when you r in white and go red...

Just a two minute walk from the cafeteria towards my tower gave me enuf to rite a whole page in here...

i don't know why, but yea i've always found questions and talk regarding one's (ok.. MY) apparel very embarassing... i dont seem to njoy any attntion drawn by a "gud dress". they say it speaks lot... but hey... i jus wear it! neways... i have'nt been d only one... i;ve seen many ppl here wear "all white "dresses.. but it dint seem like it drew attention ( c'mon u sure can make out when it does!)
or may be i shud just be a lil more appreciative.. but .. i still find it embarassing...and NO i wudnt show it that it embarasses me!! but hey.. d feelin dznt jus fade away... a casual "nice dress" is good... u can shoo dat away wid just a smile... but too many of "oh all white..dats very nice" , "all lacy today" wats special?" "ur lukin gud" uh huh well.. again.. it embarasses mee!!! but i still wonder...

as i was walkin bak.. i saw another lady.. yea she was in white.. but i dint go.. ohh all white..
i aint cribbin yaa.. js dat.. m goin red (not blushing!!!! its outta embarassment!!) but yea atleast m not behaving wierd n trying to js stick to a corner b'coz of all dat...

compliments frm frnds are lovely( n if its about what ur wearing.. thn it bettr b frm a girl pal, it (again) embarasses me if its frm a male.. whoeva it is!) n so those lil quips/commnts/compliments wr good to smile at since mornin... n know wat.. Radha was staring at me as i was walkin bak frm namaz , as she sat in d lawn chatting wid a frnd.. well i js smiled.. i smile at everyone here huh! and they js return it....... but sometimes compliments are very embarassing... especially whn they r frm d guyz ( id ont mind dad's though :D )and one thing i dont know.. is.. what to do when m embarassed... thankfully i was jus walkin wn... (ahh well janedo) and i had to take it for less than a second.. else may b i'd go red blue green...


but m still wonderin.. itna bhi kya white hai??? lol yea ok.. it sure is all white n i think what adds the 'xtra' white is d headgear that i wear(Although m proud of dat... all in a diffrnt context)

nuthin much on work sphere... i mean.. there aint much havoc so does not require a mention ;) hey.. lemme put it a lil better( or may be i shud say.. i'll make it sound more silly :P)
nuthin much on work sphere, i mean... there aint no tension.. so dznt require any mention (lol.. dumb! dumb!! dumb!!! :D)

and know what.. shwetha is getting married today :) .. wont be able to go magar.. hav to take mum to d doc... she aint very well since yesterday :(.. was really worried to c her that way when i reached home yesterday :(

and my bottle me ka paani is finished :( now i'll have to go to d pantry n walk all d way there to refill it (it aint very far.. but hey.. u ought to know by now y it aches to do dat :D)

sheesh.. luk at dat line... my bottle me ka paani!..

hmm another mail... i wish i were a child.. thats wat d subjct reads.. i'll go chk dat out...

adioss !!!

I can read your mind, and i know your story
I see what your going through
Its an uphill climb and m feeling sorry
but i know it will come to you
dont surrender, coz u can win, in this thing called love

when you want it the most therez no easy way out
when your ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
dont give up on ur faith
love come to those who believe it
and thats the way it is

when you question me for a simple asnwer
i dunno wat to say
but its splendid see, if you sit together
your gonna find a way
so dont surrender coz u can win in this thing called love

when you want it the most therez no easy way out

when your ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
dont give up on ur faith

love come to those who believe it

and thats the way it is

when life is empty, with no tomorrow
and loneliness starts to cry
baby dont worry, forget your sorrow
coz love's gonna conquer it all

when you want it the most therez no easy way out
when your ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
dont give up on ur faith
love come to those who believe it
and thats the way it is

courtesy :Celine Dion

ooooooo suniyo re.. oooooooo chali aare ... wink ;)

Know wat? know wat? know wat????

well
m bored again! :D

dekho simple si bat hai... meku samajhme nai ara kyu koi complication nai hai... well not dat i want any.. but therz shud b smthin...
smthin to luk forward to
smthin to wait for
smthin to anticipate... irespective of nature of consequence yaa.. but kuch to rehna na?!

subah hori... sham hojari... wat a waste f life !!! yea!!

know wat i hear... very silly telgu music.. i dunno whoz playin it so loud..... its one of those.. wierdo kinds...... talkin of telgu music... i happnd to hear sm gud numbrs too...

