of you ( me n jaw) were there so they were waiting, but its ok.. nothing like they thought about u as n irresponsible person.. u guyz r duin a gud job.. bla blaa.. thn i js said ok.. i js thought i'd share it wid you coz i dint like it.. may b if u;d be in my place u;d feel the same ( ya i said dat too :D) n he said ya thats rite may b i;d feel smthin like dat, but thats not the whole story rite, i cudnt say our data is not ready, n since i had already said that u both r on lunch i cud continue with that reason...

thne i js got up n walked out.. he also said 'well taken' not sure y he felt dat.. but.. khair.. it was sorted, n i told him i dnt like it , n i put it clear so ms ure he wudnt dare to so nehtin close to dat again :)

Stop!! u cant Go !

it was all fine but u had to mess it up all for me

things were moving but u had to remind them of we

i jus wasnted to start off with those lines, dont ask me y, n since they had no head n tail i thought i;d put them in d centre ;)....

hey, howzzit like when ur walking and ur pulled over and held onto and although u want to ur not allowed to go... phirti nai? hmm yea, meri bhi..

i'll come bak to this again later..

a moment n ur..... :(

i dunno, m not felin gud.... i was fine a lil while ago, i was.. well ya.. in the 'rite gud' mood, wid many background things in mind/hert n work in d foreground n.. it was gud.... but now... :( i feel... sad :( and i know y...



i was congratulated wid tonnes of sarcasm about smthin dat dint mean nethin to me, .. i dunno wats wid this... it can not be tht one does not know whats important for them and whats not, it can not be that one can not prioritize things and place them ritely so they all turn out in the best possible way, but yes theirz surely a possibility of improvement in every damn thing, but how cn one look at one;s choice wid the eye of improving it? if u n i luk at the same thing, we still may differ in opinion about many things bout it wudnt we? i mean therz such n open possibility of it isnt there? then?

y do i have to declare this and this is important to me and this and this is not?, if somethings important wont i put in everything to it? n if it dznt turn out wel and another thing dat i dint perhaps give as much importance turns out wel, how dz it seem?.. well ok for someone out of the ring it obviously means lack of effort in the important case ! but dat aint true n i;d know it wudnt i?



khairr.... janedoo..

iw onder if this is understandable



i say something and the other person undrstands,

when i dont say , they dont understand

but sometimes you dont say and they'd still understand

also other times if i dont understand i wud ask, but if i am not explained i still try, if i dont sitll understand, i'd declare that i dont get it, so anything expected of me in that regard will not be fulfilled for the obvious reason that i dint understand... isnt this fair enuf?

ok if i put it the oter way round... u dont undstand what i say, or may i i wudnt say at all, so i obviously wud assume that anything with regards to dat wil not be done coz i dint convey the meesage ritely, or i dint convey it at all..



blaa kya hai ki janedo..

i tell u whn one has n unstable state of mind it cn take u anywher! i realised i forgot my ear ring in d wash room wn i removed it cz it got stuk n hurt me, i askd my frnd if she had it, n she tol me i left it there, iw alked out n gues where i headed to luk for it? duh ! the pantry!! how dumb is dat? then i realised i was at d rong place n then reached the rite one n it was still lying there thankfully....

khair... khairrr khairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ( see m usin this so often too :( )

bas... aur kuch nai... but yea.. it takes js a moment or two to squeeze out all the energy frm u n ya i dont have to say that the company u have in those one or two moments is what maters... infact dats the only thing dat matters at all.. hmmmm but it goes well even the other way round, i eman, u js need a moment or two to feel ur happiest best with someone around.... n sometimes its so wierd dat both these diverse moments r a result of one person nai?

janeddoooooooooooooo kya bolrun ki mein..

m droolin ova this one these days :D

naa hai ye paana naa khona hi hai
tera naa hona jaane kyun hona hi hai


tumse hi din hota hai surmaii shaam aati hai..
tum se hi tum se hi

har ghadi saans aati hai,

aankhon me aankhen teri, baahon mein baahon teri
mera na mujhme kuch raha.. hua kyaa

baaton mein baaton teri, raatein saughaatein meri
kyun tera sab ye hogaya... hua kyaa

mein kahin bhi jaata hua, tum se hi miljata hun..
tum se hi tum se hi

shor me khaamoshi hai, thodi se behoshi hai
tumse hi tumse hi...

aadha sa waada kabhi, aadhe se zyada kabhi
ji chaahe karlun is tarah wafaa ka

chode na choote kabhi, tode na toote kabhi
jo dhaaga tum se jud gaya .. wafaa kaa

mein tera sarmaya hun... jo bhi mein ban paya hun
tumse hi tumse hii..

raste banjaate hain manzilen miljaati hai
tumse hi tum se hi..

na hai ye paana naa khona hai hai
tera naa hona jaane kyun hona hi hai...


courtesy: Jab we met

Maujja hi maujja ;);)

i have noooo idea y m in sucha mood,i;ve got loooooooooooooooads of work to finish u know... soo much dat .. hehe i dont know what m gona do bout it...... i had such time laughing at the wieeeeeeeerddddd bugs my team discovered, and my team was like... luk at this girl.. shez laughing.. lollz trust me i cud do nuthin but laugh at 'em... they were ... soooo wierd :D:D:D.. aneways.. is till got to fix 'em u see.. n waise i dotn remmber posting dat m done wid requiremnt implementation ;) loll yeaaaaaaa ! i still aint thru wid dat, n i already found other things i still will need to fix... n u know d besttttttttttt part... LOL LOLLLL d damn thing doesnt work in Mozilla at alll !! n u shud see what happens to it in Netscape... hehhe..... n damn I GOT TO FIZ IT ALLLLLLLLLLLLLL .... n i dunno by whn.. :D:D:D:D:D n u know another thing dat happnd.. loll.. i cant stop laughin bout it:D:D:D:D:D, its bout a new fela in my team, who i assigned work to ;););) yeaa!! my manager asked me to assign it to him ;) ;) khair... wo banda na.. aj uthaake onsite walon ko.. he sent thisss thrashing mail.. LOL i cudnt stop laughing... khair.. it was this guyz fault han... i was surprised n elderly guy dznt posses such minimum patience? huh!

khairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...... kannan rote a mail whn soud forwarded dat mail to him... sayin,, NAidu call onsite immidiately .. with thte team in CC ! ... :D:D:D:D i replied sayin hez off aaj... ab kal dekhooooooooooooooooo kya hona haiiiiiii.. maza aanewala haiiiiii :D:D:D:D:D

nagada nagaaaada bajaaaaaaaaaa.,,, i dunno wat dat means.. but i tell ya.. its a mmmm yup ! dhinchchchchakkkk is d word for it !! :D:D:D:D

n apart frm all dat i dunno.. m in gud moood aj :):):) u know.. d "special effect" kinddss.. lolll.. hey... namaz time! pushingg off.. ! n there goes my alarm bout d billlssssss.. so i wont frget dropping them down aaj ;):)

nagaaada nagaada nagaaada bajaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

hey 5.30 ko birthday party tooooo ...mmmm n i cant stay back eva aga8in.. coz of d pune wipro episode.. dad gave me SUPER DUPER STRICT instructions bout my aana aand jaana...
chalooooooooooooooooooooooo
bassssss
ab byee :):D:)

okk i feel better..

no id int talk to him about it.. he dint have the time, he was bz discussin the after offs of the demo, n sicne the feedback was gud he was happy.. neways...

they js got back frm a status meet, n kiran walked staright upto me n gave me a serious look n said... 'do u know what happened in the status meeting today?' he never comes n shares those meeting minutes wid me, but this was like.. i had my headfones on, so i pulled them off, n turned around n gave him that.. " o ooo did they ask us to deliver it tomorrow???? or did we do smthin again" look... n then he smiled n said , they are very very happy with today;s demo and said that after last time;s demo they thought that we cant reach very far and that we may have postone th release to a very far date, they dint see solutions being taken into use untill far future, but it seems after aj ka demo they see it happen very near in future... n he (Kiran) ended by saying, congratulations, its urs n jawahar's hardwork... i replied wid a smile.. n usi time pe naidu was also there.. but no !! he dint walk up to me to say anything similar... see! dats the kinds fela he is !!
umm ok.. but he did say thank you to me n jawahar durin the demo fr workin well over the week.. blaaaaaaaaaaa
he stil is bad! n hez rite behind me rite now! i stilll care a damn! coz i dont like him for a million reasons :(

leaving fr d day, baba is gona b bak frm d farm today... so cant b late aj..adios..

i hate him!

