ahh.. neva mind... i aint gonna continue that saga of bad days... i mean not in d day to day thing like iw as duin... it all js got messed up.. nt hen it all fell in place.. n i;ve started wrkin... n m movin slow... but m atleast moving!
wasnt at work yesterday.. i thought i;d come a little later after m done with mummy's doctor meetings.. but it wasnt destined to happen that way... ( notice the heavy words m using? "destined" .. i aint d kind to use words loosely, nope.. not one bit... i dotn use such meaningful words js bout abywhere.. m sort of surprised i've started using thm... (not loosely though) they just seem to fit the context these days..)
neways... i js thought d ortho is gonna zero in on the surgery and give us some instructions for the next follow up... it dint turn out thatw ay... he ruled that out... ( i gave a sigh of relief.. but still there was a doubtful linger in there... ).. but he still wasnt sure.. i kept enquiring to wateva extent i can get my biological knowledge in use... he said we cant conclude now.. its just dat v dont need a surgery... dats not the only problem she has.. we need to further diagnose it to understand what really is causing all that.... he xplained.. and i understood that it was js not the disc problem.. it ought to be somehting else too.. like he said... n so we were forwarded to the neurologist... this took quite sometime! u know how its at NIMS! we had to take a token... n to take dat it took us 1 hour... we got a token .. wich read '60' and i asked that guy.. he said.. 21 is goin on!.. ... ammi was already restless.. but baba insisted v;d consult here before goin to any other neuro... the 45th patient was bein checked... my dad smhow got d attender shift our number to another neuro.. n we went in... the lady dint undstand hindi!! she was telgu speakin.. n i went damn! .. thankfully she knew english... she lookd at d MRI n all.. n said its a plain disc issue... i explained to her what i understood from the orthos diagnose.. and told her.. that he said it couldnt be just dat... coz d report definitly does show a slip disc.. but it isnt as severe as the pain mumma describes... n her leg's numb too.. she checked her up.... n realised her flexes have reduced... she dint want to say anything.... she said smthin like.. 'lumbar.... n smthin with p' i ditn undstand it... i asked her for a better xplanation.. n she gave me one.... but she still said i m only suspecting that... v'll get this test done n then v'll consult a neuro surgeon she said..... dad n Tahseen must hv taken her there today.... for that test.... i hope atleast they can diagnose it well n zero in at smthin so they can start treatment.... i sitll have to meet mom's homeo doc... i thought i;ll do it with all the reports... mumma somehow seems to rely on that doc more than the other docs... n so do i.... thats one doc i like... i hope things fall in place... i used to hold Amma( my grandma) to help her walk all the time... mummy used to temme its good , you must help her this way.. kab kaunse waqt dilse nikli dua qubool karta Allah u neva know.. she;d say...... n Amma is fond of me.. a lil more than she is of my younger sisters.... but it isnt good to do the same thing to my mother..... i mean i never imagined i'd ever have to... i don like seeing her this way...
and thats just one chapter of the whole story... there are too many other things going on that are messing life up.... u know like they say.. the time of adversities... yea... d rite phrase perhaps... but what i am glad about is... dat Alhumdulillah... i am out of what i should have... 10 days of sleepless sobbing nights.. not very good... i'll face it...
i just seem to sink into sadness with all such thoughts .. but hey.. dont pity me!.. i know these days are to pass... and they sure will....
work is ok... i mean i've made it ok... it seems like a meagre issue in comparison to what other things are happening.... although i have no idea what sort of relase this onez gonna be...i jus hope i figure out someway to do this... and to do it on time...
hmm i dint mention here... or did i?
i neva thought i;d be n inspiration( not really in the true sense of the word though..) i mean.. this girl in my team... the tech writer .. Gayatri.. ( sweet girl.. ) started riting.. i mean.. typing.. lol dat sounds funny... she said she was a regular diary writer.. but smhow dint find d time these days.... she saw me quite a few times bloggin.. n would ask... n she started riting too... not a blog.. but yea.. she does maintain a log.. :) n taht passed on to another girl here... her name also coincidentally is Gayatri( n shez cute :D) also started it.... so i kinda like... smiled at it.. n at myself... for .. somehow... i was involved in their initiative...
n ya... another friend... i dint know.. i was her best friend :) she told me that the other day.. n i was like.... realllyyyyy??? i dint know that... ( i dint say it to her though....) , i mean... i js knew her since d time i started workin here..... neways... she just dint say it to me... she made me feel that way..... she was really upset n confused... nah not upset.. confused... a sort of storm in her life.... yea... suddenly met a stranger n hez flat over her.. n even proposed to her.. n so she dint know what to do... n can you belive it.. she told d guy she'd want him tot alk to me... she tells me all this... when i am in my own silly world of (sorrow? damn Tasneem cant use such a negative word!!! ) n i jus give her surpirising looks.. n she dials d nuber n says.. le baat kar.. m like u nutssssss? she said u have to... to help me out pleasee.... n i thot well ok... n it seemd alrite... i guess they r lukin forward to a genuine relationship now... n this one is on of its kind.... may be the guy should rite a book.... "love in 7 hours" yea... aisa hi kuch hua... no more details on that... just thot i;d share this piece of astonishment( it sure was for me) with myself... so i could reminisce it later......
hmmm Radha ki shadi hai... n her last day today... another new guy in the team... i dunno his name yet..... i dunno.. CPI ka kya hoga...
And its a Friday... i know my Lord is listning to me
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