its like v'v got to do sm rigorous testing b4 v snd d packaage fr an acceptance test.. n man.. mein bas 1 ghanta karke itna bore hogai.... i found it.. wel... very boringg.. kya hia.. clik clik clik karte baithna kate... waise... i dnt wanna question the job's well what do i call it.... janedo... there are "testers" and they do work... wo bhi bohot... magar i dnt think i likd it.. its like khana widout namak yaa!! neways... bhooooooooook lagi hai :(

ohhh i wandered away fromt his page about half n hour ago,... well back again.. 12.15 hogaye yaaro.. n wo test part hogya :D

moved smwhere else again.... read a mail.. and learnt how to "recognize a stroke".. its simple remmber STR.. ask d person to smile, to talk a simple line, oops frgot d R... wait..
hooooo deleted d mail also... chaa... wait i'll do smtin.. han yaad aya.. R is ask d person to raise his/her hands..if they have a prob in duin any of these... take 'em to d doc.. :)

yea... Srimant's headin towards my desk... ruko...

ahhhh... yeloo... client call... hey but Srimant fello is relly sweet ya.. dekho.. he even brought me a copy of the IP(implementation proposal :P .. js ritin it so i'd recapitulate incase i frget later :P) han... so i was sayin hez sweet cz he was considerate enuf to get me a copy of d doc... ( he cud js ask me to refer to it frm d server :D) but laaaaaaaaake he gave... lol.. ok neva mind.. m xagerating.. but hey... appreciated han... lil gestures... have impact.. you neva know.. but they just do :)
han to ek requirement poora Tasneem ke naam pe!.. khushi ki baat hai ya nahi.. pata nai :D neways... seems sort of exciting... mayb i'll njoy d analysis and implemntaiton bit.. i js hope there aint pressure...
pressure se yad aya... i had such a such a suchhhh a bad time yest.. ok not bad.. it was fun(now dat i luk at it) magar kal kuch b fun nai tha wo!.. dumm tha... last moment icon designing i had to do.. kya haiiii.. mazaaaq??? dekho zara... Srimant sent me a mail js half n hr. before home goin time.. dat they need a new icon.. coz it dznt look gud on vista.. it aint suppose to b dat way han... not a joke designing a new icon suddenly for a next day release... and it jus doesnt go with the CPI image yaa.. i tell ya... my team is one classy sort... one of its kind.. i js love the organized way of work that goes on here... so this was like... a "wat d hell" kinda reaction.. neways.. know wat i did.. ;) gave a suggestion dat wud seem as d only option to take at dat moment :D hee(convincing kaisa kartun mein.. malum naaaa ;) ) lol yea... neways it was gud too.. later i realised it wasnt dat i did injustice to d whole thing js to get away frm pressure or js to get away home.. khair it got approved (infact he 'liked' it) by Uffe(hez d Ericsson guy, d product manager i think)..
but d implementation part got screwed up... it dint seem to turn out d way i thot while designing it.. so Srimant had a bad time too.. he seeeeeeeeemd tensed sort to me... he was like.. cm sit here... v'll do it( i dunno he dint seem to wana do it alone) neways.. lots of interaction wid Naidu yest too.. it was perhaps d first time he was actually takin to me n v were discussin things.. nai to.. i always felt he had sm sorta prob wid me( smtimes i thot it was coz of that lil lie dat i said and confessed later... then i thot.. huh wateva as if i care.. atleast i was gud enuf to confess d truth :D)
bhooooooook lagri meku :(
khair i hope there iant any findings this time.. i mean at onsite... this is supposedly my first eva release wid CPI... (dat sentence aint framed rite.. m sure!!!)

mmmmmmmm... i dont like 'cold' behaviour, it gets on my nerves! i feel ppl who act 'cold' are d most inconsiderate lot!!

abhi bhi bhooook lagri.. :(... pani peelun? hmmm ok

hey... m trying to recapitulate the name of dat cartoon ya.. you know.. d teddy bears... wid d heart on their body... n they run around on clouds... and collect(honey/gold) from the yellow color of the rainbow.... and they keep sliding down the rainbow.... they are a whole bunch yaa.. like a lil teddy town... :( y cant v always b kids :(

pata hai... this is perhaps d longest time i;ve taken to rite a post.. subahh se likhrun.. yahan jarun wahan jarun... n i get bak to this..... hey... notcied smthin??? m usin too much of the 'hindi/urdu/hyderabadi urdu' lingual aj kal naiii???... not very sure why..

na gila nagila nagila oooo ooo ooo nadira nadira nadira

guess wich one????????
ayeee udi udi... :)

yea so i;ve got to get into d details of dat IP and may b get bak... nai yaa not to bloggin...

m hungry :(

ok chalo bye...