i always always always did !! sometimes i had strong enuf reasons, sometimes i js cudnt help it and sometimes i cudnt find a reason not to hate him and so i always hated him! this time again!! i aheva reason! he doesnt have the minimumm ettiquets to be a manager!! ( ok may b m sayin this in the heat of the moment! but rite now! i really feel dat way ! )

i was 5 minutes late for the demo, agree d fault was mine, not htat i ditn plan the whole thing or anything, but ok i will take the blame for those 5 minutes! it was scheduled at two n iw as here at dot 2.5 and he dint call the client yet, obviously he cudnt without me ! I askd jawahar if the library is ready, he said NO!! now there!!!!! i told him about it at 11 o clok and he said he;d make it !, n iw as suppose to deploy it, my set up was IN PLACE i js had to mail him the url, and i did dat at 2.5 dot ! but that library was one definite thing they;d ask for a show ! and jaw had to do it ! he frgot or what i dont know... but it wasnt there and so we both started making it that time, it wud take 8 to 10 minutes, n naidu was watchin all this.. i knew we wudnt have the library in time so i immidiately did a rebuild with a different configuration and had another url set up... by then naidu called them up, and u know what he tells the client??? he told them that we need a little more time coz Tasneem is a bit late and is not back from lunch yet !! huhh!!! when i was rite rite in fron of his damn eyes and he saw me help d other guys wid d library!! what gud is dat?? how low can he get down? hez a manager n well this is how he manages a situation? at the cost of anotherz reputaiton?.. id otn care what !! but hell if i luk at it out f the ring!! that man!!! potrayed me as an irresponsible person who wasnt on time for a scheduled meeeting !! and we apparently started the demo at 2.30 and he mutes the call and tells me, say Hi and then start of ! HUH ! and the worst thing is that he doesnt think what he did is rong!

i aint gona let himm of so easily ! he has to answer me on that !

i hate him and now i know y !!

well but the end result of the demo was gud.. coz... well they liked it.. i mean the client was satisfied with the demo, and mentioned "good" quite a few times, and we also got n appreciation mail from the onsite co ordinator that we put up a gud show ... ( and this is the biggest surprise, coz me and jawahar.. the developers werent very ssatisfied with tht outcome) they were impressed by the images i designed.... the last moment work i did by staying back for n hour yesterdya... yea.. dat paid off... they luvd dat bit of work dat i did.. !

but i still hate himm !!

u know... the deewane pane ki baarish kindsss ;);)

Most of my team mates stayed back for work yesterday, not that THAT was my reason to stay back, i had my dumb work to finish n for a change it was movign well n cud hav been done for a gud show this morning (i;ve got jus one tiny bit pending n i'll fix dat after this.. ).. neways... i tuk the 7 shuttle, n was at mehdipatnam around... 7.45 or so... the bus stopd n i stepped down, n guess what??? i dont see my foot!!!!!!! it was totally immersed in dat ganda paani... wel okk.. i mean.. it was raining sooooooooooo heavily, u know the kinda rain they call " its raining cats n dogs" ( i dunno where i heard dat.. sounds dumb naii? ! ) khair... kyaaaaaaaa baaarishhh, kyaaaaa baarishh.. kyaaaa baarishhhhhh.. it wasss awesome :):):)... i js stepped down n within less than a minute my burqa was dripping, n ya the lower half was aneways soaked!!! n i cudnt stop smiling in that condition! :) i dnt remmber whn i bheegofied like dat.. it was :):):):):):):) yeaaa dat kind.... i have this vagueee memory of similar rains, wayyy bak in coll days, i guess it was first year, saf anways hates rain, but.. far wasnt sportive enuf either dat day.. n i remmber juvi n ash n af were there too.. hmmm aisi kuch kuch tha shayad, wo.. parking wale shed ke pas we stood for a while to let the rain sober down :D

khair.. kal i dint hava choice.. not dat i;d choose otherwise if i;d b given any :D:D:D:D, i walked to get n auto which i was sure iw udnt get! ( the damn auto strike!) .. blaaa.. khair.. mazaa aagya kal to bheegke, i had js one fear, agar koi manhole khula hota! :D:D:D:D:D:D hehehehe.. u get it dont ya ;);) so iw as bein jssss a lil careful... i finally got na uto.. jo thodi door chalke kharab hogya, so again i had no means to reach home, but dat fella was gud enuf to ask me to hold on fr a hwile n started his auto but bad mannn! he dint take me till my home! he stopped at the lane saying therz tooo much water in there ! ( waise han tha to sahi.. FIR BHI!!!!) iw alked home wahan se.. wid directions from my cousin who was peeping out of her home untill i reached mine safely.... cz i cud hardly see anything.. except lottttttttttttttttts of water :D

magar baaarish to khoob thi :) maza aagya, n u know i had the radio on dat time.. n guess what number was playin? haha! one of my favs! ... 'in dinon' from the movie metro :D, i cudnt stop smiling.. ofcourse at the risk of seeming foolish to the rest of the world who must have thought " deewane pane ki barish + no auto+ flooded roads + no way to reach home + alone + smiling wo bhi akele!" hehehe dumb nai...

chalo, have another demo scheduled at 2 ! ...

published on 30th, frgot yest :D

ye dilllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

i dunno whats wid d mood, not one bit of work m hatin it.. i mean work.. n luvin this.. i mean the music n the no no noooooo work at all thing, i've got so many msngr windows on , n they go blink blink blink :D

u know i;ve got this reaaaaalyyyyyyyyyyy dhinchakk kinda list playing!! the typical bollywood stuf wid lotsssssssssa beats n boom n ping n pong n ting n tong n wateva else, u know.. the beedi jalaile, vaari vaari, dus bahane, its rocking, khal bali, rubaruu... yeaaaaaaa those kinda tracks, n :D i like it for a change!! its on full vol, i put it aside so the others cud lisn to sm of it too but thn i put them on again... wnt it js fr myslef!

so its no work mood n hell wid d demo i dunno wats gona happn wid it.. i dnt realy care anymore either.. soo.. letss.. ccc noww :):)

geee its tauba tauba ufff ;) playin noww..

n m offffffffffffffffffffffff

:D

lol.. i got this checked at sm blog ratingsite i encountered at another blog

Am I or am I not..

Its such a wierd thought
what am i trying to sought
it lies there in front of me
but i wish to see it not

will someone wake me up
tell me its a dream
i promise not to sleep
if you just temme this is a dream

can this be true although i wish it were not
but it tells me, its over n i have lost
not that it was mine not that i tried
but i still feel the loss, a thought that seem to have died

therez agony on the other side
that anguish is perhaps more than my tide
can i wish for it to subside
with a hope that this wish He wouldnt override

He's havin fun at the cost of my day??

It feels like its yucky day season goin on !

a pathetic day start ! sheesh its like things are waiting at every corner to just topple down as soon as they see me pass byyy... mmmmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy



it wasnt oneeee bit of my fault! i got up on time, got dressed on time, had breakfast on time, n was ouuta home ON TIME!



ab kya hua malum?? damn damn damn!! i dunno watss wid these damn auto guyz! they dont lisn when u ask them to put d meter on, they js want to dump in as many people as possible n take them to a common destiantion! i hate them! nuthing effects them! even a very gud offer to take a customer ALONE to their desired destination does not lure them! i dunno wats gone into them!!!

sooooo the outcome??? huh! i missed my bus, it was 8 a;ready n i wasnt at my stop! how long wud the bus uncle wait! then i thought.. ok... ive missd it i know... i'll take the rtc bus ( man i hate itttt!! ) but it was n ok alternative! better dan the sevn seaters, i dunno m allergic to 'em cn neva eva eva eva travel in dat ! neways.. hold on.. my build is done!



bla it dint go well.. did it again... neva mindd...



yea so where was i ! ab dekho.. since i decided i'd take d bus... wo bus aana na??? the damnnn thing!!!!!! it dint turn up in a whole 40 minutes i was standing there!! can u imagine! a bus dat has a frequesncy of less than 15 minutes in that area, dint turn up in a whole 40 minutes!!! n that that thattttt had to happen the samn day i wudnt get n auto n hence miss my bus!! huhhh!! all thisss for nooooooooo damn fault o mineeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

neva mind yaa.. i aint in d mood to rethink the incident n put it here, whn i;ve done it almost.. but wateva... as i was typin all this, i saw things go worse.. guess what i did to add on to my frustration? huh... hit the main switch wid my leg ( by mistake as usual !! i dunno y they hav d power suplly down there! ) n then i had to restart n bla n bla n bla..

although i started ritin this in d mornin.. i havnt published it by..w ell... noon !? huh.. yea.... n my mood is kinda the same.. well ok a lil better.. i bought myself a fruit n nut to calm myself down.. n i;m gona have it all alone! not a cube to any one!!

