i wudnt be exaggeratng by callin it nightmare... but know wat d gud thing bout nightmares are? they are done as soon as ur up from sleep... n u aint gona sleep for very long rite :)
it isnt gud to lie on a couch staring at ur mum( for a change... peacefully sleeping[cz of d sleepin pills she'd been given...]), in the darkness of the nite, waiting for the morning "not to come" for some moments... n for it "to come" veyr fast at other moments....
it isnt gud to walk frantically.. outta d operation theatre( it luks gud only in movies.. when d hero or heroine is in there and they are sure to walk out wid a smile .. )
it isnt gud to wait for soemthing to end as desperately as ever.. especially when it takes double the time... and during those few hours.. the damn clock hands just dont move!
it isnt good to c ur most precious being's eyes wet coz of pain.. and she still smiles so as not to show shez really in pain...
it isnt gud to have sleepless nites (sleepless in d very very true sense) wishing for wishes to come true and wishing for other thoughts not to come true.
its difficult to smile in such time... it more difficult not to smile ... coz one thingz for sure... u anyway aint gona cry( cz u cant... u shudnt.. all fr d gud reasons though.... )
it isnt gud to c her broken n with a thought that things wont be ok again...
but u know... thats when you hav to b at ur magical best... you wudnt imagine... u grow by ages just within moments.... n that.. is coz ur Lord wants it that way for you. you dont realise it then... but when you do.. you can not thank Him less... for all the pain given, so the little things later can bring really big smiles...
she walked yesterday... and she was in terrible pain, she told me how could this happen.. i just looked... n made her sit... i told her... v WILL walk tomorro mum... and today she did :) and the pain wasnt as much as earlier...
they are gona discharge her tomorro InshAllah...n she'll take sometime to be good... but one things for sure.. she'll improve by every passing day... so its not gona be a tiring journey after all..
and He cudnt c me that way... so He put in that extra personal touch of His for me.. that He usually does... and this thing i've been wrkin on... since those stressful days... seems to show gudy results.... i think i can do it... :)
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Guruji aap mahan hai .... aahhhh a sensible post atlast .... The most difficult thing is to script the emotions into words .... Maybe life wants to prepare us for adversities in the future .... I feel these situations takes our thought process to a level up .... Every thing happens for gud ... guruji hamne bhi philosophy padi hai :).
lol... u finally understood smthin of my scribbling eh? paaji!! it aint dat its a sensible one atlast!... its jus dat it took you jus enough time to understand :p
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