tata :D

oopar neeche aage peeche.. up n down, round n round

I've finally got my phone recharged yesterday and was flooded wid messages and calls that were accusations to behave dumb... with threats of being murdered, with a million questions, what d hell... where d hell.. kahan ho.. kya hogaya.. blaa blaa blaaaaaa.... i js thought i'd keep my fone "out of service" so as not to be "reachable".. kyun?? aiwai!! i had dat "want to get kidnapped" and "want to disappear" syndrome on my mind... so dint want anyone to get to me... ya.. not even on d weekend... and luckily my sim had to b recharged at around d same time.. n i cudnt have a better bahaaana could i? :D khair... i finally realised it aint all dat bad :) i dunno wat made me realise... n then i thot.. ok.. i'll "reconnect" and i did :) and.... i had, like i said, many msgs to reply to.... and hey shubha.. m sorryy yaa.. u tried callin me and i wasnt available...(smtimes u dont realise.. u think ur harming urself but u end up hurting others around u, infact.. dats d best way to hurt ur luvd ones.. hurt urself.. n asar seeeeeedha udhar hoga ;)

lol.. neways... han to mein kahan thi... yea so i was talkin to a frnd and i went on.. it unfolded that i really did not have a valid enuf reason to feel sad/bad/bored/ sick/dejected/depressed etc. etc. i was asked why m feelin dat way and i dint hav a concrete answer.... i said.. no its not that i dont like my work... i like my work... sometimes its hectic.. but its ok... i like it.. it isnt that i dislike what i am doing... my work is appreciated too.. and it isnt as bad as my friend's projects are... so workwise i seemed satisfied, then i was told i should quit and then may b i;d feel good.. i said no... i jus told you i like the work... and he( oh i dint tell his name.. he's Vinod , a good frnd of mine whoz more than nice to me... and he always complained that i neva rote about him.. and hey!! although m sure u aint gona read this.. i;ve mentioned ur name in here :p)

ya so where was i.... ya the crowd... so the crowd aint gud and dats y ur mood fluctuates more often than mine these dys he said... i said no... i;ve got really good ppl around.. my team is big but yea.. i wudnt say i like Naidu( my manager) but he isnt bad either.. and i;ve got Gayatri and Bhagya who r good to me.. and so is Radha and Kalpana... and.. Srimant is helpful.. and Debraj asks too many questions and Kannan is good and i had Finnish chocolates that Sesi brought on his way back from Finland... it nice yaa i yelled... then continued........ i begin my day wid a cup of cofee wid Safaa my col pal.. and i like to hear her crib about her project.. and share the silly things that happnd the earlier day in my team... and i move on to chat for quite smtime thruout d day wid Manasa and shubha.. and sami at times.. and i see keerthi once or twice a day.. n smtimes once in few days... and have lunch wid Safaa and ashwini again... and in the eve on my way home.. i never realise.. and i see Anil walking rite beside me.. and v talk til v reach d bus.... and i js went on.. and i ralised.. yea... i dont have a reason... may b i can feel this way once i do :).. newayss.. gosh m tired naming so many ppl :p but hey.. i know so many.. and all these ppl really care for me :) I am glad :)

hey... they were two things i wanted to write about when i started here... and dint write about any of 'em... hmmm may be some other time :)

When I am alone... and when I am not....

I long to hear her breathe
I long to hear her call me what she loved to
I long to hear those sweet nothings
I long to hear that prolonging silence

I wish it was all like earlier now
I wish she'd want to get back to me
I wish she'd be there even when she's not
I wish she also misses me

I don't know what went wrong
I don't know what suddenly happened
I don't know why things are like this
I don't know if i can take it any long..

Every time the phone rings, i wish its you
Every message beep, i feel its you
Every mail that drops in, moans to be from you
I don't know why you surround me all the more

May be i am behaving crazy
May be this is just too silly
May be my heart's just feeling a dove
or May be its just that i am in love.

mmmm mmmm mmmmmmm

Its easy to say "be patient", but possessing the ability to practice that, is perhaps the biggest gift one can ask for. if you are through it, u've conquered it. W
why do trying situations have to be the kind to pull one'z morale down? was the question...
hold on.. Sesi is back from Finland... man timez flying...

:D u know wat i;ve got on my table and n my mouth and in my hand??? Chocolates yummyyyy, hmm this one is one of those dark chocolates... a lilllllll sour.. na bitter( i always mess up wid these taste names!!)
mmmmmmmmmmmmmm this one is tooo dont ask... pink wrapper it reads... Fazer(in golden) and Geisha (in brown)... i had eaten this one earlier.. when Patrick had brought them for us.. ahhhh heavennn therz choclate.. and a lil something else inside.. which tastes yumm... and d wrapper innnnnnn d dustbin :D
ek aur baaki hai... blue wrapper.. jus tasted dat one... i got two of those... wo mein baadme khaatun..

han to where was i... yea... ur told it'll be fine.. but you dont wanna listen.. y?? ahh umm errr.. kya tha wo? lol i dunno..

i wanna dissappear yaa... sacchi... today in d mornin on my way to ofice.. n d bus i was tellin myslef.. i hope this bus dznt stop... waise bhi strangers in here.. so i dont mind goin on n on n on...
mummmyyyyy meku yahan nai rehna hai... aur meku ghar bhi nai jana hai...

ye wala choclate khalun? :D

nai thodi aur der se............

ahhh nai.. abhi.. :D its.. called.. Suomi!! :D
ye to naa... pooooooora choclate hai... mmmmm js meltinggggg

I tell.. I ask.. I wish.. I know...