will get bak to wrk now! n knowwww wat???? got a mil frm d manager wid instructions dat read ( in his silly english! ) dat therz too much chatting and browsing goin on in d team and dats pulling down th productivity level ! yea yea yea rrrrrritE! dats y i tell him to distribute work! bla ok.. neva mind.. dat wasnt for me... how i wish it was :(

but u know.. this day really gave me dat feeling of being mocked at!... by whom? Him ! it seemed like, Hez sittin up there, n playin around wid my day, js to tease me ! :-X u know.. like u irritate a baby n then wn hez almost cryin, u hug him to comfort him n u certainly feel gud bouti t... yeaaaa dats exacttttly what i feel He is doin wid me todayyy !!!

khairr khairrrrr... my chocs waiting....

ciao!!

wind n storm n tornadoes or anything more worse?

how difficult can it be to describe a heart storm that occurs in the middle of a brain storm? n to worsen it, we see that these two storms are contained in another humungous storrm... waht more? you know these lil storms inside the big one, are already tellin me... hey Tasneem , this is jus the beginning, we gotto go a long long way !!

huh!

i dunnooooooooooo

I logged into messenger, totally frustrated hating Ericsson (earlier i hated just Wipro, now i know Ericsson is the major culprit) muuuuuummmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,
i've got this terrible cold ( yea coz of the ice cream i ate from Zainab , Baqar and Rehan... "such chote chote kids n itna bada ice cream each" i thot, n so made some stupid sad faces to blackmail them n they all stood in a line taking turns to give me bites and licks of the ice cream :D) n ab dekhooooo, galaa is totallllyy off d mark ! i;ve got a reddd nose now! sniff n sneeze man!!! naidu mst have heard my sneezes sooo many times since morning, but i still know that manager of mineee... uurrghhhh neva mindd..

han to khairr.... d damn point wass... dat m here coz m sickkkk of work, aint it wierd, m sick of work everyday n i still cm back n do it ! huh !!! smthinz terribly rong wid me... but u know one gud thing... i finally figured out how to add that SL parameter and where to add it :) i;m soo relieved it !! but i still ahd sm questions n so mailed Soud, then also checked wid Kiran, so now have a better insight of it..

hmmm Anil was tellin me... your much better than us Tasneem, the important thing isss.. you have work ! n i gave him dat duh luk wid that dumb smiley n said, Anilz, peace is whats most important.. n i see my self heading towards n edge that lacks itt... ( how thoughtful? huh Applying thought!! yeaaa rrrrite! gimme a breakk ! )

mmmmmm my right shoulder is in pain, coz of the mouse effect i guess... sheesh i'll go nuts if i stay longer in this industry :(

Hey... u know what i;ve thot of.... i aneways have plans to learn Arabic, the Quran and Sunnah and the Fiqh... mmmmmm when else m i gonna start?

kya hai ki yaarooo.. beekaaaaaaaar ka dimaag kharab hai yaan! bohottt phirti meri aise situations me !

Butttt.. hey Eid is smthin i cn luk fwd to :) :)

okkk Gayatri wants me offfff the sys now!

so ciao !!

Melancholy

Today again i heard a cry
a bruised heart's moan
a heavy sad sigh....

There's wind and rain
and buds in pain
A smile that's faint
and beauty stained

A tear that rolled
down the cheek
just that one
could a million words speak

In the darkness of the nite
there was a plea for light
Alas! in vain
'coz none cared his plite..

Mansooooooo, these r fr u !

Aap se hai mohabbat aapse hi hai inkaar
Aap se hai gila bhi aapse hi hai takraar

Dil chaahe bhi milna dur rehna bhi chaahe
Hain baatein kuch kehna kuch sunna bhi chaahe

Hai kaisi ye kaifiyath kuch samajhna na chaahe
Jo dil mein hain baatein zubaan par laana na chaahe

Suna hai isi ko kehte hain mohabbat
Hai kaisi ye ulfat ke iqraar karna na chaahe

_________________________________________________

Falak pe chand taaron ki baaraat saji hai
Chehre pe unke aisi hi kuch muskaan saji hai

Naa jaane kya sukoon hai unke intezaar me
Mit si jaati hai har thakaan unke deedaar se

Naayaab si lagti hai zindagi unke saath se
Aabaad hai hamari dunya unki ek haan se

Ummmmmm

OkKkKkKk!!!
i havent really gone much ahead from where i was last time u know... its been such a crawling journey n NO i dnt really like it that much.... but well.. i remmber saying similar stuff when i was redesigning the eniter toolbar of ALEX and smhow, i was through it.. n mmmmmm ok ok ... it ended well n dats all i want this time too...

khair, kuch hua, i hope aur kuch hojayee...
Eidddddddd :) n u know wat? i asked my manager fr leaves( i dnt belive i ws asking for something that was already mine!!!! huh dat aint Tasneem!!! ) neways... n like usual he gave me his billability crap and said, Tasneem three days is just not possbile, i told him of the Soultion's status ( well atleast now he has n idea dat m havein a bad time! but hell he still emphasizes on just one damn thing n dats it shud b done on time! as ifff.. ahhh nevaa minnddd) yea so khair he said no, but i still walked out sayin myself, i aint cmin fr three days n wateva he says i'll say ya i;ll try to b bak soon but i aneways m gona take three days o my leave! ab wo kaunse din lena hai, wo i gotto plann....

hmmm sholapur jaare mum baba log to get bhabi and the babyyyyy :):) Omar, and heyy! by the time i reached home yesterda, bhabi( d other one) and Fouad( yea dats his name;s spellin n i thot it was Fawad) was already home.. and i tell ya MashAllah, hez such a :):):):):D:D:D:D:D:):):):).. okk.. u get d point dont ya ;)

khair... to apart frm dat.. well ya i wana join mum n dad n fam to sholapur.. ir eally reallyy realllyyy need a change and a breakk!!

mmmm chalo dats bout it... n hey manso dear.. this post is a dedication to u :), not dat i hav any gudy content worth of dedication, but since u told me u kept chkin n dint find updates :) thanxx fr keepin trak of me yaa :).. makes me feel gud dat ur bothered :)

Adioss!!

(: Another babyyyy :)

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnddddddddddddddddddddddddddd we'r gona calll himmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Fawad
:)

kitneeee din hogayee naaaaa !!!

u knoww what??? its beennn.. hooooooooooooooooooooooo soooooooooooo long since i posted ! dont ask me wats goin on, but therz like.. so much happening and lots goin on, n well smtimes it feels like.. nah it aint much for a mention n smtimes i go like.. OH MY GOD!! m i gona remmber dat this happnd or do i need to blog it ;)
newayss... hav loads f work to do, n its in pathetic condition! n i really mean pathetic!!! i dunno whats gona wid Solutions! m heading NOWHERE wid it, n like alwayss.. i feel.. naidu cares a damn, so now again, for a whole week i gues i;ve had almost a similar attittude, but noww its really pissing me off, quality god damn!! i dont know y i;m such a .. urrrrgghhhh neva mind!!

yesterday, or may be hmmm two days since yesterday were like sooo .. sooo... i dunno what, i was at my all time low, for.. well GOd knows reasons.. n man was it bad, i screwed up many things... but then yesterday evening.. :) it was nice, i felt so much better, dont ask me y, i aint tellin ya! :D ;) :D
but ya, those bad bad bad n sad sad sad n low low low times, were ...ummm.. not gud ! n it was perhaps also the first time when my bestest buddies were also feelin similar lows ( this was like such a hysterical coincidence). i got a mail from asma askin me to call.. when i did, she heard my terrible 'hello' n went like, whats with you, i said kuch nai u say.. n looooooo... first time i guess, i cudnt really comfort her as well as i alwayss do. We spoke for about 40 minutes or so... then another 20 minutes later, i get a call from Fariya, she asks me to call back... i called.. n ahhhh what a sad tone i hear from the other end, i went like.. whats wid d day aj !! ... she was missing her father.. but again, i dint comfort her as well as i always do, so she was kinda worried coz it was the usual, she;d probably hang up pnly when se was satisfied n feeling better after talkin to me, but dat day.,,, smthin was kinda missin so... well nxt day she called up again to ask me what went rong, n nah i dint have n answer, we realised dat it was such a stupid talk we had that lasted bout n hour, n man it must have sounded sooooooo depressing, coz fr d first time, both of us.. were feeling not so gud (its neva like dat, its usually one of us or none of us ).

n hey, yesterday morning was such a wierdoo too, i got up a lil late n missd my bus, tuk d rtc one, n then got stuck in traffic at toli chowki (it was soooooooo bad kal ! coz f n accident f a sweeper who died on the spot after being hit by the driver of the DPS school bus ) khair i finally reached work at 10.30!!

khair chalo yaro, thoda kaam karlinge... horaich nai merse :(

yallaaaaaa m off now!
Adioss!!!
wooooooooooooooooooo i frgot to mention, we have a new member in our family now, Sajid bhia wants to call him Omar, baba had said Osman, abhi tak to we r calling him OSman, but chalo if bhia insists, we'll call him Omar. n ya, today inshAllah, we are gona have one more lil one joining our family :) I dunno what Sadeq bhia wants to call him, but i luv this name Bilal (if its a boy ! ) n i realllyyyy wanted to call someone Alisha (its such a beautiful name, it means protected by Allah) so i hope its a girl :D:D, but m not sure if baba wud agree to dat :(

khairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr chalo bye!