Its been many days now
an unusually long gap
I dint know it could be this way
I never thought i would wait

I tell myself i miss that talk
My heart says it does too
I tell myself i miss those laughs
My heart says it was one among the very few

I asked, then why did you not say?
My heart said, only if it knew
how much it all meant to me
I realized after time just flew

I wish there was something
to pull me out of this state
those thoughts surround me all day
that voice echoes all night

I don't deserve to be treated this way
how could this be my plight
not that i wish for anything else,
no not even for a sight.

I know its all over now
i don't know why i still wait
I'm sure something will come my way
albeit it'll be a little a late.

kya to b hai ki kya nai ki...

Its a weird weird world out there...

therz jus one moon and a golden sun
and a smile means friendship for everyone
though the mountains divide and the oceans are wide
its a small world after all...

dats how i remmber a nursery rhyme...not very sure of dat smile means line... i mean not sure of dat smile means phrase.. but yea was smthin like it..

i'll get bak to what i meant to say by stating the first line....
i got back from lunch.. wid an okie dokie mood... after discussions of anil's plan to help me get kidnapped ....... wasnt v sure of wat i was supposed to do fr d rest of d day... neways... my inbox had a mail... from someone named "Ilyas".. i was happy.. thot it was a classmate of mine.. who rote to me.. as i opened d mail.. i saw n attachment wich read "resume...." there was smthin else.. n i was wonderin y Ilyas wud send me his resume.. he's in d US pursuing his MS and seemd fine wid wat he was duin when i had a chat wid him few months back... neways... the first two lines of the mail were an apology... ia m sorry.. etc etc... another a sorry for mailing u... i kept wondeirn wats wid him.. y dz he think i;d be angry if he mailed me... thn d third line read... i got ur email id frm a fwd. dat was sent to me by a frnd, i have 4 yrs of experiance in marketing field and i have just finished a SAP course etc. etc. and have been hunting for a job but in vain.. and it ended wid a request for sm job...
i was shocked... i kept wondering for long... js a lil while ago i was... well yea... sort of cribbing about havin this routine in wipro.... and here i realized there are so many otherz out there who dont have this opportunity. i mean.. man js luk at dis guy!! hez worked in Saudi fr two years and also here in india( yea i read his resume) for two more years.. and hez struggling for a job... and he mentions he does;nt mind opening as a fresher in SAP.. ahh!! m feelin sort of bad for him... and blessed for myself.....
Allah jsu knowz so well where to remind me when m losing it!!.. Safa n I meet every mornin for cofee and v crib... she cribs bout her project.. n i about d fact dat i stil havnt come to terms with this 8.30 to 6 job and i dont like returning home so late!! i dont thin ki;ll do that anymore... atleast i have a job. m earning something!!
sachme.. outta the blue... u get such a mail.. its jus a reason... a way... a bahaana by which the Lord tells me... to be thankful... and yes now I am.... and it jus seems to reflect so much of me and says so many things to me... pata nai aise kaise hojata...

aneways.... "can you do it? "... and "could you it?".... ye donon correct hai kate... aur... it has nothing to do wid the tense kate... it seems.. can you do it is more demanding.. and could you do it... a polite way of saying the same thing... I DO NOT AGREE!!!!!! may be i''ll try finding that out... coz too many team mates said it was right!.. and i never heard of it?!?!! attributing politeness to that.. uh.. nah... i dont think so!!
meri english ki wattt lagri yaaro! kya hai ki ye...

pata naiiiiiiiii... my mood swings are jus at their peak.... something really needs to happen to set me bak on trak... and i have to learn to get immune to things so they let me off track.. well but may be dat wud lead to me being somehting else... i cant get immune baa... wat m i sayin! i dunno.. m sleepy bhi nai bhi.. bored bhi.. nai bhi.. nai... not nai bhi.. m bored... not js bored yaa.. therz smthin.. i know ther is.... i dunno wat.. or may b i do... mummmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy... i wanna dissappearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

ye teri shoq adaayen...

aashik hun mujhe aashiqi ka lene de mazaaaaaa...
adaa aaye haaye adaa... karde deewana...

ye bhi zabardast gana hai yaarooooo!! :p (yea i speak like dat at times...wid d onez i feel.. are v v close ;)

check this out... out n out meri wali urdu hai ye ok...

aj poora din gaane gaane... uske ilawa kuch nai kari mein... bilkul bhi kaam nahi tha naaa... n haan.. aj mera dimag bhi kharab nai hua... aur mein kal office nahi aana sonchrun... magar mere sonchne se kya hota... i know subah uthke fir aajatun mein!.. blaa.. jaanedo... magar... suppose mein nahi aai kal office.. to?? tooo??? too?? kahan jaun? :D waise to bhaagjana dil bolra mera.. kahan mat poocho... meku bhi nai malum :P

:D not used to bloggin dat way yaa.. i dunno... typin it like dat.. wasnt uncomfortable.. but yeaaa it wasnt comfortable either... bolte waqt aasani se boldete.. usko type karna kitna mushkil rehta malummmm??? meku bhi abhi malum hua :p.

lol... its six... i have to leave...
tu hai mera garam masalaaaaaaa... lol...

adios!! :)

chakde phatte!!!

Its so good to be doing "nothing" at times... trust me.. it feels gud... but yea u shudnt want dat for long.... too much of anything is bad :) and this aint no exception. So its been jus music since yesterdat( i hope it remainz dis way for the rest of d day atleast!) at T4/T/C120(dats my cube no. hmm i'll tell u y its like dat.... T4 is Tower 4, the next T is Third Floor.. and C120 is cubicle 120... so dats my absolute location :)

i got up this morning with a wierd feeling.. yea wierd.. i dont know why... i was scared .. dont ask me of what... i dont know either ( y do u think i'd call it wierd else!!)

hmm m gona take up a herculian task now... and all of u get the honour to witness it lol lol lol, m gona try puttin here.. the lyrics of this really really really really reallyyyy funny song :D.. n here goes..

fitte moo!! ( d music here is... lol.. hilaadene waali)

o ya hu oya hu o ya hu..
oya hue hoye hoye hoye....

ye dunya oont patanga
kithe hath the kiththe taanga
rab kukdi paindi baanga...
ayede chakde phatte
ye dunya khel tamasha
ye tedi medi bhasha
aye dhish bhish thaa thuu shuuu shaaa
ayede chakde phatte

chakde chakde chakde chakde phatte
chakde chakde chakde chakde chakde phatte!! (goshhh lolllzzz)

ye dunya mast kalandar
aan uththe baitha bandar
samjhe apnu sikandar
ayede chakde phatte
ye dunya baari baari
chakde saare nar naari...
tu kaanu... ab .. laari..(it sounds smthin like dat.. i tried many times cudnt get d lyrics here..!! lol)

o ya hu oya hu oya hu
ye dunya oont patanga
kithe hath the kiththe
taanga rab kukdi paindi baanga...
ayede chakde phatte
ye dunya khel tamasha
ye tedi medi bhasha
aye dhish bhish thaa thuu shuuu shaaa
ayede chakde phatte

o ya hu oya hu oya hu..
chakde chakde chakde we...

lol lol lol... gosd i had a gr8 time putting it here... i had to rewind it more than 7 times to get it dat way n still missd out a line.. n i still aint very sure if it makes sense but who cares if it dznt.. its fun and fun and fun to lisn to it... gr8 punjabi music put in.. n it jus rejuvenates u .. lisn to it if u wanna laugh n rejuvenate ur self... ur pal angry n not talkin to u... send him/her this song.. and sure u'll get a smile on his/her face... hey dat reminds me... may b i can... umm na.. bad idea!( I told u aint gona think of that again!!!!!!!!!) :D dat braket wz fr me :D

neways... hav to push off... fr namaz followed by lunch followed by dash dash dash and so onnn...

wil get bak here agian... m sure!!

signing off fr now!! i i captain(lol dats how i heard them say in sm cartoons lol )

Sea of Dead Souls!!!

Razdaroon say bach kay chalti hoon,

Ghum gusaroon say bach kay chalti hoon

Mujhko dhooka dia saharoon ney

ab saharoon say bach kay chalti hoon!

Shab-e-gham ki sehaar nai ho gi

Ho gi to meray ghar nahi ho gi

Zindagi tu he mukhtasir ho ja

Shab-e-gham mukhtasir nahi ho gi!

P.S: ye sab padke pareshan mat hona ki meku kya hogaya .... i jus found it smwhere.. n cudnt resist puttin it up here... title bhi mera apna nai hai...( ahh m such a gudiee dekho.. now dnt ask me y..!!)

Courtesy:Some pakistani who took it frm smwhere else

Assuming that u've read that piece of good looking crap (gee.. i know i can get reallyy silly at times :D ) , i want some appreciation, coz i've been good enuf NOT to edit the image and remove that copyright message :P ( hehe i know m a cute devil at times too :p :p)

yea.. so.. 7 secrets of success.. put up beautifully... now lemme mess it up... or may b i shud say.. lemme garnish it a lil...

They say.. there are 7 secrets of success.. n he found 'em all in his room... lemme see wat i can find here ;)

Roof said.... it aint very high... jus a lil above my head... n fr my PM.. its jus a hand stretch away!!

Fan.... hamare yahan fan to hai hi nahiiiii... so be cool... eh.... m super cool.. it freezes in here!! but since summer is here.. m sooooo thankful m here :)

clock... thankk god.. i dont have one to luk at... n d gud thing is... or may b wierd thing.. i dont wear a watch ..... toooo.. Time to apnaich hai boss!!! ( this is supposedly by pmz dialogue han :-x)

Mirror... wo lift mein hai bass... so dats d only time i think of reflection n action.... wo bhi only whn twice a day may be.. i prefer d stairs yaa!!