* ting ting ti ting *

geee... i dinno i;d b able to do dat so soon :D:D
thank god fr d damn reusability concept we have!! n my silly eyes dat cudnt see dat dumb funciton lying ind at corner! n i was tryin to rewrite it n i messed up wid memory allocation n mannn were there blunders!! i hate handling those memory blocks, u got to free them u gotto clean them u got to b careful with them.. n i dont like being careful while handling stuff!! eee!

nonetheless.. alls well dat ends well.. n my saga of retrieving the refernce file ended pretty well... n yippy m glad, now i cn move ahead n mess with d url n build it better to serve my purpose:D:D:D

n offffffffffff fr namaz!

(: Maassalaama!! :)

jus another, among the plenty...

Havent been here since quite smtime i guess.... not really sure wats keepin me off it but.. umm well... hmmmmmm.... m in a dark cubicle with just my monitor's lite flashing on my face... nahh i aint wrkin in the nite.. its morning 8.48am and i js dint put d lites on after cmin in... dint feel like it.. n the other lady who alked along wid me dint feel like it either.. so its.. well.. dark !... n sinct it aint sunny n since it cloudy n since the clouds are grey n since it seems like its gona rain cats n dogs ( nah not literally! hehe imagine! wat a scenee!! :D:D) well so.. coz of all those "since's" the huge window dat i face isnt serving d purpose of enlightning my space either... huh! i tend to put in any damn crap that moves in my mind !well ok.. it aint crap han! blaaaaaaaaaaa

m alll into cpi fr solutionss.. soud is movin to finland this sat, so m wrkin on it alone, n i have no idea how its gona turn out.... jawahar wud be joinin me soon , naidu said dat to me yesterday. Atleast he was gud enuf to inform me that the omnidaemon requirement in thru wid although i was wonderign howcm i aint in the loop f those mail convo;s, neva mind.. may b it wud anyway divert my attention n dats one thing i can not afford to do with cpi fr solutions in my hands... khair.. Ramadan movin well.. :) m havin a nice time, not compromising( or may b i shud say not bein lazy) with my obligatory and my extra prayers n my recitals n etc. n etc. Me safa n Rahmath wait in ofice fr iftar n get home by the 7.15 shuttle, ya i reach home by 8.15 or so.. but.. umm its ok.. since i dint like d idea of bein alone in my bus durin iftar time.. so its ok.. n as long as baba isnt here, i wont have probs, ya whn hez back he aitn gona allow me i guess..

ohhh!!! Lites on... ok.. meaning Naiduz here... hmmmmmm... khair chalo.. i dnt have much to put on.. i got to get back to solutions.. m trying to extract that refrnce file frm d library buttttt. hmmm.. lets c.. i hope i do dat aj, it;ll b n imp steo ahead.

off for d day!
Adioss!!

howz this monday sooo beautifull??!!??

Its sucha beautiful rainy morning.. :) although last nite i was a lil umm dunno watt... d morning shooted off so welll.. i dunno why.. but it smhow did.. whn things were falling apart suddenly i saw all of them fly back in placce jssssss at d rite time :):)
i frgot smthin home so ran bak to get it.. n so was late, dint get n auto on time, n when i did.. ir elised i dint have enuf chnage to give him n nither did he.. but d guy turned out to b n old fella whod take baji to her clinic earlier, so he tuk wateva i gave him :) .. n js then i missd d bus n this unlce standing htere told me.. ur bus has gone already.. n iw ent .. damnnnn.. bt again.. jsssss thn i saw another bus cmin my way n stoped fr me :):)
hmmmm .. i think i like it :):).. n.. mmm well.. m smilin :):):D:D:):)

nah cant sum it up here..
adioss!!

A quick morning meet !

I'm just back after a discussion with Naidu, this was kinda a part of the appraisal cycle, so he must "discuss" before he closes my appraisal, n this was for it... waise its his bday aj, n i dint wana wish him, coz i always thought .. umm n i still think i do.. dat he dznt care, he neva wished any of the team mmbers xcept sesi on their bday... so i hd thot i wudn. waise to team se wishes jaate hi.. but khair,, i know its unlike Tasneem, but.. .. ahh neva mind... he came to my desk ( i dunno ajkal he walks up to me quite often i feel ! eeks! ) n i turned n surprisingly "Happy Birthday" nikalgaya mere moo se... wo bhi with a smile... khair he he gave a pleasant thank you (surprisingly !! ) n then said ur appraisal is still pending we'll close it? ( he meant... without d discussion) n i was like... ya sure we can close it, but i have sm questions, n he lukd at me.. n he said ya we'll talk.. n he still stood there!1 ( shudnt he be d one to offer to talk? n then we proceed?! duh !) neways, i said.. so can we talk now? then he gave me dat luk n said ya sure , n he tuk me he cabin n there he started offf....

I started off by askin a general... what is expected out of me.. he gave me a surprising " u are doing gud Tasneem.. when compared to others ur good i can say, but yes since u have just started therez a lot u have to learn..." . Then he said this.. out of all our team members, i think u wud b the only one i wud suggest for the technical stream ( dat did give me ahigh , although i wasnt very sure what xaclt he meant by technical stream, as he differentiated it frm d project stream) on dat he elaborated, u have gud grasping power so u can learn well and go ahead. ( isnt all this sooooooo much cliche'd na?) khair... it went on.... but smhow.. ( may b cz of d general dislike i have towards him, na not a general dislike, sab usi ki karni ka phal hai ! ) i dnt realy have a gud impression bout him ( yea u read dat sentence rite, i am tlaking bout his impression on me and not the vice versa! ) but hten he was being gud to me... he was strongly recommending .NET n hez gona send me for a training too... hmmm ... but thn i kinda was averse towards it, so i told him dat.. well i know it might sound kiddish but i havent heard much gud bot this technology n growth in it, although its smthing dats really flourishing now, n he said well dats a debatable topic, but since ur going to learn the basics, i strongly recommenc you do dat he said.
then another thing he seemd keen on tellin me is dat.. since he thought i was gud at learning he wanted me to get into the architectural side, n not stall my growth. but ya one thing when he said he dint want me to get into the project stream ( not very sure but he used wrds like managing ppl etc. .. n HEY I LIKE DAT!!!) n dats y he "strongly recommended" me for technical stream ( I FIND DAT BORING!!! ).

well as he went on with all dat, i had js one hting in mind, i need two hrs a week for my arabic classes at the university!! n bang i opened my mouth for it. I said this isnt anything technical, u can call it a hobby that i always wanted to pursue. So i glittered it with sayin i always had interest in learning languages ( utnaaaa scene nai hai ;) ) n so i enrolled for this course with the Osmania University for a diploma in Modern Arabic n dat i want to leave at 4 at any one day a week so i can reach th university and attend the classes there. n i told him i had this long term goal of doing my MA in arabic ( ya dis is true, coz i always wanted to learn Arabic as a language, since i already knew how to read n write it, i wanted to learn to understand it if i;d read it.) n at first he shooted to me the billability crap.. n dat i have to show hours being put in so i can bill the client but if everyone takes leaves how cn i show them bla ye bla wo, thn i went on n said i just want two hours a week, coz i m totally tied up, if i just attend one class a week, i;ll smhow manage n do with this diploma xams ( its SDMA; senior diploma in Modern Arabic n dat'll make me eligible for MA in arabic later) so he said ya sure if dats d case, just two hours i think its fine! n yippy! i thoutgh chalta atleast itni baat to maana meri. ( i dunno he is gud to me [hez even given me dat award!!] but.. i still.. ahh dnt like him very much for his earlier nuisances)

hmm so dats wt d discussion was all about.. now o gotto get goin again wid cpi for solutions. I was trying to make my resume the other day, n man did i have a tough time on it!! i sure m gona explore into other things, but.. hmmmm letssss cc noww..

chalo m off here.. may b wil b bak.. but untill then.... its..

bye bye frm Me!! :)

Rewards and Recognition

Status meetings are boring to the core ! all one would wana to is.. yawnnnnnnnn..

n okie dokie day, a fruitful one though, something i wasn longing to fall in place, finally fell in its place!! n i was informed i;d get an appreciation token, n award that they call the FIMC- Feather In My Cap. well ok dat gave me a lil high, but nah it aint much more than a certificate ( NO, it aboslutely does;nt imply a hike! ) but still, glad to have got it, since it adds on to dat record i;ve been carrying since college n school, here goes, my first ever performance appreciation at Wipro Technologies. :) .. hmm dat sounds nice now. :)

Objective :On-the-Spot recognition important to the project / project team (spontaneous boss-to-subordinate) Eligibilty : Anyone who has done great short-term work.
Criteria : Impact has to be significant and project / account related.
Demonstrates skills such as problem solving, initative, technical competence, implementation of ideas, conception and institutionalisation of project best practices, etc

adioss!! weekend ahead ;)

A Moan..