Window... see d worlddddd??? yea rrritE!!! see the SEZ block of WIPRO!!

Calender.... be uptodate.. errr.. umm .. blaaaaa!!!!!! i;ve got a very cute lukin calender pasted here.. wid nice cute lukin teddy bears sliding down d rainbow and wearing those clothes wid hearts drawn on 'em... n they jump around on clouds and on each other.... ahh..wat a description.. dekho.. aisi to b rehna life... sliding down d rainbow... jumping around from one cloud to another.. heeeeee... Tasneemz askin for the stars ehhh.. wo bhi din meinn!! :P

Door said ... push hard to achieve ur goals.. oh yeaa.. therz atleast one thing i do every day dats mentioned here.. i got to push dat door after i swipe in to cm inside!! yea.. n i cm n "achieve my goals" and d ultimate one(goal) is to reach my cube dats about... 15 steps away frm dat door... neways... hey... i also "pull" the same door when i;ve got to get outta here... how do i relate to dat now??!#$%^&!!

lol chalo bohot hua... very pessimistic approach.... :D n dats not me haina :) .. i am supposed to b d one who.. rejuvenates the annoyed, rejoices every grin, smiles at every crib, finds a possibility in the impossible, is patient in the most trying situations..... lol lol lolllll.... i can see red blue green everywhere... neva mind.. its good to say good things to urself at times.. hehehe... i must have done all of those things at some point of time in my almost 22 yrs of life..... sooo.. its ok.. i take d credit of being myself :)

i've got to push off fr namaz...
may be wil get bak again by EOD(dats end of day... js incase i have any non IT industry readers.... high hopes eh!! :D)

adioss!!

sensible+sensitive+their antonyms+synonyms... WaTeVa!!

"I need an answer tasneem" read the message at about 11 in d nite.... surprisingly i was sleeping :P... after a lil thot.. i thot again.... and after that.. i kept htinking for longer than i usually do to reply to a message..... and then... i replied... with a very very..dumb... err... "what's the question?? " and with that.. i realised.. i understood the "misunderstood things" much better now... and now.. i knew... the answer to all my "why's". And this time, i was reluctantly silent to the many other "agressive and annoying questions" my dumb 250gm heart ( a frnd of mine used that to refer to my heart... i dunno y n how it was estimated to weigh that much) would ask. So all's shut...

and so.... here ends another saga( i mean a part of the post :P) which was not meant to be understood :P !!!!!

i know guyz.. i put too much of unintelligible stuff in here... but hey... trust me.. i need to do this... i am an insensibly sensitive soul [although m sure there are ppl who think m SENSIBLY INSENSITIVE..but i know i aint.. i really aint :(... ] and need to get it all out somewhere... n sayiin it all to myself in d best i option i see...

and and andddd.. i;ve got some sensible stuff to put in here too... :D... Anil loses all his chances to get any any any any any treats from me......

wel d day moved fine.... i hade some.. polishing sort of work to do... ahh yea.. not js refreshing d desktop haan... neways...

The week seemd to begin well.... coz.. i got n xtra hol... n dat was d monday.. n i dint know it was a hol.. n thanx to my frnds... i got to know it was a hol... hee.. n so so soooo.. i got n xtra day to sleep a lilllllllllllll xtra... yea.. cud sleep till 8..

dumdum di di.. woooooooooooo hoooooooooooo c dat!!!! m late!!!!!

ta ta

Name this...

What do i call a situation like this...
(this was put up very very well by a very dear friend of mine)
"your hands tied, n ur thirsty, n u have a glass of water rite in front of you, and whatever you do, u just seem to move away from d glass"
miserable naii?? :( i thought so too.....

But i seem to realise..... this situation.. is so much one can relate to, i mean.... earlier it was said in a different context perhaps... but i realise it just fits my context so well rite now.... its not always easy to have things your way... infact I feel blessed to have had almost everything the way i've wanted.... but sometimes... neva mind...

sometimes ur told, its not ur fault..... and at the same time, you see yourself being punished(yea very crude word i know...) for the same thing that is not your fault. You have'nt done anything( or may be you have and u dont know... even then!! u still are assured that you r not responsible for it) but you still face the consequences.. and after all this.. you cant even ask.. WHY??