Was the fault all mine
All I did was did not lie
Still I did see a tear shine
All I did was refuse to fly

Just a word of dislike
Another to avoid my heart strike
Then how did it hit so hard
Why, why does it feel so sad?

It can’t b that I’m so bad
Just a greeting can’t make one mad
How can my presence be so disliked
That one might wish to turn blind

Wonders are not what i expect
Reality has always been my percept
Then y does it seem to fall like this
There is something I know that is amiss

sOoOoOo much

Ok now.. another wierd thing.. but before that... i'd like to vent out yesterday;s nuisance! i dunnoo yyyyyyyyy i get soo damn frustu (dats a cute nick fr frustrated, a frnd f mine uses it :D) n sick n sad n bad n angry by the fact dat once in a blue moon i;d have to wait for n hour n do a lil more work ! now as m stil ritin this. m hating d fact dat i have to, or i;d say "had to" instead.! y do they have to arrange meetings at the time whn they kknow m gona leaVE!!! n to add to dat!!! they decide in it, that they;d want a binary to test just then since it wud take just a lil time ( yea riteee!!!!) n smhow i guess it all shows on my face, n so my manager luvs to walk up to me to say, Tasneem if u need any help hez there (pointin at another guy whoz more than used to staying back later than 8 coz he doesnt have to get bak to wat is called home!!) n then that fela cmz n asks Tasneem do u need help, i js luk at him n say. no just a lil i think i'll manage, n m sure he cn read all my extra grins in dat ! n at the rite time! i dunno how! i get this frndz call n he knowz well dat m pissd off coz i have to stay bak n hour, n i politely ask if i cn talk another time ! n he gets it! .. n all dat to pile up on my frustu thing... neywas.. so i wrap it up n head to my shuttle at 7 n reach home... oh no.. not home yet! i hire n auto n there a new idiotic saga with a autowala whoz a crook !
i said Asifnagar PS ke paas chalna hai, he asked ye jo peeche hai? I said yes ( n iwas wondeirng peeche???? huh, was at mehdipatnam n iw as askin fr the asifnagar p.s.. now how;d dat cm peeche? huh! )
neways, he then said... theek hai.. Rs. 20, i thot damn.. its the auto guyz day, ditn negotiate on dat since iw as already irritated by the frust day i had.. so js hopped in .. n there.. he brot me rite in frnt of d P.S n stopped it there! i asked him to take left, damn the guy refused! huh! iw as being polite, n he said yahan aaye tak 30 hojata! silly dumbo! he thought he cud get away with that! i had to say smthin now.. i told him i cm this way EVERYDAY! he still wudnt lisn, i said i wont pay him i get down here, he said he wudnt let me then ! i said fine!! take me back to where we started.. you put ur damn meter on n then v'll take d same damn route, n if its lesser than 20, i aint gona pay u a penny.. n if its more than 25 like u claim, i'll pay u double d amount! ... n guess wat.. dat crook fell for it! he turned d auto ( i cudnt believe he did it! ) n he tuk me well quite ahead, n then he realised.. ab ye waapas jaane ke paise kaun dete,,, although i wanted to burst out laughin.. i was still angry .. n i dint like dat guy oneeeeeeeeeee bit ! but then i insisted he turn the auto dat very minute n he take me home riteeee to my home! n not jst d ps. n i told him he shud now his basic duties as n auto guy ( well i dint use dat word duty thankfully, its ounds silly as i write it though) but he stil wdunt lisn, smhow this time it slippd off my mind, i cud have jst asked him to take me into the police station instead n then he wudnt utter a word n may be take me straight home!
neways after all dat he tuk me home! n i gave him js what i said i wud n went inside.

pheww.. n then i realised i;ve been behaving like a totally frustrated freak whoz got NO life, then i tried to calm myself down,, rushed downstairs n was much better wid my family around. I had to refuse to the Mc donaldps treat i promised my sisterz cz i got late n was home by 8 instead of my usual 7. :( neways, may b today... hmm lets c

ya so i fianlly decided this mornin dat i am gona behave myself n be a btter Tasneem n dat a frustrated Tasneem is realy realy realy bad n dat, this wasnt d real me until last year, so y now.. to aj se.. hum sudhar gaye :)
ok now the next wierd thing...
how strange is this now???
Hez gona celebrate her birthday , hez got cake ordered specially for the occasion, with certain particulars bout th flavour! N has ordered it bout a month in advance, n is gona have it on that day, get it to HIS home n cut it n eat it HIMSELF n she aint gona know! Wat do u call dat now?!!! Huhhhh ! paagal logon ki dunya nai bolte isku????

okk.. m off it now... n yea m anyway gona get half or atleast one fourth of dat cake ( it was described as a whole choclate cake .. n man imran gave me too many yummy details of it.. ) all i got to do .. is wait. :)

n ya.. i still havent done anything bout dat Arabic course i supposedly joined.. I gotto go meet up the HOD n have a plan set. I was so eager on it, now i cant loose it just like dat! .. mmmmm.. lets ccccc noww....

blaa janedo... m still waiting fr a call or mail response so i cn get wrkinnnn, i dont like moving on directionless! nahh not when its software!!!! but ya, my life;s kinda like dat nai?
hey Far ka missd call.. wil cal her now.. so .. signingg offfffff

Maassalaama!

* silly nothings brighten ur day smtimes *

:D well i've done this really dumb thing abhi kuch time pehle... but.. umm well.. :D it was important fr me dat time :D
i cudnt finish my lunch.. it was too much n i was already full.. n i asked safa to help, n she did untill there was just one more spoon left, but after dat she refused, n i stil cudnt take dat one last bite, n suddenly.. :D keets appeared :D n i kinda, well blackmailed/forced/tortured here to eat it :) n she did after a whole 10 minutes of behez n no n i had to hold her hand so she wudnt get away, fr sooo long! i offered her a choclate fijnally n she still dint agree, n then i maskafied a lil more n bingo ! she had it ! :) . n then i bought her a choclate n now i have a very silly but sweet memory to reminisce later :)

An year ahead...

Some of 'Me' is really happy, some of 'Me' is astonished and surprised and most of 'Me' is still wondering.. " ek pooora saaal hogaya??? "
Wooooo, how on earth did i do that??? :)

yup its been a whole year in Wipro Technologies today. I stepped into the Madhapur office, with a thumping heart and nervous mind, thinking howzit all gona be from today. When i was about to leave home on this very day, as i stepped ouuta the gate, Baba called from behind and said, from today your walking out to earn your bread, thank the Lord and recite ayat al kursi for a special purpose before ou leave every day. That gave me goose bumps then !! I followed dat( frgot smtimes too , but wud remmber it most of d times :D). n today i realise, its been a whole year.
I;ve had my share of ups n downs, i can;t forget the times i lied in mummaz lap with a tear or two rolling down n telling her, i dont wanna go tomorro mummy, it sure was kiddish, but i dint like the "hectic" work i;d say. There were times i cribbed for having to stay late once or twice, i so hated it ! but i'd console myself sayin atleast i dont have to do it everyday like sm of my other friends. There have been times i;ve luvd the breeze here, the beautiful rainbows i;ve got to see, my silly frineds around, Safa;s company for lunch n smtimes breakfast too. Our cribbin durin morning cofee, my non stop nonsense with my "namaaz ki toli". Its wierd i was liked bby so many. They all were there, n i;ve seen happy times here too. i used to say. the best part f cmin to work is to know dat you gotto get back home. :) although dat feelin aint as strong as earlier now, but i still cherish those thoughts those walks those talks those musings.

Well Wipro taught me how to make cocktail :D Wipro showed me quite a few rainbows. Wipro gave me my first ever cubicle. Wipro gave me this tag i smhow feel proud to wear. Wipro gave me my first ever feeling of being a Software engineer. :) So what if its shown me a Naidu, n sm late days at work, it also showed me a well lil better naidu too :) I know what it is to be wid "collegues", it was all so different pehle. It so very different now :)
I aint a kid anymore, i aint a fresher anymore, i aint just out of college anymore, but i cant promise that there aint gona be a day i'll tell mumma.. i dont wana go like i used to for col or scool :) I gotto know all the work politics, all the gossips dat go around. i gotto know that one must not let out if they are goin onsite even if its project related .. to your OWN TEAM MATES, untill the d day when u meet them to say gud bye!! u neednt even say if ur leaving the organization et al. I learnt that it its ok to say no at times, i learnt its very necessary to say NO at times. I think m a lil more patient now. I learnt not to be super duper scared of deadlines to the extent dat u mess things up at home.

I met sm really gud ppl here, i now have a very nice gang that we cal the "namaz ki toli" :) I have Safaa still with me ( yea inspite my chutter butter n her silent nature, we;ve got along n shez talkin too :) ) have n nice team, have bhagya n gayatri to share work nuisances :) n a very gud pal who'd always be there. n keets n manso n shubh n anils n all of ;em.
hey its been gud ! :)
although i did remmber yesterday dat today is n important day, i realise its well speciall too, inspite the odds, the bads, the sads, this years has been.. well...... bright :) n i still dont believe it.. ic an write Experiance : 1 year (atleast!! ) in my resume now :D

n how can i forget to mention!! i;ve been a better blogger after cmin here :)

Adios!!

Together and Apart

It did not matter anymore
How much ever things were bitter or sour

There was pain for one and another remorse
And in it were few hearts demerse

And talks that led to mere dissension
That later they would not want to mention

They weren’t to move to being silentious
But it does seem that they’d now be cautious

A thought or two before they speak
But many more in their mind if you peak

There somehow still is something that binds
Something that they know still it hides

If it’s like this then it may remain
But for longer still they will abstain.

A movin mind amidst movin clouds...

I am in one of those not so often moods aj... m feeling the not so high spirit kinda thing... i js have this one damn thing stuck up for R10 n i dont know what m to do wid it. They committed for 3rd of sep, but hey they dint ask me before it,, umm wel ya they did mention it earlier though. I gues d prob was dat we thought we fixed it n dint send it onsite to test, n then got engrossed in fixing smthing dat was not a bug, n then whn i finaly released it, they say it aint fixed yet! , duh n soud had dn sm code changes fr it earlier n i dotn knw wat its bout n now i cnt wait til the 10th til hez back so i got to do smthin of it. but hell i dnt know d wierd way those parameters function. whats what is n important thing to know u see...

ahh neva mind.. i just hope hope hope and so much wish wish wish, that by day end its through, not matter how!

adios!

aiwai...

i realised i neva began my post wid "As salam alaikum". how wierd is dat now!!!! huh more than what it seems like!!
but may b a lil less wierd than wat wipro has in mind for blogger... i dunno y its in such a confused state of mind :D, kabhi blogger ka home page is blockd so i cant post.. kabhi the blogspot pages blokd so i cant view, kabhi dono bloked! n aj dekho.. dono unblocked :D, n this is the best i like it :)

I am not sure how i can describe the ongoing phase of my life ( huh yea rrrite! gimme a break lady!!! :P:P) . Day before yesterday i prayed that the LI parameter thing be js fixed or smthin js happn to it, coz v;we been meddling wid it since a week now n ther was no fruitful result... n finally friday evening in a meeting we decide that we must come up wid n estimate coz we already have delayed R10 ( i dnt remmber v even had a date for it !! ) Anewyas, Naidu said Alex was in danger! n rough estimates wudnt do, we had to come up wid precise stuff, n cmon we cudnt commit when we were in the middle of... nowhere!!! I was supposed to prepare n analysis report n send it d next morning, based on which we were to cm wid n estimate, naidu noneless gave the date 3rd september, n we were hoping we'd fix it until then. And then the next morning was suddenly so beautiful and nice it showed me a mail that read .. the supposed "bug" is not a bug n dat we r trying to fix sometihng thats not required! finally.. wat a relief.. n i was jus gona build it n send release it... butttt.. again.. we remmber another damn problem!! n i was fidgetting wid it since yesterday :( n today morning to my suprise i fixed it pretty well unknowingly, when all i thought was dat iw as addressing the rong issue n dat my solution wud neva work.. but it all did :D. Soud was suppose to be on leave aaj se, but he turned up too, so iw as a lil more happy n thought we cud js release it n wash our hands off R10!! then i asked him to test it... but again.. as i did sm random testing.. the damn pdf files started having problems in download... wo bhi a javascript error! then i played wid it again thinking nah this aint gona help, but i'l js try n again surprisingly it did the trick.. n now i js build it... i hope soud tests it i cn give a final build.. i realy wana finish it aj.

Baba dint want me to go to wrk aj, he apparently felt i was sick n so shud take a leave, although i was dying to take one, i cudnt cz i knew soud is on leave so fr d next ten days i cnt even think of leave, coz i;d be responsible fr all d mail communications n anythin else of alex ! He said he;d talk to Naidu, n was very adamant, i managed to calm him down n rushed outta home..
n now dat i;ve finishd this, i hope i cn wrap it up early n may b leave early atleassttt.. hmm lets c noww...

I also feel m off blogging for quite smtime, there are so many things n ppl bout which/whom i havent logged anything.. well not sure bout everything but.. umm ya. there sure is smthing amiss.. but its ok i guess.. i;ll catch up may b.... perhaps the on n off that Wipro was playing wid blogger had n impact on my blogging interests n hence the variation in interest levels.

well okk dats all fr now.. n may b fr d day ( mark my 'may b' :D )

Massalaama !

My mind says : ? ? ?

Back after a long time again... have had a busy weekend... a not so gud one but one that passed off well... n a very busy week start too... although i;ve got quite a few updates i feel a wierd sense of hesitation after reading a mail from n ex collegue.

A guy i worked with closely, dropped in a mail n all i could make out from it... was that he was in a pathetically chaotic state of mind. What makes me feel devastated is having known a person so closely n then getting to know something like this. I am scared. I realize i'm vulnerable to such things that my heart neva wants to believe that they even exist. A state of mind that is reluctant to accept that, no.. such things dont happen. They are for the movies n the "non realistic " world. But such things /people just seem to get me a step closer to.... well may b reality, but i still feel.. no this cant happen. It isnt all dat bad a world. I dont know whats with dat guy. I just hope hez alrite soon. I cant imagine to have known a person n worked with him (very closely) n then get to know he thinks of suicide? n dat hez being punished by the government n family and friends and everyone around, n even thinks he could be n object of "use" maybe by the R n D..... no way! aisa nai hota.. it cant be that way. it shudnt be that way.

neva mind.. i dont see myself in the rite frame of mind either. Somethingz rong, its so wierd. I think i am scared.

I dont know.. is it that i tend to live in a lovey dovey world that has only good things n so tend to ignore everything else around? thats not correct either, i cant turn blind to the adversities. but i dont know.. i cant believe of anything rong or bad happening to me or sm1 i love or care for or some1 ii;ve known just enuf....

khair... i got confirmed... Wipro wished me a successfull career "with them" lets c now..

i think dats bout it !

With Her...

All she wanted was a little time of mine
I couldn’t think of how, that could be so divine

It wasn't that I couldn’t, but somehow I knew I wouldn’t
May be just a thought, perhaps I couldn’t take lament

I knew she liked it when I was around
But I still dint find out what left her spell bound

It was just talks that we would share
Not fantasies or dreams, no I wouldn’t dare

A meet or two was all we had
Then how could my absence make her so sad

And then we took a journey, of those kinds that's memorable
A journey perhaps which, I can not call impeccable

Again it was nothing, just gossip and some smiles
But yes, I wouldn’t deny I didn't mind the miles...

Tasneem wz here @ 11:21 PM it messed up the time too

Adieu..