Well.. may be its because someone else wishes it to be that way........... BUT I STILL INSIST.. ITS UNFAIR !!!!

js a thanx.. :)

Therez jus one reason m here today... i mean at dis time... whn its almost... o oooooo its 6 already.... n i may miss my bus.. jus wanted to put in here a token of apprecitaion.. dat i recieved from a friend... not very sure y.. but fine.. :) gud to know.... ur appreciated atleast SOMETIMES for jus being urself.... neways... dint do anythin to earn that... but yea.. was glad to have it :)

accha hai naiiiii!! :) hey...

not sure if u;d read this... but.... thankyou Sami... :)

n Manso yaaaaaaaaa.. cheer up.. doc readin sure is borin... i dont wanna console you by sayin it aint.... cz it really is... n uv seen me thru it... n m sure u'll b thru it very soon sweety..... wont say njoy... but hey... hell wid it! lollzzz....

ciao.....

m late m late m lateeeeeeeeeeeeeee

m lateeeeeeeee

"running" is a noun and "a knowldge" is wrong!!

m jus here to laze around today... yea... nuthin better to do actually... m through wid the day's work pretty jaldi aj.... n yawnnnnn... yea... teri hi ho sab guftguu.. batein teri... kitni haseen... mein yad inko jab karta hun... phoolon si aaye khushbu...

we had this english session yesterday.... actually... Gayatri(the tech writer in my team) is undergoin this training for english.. so Kannan n Naidu insisted that she "share" her knowledge wid the team n so she;d take half n hr. sessions for us daily... n dat wud include d pmz.. neways... so... i kinda thot... fine.. a lil time off the system atleast.. n so v gathered in a confrnce hall... n d agenda was.."nouns" n articles... i thot it;d wrap up in a 15 minz... it got extended to n hr.. wid really really intresting things cmin up in d discussion... Debraj seemd to find d language "a pain since childhood" and demanded... rather.. requested for some tips n tricks to remember the funny way of the language... Gayatri tried to put up d exceptions of the use of a and an pretty well... but it dint seem to satisfy Debraj... running... is a noun.. he insisted.. none of us wanted to agree to that.... the examples n conclusions drawn were incredible... i call 'em incredible.. coz iw as told.. " a knowledge" and "a wisdom" is right english.. i kept saying it cant be... they wudnt listen to me.. neways.. it was realised that my claim was fair enuf.. when i happen to reason it wid a fact Gayatri stated in the begining.. saying "uncountable nouns shud b preceded by the and not by a/an" n knowledge n wisdom is uncountable.. hence.. a/an knowledge or wisdon wud b rong.. n smhow..neva mind.... n know wat.... "he's the one i've been looking for" is also a wrong sentence kate.... kya hai ye yaa.... a 'the' cant come before a number.. so it cant come bfore 'one' so the sentence is rong! yeaaaa rrritE!!!!!!!
ahh well.. d funniest thing was.. d discussion also narrowed down to another very very very wierd conclusion i dont even think i can rite it here.. it wud require me to.. umm well ok.. i'll try.. the Alphabet in English.. shudnt have been A B C....(pronounce as letters of the ALphabet) it shud rather hav been A ba ca da.. (pronounce like hindi alphabet ke letters) n i jus went.. wat????.. neways... it was fun... n yea.. running.. is a noun!!! refer http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/running ;)

m tryin to check-in the estimate document i jus prepared... n i dunno y clearcase has to have a problem everytime i try checking in .... murli said he;d check it...
ahh here... another mail... seemz like i'll have to log a call againn :(

kahin dur jab din dhal jaye... hona meku abhiiiiiiiii :(

adios

Signifying "Significance"

"The most difficult phase of life is not when others dont understand you, it is when you dont understand yourself"..
So very true... and most of the times... its difficult to come to terms with the fact that you do not understand yourself...

Its bad to feel that you are being tolerated...
its very bad to feel you are imposing something on someone...
it hurts when you know, your presence that you thought mattered... was only that was being borne with...
and the worst part is... in the whole process, one may never get to know...

Sometimes it never matters... sometimes it matters more than it shud... "significance" always seemd a partial word to me... but somehow... d weight it seems to carry.. is overburdening...

Such a state of mind... isnt rare... its perhaps more than common.... but never talked of... never let out... coz it somehow.. seems more comfortable.. to have it all within... than to let it out... today i thought i'd put it up here... coz no one likes to say it.. may b they would say it just to themselves after reading it here or anywhere else for that matter...

proposal!#$%^&*(!^&%

This is one thing i do for myself.. n i luv duin it..!!

the past two days have been like.. "my best working days"... yea i know... best and work are not suppose to go together.. but they did fr me.. for these two days.... it was like... kaam raha to aisa rehna nai to nai... ahh heavenly work... blaa.. ok.. not heavenly.. but.. ahh it was more than gud... neways... it all had to end na... now i;v pressure over my head! iw as askd to finihs wat i was duin by EOD n .. thankfully i did... but another major point is.. ive got a proposal to make.. tomorow... take it as a high priority task for tomorro Tasneem.. and finish by end of day... v'll mail it in thee evening.... chote bacchon ku proposal banane ke liye dete koiii?!??!?!?!?!?! i dunno how m gonna do it... wo bhi he;ll send it to d client kate dekho.. meku uska A ata na B ata... kya hai ki bhai.. nai malum.. aisa nai hota merse.. ahhh

hey.. new song... kahan ho tumm... accha hai.. :)

i dont wanna miss my buss.... ciao

n ya... by d way... went out fr lunch wid my team today.... it was fine..

adios!!!

If i let you go...

Day after day, time pass away,
and i jus cant get u off my mind...
nobody knowz, i hide it inside,
i keep on searching but i cant find..
the courage to show, of letting you know,
i've never felt so much love before
and once again m thinkin about.. takin the easy way out...

but if i let u go.. i wil never know..
what my life wud b holdin u close to me
will i ever see, u smilin bak at me..
how wil i kno.. if i let you go....

night after night.. i hear myself say
y cant this feeling jus fade away...
therz no one like you ... u speak to my heart...
its such a shame .. v'r worlds apart..
m tooo shy to say.. m too proud to loose..
but sooner or later i gotto choose...
n once again m thinkin about... takin d easy way out....

but if i let u go.. i wil never know...
what my life wud b holdin u close to me
will i ever see, u smilin bak at me..
how wil i kno.. if i let you go....

n once again m thinkin about...takin d easy way out...
will i ever see, u smilin bak at me..
how wil i kno.. if i let you go....

courtesy:Westlife

solitude..imagination...n reality..

Time for a new post.... perhaps smthin long awaited(by me ofcourse!! i aint hinting on my readership)

hmmmmm howzit like to b sailin on a lil boat.. that has.. umm well.. a shabby look.. a single sail( i mean to point at dat curtain sorta thing that drives the boat when d wind blow.... m not really sure wat they call it..) hmm yea.. the moon.. a full moon haan... and stars ofcourse.. and just me..... n junk food.. n a fishing rod( i dunno how to use it waise!$%*&^%) n ya.. soft music han... hmmmmm ok.. n a nice pillow...... and may be a book to read(i dont read.. i jus thot i'd keep it so i can actually test dat phrase "A book is man's best frnd" ) hmmmmm peace... i feel gud already.. hehe... ok... n boat's headed... well.. umm ok north east( not pointin at sm specific place.. jus like d way "north-east" sounds :P) hmmm but ya.. may be in d midst of umm i dunno.. mauritious.. !#$%^&*$%^&#.. hee.. i like d way "mauritious" sounds too... han... so m sailin haan.. n movin n goin smwhere.. mmmmmmmmm n how'd it be if 5 of my buddies pop up from nowhere... han.. from under the sea.. n go like.. "heyyyyyyyyyyy tass! yooo tazzy!! Razzmatazzz.. helloo madammm.. Tasneem!!!! " ya.. dats how they;d go lolzz!" n join me on dat boat.. heheh...

pop!!!!! jaaagoooo madamm! ting ting ti ting!!
my figments of imagination go haywire at times!!

Umm well.... i was given this advice a while ago, wn i sent across a wierdoooo mail(it sure was hehe stupidly scary yucky lukin faces, absolutely distorted.... a chimera(pronounce ki-mee-ruh{learnt a new word.. thot i;d use it.. since it fits d bill... well it means..a horrible or unreal creature of the imagination}) sorts.. ahhhhh hold on.. i'll frame dat sentence again...... ya so i was given this advice wn i sent across a forward described above... i was told to consult a "good guy" n i went like... ahhh.. a "Good guy"... kisliye yaarooo???.. a gud doc boleto ek baat hoti!!! n wat reply do i get... hmm .. so no one bothers to trouble me! and so dat m protected!.... ohh yeaa rrrrrrrite!.. now.. i'll tell ya wat my usual reply wud be for this reply.. i'd say... i dont need protection for now.... n then.. know wat response i;d get?? ahhh.... shez so obssessed with herself!!! haan.. aisi hota... but... i wudnt say dat anymore.. i;d rather stay mum.. whn u hav n opinion made... there aint a point "explaining".. bohot sara background cleanup karna padta actually (wats in d background.. is always in d foreground... yellow lite wahan.. to yellow lite yahan [Sadath sir bole the :)] )

neva mind..... i havnt ever said things like... m matured and ur a kid n it happnz... baaaa! jaanedo i dont think i wana... yaikzz... it aint gud to fall short of words...

i was asked if i'd like to "try" something... i sort of answerd in the negative...although there seemd lot f hinting on "wanting to hear" a positive..... so now.... i think..... i'll do it.... i wont "try" may be i'll jus do it.........

ahhhh i jus mess up wid my mind tracks so badly... one(dat dznt include me) wud neva undstand, evn if they;d want to... like anil usually puts it... most of ur posts bounce over my head!! .. may b m just good at camouflaging my thoughts(read feelings/emotions etc. etc.)

and know wat know wat know watttttt!! Radhaz(my team mate) engaged n she makes a nice pair wid her guy :)
and and andddd.... hmmm kuch naiiii :P