Time's just moving, days passed by
There was so much to say and so much to try
I didnt realize, i dint see it fly
All i know now .. its time to say gud bye

It is'nt that i'm complaining
I know you were too engrossed
There were other things that were important
Nothing that could be paused

Its just that there's a gap
I think there's something missing
There's so much more to all this
But i also know its nothing

The time i knew you i'll always cherish
The fact dat your presence was always a joy
I wish for you happiness that'll never perish
Thats what voices my heart dats a little coy.

dat site had emoticons like dat f hotmail .. 6 Aug

MON
6AUG
Nokia6300, juviz weddin, n computers in "pinjraz" :D
Tasneem wz here @ 11:05 PM
Hey!! back after long again eh?!@!... i was sooo tied up i tell ya.. yesterday was like.. ahhh.. engorssseedd totally.. ni gues i got very tired by d end of d day.. mmm.. hey know watt? i bought a new mobile its a Nokia 6300 n i like it.. although i was diein for n E65, i stopped htinkin of it js a day before i actually was gona by d mobile.. coz i found out dat it dint hav FM radio... neways... i wasnt really for the 6300 coz i thought it looked boring.. but now dat i have it n m usin it.. i realise i failed to c the lustre it possessess ... so m like.. umm well yea.. njoyin it all d wayy

hmm work frotn.. like i said.. yesterday was.. woo weee waaa very busy.. i was goin in n outta d server room, hey.. i got access to d server pehli baar... i mean.. i likd d feel of seeing systems "band in pinjraz" lol.. dat means systems in cages ... geee. hehehe.. but man was it cold in there!! n i cudnt evn put my music on d other day u know! neways...

i really dont know where n how i gotto join these threads of my life to put it together n have 'em all in one place... ahhh.. hey wats wid d headfones.. they gimme a wierddd sound.. n annoying one ratheR! ahh..

i was at ammaz place yest.. went home pehle.. then wahan se amma ke pas.. n since iw as helllllllll tired!! i cudnt resist sleeping.. but thn dat dumbo Hamed, fell off his bike.. n came home all bleeding.. n i got up lisnin to his shouts.. n then it was 12.30 already.. n abhi kitneeeeeeee ki pooriyan baaqi the!! n i dint bel even one!! first time hua ye! but i cudnt help it... 8.30 se leke 11.30 tak wait kari mein... chaachiyon ku khaane khilaane se fursat ich nai thi!! so i waited n waited n waited untill i cudnt take it anymore.. n hey.. as i was waiting.. gues wat i was lisnin to.. not really sure.. magar old zamaane ke gaane.. nai gaane nai the.. u kno d mushaaira kind.. not very sure but i think i heard sm1 say it was sm munni begumz ghazals.. n itneeeee high class the ki meku ek bhi samjh me nai aay a:D hehe.. d only one i undstood was this.. n i happen to remmber it.. it goes like this....
Do hi pal kathin guzre zindagi ke
do hi pal kahtin guzre zindagi ke
ek tere aane se pehle
ek tere jaane ke badd... ( cute icon naiii)
n iwas sittin alone on d takhat in the aangan, under d tree n zabardast hawa chalri thi.. n i finally i heard this n undstood it n i burst out laughin n chachi was inside n she saw me laughin wo bhi alone.. n she wondered y, so i clarified before her brain cells cud think any further, dat i was tryin to undstand wat this lady hz been singin since so long.. n this is d first n d only one i undstood so far.. n so she laughed wid me too :) hehe..

khair.. chalra yaa.. life;s on.. n its movin.. m glad its movin , n m not so sad bout where its headign coz i ditn really set a direction fr it... n i know it osunds super lazy! or may b i;d say it sounds so much like Tasneem :D

n i think m gona move home early aj.. coz i goto go to ammaz place.. n fir shaam me juvi ke pas bhi jana haii.. heyyyyyy.. parson.. dats on suday.. yaani keeeeeee 5th August was Juvi ki shaadi.. n it was really gud to see her as a bride

mmmm chalo ya.. wil move out frm here.. or may b i'll put in those lil notepad scribbles i had done whn i missed blogger n dint hit sampa yet..

Adios!!!

!st Aug

July 31, 2007
TUE
31JUL
(: Wipro'z shown me quite a few Rainbows :)
Tasneem wz here @ 8:54 AM
I've got quite a few reasons to be happy :). Yesterday was the first ever time that i did not feel sad/ angry/ frustrated while leaving office late. Infact it all seemed so beautiful ny nice at dat time.. i felt this wierd sense of satisfaction, a very peaceful heart and a content Tasneem returning home late from work.

That NRJ problem i was talkin of yesterday was solved finally. n surprisingly i had a major contribution to it. Kannan was really happy.. it seemd like dat from his mails. I did put in effort even during the Omnidaemon problem time.. but ya i saw Soud ( dats short for Soumendra, most of 'em call him dat here) work really hard on dat, so i dint really want to take all d credit, but was glad i put in just enuf and was always there when he needed me. n this time for the NRJ thing.. i actually dint no it was all dat major a problem.. its just dat after v( me n soud) solved it v realisd dat the oniste guyz r more than happy n they went like "Great Great Great guys. Great job done!!" n i could read all the excitement in that. It was n 8 month old problem it seems n now Ericsson benefits a lot from what we've done to solve it.. well knowing all that.. it jus gave me a high.. n i thought.. well ok.. i cn do really gud things at times too . n the most surprising hting was when in the meeting with Kannan, Naidu mentioned, that he would nominate me n him for the FIMC ( thats some wipro internal award, not really sure of what exactly but it stands for Feather In My Cap) so that made me feel gud n surprised rather, n dats whn i felt.. yo.. i really did smthin nice :)

It rained or quite smtime yesterday... n there was this beautifulll almost full rainbow... have a luk at d besto ne so far..


mmm Safa's call .. wil get bak here after cofee.. shez waitin fr me..

bbbbbbbbaccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk !!
lol ok.. u see d excitment here too haan.. lol..

aneways.. so d point was dat i was more than surprrised when NAidu mentioned dat, coz i always thought n well.. still do.. that i aint in his gud books, n i never wanted to do anything extra to get into his gud buks, no maskafying et al... so i'd do my work n just dat... n i told ya even earlier there was a lil tiff wid him wn he wanted me to get back to wrk aftr 6 wn iw as actually moving homewards, n i had refused.. n also i thought in dat meeting wid Bala whn i mentioned bout d appreciation bit, he must have taken it personally.. but wid all this also.. he like .. umm ok.. behaved like a manager should.. so m glad n well m also feelin js a lil bad bout... sayin all d bads bout it.. but hey they were in context wid a situation yaa.. n i dont regret sayin it.. but.. umm ok janedooo..

khair.. ya so yesterday i could see the rainbow on my way back from Asar, n whn i got bak i had this quick meetign wid Kannan, so i head strait to naiduz cube n there we had a talk to stabilize things, n we zeroed in on releasing Alex R9/3 ( i dint realise we wer wrkin on a whole new release.. hehe.. release ka pressur hi aur hota hai.. ) aneywas... so dat call was at about 5.45 so i was sure i'd have to leave only after i made the build.. coz soud aint all dat gud at building d windows n solaris versions.. so.. i made the r9/2 final build n then we delivered both R9/3 n R9/2.. so it was 7 already n i cudnt miss d bus ofcours.e. but as i walked dat path alone (as usual) it was d first time i felt really really nice at dat time n i liked being at dat place ( meaning still at office) at that moment . Three words to sum up my feelin.. satisfied, at peace n happy... now is'nt dat d perfect combination to have a pefectly delightful day

but yea.. i had to cancel my plan of meeting juvi again.. but m gona do it today come wat may!!.. if i miss it aj.. then therz no other dya i cn make.. so i got to do it aj.. may b i'll plan smthin by 4 or so n check her availabilty.. but if she aint there.. may b i'll meet her after 6.. but i sure will meet her aj!!!

n may b i'll have a peaceful day aj bhi.. peaceful in the true sense.. hopefully just relaxing with very very little or no work at all.. so its music all the wayyyyy...n may b i'll drop in here again in some later part of d day.. untill thenn...
Tasneemz Signing Off !!!

31st July.. not sure y but dat site always messd up d dates

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jus another day..
Tasneem wz here @ 10:40 PM

I dont get it yaa.. ....... m fidgetting wid this new environment.. playin wid it.. messing wid it.. i js hope it dznt get annoying soon n i dont loose my cool !!
how come therz no edit entry in d menu where i wana change d header of my blog? i dunno y my namez there! therz jus n add entry and i cud add my regular title.. duh.. anewyas.. may b i'll play wid it a lil more untill i get a response from them bout d latest binary...

yea i;ve been putting logs so we can figure out where exactly the problem is... kya yaa.. it works fine here.. then its ok in finland too... the germans had a problem say.. umm last summer, but thn it was ok again.. n now the japanese are yelling about it... it seemz they;v siezed the payments for Ericsson n so now the pressure is all on us so v gotto do smthin so that they get their pay cheques on time n so dat v dont miss out on ours... m not alllll dat much bout what wipro gets.. cz anyways i knw they;r gettin a lot ( aadha to hamare cuttings me se ich !! damn! ) so.. as long as it dznt effect mine.. nah i still would;t sya i dont care.. coz umm well.. d works mine n wats d point if sm1 aint able to use it at d end of d day... blaa.. ok..lots of bragging done bout wrk..

so what next.. i dont even remmber where i;d left bloggin n where i;ve got to continue wid... ahh.. but all in all.. it smhow is such a nice feelin.. or may b i'd say a relieving feeling to let go :D,( luk at d way i say let go!! ) hehe..

aneways... hmm i like d luk of this place though... but yea i really need to explore into it all to get to c what all it offers...

hey.. my appraisal is still pending wid naidu... m wondering..a fter those cofee gossip talks v had... whats he gona rate me... pehleich apne pange hai wo bande se.... magar kya hai ki bhai.. workwise.. he has nuthin against me to say.. so lets c.. but d kinda fela he is.. i wudnt b surprised if he gives me n NI, but yea i sure m gona mess it all up n make him show what he means by dat n ya dat time i;ll ensure i have all my wsr's wid me... n thn may b he;ll relaise.. oh ya.. if she really needs to improve .. i wonder how she did soooo much ( wel fr a fresher it is soooo much! ) to make d release succesful ( well ok ...... but it did go rite! n my requrement wasnt d problem!! )

hmm i;ve got few other things i had put on notepads.. may be i'll put 'em here smtime laterzz...
for now.. i think i'll... umm well.. ok may b put sm music on :) n continue playing wid this.. i really need to figure out what to do with this header thing... n hey!! u know i;ve got this really important+funny+silly+ ummm i dunno.. kinda thing to let out.. but m not sure n dont think i want to ... but wooooooooooo was i shocked to know it was him !!!

adios fr now!!

Voila! Wipro did it for me again !!

Wowww!! lolll... ye lo mithaai bhi aagai... hehehe.. ya a team mate bak frm home town.. but fr me.. its khushi to be back in d same envii.. yuhuu!! m luvin itt.. papparappappaaa! m luvin ittt.. heheh dats how d Mc Donaldz thign goes nai? :D geee

iw as jus about post frm my mailbox.. n there i saw Anil drop in al ine.. givin me d newss.. hehehe.. i dunno wats wid Wipro n y it goes on n off like htis wid blogger! n ya i had to pass on this info to sm of team mates.. cz well.. yea noww.. they r into blogging too.. n .. well. :D :D yea.. i kinda think i am a reason :D:D:D:D

okk.. this is smthin like puran puri.. :D acchich hai.. magar thodi oily hai.. zyada hi.. khair..

its so gud to b back after a lil break ... i mean.. bak to work... oh yes.. dats me sayin its good to back to WORK! :D this is one nice way i gues.. mon tue work.. wed hol.. thur fri work.. n again sat sun hol.. woooowww.. kitna accha hota nai? but it aint dat way... " aapke saath aisa na hoga no no no noo :D "

hhehe.. too many ad jingles on my mind eh? .. nah not too much tv.. but ya i noticed my fam.. especailly my sisters growing interest in .. well ya those soaps.. i unbelievably... all d channels are back wid a bang.. n m wondring what kinda stuf this time n holding their audiances on...

it was just yesterday i read this article in the newspaepr ( haaaaaaaaan ! i read d newspaper after n age i tell ya ! ) n well.. know wat it was about... :D well the agenda was smthing like... ummmm.. welll... may b i'll sum it up in a line " Save English from the English" lol.. gud one nai.. :D i cant really recollect the title or the author but ya it was a gud one after long... not dat i keeo chkin dat column often.. its just dat my eyes fell upon it fr a while n man it sure was interesting.... i wodner what dat guy wud say if he;d read my blogs.. may be he;d wish to reach his grave soon n even after dat may b he;d want it to b the end of dat lol... well ok.. it one or two phrases i remmber readin went like this....... not really quoting ha... js reframing ;em all.. He seemed to be annoyed by the fact the journalists, columnists and the broadcasters too went way beyond messing up english during times when they were largely communicating wid huge well presicely a global audiance.... n surprisingly all of these or may b most of them were English, n one example dat guy kpt repeating was.. during the cricket world cup.. when he said that d reporters reported about "England's defeat to Australia" n he seemd to be goin crazy wid d fact that "defeat to" wasnt appropriate... may be it shud hv been England lost to Australia or may Australia defeated England.. well ... aisich kuch to b tha yaro.. janedo ab.. khair it was agud article i tell ya.. i think it was in dat coulmn.. spectator at chronicle.. umm smthin like dat. not really sure again...

ahh.. i read this releaving mail aate hi.. frm Kannan.. the NRJ finally il b taken into production! man dat was one nice things to feel... n u know i kinda missed out on riting about one evengin.. dat beautiful one .. whn i was leaving late frm work.. i mean at 7 ! n i first time i ditn really feel v bad cz i felt this gudy gudy satisfaction inside.. newyas.. not really sure if i logged dat on the other site but hey m gona move in all dat here too.. n mannnnnn m i happy bout being here !! :) :)

but the sf n pr thing is stil in a fix... n m well.. pretty much into it !! lets c now... n dat appraisal of mien is still pending.. n i dint mention.. Naidu came to my desk the other day ( he cmz to my place soooooooooooooooooooo often these days! ) n was askin me if i;d contribute to d Knet.. n i..w ell d gudy that i am.. obviously replied in the affirmative but also sited that since i;m tied up may b it'll take me some time.. n he then had this suggestion list opened to help me see where i cn squeeze in time for it.. n ya he told me may b half n hour or so at wrk.. n smtime after goin home ( YEA RRRRRRRRRRRRITE!! ) neways.. i set dat aside fr now.. the parameter issue is stil on.. n i really wonder if CPI for Solutions is eva gona see the lite of day....

hmmmmmmm.. chalo abhi ke liye kafi hai.. wil move in other things here.. not sure if i want to.. but.. well ya.. since its a collectin fr a lifetime.. i dont wana miss out on any page of my buk f life! :)

adiosss!!

This onez from tasneem.begum@wipro.com

Finally m bloggin from here… although th feel aint the same.. but nah.. its fine I cn manage…

Man m having this helluva time wid Alex rite now… I dunno wats rong.. n wats wid the sf parameter only when the libraries are loaded… I fixed itt o the extent dat the tree loads… but now.. the libstate aint shown at all… n whn I did try to display d libstate.. it gave me d same damn error while loading with just dat paramater!  Its kinda getting irritating abhi to.. but I still have it on mind.. my work.. got to do it.. my work.. go to do it..yea dat kinda thing..

 

I was just wondering how it is to be obsessed with work… is obsession something one does out of love or like or something of dat sort.. towards something? Or cn it be .. umm well just n obsession…. Dnt be surprised.. its js dat I was bein a lil calculative n wondering if I were unser such a pathetic syndrome… huh.. work obsession??? Nooooo wayyzzz… but I dunno wat it is.. it sure is smthin.. I feel tied up all d time.. umm ok may b not I feel.. its dat I AM tied up all d time.. n hardly have time.. umm well.. for anything else at all… i;ve stopped complaining too… cz although I see myself striving.. I also realize that sooner or later ( usually later!! ) I get to see d results.. n hence have turned out to be a lil more patient than my usual self…. Now I aint speculating on the adverse sides of it… cz I know the more I explore into it… m gona find lots.. n lots .. n lots.. n may b d first … hey I had a call frm a very gud frnd who wz very excited bout this interview he had wid a Japan client.. he sounded satisfied n happy J n.. wats more required outta dat J

 

Ya so now where was i…. ahh neva mind… I;ve got these other few things in mind.. but hvnt had d time to think ova.. n u knw wat!!! Ash ka Nikah hai kal !!!! yea cn I belive dat? Hehe.. I dunno.. many things happning.. n man life;s changing… Safa was telling me js this morning.. dat whn she left for home early yesterday, she got to set up the dinner table n she felt nice arranging siz plates( d count of her fam) n then it struck to her that she wudnt be duin dat after three four days… n dat reminded me.. how I underwent a similar situation a few years back…. Its so different n life;s moving at such pace.. n I hardly find anytime to “live” it… its all passing by so fast.. things cmin.. n things goin.. dats all dats happnin.. but its gud too.. but there sure is smthin ticking in there dat tells me…. Since its all passing by.. is dat n end is approaching? I dunno what exactly I mean by dat.. but yea.. smthingz there dats gona finish, its just dat time doesn’t stay as long as it used to earlier… now dat again is such a weird line.. J well cmin frm me.. u’ll find everything “weird”

 

Movin fr namaz… damn sure I wont find time scribble fr.. umm I dunno :D

 

Ciao !